Generation 3, Chapter 15

    Gareth’s POV     

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These passed six months have been awful without Gibson living with me.. Nina was almost to her due date and Hannah was roughly six and a half months pregnant and I hadn’t seen Gibson in about two months.. He probably wasn’t too busy for me, but I hated not seeing him. Nina was literally driving me insane and I couldn’t take this. Ever since Gibson moved out, Nina has been pressuring me to let her live with me since there was so much room now but I couldn’t take living with her, let alone even being around her when she was like this.

Nina has been so goddamn emotional, needy, and temperamental that she was even more impossible to handle now than she was before. I.. I hated to admit it, but I was a little lost without Gibson.. I was lost without his guidence and lately I’ve been having that nagging urge again to feel warm blood on the very tips of my fingers, yet somehow.. Somehow I’ve still stayed strong and haven’t touched anyone in a violent manner since Katherine on the beach..

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I’ve been sitting at the bar at the venue for about an hour now that Bennu had rented for Nina and Hannah to have their baby showers.. Bennu went a little nuts and bought both Nina and Hannah so many gifts that the entire gift table was mostly her doing, but some of the presents were from friends of both the ladies. I knew that Hannah wasn’t here long enough in the Palms to meet new people to have a lot of friends, most of them being friends of Nina’s, but at the same time, most of Nina’s friends were girls I’ve slept with, so I hid my face at the bar ever since I got here to avoid confrontation of any sort. I noticed Hannah and Nina conversing by the opening to the ‘man cave’, the area for men to go to so we could avoid all the mushy bullshit of pinks and blues.. Bennu talked to me for a few seconds to let me know that Gibson was coming later, and that he was still working. Bennu wasn’t too happy about that.. I felt bad that he had to work the afternoon shift during his baby shower with Hannah, yet ever since I showed him the money I made from my occasional jobs, he’s been avoiding asking me for any of it and he’s been working more, even more than when he used to when he lived with me. 

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I felt like he was avoiding me, but I didn’t want to believe it. I’ve called him a few times, even to come over and have a few beers with me, but he’s been so involved in his shitty ass job at the bookstore that he hated and wanted to quit that he could never come over, and if I were to put a tally on it, I’ve seen him about ten times throughout Hannah’s whole pregnancy. I was on my fourth beer already since I got here and it hadn’t even been that long since I had arrived, but I needed something to distract me from all of this pregnancy shit. If Gibson thought it was hard for me to be around Nina when she was less than two months pregnant, he hasn’t seen me yet when she was close to her due date.. 

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“I should’ve known you’d be hiding in here,” a voice rang softly and I looked towards the entrance, seeing Hannah approaching me and I couldn’t help but smirk.

“Who said anything about hiding? I’m just.. Patiently waiting for another guy to show up before I feel like blowing my brains out around all you hormonal women,” I replied, still holding my smirk and I looked in front of me instead of at her.

“Ouch, have you been rehearsing that for whenever I’d come in? I don’t think that would go over well with anyone else that’s attending,” she answered and I chuckled.

“Nope, I’ve just got a quick sense of humor. But, in no way am I implying that I’m at all quick with, other things,” I hinted with a wink her way and she shook her head lightly.

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“Still hitting on me, huh? After all this time?”

“What else is there to do around here? I only take the opportunities that people give me, babe,” I imply and she chuckles.

“I have something you could do, how about you feel your brother’s baby kicking? You know, the one I’m carrying right now?” She replied with attitude to put me in my place and I scoffed with a grin. Hannah and I have continued to be flirty around one another, though it was almost an unspoken agreement not to get involved with one another, especially after we all found out she was pregnant. Although I still wanted her just as much now as I did when I had first met her, there’s no way I’d try anything with a baby in her. The very thought of pregnancy for me was ruined thanks to Nina, and although I didn’t like looking at pregnant women, Hannah was the only one I could tolerate, just as long as I didn’t look any lower than her tits. Things were kind of awkward between Hannah and I ever since the night I met her, but she’s been slowly getting used to me more and more and I actually do think that she likes me now and is able to put up with my sometimes vulgar humor. Even if she isn’t in the mood for my advances, it’s still fun to do and I’ve noticed that my words can sometimes make her smile if she’s feeling down, though I think that if anyone made it as obvious as I was that I wanted to sleep with her, they’d be flattered and flustered as well.

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“You won’t be able to use that belly of yours as an excuse for me to not hit on you much longer. Once it’s born and you get that perfect body of yours back, I’ll be coming onto you harder than ever,” I hint once more and look towards her, seeing her shaking her head disapprovingly once again, yet she still held that intrigued smirk of hers that I seemed to love so much. “I’m not making you too hot, am I? Do you want some water? A bed that we can lie on for a little while?” I continued and she rolled her eyes as I laughed.

“You’re unbelievable, Gareth..”

“Unbelievably handsome..? Funny? Irresistible?” I egged on, turning towards her and giving her a flirtatious grin. 

“All the opposite, actually,” she replied with a grin of her own and I chuckled.

“Now we both know that that isn’t true.. There you go lying again, acting as if you don’t enjoy a single second of this.. Yet here you are, still standing in my, how you would say, unbelievable presence,” I continued and she rolled her eyes yet again, though didn’t deny my words.

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“Hannah?” A voice we recognized said by the entrance of the bar area and we both looked, seeing Gibson smiling at her as he walked in.

“You’re finally here!” She said excitedly, going to Gibson and I watched them hug for a few long moments, then their embrace turned into a long kiss and I averted my eyes briefly. I wasn’t mad that the first person he greeted was her, though I was surprised with how long it took him to notice me sitting at the bar, especially after not seeing him for two months. He didn’t even glance towards me after he had pulled away from their kiss and then began paying attention to Hannah’s growing belly, sighing softly to myself. I’d never be one to be so excited about a baby, whether it was mine or anyone else’s. It was surprising to me to see just how genuinely happy Gibson looked when he paid any sort of attention to Hannah and their unborn, even if they weren’t talking, just being in the same room with her I could see his enjoyment. 

I tried to avoid looking at them and chugged the rest of my remaining beer, then ordered another as they continued to talk, but I tried to ignore their conversation as well. I didn’t much like not being acknowledged, I even started to feel a bit ignored, but before I started resenting him a little, I felt a hard pat on my shoulder.

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Hey, it’s been a while, bro,” Gibson said and I looked to him, seeing him smiling as he took the seat next to me. 

“Sure has..” I reply, chuckling lightly then when I noticed a subtle change about him, “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you with facial hair.. You look.. Weird,” I said with a laugh and he joined me.

“Shut up.. It’s not weird, you’re just not used to it..” He replied, attempting to defend himself as he rubbed his own chin.

I took a sip of my beer and the bartender came over to us, talking to Gibson, “Hostess said that Father’s to be drink free, so what’ll you have?”

“It’s the one good perk about this whole fucking thing,” I added and the bartender tried to refrain from laughing.

Gibson gave me a disapproving expression and looked back to the bartender, “I’ll just have whatever he is,” he answered and the bartender nodded, grabbing him a beer and placing it down in front of him.

“So what’s been keeping you so busy? Can’t take an hour out of your hectic life to come visit me for two months?” I teased.

“Sorry, but you’re right.. Things have been a little hectic. Hannah and I are trying to buy a house.. I got promoted to Manager, too, so now I run the place. I’ve been working a lot more hours ever since I got that job, too. Plus, with Hannah being pregnant, it’s hard for her to get around and do normal things sometimes, so when I’m not at work I try to help her out in the daycare with the kids she watches, that’s pretty exhausting, as well..”

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“Well, I guess it’s good practice for when your own is born, huh?” I reply and he nods with a smirk.

“Yeah, great practice.. Those kids are pretty much an example of everything I’m not going to do with mine. They’re monsters sometimes.. If my kid ever yells at me because he isn’t getting his way like this one kid does at the daycare, there will be zero tolerance from me.. I can’t stand when kids screams just to scream.. I don’t get it,” he replied with a chuckle and I laugh.

“So, what were you and Hannah talking about?” He wondered next, taking a sip of his beer.

“When?” I asked, confused.

“Just now, before I got here,” he replied and I nodded.

“Oh, uhm.. Nothing really, I’ve just been in here since I arrived about two hours ago and she felt like I needed company I guess,” I replied with a shrug.

“Isn’t that what Nina is for?” He replied with a sly grin and I chuckled. 

“Hey, Hannah came to me, okay? And besides.. Nina’s mad at me. I told her I didn’t want to come to this and I’d just be doing the same thing at home as I am here, but nooooo, I had to come, even though I’m doing exactly that.. Well, and.. I might’ve slept with a few of her friends that are here..”

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Gibson looked to me, his expression surprised as mine remained unwavered, “..Does Nina know?” He asked and I smirked.

“Hell no. I actually don’t even know why they’re here if not for me,” I replied.

“Try to keep things civilized, please..” He requested with a stern tone and I chuckled, “You don’t think that they’d cause a scene or anything, do you?” He wondered and I shrugged, unsure of how to answer him.

“Uhh.. Well, one of them is like Nina but less clingy.. The other, uhm.. She holds grudges sometimes, she didn’t like being broken up with. But don’t worry, I can deal with her if she tries anything. Nothing’s going to get ruined if that’s what you’re worried about,” I answered and he gave me an uneasy expression.

“Are you sure, Gareth? I really don’t want anything to ruin this for Hannah or Nina,” he replied and I sighed softly.

“Look, don’t even worry about it. It’s not like she’d say anything in front of the whole damn party. She’d wait until I was alone and she’d come to me at a reasonable time, I just won’t give her that chance,” I reassured him and he soon nodded, seeing some of the worry begin to leave his eyes.

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“Boys, come out here!” Both Gibson and I looked towards the entrance and saw Bennu, smiling and motioning with her hand for us to come to her then placing her hands on her hips, “The girls are opening their gifts now,” she exclaimed and I sighed heavily, watching her leave and I looked back to Gibson who had a smirk on his face.

“This stuff really does make you happy, huh?” I asked and he chuckled lightly.

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“I don’t expect you to understand because you don’t want any of this. But, I do. I guess I’m just really excited to be a Dad.. Only two and a half more months and I will be,” he replied with a wider smile and I simply shrugged, unable to understand his very apparent excitement.

We should go out there, be there for them.. Even if you don’t want to do any of this or be part of bringing life into the world, you should still try and show Nina some support. She needs it from you the most and I know you haven’t supported her once through this whole thing. She must feel really alone in all of this,” he said with a somewhat remorseful tone, though I knew he still didn’t care as much as he was trying to portray.

“Whatever, she has her friends..” I answered, taking another sip of my beer.

“The friends that betrayed her and slept with you?” He points out with slight attitude and a grin as I frowned, “Hey, I’m just trying to talk at least a little bit of sense into you to help you see this more of a good thing than a bad one. You know, this isn’t all her fault, if you think of it like it is.. You didn’t protect yourself, this is just as much on you as it is her.. If you truly didn’t want it, you would’ve been more careful,” he continued, finishing his beer and I finished mine as well. Gibson was right, though I despised admitting it to myself.. I still didn’t want the kid, but I was foolish to think for a second that I did everything I could to prevent Nina getting pregnant.. “Come on, let’s go people watch at least, will that make you feel better? We haven’t done that in a while,” he suggested as he rose to his feet and I smirked, looking up to him and I nodded, joining him in the other room with the rest of the party.

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Gibson and I took our seats, furthest away from everyone so we could still talk amongst ourselves without disturbing anyone else. I tried to space out a little as we waited for them to begin, though seeing all of the baby stuff on the table and surrounding the two ladies, it was hard to focus on anything else when all of that shit was staring back at me. It was almost like a slap in the face of the realization that I wasn’t lucky enough for all of this to be just a simple, stupid dream. It was real, we both were having babies, and the very thought of it made me cringe.

I looked over to Gibson and he held a slight smirk as he looked up at Hannah and she held a smile of her own as she looked back at him, wondering to myself if that’s what love looked like. I only assumed it was because I had only seen that look one other time in my life and that was from my Dad and Bennu. My eyes then went to Nina who was already looking at me, though she wasn’t smiling, nor was she showing any sort of excitement, but I figured I was the reason why. I didn’t know how to make it better for her, I wasn’t in the mood at all to try and make her feel more at ease by complimenting her or even giving her some kind of smile, afraid I would give her a false sense of hope as if I loved her, so she continued to hold her submissive yet blank expression. ..It was going to be a long day, and all I wanted was for it to be over.

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After all of the gifts were opened and my boredom had reached an all time high, I decided to excuse myself from the party for a few minutes and have a cigarette outside. I was in desperate need of one anyways. I wasn’t sure if the day would ever come to where I’d be okay about having a kid, but I suppose I should start keeping more of an open mind about it. There was no avoiding it now. I know that Nina wanted to keep it from the very beginning, but I never quite understood why..? Did she just want to have something of mine, going as far as to get pregnant, to keep me around? Was this her way of thinking, resorting to having a baby with me so I’d stick by her side no matter what happened? Our lives were never going to be the same again, and I can still wholeheartedly blame her for it. The first night we finally had sex, I was done with her the moment I came, but for her it was entirely different, as if us having sex was a bond that she would never let be broken and she almost came off as if this baby was a good way to change me and to make me realize I love her or something equally ridiculous.. I don’t think I’ll ever understand how girls think or even why they tend to act certain ways.. All I know is that I’m in too deep of shit to get myself out now.

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I was on my third cigarette now, chain smoking seemed to be the only thing keeping me from losing my mind here. I sat on the railing of the deck in back of the venue and continued to sulk by myself, no one had even bothered to join me out here either, not even Gibson. Every time I looked inside, all I saw was everyone talking and laughing, obviously having a much better time than I was. Gibson would follow Hannah around like a good dog, Nina would talk to Bennu and her own friends, Bahiti mingled with everyone, and all I did was sit here. Alone. My insides tingled a little and I couldn’t quite hone in on what I was feeling at the moment, but I sure as hell wasn’t feeling myself. When I still lived with Gibson, I knew that if and whenever I decided to come home, he’d be there waiting for me. He was always someone that I knew would be around that I could talk to, even if we did argue a lot, arguing was better than sitting at the house with no one for the passed six months. He had someone else to care for now, and he was going to be a father, just like me, but how was he able to pay attention to just one girl for the rest of his life? Hannah was special, I suppose.. Different. Hell, even I’ve never met anyone like her before, either.. I could see why he likes her so much. Maybe that’s why she was so hard to shake from your thoughts, her personality was hard to forget just as much as her looks were. I sighed heavily when I found myself thinking of Hannah again, but that seemed to be what always happened when she was around me. I wasn’t jealous, was I? 

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I hopped down from the railing and tossed the rest of my smoke over the edge, leaning over the wood and unsure of what to do with myself now. I continued to think of Hannah, the only woman I wanted more than a hundred year old bottle of whiskey, and even the satisfaction I got from smelling the iron in blood on my hands wouldn’t suffice my need to feel her at least once before I die, whenever that may be. I didn’t understand why I would constantly think about her when nothing else could occupy my mind. Maybe it was the way she carried herself or how she walked, maybe it was the way she laughed at my jokes and the fact that I didn’t repulse her with some of the more vulgar ones. Or, maybe it was the way she flirted with me.. I did most of the work and she would always come off as if she didn’t like it, constantly dismissing my advances or rolling her pretty blue-green eyes, but the smile that she couldn’t wipe off her face during it all told me that she enjoyed everything I had to say to her. I understand that she doesn’t flirt back as obvious as I do when Gibson could show up at any moment, but just once I’d like to get another chance to be alone with her like the chance I had when we first met. I wondered what she would do if we were ever alone again; would she still turn me down? Now that we’ve become friends over the passed months, I could see a night with her alone ending with more positive results than last time.

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“Gareth?” A quiet voice I recognized instantly came from behind me and I stood up slowly, turning around to see Nina standing there, acting apprehensive as she looked to me.

“I thought you were too mad at me to talk,” I replied, seeing her look to the deck floor momentarily and soon back up to me.

“I-I guess not anymore.. I’m sorry you don’t want to be here, but I wanted to thank you for coming anyways. It means a lot to me,” she admitted with a shy tone and I sighed lightly. I realize I’ve been an asshole, and for the most part of it, I didn’t care that I was acting this way, but my selfishness and need to not be alone the rest of my life began to change my view a little. As much as she was a nuisance, I realized that with Gibson gone and the rest of my family unable to provide what I needed, it made me feel pathetic that I still wanted Nina despite what I thought of her or how I acted around her. She was all I had left now I guess, and I knew that I could always use her to fall back on should I ever need anything. She and my baby will always be there.

“Come here,” I requested, seeing her smirk a little and she walked over to me.

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Nina stepped up to the railing and I pulled her in front of me, wrapping my arms around her slowly and Nina let out a quiet moan as well as a relaxed sigh when my hands went over her growing stomach, “I think this is the first time you’ve actually felt it,” Nina said quietly. She was right, this was the first time that I willingly touched her baby bump, but I more so intended just to touch her in general rather than show that I was admiring the baby growing. I felt the immense need for human contact after getting the chance to stew in my mind out here alone, and since I couldn’t do this with Hannah or anyone else right now, Nina was my best choice. “What are you thinking about?” She asked, my lips pecking her neck a few times and her head relaxed back onto my shoulder.

“Nothing..” I replied, thinking of Gibson’s words earlier from one of his life lessons he would give to me whenever we saw one another. He always had something to say that made me believe he still worried for me, and I was wondering if I should take his advice on this one in order to confirm to myself that I’d never wind up alone, “I’m sorry if I’ve been hard to deal with during all of this.. It still hasn’t fully sunk in yet..”

“It’s alright.. I’m not really ready for this, either.. I’m just trying to stay positive. I want to believe everything will work out the way it needs to,” she replied and I kissed her neck once more before turning her around to face me.

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I pulled her closer to me and smirked, “What if we turned Gibson’s old room into our room, and my room in the basement can be for the baby?” I suggested and I watched as her face lit up with excitement.

“Wha- Yes.. Yes, that would be amazing, Gareth! A-Are you.. You are asking me to move in with you, right?” She wondered, wanting to confirm exactly what I was implying and I thought for a quick moment, trying to figure out for myself what the hell I had just said, but I guess I knew what I wanted to the point where I’d blurt out such nonsense.

“Yeah.. I suppose I am,” I replied and she smiled wide, throwing her arms around me and pulling me into an abrupt kiss to express her excitement, nearly knocking me down when her stomach had hit me before her lips did. I guess I took more advice and guidance from Gibson than I realized, taking my life into my own hands like he had and I was already beginning to regret my decision, but like I’ve thought before, there was no going back now, might as well see where this road takes me.

Generation 3, Chapter 14

    Gibson’s POV     

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Hannah’s bed was so much more comfortable than mine, or maybe it wasn’t, maybe it was just better because it was hers. I felt like a creep whenever I’d take deep breaths through my nose within her pillow to fully savor her scent, but during troubled times, I just couldn’t help myself.. This was one of those instances. I’ve been feeling a little insecure the past two weeks ever since we drank with my brother and I want to believe nothing happened, but whenever I pass out like that, knowing full well that they were still awake.. Something about it shook me to my core and it worried me that maybe something actually did happen, she just wasn’t telling me, and neither was Gareth. She’s been acting different. I tried to invite her over a few times since then since she told me how much fun it was, but she’s declined every invitation and I’ve ended up coming over to her place instead. I’ve asked her on a few different occasions if Gareth had said anything that made her upset and she continuously replied that nothing happened, but if nothing happened, then why was she acting this way? Gareth has been acting normal and when I had asked him if anything happened, he didn’t show any sign as if he was lying when he told me that nothing went wrong, he even got a little defensive and called me asshole for even thinking such a thing. I couldn’t tell if I was acting on a hunch or if I was just being paranoid..

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I could hear the shower running from the bathroom in her room, trying my best to not think about the negative and I even tried to think of her naked, picturing the water falling down all over her to even spark a flame of excitement within me so I could feel something other than this insecurity.. But, my mind wouldn’t let me focus, I constantly fell back into a gloomy state and all I could think of was Hannah showering, but Gareth would then join her instead of me and have his way with her as if he could walk willingly into my thoughts on his own and rubbing it in that he was taking what was mine. The moment he’d enter my thoughts to take over the role I was supposed to be playing, I’d get angry and take another deep breath into her pillow. His past actions with my ex clouded my mind and he haunted every thought that I wish I could have with Hannah, but thinking about it wasn’t good enough. In order to suppress these thoughts, in order to replace these troubling notions with pleasant memories, I’d need to act it all out to decipher between what was real and fiction and I looked to the bathroom door, wondering if I should go in and join her in the shower or if I should let her be and learn how to deal with this another way.. But, what other way?

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Before I even could think about getting the strength to get off the bed to join her, I heard the shower stop and I sat up quickly, scooting to the edge of the bed and sitting there, waiting for her to come out like a puppy waited at the front door for its master to get home. I tapped my foot on the floor, restless leg syndrome getting the best of me and my longing to see her open the door was making me more and more impatient when I’ve only been sitting here for about twenty seconds. Anyone looking at me right now would assume I’m just a slightly impatient man, though on the inside I felt like the tail of a rattlesnake. Without physically doing what I wanted, these false and extremely inappropriate and infuriating thoughts were going to drive me up a damn wall. These thoughts seemed so real, though.. Not only did the mere realization that I was thinking about my own brother naked as he took my girlfriend right out from under me was nauseating, but the fact that he was able to mess with my mind this much was a little infuriating and every time I’d try to purposely think of something else, the same motion picture played in my mind over and over. The more I thought of it, the more I saw him as an enemy even though I wanted to believe that my own mind was just playing tricks on me due to my inhibition.

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The sound of the door to the bathroom opening was like music to my ears and I looked up to Hannah who stood in a bath towel wrapped around her, her hair all pulled back into a bun and still wet from the shower and even with the morning sun barely showing it’s face through the windows, the light from the day coming in made her look radiant. I quickly looked passed her for a moment to make sure my brother wasn’t in the bathroom as well and I realized then that the thoughts of him taking her in the shower were false; there’s one thing proved wrong, though how many more did I need to go before I could feel right again?

Oh.. You’re awake,” she said sweetly with a warm smile and my heart skipped a beat when I looked at how beautiful she was. My eyes wouldn’t leave hers and I didn’t know what kind of expression I held, but based on her reaction, I assumed it wasn’t good, “Are you alright..?” She questioned, adjusting her towel to secure it better as she continued to look at me and I watched her hands as she fixed it, still unable to shake my troubling thoughts and finally I was able to act.

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I stood up and before she even knew what hit her, I stepped forward and my lips crashed into hers, my hands on either side of her face and I pulled her into my lips as hard as I could. My breathing was already heavy through my nose and I heard her letting out soft moans that soon turned into slightly troubled ones the harder I seemed to go. She stepped back, but I followed her and pressed up against her when her back hit the wall and my hands dropped down to her towel to quickly pull it from her body and throw it to the ground. She let out a moan that seemed to contest to what I was doing, but I didn’t want to believe it, I refused to stop and I needed to make her mine even when I was proving it to no one but myself.

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I broke from the kiss and picked her up, turning around to throw her on the bed and she fell onto the sheets with an expression I wasn’t familiar with, yet it didn’t stop me from climbing over her and my lips pushed back into hers. I wanted her this very moment and as I kissed her, I reached back to the rim of my underwear and began pulling them down as I laid between her legs, still panting heavily and every time I breathed in I could smell her freshly washed hair that only compelled me more to continue. Hannah turned her head away from me and broke the kiss and my lips instantly went to her neck, biting and kissing her harshly, “Gi.. Gibson,” she voiced with a soft yet strained tone, but I kept going when I heard her say my name beneath what I wanted to believe was her ecstasy. “G-Gibson.. St.. Stop,” she continued, but I didn’t hear anything she said after my name. 

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I continued to try to pull my underwear off as I sucked on her neck harshly and I felt her hands then upon my chest, pushing at me softly, “Stop it..” She continued, but the determination within me pushed back and I kissed her once more, finally pulling my bottoms down enough to touch myself and get myself ready to take her.

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Suddenly, the force of a push as my chest caused me to unwillingly break the kiss and before I could open my eyes to question her reluctance, I felt a hand slap across my face and my head jerked to the right, “I said stop!” She voiced in a pleading, angered manner and I looked to her in confusion despite the pain in my cheek, finally noticing the discrepancy in her expression as well as the resilience she portrayed and I stood up, fixing my underwear and losing my balance slightly until I fell back onto the wall.

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What the hell is wrong with you? Did you not hear me?” She questioned and I watched her get off of the bed in a hurry and grab the towel I had taken from her, wrapping it back around her body and she stood away from me on the other side of her tiny room.

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“I..”  I continued to let out a harsh panting pace as I tried to regain composure. “I-I’m sorry.. I’m so sorry..” I let out in a whisper and my back slid down the wall, collapsing within myself and I sat on the ground as a defeated man. Why had I let such minuscule thoughts overwhelm me to the point where my own girlfriend had to fend for herself? She hit me.. That’s never, ever happened before, and the persona I had suddenly been consumed with never had happened before, either.. Why were all of these false thoughts making me so paranoid? “Forgive me, please..” I pleaded, hanging my head and bringing my knees to my chest as I sat there in despair. I rubbed my entire face with both of my hands, trying to wash away my distraught, but her reaction and my remembering my own movement hit me pretty hard.

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I dropped my hands from my face and looked towards Hannah, seeing her still in a defensive manner and I hated myself for causing her so much discrepancy over the likes of my pathetic intuition that I knew was false.. I wronged her, greatly, and I was ashamed to even look at her now, so I dropped my gaze to the bed in front of me. I couldn’t get passed the fact that she felt she needed to put up a struggle in order to get me to stop what I was doing.. I was nothing like Gareth, nothing, yet my actions just now reminded me of him and yet again he was in my thoughts. There was seemingly nothing I could do that would result in me not thinking about him, even with my attempt at using Hannah to cure this that only made things worse.

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“What was that, Gibson..?” I heard Hannah ask and I looked up to her, seeing her approach the bed and I could see the hesitation her body portrayed, but she slowly sat on the bed anyways, concern written all over her face.

“I’m sorry, I just.. I don’t know what came over me,” I replied, turning my attention away from her in slight shame.

“Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for rough sex every now and then, but that was something else entirely,” she attempted to play off as if it wasn’t a big deal, but I could still sense the worry in her tone. “I’m sorry for hitting you, but..”

“No, don’t be sorry. All of this is my fault, you have nothing to apologize for,” I replied sternly and she lowered her view to her lap, the room falling silent for a few moments before she talked again.

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“What’s wrong? It’s not like you to be so.. Forceful.. Tell me,” she requested with concern and I looked back to her, “Come here,” she continued, motioning with her hand for me to join her on the bed and I took a few deep breaths before standing up slowly and joining her, though sitting as far away from her as I could so I could still give her space. “Please, tell me what’s wrong so I can fix it,” she encouraged, crawling over to me to get closer and I turned my head away from her. I was a little uncomfortable with her being so close after what I had done, I didn’t want to act on anything else that seemed forceful as she had labeled it, but luckily the insecurities I was feeling earlier weren’t showing their cruel faces as much anymore in my head from being in her presence.

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It’s stupid, really.. And I’m stupid for even worrying about it,” I reply, still facing away from her and I felt her fingers upon my chin, pulling my head to face her and I watched as her lips formed the tiniest of smiles, her hand then running over my cheek.

“Tell me,” she continued to persist.

“I’ve just.. I’ve lost a lot of my trust in Gareth. It makes me think terrible things and makes me think the worst out of some situations. My, uhm.. My last girlfriend cheated on me with him, so ever since then I can’t trust him like I used to be able to, and ever since that night where we all hung out, I can’t help but think he tried something with you since I passed out and wasn’t there to keep him in line.. And even though both of you told me that nothing happened, it’s still all I can think of because he’s wronged me before and I guess I’m just worried it’s going to happen again.. I’m worried I’ll lose you.. I don’t know, it’s just like.. Some kind of sixth sense I have when it comes to him, I can’t help but worry now.. I want him to be on good terms with who I’m seeing since he’s a big part of my life, but I’m always worried now that he might want to get too familiar with you just because of what he’s done in the past,” I replied, lowering my head once more.

Hannah turned me towards her again with her hand, “I’m not your ex, Gibson, and I would never choose your brother over you.. Even though you don’t trust him, trust me, okay?” She strongly suggested, “Nothing happened between us. We had a few beers and talked, stood outside on the dock because it was nice out, and then I went to bed around two, like I told you before. Stop worrying about this and let it go, alright?” She encouraged, gently smiling and I eventually nodded.

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“But, then.. Why have you been acting so weird? You won’t come over ever since that night, what else was I supposed to think this whole time? I do trust you, Hannah, but these past two weeks have just been.. Well, difficult for me, to say the least,” I reply, watching as she turned her view then to the bed.

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Gibson surprised me by how in tune he was with Gareth.. Even though nothing happened between Gareth and I, Gibson could somehow still tell that something was off about that night. Gareth was hard to turn down, I admit that I was pretty attracted to him because he looked and sounded like Gibson, naturally that’s what attracted me at first the moment we introduced ourselves, but the way he acted wasn’t anything that could wow me enough to the point where I’d jeopardize Gibson and I’s relationship. Gareth wasn’t anything like the man in front of me. For being twins, they were absolutely nothing alike. I was really buzzed that night I had stayed up with Gareth and I shouldn’t have flirted, I shouldn’t have let him get as close as he did, but I was glad that I didn’t let anything happen, especially now knowing that Gibson’s last girlfriend fell victim to Gareth, I didn’t want to put Gibson through that again and I was glad that I wouldn’t have to. 

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But, Gibson’s concern as to why I’ve been acting weird lately made me nervous and I could feel my heart beginning to race as I avoided eye contact. “Hannah, I told you what was bothering me, now it’s your turn,” he said with a nervous chuckle.

“How about you go make us some coffee?” I suggested, trying to buy myself some time so I could at least get dressed and dry my hair before talking to him about what was bothering me. 

“No.. I can’t take that, the wait would kill me.. Just tell me now.. Please,” he persisted and I could tell he needed complete closure before he’d stop worrying about me.

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“I don’t want you to be mad, and I don’t think you will be, but.. I asked Gareth what your view on children was, and I know I should’ve just asked you and talked to you about it, and I know that it’s something that we should’ve discussed, so I’m sorry for going behind your back and asking him.. I know I should’ve just came out and said it to you instead but I was nervous. I didn’t want to scare you away if I brought something like that up so early into us dating,” I answered, looking up to him and he was listening wholeheartedly to my every word.

“Wha’d he say..?” He asked and I smirked.

“Well, he said that you wanted them, and that you’d be a really good dad.”

“He did?” He questioned as if it was hard to believe and I nodded happily, “Well.. What does this have to do with anything? Why was something like that bothering you?”

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Even though I hadn’t taken a pregnancy test yet, I knew that my body was prepping for it when I’ve been sick to my stomach the past few weeks, I knew I had to be, but I didn’t realize it until only a few days after that night we had all drank together. “Well, I forgot to take one of my pills a few weeks ago. I wasn’t hungover the day after we all drank together, but I was getting sick anyways. I thought it was the stomach flu or something, but I.. Think I.. Might be pregnant..?” I replied and looked to his face, seeing his jaw begin to drop slightly and his eyes widened a little, “Don’t get too excited just yet.. I’m not a hundred percent, but.. If I am, what are we going to do?” I asked with worry, “Even though I want children, I didn’t expect it so soon.. I still have my job to worry about and I’m trying so hard to save money so I can open my own business, but I can’t if I’m expecting.. I didn’t want this to happen until a few years from now and I was more stable and prepared, but.. I need to spend all of what I’ve been saving on the baby now if I’m pregnant and what if I never get to fulfill my dream? What.. What are we going to do? What do you think?” I asked with worry. I felt like I was talking a mile a minute.

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“Marry me,” he replied and now I was the one with wide eyes and mouth dropped open.

“W-What..?”

“Marry me, Hannah.. If you aren’t pregnant, then down the road a ways, I wouldn’t mind if it happened.. And if you are already, then all the more reason. I know it’s really soon and it might seem like we’re moving fast, but I can’t explain how much I’ve fallen for you over the past months we’ve been together. I don’t want to imagine my life without you. I’ll take care of everything, I’ll make sure that we can provide for ourselves as well as the baby and as well as whatever you want to do with your career. I don’t want you to have to worry about anything because whatever you want, I’ll make it happen,” he replied and I could feel my pulse in my neck and chest. He couldn’t be serious, could he?

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“Please don’t joke like that.. I don’t find it very funny,” I retorted, unable to believe everything he said and I was skeptical about how committed he was trying to come off as. Never have I ever felt this strong for someone and have them feel the same way. I’ve been in love before, a few times actually, but never once have I ever heard a confession such as the one he had just given me.

Gibson reached for my face and I felt his hand slide through my hair gently to the back of my head, “I’m not joking. I want this to work and I want to be with you, I want to wake up next to you every morning, I want to call you my wife and I want you to be pregnant.. I.. I do love you.. Even if you don’t believe it now, I’ll spend the rest of my life proving it to you if I have to,” he added and I was in slight shock. He loved me? I swallowed hard and I was at a loss for words, my eyes beginning to water a little and I looked down to my lap, “Do you.. Not love me..?” He continued and I looked back up to him with hesitation. 

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I’ve said those three words before, but every time I’ve said them, I’ve heard them in return yet it never panned out, it was never the truth, ever. I was skeptical to his words, but no man had ever said such a thing like Gibson had to me. It actually seemed like he meant it. “I mean.. I.. I’ve been through this so many times.. I’ve.. I’ve said those words before, but nothing ever became of it. I’m just hesitant, I guess.. I just don’t want it to be too good to be true again..” I replied, still trying to avoid his eyes.

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“I don’t care what others have said and didn’t mean.. I mean it, I need you to see that,” he replied with a slight sense of pleading. Gibson rolled his fingers around softly within my hair on the back of my head, hesitantly pulling me towards him and our lips met with such genuine softness that I almost let my watering eyes cave with tears down my cheeks, yet as I felt the sincerity within the kiss, my heart was telling me once again to be weak and to give in to his words and his proposal. Throughout the relationships that I thought would come to this point, none of them did, yet Gibson showed me first how he felt and it was no longer me waiting to be loved. We had switched rolls. 

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Gibson pulled away from the kiss slowly and we looked at one another, silence falling over us as I continued to ponder his words. Before I could reply to him again, he felt the need to try and convince me more, “Hannah, I’ve felt the same way you have about past relationships, but never has anyone impacted me so much to the point where I’ve asked them to marry me. You’re different, no one can or ever will compare to you. If you say no then I’ll continue to ask until you say yes,” he added a nervously quiet chuckle after his words and I still looked at him with hesitation, “If you want, I’ll take it back. Forget I asked you that and I’ll ask again when it’s more appropriate, when we’re both more serious and sure about it.. Well, I am serious, but I want you to say yes when you’re serious, too.. What if, well.. What if we went back a step from that, let’s move in together instead and we’ll see how it goes from there..?”

Even though I’ve had all this time to think about what he’s been saying, I was still in shock as to how serious he was with all of this. Maybe taking this next step will help me figure out just how much I love him and see if it actually is the real thing. A subconscious smile spread over my lips and I nodded, “Okay,” I replied and I watched him smile as well.

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“Yeah?” He asked excitedly and I nodded.

“Yeah. But, would you move here, or..? I mean, I only ask ’cause I have the daycare downstairs, where would I work if I moved in with you?” I added and I watched as he thought for a moment, but an idea ran through my head, “There’s space downstairs for all of your books and things, I barely have anything down there. You could make the basement into a study or something if you wanted?” I suggested and I watched as he smirked slightly.

“That actually doesn’t sound half bad.. Alright, I guess I’ll.. Move here then?” He asked and I nodded, still keeping my smile and he let out an excited laugh, leaning in and kissing me.

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Gibson looked to me after our short kiss and I was unable to describe what I felt, my heart was racing and I could tell by the look in his eyes that he wanted me. I smirked softly and looked to his lips, placing my hands on the sides of his face and pulling him into a rather deep kiss. I pulled Gibson over me and continued the kiss as I thought about what great news this was. So this was it. I was finally taking the next step with someone and even within all of the excitement I felt, there was a part of me that even kind of wished I was pregnant now. I wanted this, and I wanted him, I hoped things would only get better to hopefully prove one day to myself that this was, indeed, actually the real thing.

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After getting ready for the day and enjoying a lot of the rest of it with Hannah, we decided that the sooner I tell Gareth about me moving out, the better. It’d be bad if we kept it from him and if he found out we were hiding something, it would only blow up in my face into something bigger than it needed to be. Hannah drove me back to my house and after she’d drop me off, she was going to drive to the corner store and pick up a pregnancy test to see if we needed to start preparing for a baby while we had the chance. I hoped she was pregnant, I hoped I wouldn’t have to go through the next six and a half months staring at Nina and wishing I was going through what Gareth was.. I can’t really stand that girl, but I humor her so Gareth doesn’t take out his anger on her if she’s being too difficult for him. I almost felt sorry for her in a way, knowing that she was stuck with someone like Gareth, yet I never let it bother me too much, she does it to herself and she’s a little slow at realizing that Gareth could care less about her and the baby.

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I was more than ecstatic about moving in with Hannah and her possibly even being pregnant, I couldn’t describe how happy I was that I had finally found someone that’s committed as I am, or, well.. Maybe she’s not willing to marry me yet, but moving in together was a pretty big step, right? I just hoped most of all that it lasted, and that I’d be happy with Hannah for the rest of my life. For the things I used to do, it was all over now, this was a new start and beginning a family could help even more in distracting me with the urges that hardly show their head anymore in the first place, but this was a concrete way to keep my mind occupied and to keep other people safe from the likes of my sick mind.

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I stepped closer to the living room and I could see Gareth laying down on the sofa, seemingly sleeping as he ‘watched’ television. I stopped when I walked in and stood there, waiting a few moments and I chuckled softly, “Gareth?” I said softly, not seeing him stir or even show a sign of waking up. “Gareth!” I let out next, seeing him pop up suddenly but then go back to laying down in a relaxing manner.

“Jesus, you scared the shit outta me.. What are you doing home? ..I thought you were spending the weekend with Hannah,” he replied, shutting his eyes.

“Actually, uh.. Something came up, and I came here to talk to you about something,” I said with a soft tone, getting a little nervous, though I don’t know why. I would think he’d be happy for me, but there’s always room for Gareth to twist it into something huge and irrational, not to mention cause more drama than ever needed.

“Uh-huh.. What about?” He asked with an uninterested and tired tone, sighing softly to myself as I walked over more into the living room and took a seat on one of the chairs.

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“Could you maybe sit up at least and listen to me? This is.. Kind of important.. And I’d like to get your, well.. I’m hoping you’ll be supportive of it,” I continue and Gareth finally opens one of his eyes and looks to me. He sighs and sits up, opening both his eyes now and he tries to show me that he’s awake and ready, but he still looked dull and tired. 

“Okay, what is it,” he asked, though I could tell he still wasn’t paying attention as he looked to the television.

“Gareth..” I said in annoyance, standing and turning the television off and coming back to sit down, “Can you please pay attention?”

“Alright, alright.. What?” He asked, seemingly paying attention now and it took me a moment to gather my thoughts and try to figure out how to tell him my news.

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“Look, uhm.. Hannah and I have decided that we’re.. Going to move in together, so.. I’m going to be taking my stuff and moving in with her soon,” I said bluntly yet with hesitance, trying my hardest not to come off as if I want to leave because of him. I watched as Gareth woke up more and he looked to me, his expression blank and I decided to continue, “There’s, uhm.. Also a chance that she might be pregnant, so.. Another reason why I’m moving in with her.. She’s getting a test right now and she’ll be back and we’ll see for sure, but.. That’s what I wanted to talk to you about,” I finished, looking down to the ground momentary, wondering how he was taking this without looking at him, but I soon looked back up, seeing him making a somewhat confused, yet blank face. “What, what is it?”

He continued to hold his expression and he eventually shook his head, “Nothing.. It’s just.. Wow, I don’t really know what to say.. I guess I uh.. Wish you guys the best.”

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I was astonished. I thought he would take this much worse and I wasn’t prepared for any response such as the one I had received, from Gareth, no less. I sat there in slight shock and he kept giving me this ‘what the fuck are you doing?’ expression, “What’s up with you? Don’t look so fuckin’ surprised. This is what you’ve always wanted, right? Start a family and all that? Stop acting like you don’t deserve it..” He continued, and eventually my shock wore off and I sat there for a moment.

“You’re not mad?” I questioned.

“Why the hell would I be?”

“I don’t know.. Maybe cause you’ll be here alone? I don’t want you think I’m abandoning you after all these years or anything, it’s just-“

“Cut the shit.. Jesus.. Who the fuck ever said you were abandoning me? I’m barely ever here in the first place, right? This way I can have more girls over without worrying about waking you up,” he hinted and I scoffed.

“Yeah, maybe it is better that I’m leaving,” I joked in return and he chuckled. 

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Before either of us could say anything else, both of our attention turned towards the front when we heard the front door being slid open. I stood up and met Hannah by the entrence of the living room, seeing her holding a bag and my heart starting racing, “So, you got it?”

“Yeah.. Should I just, uhm-” She motions towards the bathroom and I nodded, smirking when I saw she was just as nervous as I was.

“Yeah, yeah.. Go,” I encouraged and she smiled softly.

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Hannah stopped momentarily and smiled towards the living room, “Nice seeing you, Gareth..” She said somewhat nervously and I looked to Gareth as well.

“Hi, Hannah,” he replied blandly and he looked towards the television again, turning it back on and watching it as I stood there, Hannah then leaving the room and I walked a little more into the living room, deciding to watch TV with him until Hannah was done using the bathroom.

I began tapping my foot again like earlier and I couldn’t even pay attention to whatever Gareth was watching, but apparently I was annoying him, “Will you sit down or something? You’re starting to make me get nervous, too.. Just sit,” he recommended strongly and I nodded, taking my seat from before and trying to watch the screen, though still continuing to struggle in focusing. Soon enough, my leg began bouncing lightly again and I could hear Gareth then let out a heavy sigh, still annoyed by my behavior, but it was definitely something I couldn’t help.

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Gareth was right, I did deserve this, and I have been waiting for this for a while now. But, something was still strange about Gareth. Why was he so okay with it all?  This is literally the last way I expected him to react and as much as it rubbed me the wrong way, I couldn’t help but also feel slightly relieved that it was this easy. I looked over towards Gareth without him noticing and he seemed rather content with a calm mind, but it only made me want to know what he was thinking that much more. Why was he acting so.. Supporting? Even if he was happy for me, I at least expected a few jokes at my expense, but all being told with a smile on his face. But, when he was supposedly happy for me just now, it was so.. Genuine. I couldn’t help but feel that something wasn’t right.

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“Okay, seriously, though.. Are you sure you’re okay with this? You’re way too damn calm,” I continued, seeing him roll his eyes and looked over to me.

“Why can’t you just accept that I’m happy for you? Maybe I don’t even want you here, anyways. Maybe it would be better if we were apart for a little while. Maybe I don’t even fuckin’ like you anymore. Which reason do you want to believe? Because I mean a little bit of all of them, so take your pick,” he replied shortly and I smirked. I knew it. He was pissed. He was mad that I was leaving and he’s trying his best to try and hide it from me.

I sighed softly, looking to the ground and thinking for a moment before answering him. “You know.. It’s not like I’m leaving for good, I’ll still be living here in the Palms. I’m not even that far away. I’ll still help you with Nina and the baby and whatever else you need help with, like I said I would. I won’t go back on that. I’ll still always be here for you, I just won’t be physically here in this house anymore, that’s all.. Why are you so upset about this?”

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“I’m not upset.. I don’t want your delusions to make you feel like you should stay here because, alright.. I don’t want you here anyways. I wasn’t going to tell you this, but I’ve been counting down the days until you left. I’ll probably throw a party on the day that you take your last possession and leave the house with it,” he continued and I chuckled. He was such a bad liar right now, it was actually kind of nice and sad at the same time.

“Look.. I want this, okay? I’ve been wanting this and now that I actually have a chance at it with someone, I’m going to take that chance.. You said before after one of our fights that I should go out and find what I want and embrace it, and this is it.. You were encouraging me to do this a long time ago and now that I’ve finally found it, you’re pissed at me.. What changed since then? I’d love to know,” I replied and he looked away from me.

Gareth didn’t seem too enthused to talk about this right now, though it seemed like he had a lot to say but there wasn’t enough time to say it all. I watched as his mouth opened a little to begin talking, but he stopped when the bathroom door opened and we both looked towards the sound, seeing Hannah emerging from the bathroom.

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“Hold that thought,” I replied to Gareth quickly and I sprung up to go to Hannah. I looked to her standing by the bathroom door and she looked up to me as I approached her, soon her cheeks turned a light red and a smile spread across her lips, “Are you..?” I asked and she nodded with an excited laugh. A wide smile took over my mouth and when I had gotten to her, I wrapped my arms around her and picked her up within my grasp, holding her tightly as she did the same in return. I set her down and I couldn’t relax my lips from my grin as I pulled her into a long kiss, too excited to express my happiness into words and when the kiss ended, I looked to her with the same smile that refused to stop. 

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“We’re still ready for this, right?” She asked, wanting reassurance and I kept my smile, nodding softly.

“Definitely. Even if we’re not, we will be whenever the baby gets here. Everything’s going to be fine,” I replied and she let out a soft sigh as she smiled in return, pushing herself up gently to kiss me once more.

“Well? Is there more news than you just moving out or what?” Gareth said from the living room and Hannah and I parted from our kiss. I looked back and kept my smile, taking Hannah’s hand and walking towards the living room with her.

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“Yeah, it seems that we’re having a baby, too,” I said with joy and looked to Hannah briefly, then looked back to Gareth.

I watched as he gave the best smile he could pretend to muster and he stood up, coming over to me first and I let go of Hannah’s hand so I could hug my brother, “That’s awesome news.. Good job, bro,” he said as he hugged me, pulling back then and I nodded towards him.

“Thanks..” I replied, somewhat losing my smile as I swore I could almost feel his insincerity and being around him right now was kind of taking the fun out of realizing I was going to be a father.

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I watched as he then went to Hannah and he hugged her as well, congratulating her and I watched the happiness drain from her face as I could’ve swore to myself that he had whispered something to her, but I couldn’t be too sure. Them hugging made me feel a little uncomfortable and when they were done, I took it upon myself to reach for Hannah’s hand again and hold it.

“I’m going to talk to Hannah for a little bit, I’ll be right back,” I say softly and Gareth nods, walking back over to the couch and continuing to watch television as I take Hannah upstairs to my room for more privacy.

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“What is it?” Hannah asks when we get to my room and I pause for a moment, taking her hands within mine and looking to her face.

“I just want you to know that I’m going to figure out everything. I’ll get a new job, we can save the money I make and use yours for whatever we need now if you want. I’ll even get two jobs if I need to. I never want you to worry and I never want to be strapped for cash, it’ll never happen and we’ll always be well off, I promise,” I say as a fact and I watch her smile, nodding in acknowledgement to my words.

“I’m not worried, I know things are going to work out perfectly. Do you want to come over tonight? I know I have work in the morning with the kids, but you’re welcome to get a feel for it before you move any stuff in, that way you can decide if living with me is going to be at all tolerable before you make the commitment,” she said with a chuckle and I smirked.

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“I’m sure I’ll love every second of it,” I replied, “I’m going to grab some clothes, you can wait in the car if you want.. I kind of wanted to talk to Gareth a little more, anyways..” I add and she nods in understanding. I pulled her in for a kiss before she stepped away and she walked towards the stairs, but stopped when I grabbed her attention again, “Oh, uhm.. When he congratulated you, what else did he say to you?” I asked, watching as her face went blank and she shrugged.

“Nothing, why?” She replied and I shook my head.

“No, reason.. I’ll see you outside,” I answered with a smirk and she continued going downstairs to wait for me in the car. I walked around my room and picked out a few things, pulling a small suitcase out from under my bed and packing it with a couple of essential things as well as some clothes to change into for the week, or however long I was planning on staying there.

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I walked downstairs and I set down the suitcase by the steps, walking down the hall and seeing Gareth standing in the living room, watching the TV without sitting and I raised my brow, “Why are you standing?”

“I was saying goodbye to Hannah, just haven’t sat back down yet,” he replied, still watching television and I didn’t much care for his answer, yet I chose not to make a deal about it. “Why are you still here?” He asked in return and I put my hands into my pockets, walking closer to him and sighing softly.

“Well, I didn’t think we were done talking yet.. Hannah’s in the car waiting for me, but I don’t want to leave without you getting everything off your chest now. I don’t want you to stew in this until the next time we see one another and then have you blow up in my face or something, I just want to clear the air while we still can and while we’re still living together, because once I leave tonight, every time I come back I’ll be taking a little bit more of my stuff with me. Tonight is the start of my life with Hannah.. I want us to be okay when I leave here,” I voiced genuinely and he was looking at me with a sense of slight grief, but he soon smirked to my surprise.

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“You know, we’ve been living together for almost a quarter of our lives already.. I’m not proud of how I feel about you leaving, but we gotta start our new lives somewhere, right? You’re moving in with your girl, having a baby.. Pretty soon it’ll be born and you guys will get married and you’ll move away or something and you’ll be too busy for your big brother,” he replied and I lowered my gaze to the floor.

“Gareth, that’s not tru-“

“Shut up, yes it is true, and let me finish.. Don’t be pissed, I couldn’t help but overhear you guys talking by the bathroom.. Come here, I wanna show you something,” he continued and I grew puzzled, watching him walk towards his stairs and he walked down them to his room, me following shortly behind him.

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I followed Gareth downstairs and into his room, “Shut the door,” he requested and I nodded, though I didn’t know why he was worried about someone walking in.. “Come here,” he continued and I stepped towards his dresser where he was standing, seeing him open his second drawer down and he reached deep underneath his clothes and my eyes widened when he pulled out stacks and stacks of money, placing them on top of the dresser and I swallowed hard as I felt my heart begin to race.

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“Uhm.. Gareth.. Where the hell did all of that come from?” I asked with worry, “How much is that, even!?” I stressed quietly and I heard him chuckle.

“It’s about twenty grand, and don’t worry about where I got it.. My point is that if you and Hannah ever need help with anything, don’t be afraid to ask. Don’t go getting two jobs or whatever just to support you two, well, soon to be three of you..” He replied and I was still in shock.

“Holy shit.. Gareth, you must be stupid to think I won’t ask again where the hell this came from,” I stressed a little more and Gareth chuckled again.

“Chill out.. I get a job every few months maybe and it usually pays this well, if not more. So don’t ask me to stop, don’t even ask any more questions about it..” he replied, grabbing the money and stashing it back into his dresser drawer.

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“Is it.. Clean money?” I wondered.

“Of course it is. I could spend all of it right now if I wanted..”

“That’s not exactly what I’m asking,” I added and Gareth looked to me, “Gareth.. Wha’d you do in order to get it?”

“That’s for me to know and for you to never worry about.. So, let’s just leave it at that. But, since you don’t know, keep it in mind for whenever your in a pinch, alright?” He asked and I sighed, hating myself a little for nodding in agreement and I watched as he shut his drawer.

“Why are you doing this? Why are you being, so.. Nice?” I asked and I watched as he laughed.

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“Jesus, I’d think you’d be a little appreciative instead of skeptical.. Since when did I become the nice guy and you’re the asshole, huh?” He mocked and I looked to him, still in somewhat shock at how much money he had placed before me. I knew Dad was pretty wealthy and he left most of everything he had with Bennu to take care of us while he stayed at the mental hospital, yet she never gave us a ton of money when we moved out. She bought the house for us, but she didn’t give us much to live on since she wanted us to learn how to live on our own and make our own money like my Father had.. Most of the furniture and things inside we had gotten ourselves, but it only made me that much more curious as to what kind of ‘job’ Gareth had found where he would make that much money doing one thing every few months.. Nothing added up and nothing made sense.

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“Promise me that this job is not something you can go to jail for..” I requested and Gareth rolled his eyes.

“Honestly, we’re going to do this right now? Just go to Hannah’s already, you’ve kept her waiting this long..” He replied and he tried to push me out of his room, but I stopped him from doing so, putting my hands to his shoulders and he looked at me with stern eyes.

“Gareth, tell me that this ‘job’ you have will never land you in jail, or worse,” I pressured again and I watched as he eventually nodded.

“Okay, it never will.. I’m good at what I do. I’m not going to end up in prison or anything, so stop worrying. Once you leave here, like you said, it’s a new life for you. Don’t spend the beginning of it worrying about me.. You have nothing to worry about, anyways.. Now go.. I’ll see you whenever I see you. And you better take care of yourself, alright?” He replied and I sighed heavily..

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I pulled at his shoulders then and hugged him momentarily, “Thanks, Gareth..” I didn’t believe a word he said, but I wasn’t about to get into a fight with him at a time like this. I was supposed to be happy, I’m moving in with the woman I love and we’re also having a baby, so why is the only thing I can think about right now is Gareth getting into trouble? This worry will never not be part of my life, he’ll never not be my brother and I’ll never stop feeling like I need to be there for him, but it was my turn to be selfish for a little while. It was my turn to experience happiness after all the ups and downs we’ve had and I felt that achieving that happiness was finding it with Hannah. There was a part of me that wished I could stay here with him and keep him out of trouble like our Father had told me to, but at the same time my selfishness outweighed the worry and I couldn’t stay here another minute. 

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Gareth and I let go of one another and I turned around quickly, hiding my face before it showed any sign of emotion and I went upstairs to grab my luggage and leave. I didn’t understand, I tried to wrap my head around everything that Gareth had said tonight and it was obvious to me that he didn’t want me to leave, yet everything he said seemed as if he could care less, and that he just wanted me to live my life. But, why? Did he want me out of his hair so he can do whatever he wants without me there to nag? Did he really want the house to himself so he could bring more girls over? Or, did he actually hate the idea of me leaving and he really did want me to stay? I was confused, yet content.. Worried, yet happy. My insides twisted with so many polar opposite feelings that I began to feel a little nauseous from it all, but it began to go away a little when I saw Hannah waiting in her car for me.

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I tossed my luggage in the back and I opened the door for the passengers side, getting in and taking my seat. “Is everything okay?” Hannah asked when I sat there in silence.

“Yeah, just.. Drive,” I replied and it took her a moment to start the car, but eventually she did and as the engine came to life, I looked in the side mirror and looked to the house, Hannah then driving further and further away until it was finally out of view and all I had now to look at was the long road ahead of me.

Generation 3, Chapter 13

     Gareth’s POV     

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It’s been about two months since Nina had told me she was pregnant and so far it’s been a grueling experience. I still haven’t come to terms with having a kid, and I still hate the entire idea of it, but Gibson has been supportive and he makes it easier to handle. If ever he notices that Nina’s beginning to be a little too much for me, he distracts her so I don’t make an ass of myself, and today especially I need to be on my best behavior, according to him. He finally talked to his girlfriend about me a few weeks ago and he was pretty depressed for a little while because she was mad that he had both lied to her this whole time, and she didn’t like how he had treated me as if I didn’t exist. I appreciated her sticking up for me and telling him off, it seemed like she really cared about him and knowing his family, so she’s coming over to meet me today. She’s already met Bennu and Bahiti and they love her, so I think I’ll like her as well, but I hope not too much. When I had first seen her a few months ago in Gibson’s bed, I didn’t pay attention much to her face as much as her body, but Gibson will never know how much of her I’ve already seen. He’d flip his shit if he knew I saw her half naked already before even meeting her face to face; he’d think I was snooping on them in order to get a glimpse at his catch, even if that’s exactly what I was doing..

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Nina was helping Gibson in the kitchen and whenever her whole body came into view from behind the counter, my eyes always went to her small baby bump forming and it made me uncomfortable, it made he hate her even more and I even felt less attracted to her the more I saw it. Whenever she caught me looking at it, I’d notice her give me an expression that always made her look ashamed for what she had done to me and what she was putting me through knowing full well I didn’t want the damn thing.. But, I took lessons from Gibson and I tried to not make it so obvious all the time as to not stress her out. Apparently it’s bad or something if the woman is depressed or stressed out while she’s pregnant, but sometimes I just couldn’t help it. It was hard to hide how I felt about the whole situation, but I was trying my best. At least she wouldn’t look like this forever, and even though she’s just going to get worse looking the next seven months, hopefully that baby won’t ruin her too much to the point where it’s revolting to have sex with her.. But, I still haven’t decided yet if I want to keep seeing her or not in general after the kid’s born. 

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“Gareth, can you not smoke so much around Nina? It’s stinking up the whole house anyways, just go outside from now on,” Gibson said from the kitchen and I sighed, reaching forward and putting my cigarette out in the ashtray on the coffee table. 

“When’s your girl gunna get here? I wanna start drinking already,” I say with little patience.

“She’s supposed to be here any minute now.. And settle down, we’re eating dinner first, then it’s drinks. Don’t get super wasted, either, this is just a simple get together so we can all just- Hang out, have fun and chill together, alright?” Gibson preached and I rolled my eyes, slumping back down into the couch and watching television by myself. “Did you invite Bahiti?” He asked.

“Fuck.. No, not yet.. I’ll do it now,” I replied, pulling my phone out of my pocket and texting her and I could tell without even looking at Gibson that he was giving me a face that said ‘how could you forget’.

“You were supposed to invite her a few days ago, Gareth,” he voiced with annoyance.

“I know, I know.. I told you I’m on it,” I replied, hearing the door bell ring then and I assumed Hannah was here.

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“Keep going, Nina, I’ll be right back,” Gibson told her and he walked away from the kitchen to go and greet her. I heard her come in and they talked by the door, though nothing I could make out. I had an assumption that they were talking about me, but I didn’t give it much thought as I continued to text Bahiti. I heard Hannah’s heels clicking on the floor and I looked up from my phone but did a double take when she had come in, my phone slowly slipping from my hands and I dropped it to the carpet, but picked it up quick enough before anyone noticed and tucked it into my pocket without finishing whatever I was doing. Nina came out from the kitchen and introduced herself first, watching as they conversed and I noticed Hannah congratulating Nina on her pregnancy.. I scoffed when I noticed Nina’s excited expression, putting her hand to her slightly prominent stomach and I turned my attention away from them. 

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I could hear her heals then walking towards me and I looked back up, my eyes connecting with hers and I stood up as I kept my eyes on her, “Wow, you weren’t kidding when you said you had a twin,” she acknowledged and I heard Gibson chuckle nervously, “Hi, I’m Hannah, it’s great meeting you.”

I couldn’t help that my gaze traveled over her body briefly before returning to her eyes and I looked to Gibson, noticing he was watching my every move and I cleared my throat as I looked back to her, “Gareth.. Nice to meet you, too,” I replied, introducing myself and I shook her hand when she offered it to me. Her skin was soft and she was very clean and well manicured, enjoying the feel of her silky skin as it escaped mine after introducing ourselves and I began wondering if the rest of her body was as smooth as her hand.

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“Wow, you guys kinda have the same voice, too, how weird,” she said with a laugh and I smirked as I averted my eyes from her and sat back down. I tried to respect Gibson as to try and not stare at her obviously, though I wanted to. I was surprised by how hot of a girl he got and when I looked to Nina, he obviously topped me when it came to which girlfriend was more attractive. 

“Where can I put this?” Hannah asked, referring to her purse and Nina spoke up.

“Oh, you can put it here next to mine,” she replied, Hannah then nodding and walking over towards her to place it on the floor next to Nina’s.

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“So, when’s drinks?” Hannah brought up and it caught my attention, looking to her with a somewhat impressed expression and then looking to Gibs.

“Yeah, when is it time to drink, Gibson?” I asked mockingly, taking his own girlfriend’s logic and rubbing it in his face a little.

I noticed him give me an irritated look but it completely changed when he had then looked to Hannah, “I thought we could eat dinner first and then have a few drinks after?” He mentioned and to my dismay, she agreed.

“Yeah, that sounds good. What are you guys making? It smells amazing,” Hannah replied and then Gibson was the one to give me a cocky look instead as I gave him a light grimace. I was glad that Hannah wanted to get down to business as much as I did, but then feeling disappointed when she had agreed with Gibson. She seemed a little high-maintenance based on her appearance, yet her personality was sweet and a little bubbly but with an edge, and I admit that I liked it.

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“It’ll be ready soon.. Nina made Gareth’s favorite, Porcini Risotto, and I made your favorite,” Gibson replied to Hannah and I watched her swoon over his nice gesture.

“Aww.. You made me Salmon?” She questioned romantically and I averted my attention elsewhere as she kissed him lovingly, rolling my eyes to myself as I waited for their moment to end.

“It’s just about ready, come and get it,” Nina voiced softly from the kitchen and I sighed to myself, seeing Hannah and Gibson going to the kitchen first as I sat there still, not really wanting to move just yet. To be honest, even though I hadn’t ate all day, I wasn’t all that hungry, even for my favorite meal.. This whole baby business has taken a toll on me and it wasn’t a good one, it’s made me less excited to do anything really and with Nina around on top of what was on my mind regarding the whole situation, she just made things worse. I could tell by how Gibson acted around Hannah that he was flaunting her a bit in front of me, yet of course not enough on purpose as to make me want her for myself, yet whatever little he was doing was working, unbeknownst to him. You could obviously tell that he liked her a lot and that he was proud of himself to have found someone so beautiful and so much like him.

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I sat at the couch a little longer than any of them would’ve liked, yet Hannah was the first to acknowledge my lack of involvement, “Gareth, aren’t you eating?” She questioned and I looked over to the three of them, but specifically at Hannah.

“No, I’m.. Not that hungry right now,” I replied, turning my attention away again and spending time with myself on the couch once more.

“Come on, you gotta eat.. Gibson doesn’t drink as much as I’ve heard you do, I need someone that can keep up with me,” she replied and I looked back, noticing her giving Gibson a humorous expression, coming off as her only wanting to get to know the brother she never knew he had, yet I could tell in his face that he wasn’t okay with the idea at all despite him trying to play it off with a fake smile. I knew he was worried, I knew he hated the idea of her being like me and wanting to get a little drunk to have fun, but she didn’t know our history and why he was acting this way right now. I didn’t know how they were together behind closed doors, I’m sure Gibson got drunk with her all the time to have fun, but when it involved me, I could understand his hesitation.. But, I couldn’t deny her obvious plea to have fun tonight, and especially when wanting to get to know me more; what better than to have a few drinks and loosen up?

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“She’s right, though.. You should eat something,” Nina chimed in and I scoffed but no one else heard me, Nina ruining another small moment that I would’ve liked to enjoy. 

“Just eat my portion, you’re eating for two now, aren’t you?” I said in a less parental tone than anyone would’ve taken as such and the room grew silent when Nina lowered her eyes to the ground and excused herself from the room, going to the restroom just passed the kitchen.

I noticed Gibson give Hannah a certain look as if saying ‘this is what I was talking about’ when it came to me and I grew bothered by it a little.. My temper got the best of me when Nina interrupted and I didn’t want to come off that way in front of Hannah, “I’m just not hungry, really.. She should eat more to make sure that baby comes out healthy, right?” I played off with a smile and I saw Hannah smile in return, yet Gibson looked at me with a judgmental expression.

“Come on.. Just a few bites. It’s better to drink when you have something in you beforehand, right?” Hannah persisted and I smirked.

“Can say that again, sweetheart,” I mumbled under my breath flirtatiously and I finally got up, “Okay, okay..” I openly agree and walked to the kitchen to join them.

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Awkward wasn’t really the word I’d use to describe dinner, but tense? Fuck yeah.. At least between Gibson and I that the ladies didn’t seem to notice.. It wasn’t my doing though, it was all Gibson. He’s so fucking worried that I’ll ruin anything that happens tonight to the point where if I said literally anything to Hannah, he’d already be looking at me as if I was on fire. 

I cleared the plate that Nina had made for me and I ignored her pretty much the whole time, but not obvious enough to show that I was deliberately doing it.. To my surprise, I actually was trying to impress Hannah for Gibson’s sake.. Well, and also for my own to clear up any shit that he’s told her about me, which I knew he had without even hearing it for myself.

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When dinner was done though, I grabbed up everyone’s plates and I took them to the sink, and seeing as Nina was the only one not drinking tonight, I expected her to clean up the mess we made, “Nina, you got this, babe?” I asked, looking to her with a calm expression and I watched her smile, able to tell that she was smitten by me even taking the time to acknowledge her with a smirk of my own.

“Of course,” she said with a loving tone, coming up to me and wrapping her arms around me and I hugged her back with one arm to keep the tense environment down, acting as if everything was fine, but in reality I couldn’t stand her touching me the moment I felt her slightly protruding stomach brush against my side.

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I let go of Nina within a few quick seconds, looking to Hannah and Gibson then with a smirk, “Hannah, what’s your poison? Beer, rum, vodka, scotch? We have wine, too, but I don’t know if Gibson wants to crack any of his prized bottles out for a simple night like this,” I offered and I looked to Gibson with a smirk, yet he didn’t return one what-so-ever. I was just teasing him, I wasn’t trying to be deliberately mean, but it was beginning to piss me off on how he couldn’t take a fuckin’ joke.

“Hmm.. What kind of beer do you have?” Hannah wondered and I walked to the fridge to look inside.

“Well, I got some cheap shit.. Or I have a six pack of an IPA that might knock you on your ass if you have more than three,” I said with a chuckle and I looked to her.

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I noticed she didn’t take her eyes off of Gibson much, growing a little uncomfortable when I saw her ignoring me and touching Gibson’s leg and kissing him, but she then looked to me with a daring expression and smiled. “Gimme one of the IPA’s, but I just want one so I can try it..” She replied and I nodded, seeing as she then looked to Gibson again, “Maybe we can switch to wine a little later like our first date together, hmm?” She continued towards him in a flirtatious manner and I saw Gibson smile genuinely for the first time since Hannah had gotten here and they kissed once more. I sighed as I watched them, yet I still grabbed her and myself a beer and uncapped them both, pouring them into glasses before finally clearing my throat to interrupt them.

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“Here,” I said with little emotion and handed her the beer. 

“Oh, thanks!” She replied happily and took it from my hand. 

“What do you want bro?” I asked and he didn’t really even bother looking at me, paying more attention to Hannah.

“Scotch, on the rocks,” he replied, both of us watching as Hannah left his side to join Nina in the living room after she had finished the dishes. It was silent for a few moments, both of us watching Hannah walk away and the next thing I knew my shoulder was being hit.

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“Hey, watch it! You’re going to spill my beer.. What was that for?” I asked quietly towards Gibson and he held an angered expression.

“Are you going to get my drink, since you offered so kindly? Or are you going to stare at her ass all day?” He asked with a glare and scoffed.

“What are you talking about? I wasn’t looking at her ass.. Jesus,” I replied as I rubbed my arm.

“Then what were you looking at?”

“Nothing, just.. The carpet.. How many ice cubes do you want?” I asked, walking away from him and getting his glass ready and hopefully changing the subject, but I sighed when he stood up and walked over to stand next to me.

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“I’m only going to ask you this once..” Gibson began and I sighed as I uncapped the scotch and poured it into a small glass, “Please, just.. Don’t be you tonight, okay? Don’t compliment her, don’t flirt with her, don’t touch her, just.. Don’t.. Act like she’s Nina, I don’t care what you have to do, just don’t do anything that will make me hate you, alright? I’m giving you a second chance at letting you get to know someone that I’ve taken a liking to in hopes that you won’t sleep with her behind my back, and I want you to be friends with her.. I wanna be able to bring her around without always needing to keep an eye on you, okay? That isn’t too much to ask, is it?” He asked genuinely and I stood there for a moment, thinking. I could tell he wasn’t trying to be an ass and he was only being honest, but he could’ve worded a few things differently at least to make me not feel like such shit about the whole thing. “Gareth?”

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“Okay, okay.. Fine. Just, stop watching me like a fuckin’ hawk, alright? I can’t concentrate when you do shit like that. And give me a little more credit than that, huh? It’s not like the last time, I didn’t do that shit on purpose, it just kinda happened,” I lied, but it was for the best, “And come on.. Stop thinking about the past so much, look at her- she’s way better than your last girlfriend, she wouldn’t go for someone like me anyways, she likes you. She obviously likes men who have a good head on their shoulders and a tough spine.. And I’m nothing like you,” I somewhat complimented and gave him a smirk. 

Gibson looked at me for a few seconds, seemingly a little shocked by my words, him looking to Hannah then sitting in the living room and I watched them lock eyes and Gibson grinned. He looked back to me as he held his grin and nodded softly, “Thanks man,” he finally replied and I nodded back, handing him his drink and he took it before joining the girls in the living room.

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I stood at the counter a little longer by myself, screwing the cap back onto the bottle of scotch slowly as I listened to them talking within the living room, but I didn’t bother enough to pay attention to the words. I wish Gibson hadn’t said any of those things, granted he had every right to, but the fact that he felt like he needed to kind of bothered me. He didn’t need to be so worried, I wasn’t going to try anything on her with him around, why would I? I’m not that stupid.. Another thing that pissed me off a little is that I’d have to pay more attention to Nina now than I wanted to, just so I could control myself and how much I might wanna look at Hannah. I still hadn’t taken all of her in yet, I still felt I needed to wrap my mind around her more so I could take in every inch of her, but that’s going to be difficult without coming off as if I’m staring.. I’ll just have to do it in doses, I guess.

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After a few moments to myself, I came back into the living room and sat on the sofa next to Nina, looking to her as she scooted closer after I had gotten comfortable and sighing softly to myself. For some reason I felt like Nina was a little more affectionate today than most other days, I wondered if it had anything to do with Hannah being around. She had every right to be worried about me when other girls were around, I felt as if she knew at times when I was flirting with someone or blatantly ignoring her to talk to someone else, yet she’s never once complained about it or brought it up to me. Though, even without hitting on Hannah once so far, Nina was beginning to act as if she needed to stake her claim for me for whatever reason and it only made me more disinterested and annoyed by how touchy she was being. 

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We all ended up talking for a little while and I was getting slightly buzzed as well as Hannah and Gibson, yet of course Nina was sober since she wasn’t drinking. I couldn’t imagine being in her shoes and not drinking for a while nine months, I actually felt a little sorry for her in that one aspect, though she didn’t seem to mind too much as she watched us all having fun with a smile on her face. But, I was happy when it was about seven at night and Nina decided that it was time for her to leave, she got tired a lot sooner ever since she’s been pregnant, “I’m going to get going I think..” She voiced softly and stood up. I sighed when I knew I’d have to walk her to the door and I didn’t even want to get up, but as she went around the room and said goodbye to Hannah and Gibson, I reluctantly rose to my feet and followed her towards the door.

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Nina turned towards me when we reached the door and there was a subtle smile on her lips, yet it was obvious that she was avoiding making eye contact with me and I waited impatiently for her to leave. “So.. I guess I’ll see you soon..?” I asked, trying to break this weird silence that surrounded us and she looked up to me with a nod. “Is there anything else?” I asked, seeing her look away from me and eventually shaking her head ‘no’. I knew she was lying, I knew she wanted me to kiss her goodbye and I knew she didn’t want to leave until it happened, but I wasn’t in the mood to even humor her.

“We never really, uhm.. Talked about what happened.. The night I told you about..” She stopped as she averted her eyes once more and I knew she was referring to when I had hit her. I was in no mood to talk about this now, it was just bad timing and I wanted to continue hanging out with Gibson and Hannah and have fun instead of discussing pointless shit that she determined as a serious matter. She looked back up to me and by how she tried to correct herself, she must’ve noticed the anger and annoyance building up in my expression, “I-I mean.. I know you didn’t mean to do it, I was being pushy and I was practically at your heels when you turned around so harshly, but..”

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“If you know all that stuff already then why even bring it up?” I asked blandly and her expression went slightly embarrassed.

“I guess.. I don’t know, even if you didn’t mean it, an apology would be nice..” She asked shyly and I let out a heave of air, not wanting to drag this on any longer.

“Jesus.. Okay, I’m sorry. I’ll see you soon then,” I replied, letting my irritation show a little too much and I watched her eyes begin to water and she turned away. I shut my eyes in more annoyance and took a deep breath in, letting it out slowly and trying to calm down a little. Since my first reaction didn’t work at getting her to leave sooner, I hoped that being affectionate in return would help her get over this shit so she would just leave finally.

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I stepped up closer to her and put on a softer demeanor, pulling her close to me and I began kissing her cheek and neck softly in between whispers, “I’m sorry, okay? Don’t cry.. I’m just not in the mood to talk about this when there’s company over and I’ve been drinking.. It’s just not the best time, alright?” I said softly and I could feel her head nodding against my hand in agreement. “Now, go home and get some rest, okay?” I said as I pulled away from her and she continued to nod as she wiped a few tears away. I smirked a little and leaned in once more, connecting my lips with hers for a few long seconds and pulling away to then see her smiling in return. 

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“I love you,” she replied and I lost my smile briefly, unsure of what to say back as I looked to her. There’s no way in hell I was going to say it back.. It isn’t the kind of thing that if I don’t feel it, I don’t say it, but even if I did which I doubt I ever would, it’s just not something that I feel I’ll ever be comfortable saying to anyone. The only time I remember saying it was to Mom and Dad when I was super little and that was only when they’d say it first, but I grew out of that after about my sixth birthday.

“I know you do,” I replied, smirking once more and leaning in quickly to kiss her and not let her get any more words in as I then somewhat guided her towards the door and opened it for her to let her out. “I’ll see you soon, babe,” I continued and she gave me a weary smile as she nodded softly and walked out of the house. I closed the door and sighed heavily as I walked back towards the living room, trying to think about how I’m going to do this for seven more months and knowing already it was going to be nothing but torture.

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I came back into the living room and I noticed that Hannah had taken a seat on the couch I was on close to Gibson and she perked up when she saw me walking towards them, “Hey, we should play ‘never have I ever’ for drinks, you up for it?” She asked and I laughed as I took my seat back on the couch. I hadn’t played that game since before we moved here when we’d drink under-aged at parties.

“Remember when we used to always play that back in Bridgeport with our friends?” Gibson added with a smile and I nodded.

“Oh hell yeah, I remember those days.. You and me are always the first ones out cause we always got so trashed,” I add with a chuckle and Gibson does as well. I can tell that he’s finally getting a little drunk when I notice his cheeks beginning to flush more, he’s been drinking scotch on the rocks the whole night so far, so I wasn’t all that surprised that he was a little further than Hannah and I. 

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“I kinda forgot the rules though, how did you two used to play?” Hannah wondered and I let Gibson take the lead on explaining.

“Well, just think of something that you haven’t done before and say never have I ever blah blah blah, and then whoever has done it has to drink. If no one has done whatever you say, then the person who says it has to drink.. I think those rules are pretty basic and the easiest to follow,” he says and Hannah nods, “That sounds right.. Right?” He asked towards me and I nodded in agreement.

“Yeah, that’s how I remember playing.”

“You go first, Han,” Gibson added and Hannah thought to herself for a moment as we waited.

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“Never have I ever.. Flown on a plane,” she said first and both Gibson and I drank.

“Wait, how’d you get here then?” Gibson asked.

“I drove all that way, I don’t like planes,” she said with a chuckle, “Now you go,” she addressed Gibson and he thought for a moment.

“Never have I ever, uhm..” He tried to think and he took a long time to think of something.

“Come on, you could never think of anything, even when we used to play, too,” I mocked slightly and we all laughed.

“Well, I’m sorry that I’ve done a shit ton of stuff in my life, it’s hard to think of things..” Gibson replied, “Hannah, just go again, Gareth and I have done too much,” he encouraged and she sighed teasingly.

“Oh whatever, uhh.. Never have I ever.. Had sex on the beach,” she questioned and I chuckled as I drank and so did Gibson, “Really?! Both of you have?” She questioned in disbelief and we both laughed a little more.

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“Okay, okay, my turn..” I stated and thought to myself, “Ahh man.. Um.. Never have I ever gone skinny dipping in the daytime,” I said and only Gibson drank, “No way! When did you do that?” I questioned in disbelief.

“Remember when Bennu and Bahiti went to Egypt about two years ago and we were house sitting? Well you went out somewhere and I had a girl over and we did that in their pool,” he admitted and laughed.

“I never would’ve thought,” I admitted with another chuckle, “Alright, since you’ve done so much, now you have to think of something,” I egged him on and so did Hannah.

“Yeah, come on.. Think of something good,” she encouraged with me and Gibson thought for a moment.

“Well, hmm.. Never have I ever.. I don’t know, um.. Smoked weed,” he stated and I drank as well as Hannah. “I know when you used to do it, Gareth, but really, Han? When did you do that?” He wondered with a somewhat intrigued grin.

“Oh, I was young, like.. Fifteen or sixteen or something, I only did it a few times.. My turn now,” she said happily and thought for a moment, “Never have I ever done stuff in front of my parents without them knowing,” she questioned and both Gibson and I drank with wide grins that we tried to hide, “Jeez, you two really have done a lot, huh?” She asked teasingly with a laugh.

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The game lasted longer than I thought it would, but we ended up thinking of plenty of questions that got all of us to a decent drunk and I switched to the floor so Gibson could pass out on the couch, laying his head in Hannah’s lap. What made the game take longer was we ended up telling a few stories along with our confessions and it was a really great way to get to know one another; even Gibson and I had a few stories to share that neither of us knew about. Hannah and I kept talking and drinking slowly as the time just passed the two in the morning mark, though I didn’t want to go to sleep as long as she was still willing to stay up. I’ve never talked to a girl this long without eventually getting them in bed, and I admit it was a little weird for me, but I actually didn’t mind the time we’d spent together already. She was pretty fun.

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Hannah brushed Gibson’s hair out of his face and ran her fingers through it gently over and over as he lay there and I couldn’t help but feel a little jealous at the treatment he was getting without him even knowing it was happening. Hannah caught my attention and I looked away from her hand within Gibson’s hair and up to her face when she talked, “So, are you excited to be a Dad?” She asked and I gave a smile that wasn’t very convincing.

“I guess, yeah,” I replied, turning my attention away for a moment and taking a sip of my beer.

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“You don’t have to lie, I don’t care.. It’s not for everyone,” she replied and I looked back to her.

“Well, then no, I’m not. I never wanted kids to be honest.. Do you want any?” I asked in return.

“Yeah, I really do, I don’t know when though,” she replied and I watched as she looked down to Gibson as she continued to run her fingers through his hair, “Do you know if, uhm.. Never mind,” she stopped but she caught my attention.

“No, please.. Go ahead, I’m an open book,” I encourage and she chuckles softly.

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“Well.. It’s just.. I know it’s too early to tell, and I know it’s too early to be talking about this kind of thing with Gibson seeing as we’ve only been together about three months, so we never have discussed it.. I almost don’t feel right asking you if he wants kids without even talking to him myself, first, but I can’t lie, I am curious..” She continued and looked up to me with slight concern.

“If it makes you feel better, he does. Really badly, actually.. I didn’t want my baby, and honestly I still don’t, but Nina wants to keep it and Gibson even convinced me a little, too, saying he’d help out and he’d love to be an Uncle and all that.. He likes kids, he’d be a good Dad..” I reply and my vision drops to the bottle I’m holding.

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“I’m sorry.. Did I strike a nerve? I didn’t mean to,” she adds and I looked up to her.

“Oh, no.. Course not. I was just thinking how badly I need a cigarette,” I reply with a chuckle and she smiles with a nod.

“Do you need another beer?” She asks and I watched as she finishes hers.

“Yeah, tha’d be great.. I’ll be back in a minute,” I reply, standing up and I watch as she gently picks up Gibson’s head to place it on her seat as she stood up, taking her empty bottle as well as mine to the kitchen as I pulled my pack of smokes from my pocket and went out the back door.

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I stood outside for a few moments and took a long, deep breath in and the smell of water within the warm night breeze filled my nose, savoring it for a moment before I tainted my lungs with a cigarette. I don’t know what I was thinking, my mind was racing a little too much for me on top of being slightly drunk and all I could think about since Gibson fell asleep was that I was finally glad I could be alone with Hannah. But why? I mean, obviously I wanted to do stuff with her, but I was still trying to fight the urge for the sake of what Gibson said earlier. I just wanted to run my fingers over her delicate neck, maybe even taste the sweet perfume she had on her skin, but as I took a long drag of my cigarette, I tried to push those thoughts out of my head. Sure, I didn’t promise him anything, but he did say no flirting and no touching, two of my favorite things to do when with someone like her. 

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The back door opened and I looked over my shoulder, seeing Hannah joining me on the back of the dock and I smirked softly as she closed it behind her. She walked over to me and the sound of her heels clicking on the wood was even more soothing to me than the sound of the water, “Here,” she said softly, handing me my beer and I took it. I watched as she leaned over the edge and looked at the view behind the house, my eyes secretly wandering down her back, over her ass and all the way down to her feet before returning my gaze to the side of her face. “I’m really glad I moved here,” she stated with a calm voice and I took one last drag of my smoke before tossing it over the edge to my left into the water.

“Why’s that?” I asked, though I was pretty sure I already knew the answer.

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“It’s just really beautiful here. The weather is always great and relaxing.. I have a good job, I’ve met a lot of great people,” she replied and looked over to me, “Everything just feels.. Right.. You know?” She continued and I smirked, nodding as well. “Don’t you like it here, too?” She asked.

“Well, sure.. Most of my family is here, I get employment occasionally, but the pay is still good for how little I do.. I pretty much get to do whatever the fuck I want,” I reply with a chuckle and she smiles, “Got Gibson and my dog, Jess.. I got everything I need..” I replied, looking out to the water.

“Wait, Jess is your dog? I thought she was Gibson’s?” She questioned and I shook my head.

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“No, not even close..” I replied with a chuckle, “Gibson hates dogs.. Jess is my baby, not his,” I add and I watched as her expression twists into confusion.

“Well, that.. Kind of explains a few things,” she replies with a gentle laugh, “When we first hung out, we went to the dog park together because, well.. I didn’t know you existed at that time so he brought Jess to the dog park when I brought my dog and I just assumed Jess was his.. But, it all kinda makes more sense now. When he told me he had a dog, I assumed he liked them, but then I started noticing his apprehension when it came to dogs in general more and more,” she said in a somewhat disapproving manner.

“I think in that instance he was just trying to impress you and have the same interests. I love dogs and Jess is mine, but seeing as he never mentioned me, what else was he supposed to say when wanting to rouse you?” I replied and her expression went softer and more appreciative.

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“Do you mind me asking about you and Nina?” She wondered randomly and I looked back to her, my shoulders shrugging slightly.

“There’s not much to tell really.. What do you want to know?” I asked curiously, taking a sip of my beer. 

“Well, I don’t mean to pry or judge.. But the whole night it seemed like you could barely stand that she was touching you. You made this funny face every time she’d even smile at you,” she said with a chuckle and I snickered as well, surprised that he had caught on to all of what I was doing earlier, “I don’t know, I guess I’m just wondering if you hate her or something.”

“I don’t know.. To be honest, I don’t hate her, otherwise she wouldn’t have been here today. It’s just sometimes she can be a little overwhelmingly clingy. It’s extremely complicated.. One minute we could be okay and the next we won’t see one another for weeks,” I reply and Hannah nods with a smile.

“Who’s fault is that usually?” She asked and I raised my brow with a grin.

“Are you implying something, Miss Hannah?” I asked and she laughs.

“No, no.. It’s just from what I’ve seen today, everything seems very one sided, that’s all. I mean, I guess what I’m trying to get at is are you guys even together? Or do you even want to be?” She continued questioning and I thought for a moment. 

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I turned around and leaned back against the side, a little closer to her than I was before, “Well, I guess the easiest way to put it is that I’m going to try to be there for my kid, but when it comes to a relationship, I’m keeping my options very open,” I imply softly and take a sip of my beer, looking to her as she stood up from leaning over and I smirked, “Does that answer your question?”

“Yeah, I guess it does,” she replies with a soft smile in return and looks back towards the water, drinking her beer a little. “So, by relationship, do you actually mean fling?” She questioned and I laughed.

“Jesus, Gibson really filled you in on me before you came here, didn’t he? If you know so much already, then why ask?” I wonder.

“He didn’t say anything bad, I guess I just want to know for myself instead of hearing it from someone else. I like to give people a chance on my own terms,” she replied and I nodded, appreciating that she was willing to give me the benefit of the doubt.

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“So, why all the questions on whether I’m in a relationship officially or not?” I ask and she shrugs.

“Just curious is all, just wanted to know what all that tension was today. You didn’t really open up that much until she was gone. If it’s worth anything, I felt like Gibson may have mistook a lot of your charm for inappropriateness,” she replied, continuing to look out at the water and I raised my brow intriguingly. So she thinks I’m charming? I don’t think anyone’s used that word before to describe me.

“Well, how often do I get the chance to impress someone new? I needed to be on my best behavior in front of beautiful company,” I imply once more as I continued to look at the side of her face.

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“Are you flirting with me, Gareth?” She asked with a chuckle, looking back to me and I shrugged.

“Only if you want me to be,” I reply with a sly grin as my sight bounced between her eyes and lips.

“And if I say no?” She challenged.

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“Then I might just call you a liar,” I point out with the same grin and we stare at one another for a moment before she looks back to the water. I don’t know what this was or what was happening exactly, but I was willing to bet all of the money I had stashed in my room that she was flirting with me as hard as I was with her. It all made me wonder if she was just another girl that might betray Gibson, or was this girl driving me to be the betrayer? Either way, if anything happened, we’d both be accountable, not just me. I know I shouldn’t do this, or anything at all, but Hannah was just oozing irresistible and if this back and forth flirting continued, we just might make a huge mistake tonight. The more I thought about her and looked at her, the less I thought about the repercussions.

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“Why are you staring at me?” She asked, looking back to me and I turned towards her more.

“How can I not?”

“You know what I think?” She asked with a smile.

“What’s that?”

“I think that because Nina isn’t here now, you feel it’s okay to hit on me because there’s no one to stop you. I think you’re actually a pretty lonely guy,” she pointed out with attitude, yet she still held a smile on her plump lips.

“Damn, babe.. That’s harsh,” I teased, “Don’t be so hard on yourself, even if she was still here I’d have no problem doing the same thing I am now. Even if a hundred other girls were here, I’d still be right here.. Drinking a beer with you,” I reply, finishing my beer and setting it down on a table near me, coming right back to where I was but this time a little closer.

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“So, even if there were tons of other girls here, you’d still pick your brother’s girlfriend to hit on?” She replied with a cocky smile and my grin began to fall.

“Is this some kind of elaborate ruse or something that you and Gibson concocted to see if I’d hit on you if he passes out?” I ask with a bland tone and she smiles.

“No, of course not. I just figured I could talk some sense into you before you do anything you might regret,” she pointed out and I smirked once more.

“Well, why not do something we’ll both regret? It’s not like I can’t tell what you want to do just as badly, you’re pretty easy to read,” I state and she stares at me a moment before looking back out to the water again.

“Oh, am I? ..And what exactly do you think I want to do?” She asked, taking another sip of her beer.

“You act like you’re doing nothing at all when in actuality, you’re doing so much to the point where it’s almost impossible not to touch you. You can’t deny it, either.. You’re working the same charm you claim that I use myself,” I state and she finishes her beer, walking to the table to set her empty bottle down where I had earlier and she stood in front of me then.

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“That doesn’t answer the question still.. I’ll admit, I can get a little flirty when I’m drinking, but that doesn’t mean I’ll act on anything like you so easily will,” she replied with a serious tone and I smiled.

“So you’re waiting for me to do it first, is that it?” I asked and she didn’t respond, giving me an expression as if I was way off, but I knew what she was doing, or rather, trying her hardest not to do. She didn’t know that she was failing at whatever front she was trying to put on. “You know, just because you say you won’t act on it, it doesn’t mean you don’t want it,” I add before stepping closer.

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I stood before her and she looked up to me with a certain look in her eyes that I couldn’t quite decode, it was either lust or overwrought, but whatever the case, it was still inviting. I stepped up even closer and she took a step back, but she bumped into the table behind her and there was nowhere else for her to go. “Gareth..” She said softly in a weary tone and I smirked.

I leaned forward and she leaned back, reaching behind her to hold herself up using the table and I used it as well to support myself, leaning in closer towards her ear and the tip of my nose grazed against her cheek, “I would say I’ll stop if you want me to, but I don’t think you do,” I said quietly in a smooth tone, my eyes looking to the side of her face and she turned her head away from me slightly.

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I brought one of my hands off of the table and I looked down to her legs, letting my fingertips graze over the skin of her thigh, “Maybe you just need some more-” I stopped, hearing her let out a gentle gasp when I grabbed her leg and pulled it up against me, “Persuading?” I suggested into her ear and I could feel the goosebumps racing over her leg I was holding. I was so close, I could feel the heat radiating off of her and even her breathing was a little stifled within my grasp. My curiosity from before when I wondered if the rest of her skin was as smooth as her hand when we had first met made me grin slightly, knowing now that the skin of her legs was so much smoother and I could feel my heart racing at how dangerously close we were to making this a very memorable night.

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To my surprise, I was mistaken, “We’ve been drinking too much.. Nothing about this is a good idea,” she contested and I pulled back to look at her eyes, “Please, let go of me,” she added and I slowly dropped her leg back down and put my hand back onto the table for support.

“What a strange turn of events after such a huge, painfully hot buildup,” I replied, confused a little as I looked to her lips, “You’re not at all even curious about what could happen if I were to move just a few inches closer?” I continued to try to tease and still salvage what was about to happen.

“Anyone would be.. But I don’t want you to,” she replied and my expression went defeated.

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I slowly slipped away from her and stood back up straight, finding myself a little surprised that I had so easily backed off like she had implied and I watched her stand up straight as well, avoiding my eyes on purpose, “I.. Need some sleep. You should get some, too,” she suggested and I took a few steps back and I leaned against the wooden railing, putting my hands into my front pockets as I looked to her.

“You won’t mention this to anyone, right?” I asked and she looked up to me.

“Nothing happened, so there’s nothing to tell.” She said bluntly and I gave her a slight grimace.

“Don’t say that all of that was nothing,” I said sternly and I watched as her face flooded with regret and she turned towards the house.

“Goodnight, Gareth,” she replied, walking to the back door and sliding it open to go inside, avoiding looking at me as she shut it behind her and she was soon out of sight.

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I sighed heavily as I leaned against the wood railing, thinking about what could’ve happened and I was both mad that I didn’t get to taste her lips and mad that I had been played so hard. I hadn’t been turned down in so long when I was so close to indulging and it bothered me greatly that I failed. I had to admit that there was a certain sense of higher accomplishment when it came to obtaining the unobtainable, and the fact that she turned me down but admitted she felt the same only made me want to try harder. At first I was a little mad at the whole situation that quickly flipped upside down right in front of my eyes, but my perspective soon changed when I thought about it and it only made me think of it as a challenge. I’ll convince her one of these days, she’ll eventually be in a position that I’ll make myself as irresistible as she was just now and then we’ll see if she’s able to hold back the urges that I know she wants to act out with me. Even if it takes me forever, I’ll eventually make her scream my name, and if I’m daring enough, none of what I was planning would ever be obvious enough to get caught this time around.

Generation 3, Chapter 11

    Gareth’s POV     

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“Ahhh, fuck..” I let out softly when I had finally woken up, my eyes opening slowly and I needed to blink a few times before I could see straight. I was more groggy than normal, a slight pain in my skull and a headache helped wake me up more. As I looked up at the ceiling, I could tell I wasn’t in my room, nor was I at Nina’s, but I didn’t care much anyways.. I had woken up in stranger places than this before, at least there was a roof over my head this time. 

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I went to reach for my pack of smokes but I couldn’t move my arm, looking to my right and saw blonde hair, my eyes following down a female frame sleeping next to me and all she wore was a pair of panties. “Damn,” I complimented. I let out another groan and shut my eyes, debating on whether or not to fall back asleep but something else kept me from doing so. The bed moved on my left and I opened my eyes once more, seeing a second girl with strawberry blonde hair adjusting herself to get comfortable and her hand ran over my torso as well as putting one of her legs around mine. I chuckled under my breath and grinned devilishly, “Looks like I had fun last night,” I said quietly.

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My arm was already around the strawberry blonde and my other arm pulled at the normal blonde, watching as she still kept her eyes shut as she rolled to her other side to do the same as the girl to my left. I let out a relaxed sigh, both girls now holding me and I shut my eyes, attempting to try and remember last night as best I could. There were only a few things I could remember; going to the bar, finding these girls and drinking a shit ton with them, then coming back to their place, but after that it’s pretty fuzzy.. Of course, I just had to black out all of the stuff that I actually did want to remember.. I gave my mind a break on trying to think too hard and I decided I needed a little more sleep before I could even think about doing anything else.

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I slept for about two more hours, the sound of my ringtone filled my ears and my eyes opened, looking down at my chest and I was still being held tightly by each of the girls’ sleeping grip. I still didn’t want to get up, contemplating whether or not I should see who’s calling me, but I finally decided I should probably get up anyways and get the hell outta here. I slowly pulled my arms out from underneath their necks and sat up, scooting to the foot of the bed and sitting at the edge. I leaned over to my pants that were lying on the floor and removed my phone from my pocket, looking to the ID and Nina was calling me. “Great..” I said sarcastically, wondering now why the hell I got up.. 

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“Hello..?” I answered my phone, wanting to get this over with.

“Hey, it’s me..” Nina began and I rolled my eyes, no shit it’s you, I thought with frustration.

“What do you want, baby?” I asked with little interest, rubbing the bridge of my nose as I felt my headache coming back.

“Are you at home right now?” She wondered.

“Yeah, just lying in my bed,” I lied, looking over my shoulder and smirking to myself when I saw the sleeping eye candy that laid in the bed.

“I was, uhm.. Just wondering if you were going to come over later?” She asked and I let out a deep sigh, not caring that she could hear it as well.

“I don’t know, babe, I got a terrible headache right now and I’m not in the mood to really do anything tonight,” I reply.

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I could feel the bed moving behind me as I talked to Nina, soon feeling a hand caressing my back in a messaging manner and I shut my eyes as I indulged at the comforting touch. Nina kept talking, which kept me from fully enjoying a calming back rub from one of the girls, “Well, actually.. I was going to see if you want to take it easy tonight and watch a movie or something?” She wondered and I almost forgot to answer her when I felt parted knees on either side of my hips, a pair of hands messaging my shoulders.

“I don’t know if I’m in a mood for a movie, either..” I replied and I could almost feel her disappointment through the phone.

“Well, I just.. I want to talk to you, it’s been a few days.. I’ll make you dinner, too, if you’d like? Whatever you want,” She continued to persist and this was getting a little pathetic at this point. A thought ran through my head and I completely ignored Nina as I thought of Gibson, how long have I not been at the house? A whole week now?

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“I don’t know, I got some stuff I need to do,” I replied.

Then come by when your done..?” She asked with her sweet, mousy voice and I forgot to reply to her again as I felt a pair of soft lips beginning to kiss the back of my neck and the set of hands that were massaging my shoulders slid over my waist to the front of my torso. “..Gareth..?”

“I’ll call you back,” I dismissed her and hung up, tossing my phone onto my pants and I turned around to see the arousal in both of the their eyes as they were both awake now.

“Come back to beddd,” the blonde coaxed and I smirked, turning around completely and crawling back into bed with them.

“Alright.. One more time, then I gotta get going,” I reply and they both giggle in excitement.

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After getting to relive and remind myself what had happened last night, the girls were sad to see me go, but I got the blonde’s cell number first and only acted like I had added the strawberry blonde into my contacts, though of course I didn’t. I usually always picked the hotter of the two whenever this rarely happened, knowing that they are willing to do threesomes and then I’m able to mix and match the hot ones whenever I’m in the mood for this kind of thing again. As I drove home, I wondered what Gibson might say when I get there, poor bastard has probably been lonely as shit this entire time and I felt a little bad for abandoning him for two weeks. But, hopefully he’s kept busy, what with his job and his books and him doing other stuff.. What else does he do for fun when he isn’t at work or reading? I shrug to myself as I can’t seem to remember what else he does and I pull into the parking lot, seeing all the regular cars there, but I parked next to a purple jeep that I’d never seen before.

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I walked down the large dock and reached the house, unlocking the door and coming in slowly and quietly. The house was dead silent which seemed a little odd to me, usually whenever I came home I’d always hear Gibson in the kitchen making food, Jess making noises, Gibson’s music, or even at least the laundry machines running downstairs, but there was nothing. I came into the living room and realized something had changed, “Where the hell are my smokes?” I asked myself, also noticing my ashtray was gone as well and they were replaced with a bottle of wine and two glasses with still remnants of the alcohol left behind inside each one. “Two glasses..?” I asked myself, but it took me only a second to figure out that Gibson must’ve had someone over last night..

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I walked away from the living room and went to the bottom of Gibson’s stairs, stopping myself from going up and I thought for a moment. He couldn’t already have a girl over, could he? Even though he’s been saying he’s over his ex, he always still seems a little bothered whenever any talk of girls comes up, it always made me think he still wasn’t over her. But now, it makes me wonder if he was just being a dick that whole time and was playing games with me, bringing up his ex only to make me feel bad.. That asshole.. I sighed softly to myself, “I gotta check it out..” I finally decided.

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I slowly made my way up his stairs as quietly as I could, being grateful to whoever had built this place right before we moved here and how the stairs didn’t even creak once when I was walking up. I came up to his half wall and finally to the last step, looking around his room and I came to a sudden halt when I saw Gibson lying in his bed with a bombshell, Gibson wearing athletic shorts and the woman wore her panties and a sweater I recognized was Gibs’, my brow rising in surprise. Sadly, Gibson’s sweater just barely covered her breasts and I couldn’t even have a nice show as I was snooping. I should’ve popped my head in and left already, but my eyes stayed glued on the woman he was with and they traveled from her face down every curve of her body and all the way down to her feet, letting out a quiet “phew” of a whistle subconsciously. Gibson began to show some signs of life as he moved himself a little and I took that as my cue to leave, heading back downstairs just as quietly as I had came up and I went back into the living room. 

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I felt my headache coming back and I decided to give myself some ‘hair of the dog’, picking up one of their glasses they had left behind and drinking the warm wine that had been sitting out all night. The taste was terrible, picking up the bottle and looking at the label where I then saw the price tag still stuck on it, “$400 for shitty wine? You’re a fuckin’ idiot, Gibs,” I insulted, putting the bottle back on the coffee table and still continuing to drink it.. It was kind of working, though I wished we had beer somewhere in the house since that’s all I drank last night and it would make me feel a lot better rather than this crappy wine. But, the bottle gave me clues; for how expensive it was, it told me that Gibson would only open it on a special occasion, and he’d never waste what he thinks is ‘good wine’ on a hooker, so the girl in his bed is obviously a date, or even his girlfriend. “Hmm..” I let out softly, beginning to wonder how long he had been seeing her as I sat there alone in silence.

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I heard movement upstairs about ten minutes after I had first sat down in the living room, putting down the wine glass and trying to listen to what was happening upstairs. I could hear Gibson’s low voice but couldn’t make out any words, the woman laughing softly every now and then to whatever he was saying. I eventually heard her heals and his heavy footsteps coming down the staircase and I could hear more of their conversation when I got up and moved stealthily closer.

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“I had fun, we gotta do this again really soon,” the woman suggested with a joyful tone.

“I couldn’t agree more,” Gibson replied, escorting her to the front door and she turned around to face him, wrapping her arms around his waist, “Call me when you’re free again,” Gibson suggested and she smiled.

“I will, hopefully someone will cancel during the week so I don’t have to wait until next Saturday to see you again,” she replied and I heard Gibson chuckle, putting an arm around her to pull her closer and bringing his other hand up to her face. He pulled her into a kiss and it lasted only a few seconds, but after a moment of standing there after it, they both obviously wanted more, kissing again and this time it lasted longer and was a bit more passionate than the last. I didn’t feel right staring at my brother making out with his girlfriend so I averted my eyes until they were done, looking back to them when I heard the sliding door open and close and I knew she had left then.

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Gibson walked away from the door and stopped at his staircase with wide eyes as he looked to me, “Gareth!” He said softly in surprise, “When did you get here?” He asked as if he was nervous about something and I raised one of my brows.

“Jesus, calm the hell down.. I still live here you know, it shouldn’t be that surprising to see me,” I replied and I could tell by the way his expression fluctuated that he was still nervous about something.

“Where have you been the last week?” He asked, and judging by his tone I could tell he didn’t care, he was probably still thinking about the woman that just left.

“Oh, here and there.. Sometimes at Nina’s, sometimes elsewhere.. I woke up today in a random house with two girls in the bed, so I honestly don’t really care, it was a good morning..” I reply and I watch as he rolled his eyes from hearing my whereabouts.

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“Soooo.. Got yourself a new girlfriend, huh?” I asked, watching his expression grow somewhat stiff yet his eyes held suspicion and a hint of anger.

“And what if I do?” He replied with a short tone, noticing I was right and he still got this certain defensive demeanor about him whenever I mentioned his romantic interests.

“Why are you always so confrontational about this? It’s just a simple observation,” I replied.

“Stop talking like that, you just sound like a moron when you try to sound smart,” he retorted and I chuckled at how angry he was getting without me really needing to do anything.

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“What’s your deal? I’m just asking questions.. Just curious is all,” Gibson walked passed me and towards the living room, taking his bottle of wine and placing it back within the rack he had hanging by the kitchen.

“About what, exactly?” He asked, though his tone sounded bored.

“That little fox that just left our house, how’d you meet her?” I questioned, seeing him then walking to the wine glasses and bringing them into the kitchen and beginning to wash them.

“Gareth, please don’t start this..” Gibson pleaded and I gave him a confused expression, “Don’t even look at me like that, it’s what you do.. You get to know a girl without even getting to know her yourself so it’s an easy in. But no, I’m not going to let you do that with this one, I’d rather she just continue to believe that you don’t exist,” he replied with an irritated tone.

“Wait.. You haven’t told her about me?” I asked, wondering if I had heard him correctly.

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“..No, I haven’t,” he replied with a bland voice, seemingly unwavered by his own words as I looked to him, somewhat in shock.

“What the fuck?! Why not? You’d be in more deep shit if she had seen me here, wondering who the fuck I was when she’s under the impression that you live alone! What would you have said then?” I retorted with anger, waiting a few long moments for a response.

“Maybe I’m a little embarrassed of you, ever thought about that? Maybe even a little intimidated, though I can’t stand admitting it. I don’t want to have to relive you stealing a girlfriend right out from under me.. This one’s different,” he replied.

“And what the hell makes you think I’d do it again?  I already feel bad enough about all that..” I replied with a somewhat defensive tone.

“Gareth, spare me! It’s something I can forgive you for, but I’ll be damned if I forget it.. You have a reputation about you that isn’t something to parade around with and be proud of, you woke up in a bed with two girls that I’m sure you can’t remember the names of and you’re cheating on Nina constantly! You killed off our mother, but Bennu still isn’t good enough for you to take over the role, so you look for solace in every possible girl you can find to fill the hole you have that you made yourself.. I don’t want her to become another one of your victims, whether it’s flirting or worse, and I don’t want her to know I’m related to someone so deranged and unstable,” he replied and I stood there in disbelief. 

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“..Jesus, Gibs.. Talk about uncalled for..” I finally reply, seeing him look towards me with remorse now in his eyes.

“Gareth, I’m sorry.. I don’t know why I said all that,” he said, his tone now matching what he held in his eyes, but all I could do was glare at him in anger.

“Well, there’s gotta be truth in some of it, right..? I guess I’ll go and continue to act as if I don’t exist,” I reply harshly, walking away from the kitchen towards the door.

“Gareth, wait!” He stressed, but I still kept walking, “Her name is Hannah!” Gibson began and I slowly came to a stop, wondering if this was some sort of apology, “I met her a couple weeks ago on my way home from work.. She runs her own daycare because she loves kids, she has a dog named Klaus and even Jess likes him. She wants to become a chef, but I think she should open her own bakery because she says making desserts are her favorite part of it all. Her favorite color is lilac, she’s sweet and funny, confident.. And I really, really like her,” he continued and I turned around, “Please, just.. Forget what I said before..”

“I’m happy for you,” I reply with more sarcasm than I intended, “I’m your twin for fucks sake, you can at least acknowledge my existence, asshole..” I finish, turning back around and leaving the house.

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I slam the sliding door behind me and I can’t contain the rage that’s building up inside as I make my way back to the car. “There’s literally nothing I can fucking say anymore without this shit happening, why can’t he just fucking talk to me without getting defensive over the littlest fucking things!?” I asked myself aloud as I walked to the car. I got into the car and started hitting the steering wheel and dashboard while simultaneously continuing to yell, “So – Fucking – Stupid!”

I stopped punching everything when I noticed I was beginning to warp the steering wheel a little, panting heavily as I sat there. I leaned forward to rest my arms on the wheel and I placed my forehead against my wrists, trying to take slow, deep breaths as I sat there. “I’m an embarrassment, huh? A big fucking disappointment and that’s all I am to you. I’m not even your fucking brother anymore, and to you I don’t even exist,” I continue, shutting my eyes as I sat there in my own rage and sorrow, still breathing heavily from my anger as I was unable to fully calm myself. How was he able to do that? At the flip of a switch he can go from being my brother to my captor and he makes me feel like one of his victims. He is good at what he does, I’ve missed being a team and his words hit harder than anyone else’s.. I just never expected he’d be driven to do that to me. The moment I noticed my bottom lip quiver was the same moment I lifted my head and took a huge, deep breath, refusing to let him get to me enough to the point where I couldn’t live with myself knowing I wasn’t strong enough to hold back a few goddamn tears. I composed myself within seconds though my anger still remained, starting the car and I clenched the wheel as I drove off.

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I stopped by the liquor store and picked up a bottle of whiskey, driving then to the park and I got out of the car, making sure to bring the bottle with me. I sat down heavily onto a park bench and uncapped the bottle, taking a large swig of it and placing it down next to me on the bench. I was in a somewhat secluded area, though I was in no way hidden from anyone. I didn’t have anywhere to go, at least no where I wanted to be.. There’s no way I was going back to the house, and I didn’t want to go to Nina’s yet, it was still early, but never too early for a drink. I sat there for a while, maybe about an hour or two while occasionally taking a swig off the whiskey and gradually getting drunker as I sat there deep in thought. 

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No matter how hard Gibson explained himself and no matter how hard I tried to understand, I still couldn’t get passed the fact that we’ve been growing apart ever since we moved here. We weren’t the same anymore, we don’t enjoy the same things and our trust in one another has been dwindling from the very moment we bought the house together. What once was an unbreakable bond and friendship was now nothing but selfishness and deception, on both our parts. What made it all change? I can understand him wanting a family, he’d be a good dad, and I understand him wanting to share his life with someone, he’s a good guy.. But, I never expected this to go as far as him replacing me again. Why couldn’t he just have both? Was he really that ashamed to call me his brother? I was losing him when he was with his ex, I slept with her so they’d break up knowing full well that Gibson despised cheaters, but.. What do I do now? Do I attempt at it again and break them up, or do I simply remain a ghost?

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It was about three in the afternoon when someone kicked my foot rather harshly and my head bobbed a little, though keeping my eyes shut and continuing to try and pass out on the bench. “Hey, buddy, get up,” a voice demanded and I let out a groan, reaching for my bottle of whiskey but it was ripped from my hands and I heard the cap being twisted back onto it.

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“Hey, I was fucking drinking that, asshole,” I said harshly, finally opening my eyes and my vision was a little blurred, but I could tell there were two cops in front of me by the blindingly shiny badge that I despised, pinned to both of their uniforms. 

“Come on, move it, bud.. You can’t drink in the park, that’s what bars are for. It’s a little early to be drinking anyways, isn’t it?” The cop that held my bottle mocked.

“Just leave me alone you fucking pigs, and gimme my fucking bottle back,” I demand but the other cop continues to hold onto it.

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“Public intoxication and insulting an officer of the law.. You might as well quit while your ahead, bud,” the first cop threatened.

“I’m not your fucking buddy, pig, now gimme my damn bottle back and leave me the fuck alone,” I repeated myself, standing from the bench and both cops placed a hand upon their guns and I chuckled, biting my tongue and I knew where this was going if I continued..

“We can either arrest you now and take you in for public intoxication, or you can continue to be a smart ass and we’ll take you in for that as well as resisting arrest. Go ahead, take a swing at me, might as well throw assault and battery charges on there, too, huh?” he continued to threaten and stepped up closer to me to show he wasn’t intimidated.

“Don’t tempt me,” I replied with a sly grin. As much as I wanted to take the gun from his holster and hold it in his mouth as I listen to him beg me not to do it before I blew his fucking brains out, even if I am drunk, I still know better.. 

“Turn around and put your hands behind you back, smartass,” He replied.

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“Whatever you say, piggy,” I reply, turning around slowly and putting my hands behind my back. I smirked as I bit the inside of my lip, trying my hardest to hold in my anger as he roughly put the cuffs on me and shoved me towards the direction of their patrol car, losing my balance from still being slightly drunk and I fell to the ground, feeling my eyebrow scrape on the sidewalk. “Fuckin’ asshole!” I called out angrily as I heard them both chuckling and I wanted to kick back and break their knees, but before I could act on it, they had me back up on my feet and were escorting me to their car. 

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The drive to the station was short and I was thrown into a drunk tank, alone, to hopefully sober up so I could get the fuck out of here faster. I wish they would’ve let me have one last drink before taking me in.. I laid there bored but still angry, knowing none of what was on my mind was going to leave anytime soon, but I hated thinking about it when I didn’t have a drink I could drown it out with. I decided to sleep, trying to relax in the uncomfortable bed and staring at the bland ceiling and soon my eyelids grew heavy, shutting my eyes and I drifted off to sleep with ease thanks to half the bottle of whiskey I still had in my system.

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A loud rattling noise clanged between the cell bars, my eyes rushing open and being pulled out of my slumber instantly and looking to the cell door. “Rise and shine, asshole,” one of the cops from earlier said as he banged his nightstick in between the bars.

Shut the fuck up! I’m awake! Jesus..” I said harshly as I rubbed my head, the sound giving me a slight headache that was worse than the one from this morning.

“Your bail has been paid,” he answered disappointingly and I looked to him, my eyes narrowing in suspicion, hoping that they didn’t contact Gibson; he’s the last person I wanted to see right now.

“..Who paid it..?” I asked with a short tone. 

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My expression softened when Nina stepped out from behind the officer, standing there giving me a worried expression. I sighed softly, standing from the bed and walking to the door of the cell, “Well, what the fuck are you waiting for? Open the fucking door,” I taunted and he gave me a harsh glare for a few long seconds before finally opening up the cell.

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It was obvious Nina wanted to hug me but I walked passed her quickly and I could hear her feet shuffling across the floor as she struggled to keep up, “What happened to your face?” She asked with concern.

How the hell did you bail me out? Wasn’t it a thousand bucks?” I questioned, ignoring her question and touching my wound with my fingers, feeling it still stinging me but the pain wasn’t too much of a bother.

“Oh, uhm.. Y-Yeah, but I had some money in my savings..” She replied.

“Don’t you have to pay a big fee to do that? You just wasted a shit ton of money,” I replied with frustration.

“It wasn’t a waste.. I couldn’t leave you there..” She answered with sympathy.

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“And how’d you know I was in there, anyways?” I continued to question.

“I-I was driving around running errands and I saw them putting you into the police car.. I came to the station to see if there was a way to get you out and they told me your bail amount.. I-I was having trouble with the bank for a while which is why it took so long, but I finally got it and came straight here..”

“How long have I been here already?” I asked next.

“Well, it’s about 7:00 now, so 4 hours?” I sighed heavily at the time, wishing that she had never noticed me when she was driving around and I was left here now rather than obligated to go to Nina’s.. 

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We walked through the lobby and before we could leave, one of the officers from before stood at the front desk grabbed my attention, “Had to call your lady to bail you out, huh? Does she change your diapers, too, boy?” He taunted and I stopped, turning around and walking back up to the desk. 

“For the record, I didn’t fucking call her because none of you pigs gave me my one phone call, and for another record, why don’t you take that pretty little doughnut eating mouth of yours and suck my fucking co-” Nina’s hand went over my mouth and she pulled me away from the desk as the officer straightened out his back more threateningly.

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“I’m so sorry! ..Please don’t listen to him! We’re leaving!” She pleaded, continuing to pull me away and keeping me from saying anything else and I lifted my hands before walking out the door, flipping them off before leaving and Nina attempt to keep my hands down as well.

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We got to Nina’s and I sat on the couch within her large living room, letting out a heavy sigh as I shut my eyes and tried to relax after this terribly eventful day. I was somewhat sober again, yet there was still a tiny trace of the whiskey within me and I looked to Nina who was already glaring at me like a disappointed mother, “Do you have any beer, or what?” I asked harshly, Nina popping out of her trance on me and she jumped to my request.

“Y-Yeah, of course! H-Hold on,” she replied, rushing to the kitchen and grabbing what I had asked for. She came back with a beer in hand with the top already popped off and handing it to me, which I took quickly and chugged about half of.

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I looked up to Nina who still stood in the same spot as she had when we first arrived and I was wondering why she wasn’t on the couch with me yet so I could attempt to get her in the mood. I tried to avert my eyes from her constant stare, but it was making me angry the more and more she just simply stared and didn’t do anything, “What the hell are you looking at?” I asked, causing her to finally give way and she looked away from me.

“N-Nothing.. It’s nothing..” She replied and I squinted my eyes in suspicion, taking another swig of my beer.

“Then what the hell is wrong with you? Sit down already..” I added harshly and she nodded, taking the seat next to me and I turned on the television.

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Well, this was awkward.. I could obviously tell that something was on Nina’s mind, yet she wasn’t telling me what it was and I knew it wouldn’t be out of her thoughts unless I either asked her or distracted her.. There was no curiosity within me that wanted to ask her what it was, anyways, so I resorted to my second option.. I turned towards her and grabbed her hip with my right hand, pulling her closer to me and I kissed her lips harshly without her having a choice. One thing I could always be sure of was when she wasn’t in the mood, the way she kissed bothered me so much and her mouth was always so stiff. It took work getting her to relax and I wasn’t really in the best mindset to even talk to her as if she even mattered, resulting in me forcing myself upon her, but it was starting to be less fun the more she barely responded to me kissing her.

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After making out with her for a few long minutes, which was awful anyhow, I broke away from her mouth and gripped the bottom of her shirt, pulling it up and over her head and tossing it on the ground, then grabbing her legs to pull her closer and I draped them over mine. My lips then went to her neck to try and coax her into showing me at least one sign that her body was enjoying it as my right hand went straight to her chest and I messaged her breast with my hand over her bra, beginning to hear her breathing heavier but it still wasn’t good enough for me. My fingers pulled the cup of her bra slightly and my thumb began caressing her nipple, and although her body reacted perfectly to my touch, Nina still wasn’t making any noises like I was used to and I got frustrated all over again.

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I stopped, pulling my hand away from her chest and pulling my lips away from her neck as well, looking to her face and seeing her discomfort. “What the hell’s wrong?” I asked with little patience and she looked away from me as she shook her head.

“N-Nothing.. I told you..”

“Well, I don’t fuckin’ believe you. Either like it or tell me to stop and I’ll just fuckin’ go,” I replied angrily.

“No! I-I.. I don’t want you to go..” She pleaded softly, looking to me and I couldn’t take this, pushing her legs off of me and standing to my feet with frustration.

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“Then what the hell is it?” I asked, though I could care less, crossing my arms in anger and walking over to the window. 

“I..” She began, but stopped. God, this was so annoying, I wanted her to either let me get some or I was just going to go to sleep without her. She sat there for a few long seconds before finally replying again. “I just.. I wish you wouldn’t go looking for trouble.. Don’t you think that you might.. I don’t know.. Have some responsibilities?” She questioned and I chuckled.

“Looking for trouble? I wasn’t looking for shit, those fuckin’ cops brought me in for just sitting on a bench.”

“Gareth.. I could smell the whiskey on you when I picked you up, and one of the cops was holding a half drunken bottle when they put you into the car..” She called out my bluff and it only made me angrier.

“So what, now you’re going to tell me I should stop drinking, right? Is that one of the responsibilities you’re implying?” I add sarcastically.

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“Well, it couldn’t hurt..” She replied and I shook my head slightly as I tried to comprehend where all of this was even coming from.

“And why the fuck are you acting like my Mom right now? It’s like out of nowhere you have a problem with me and how I act when you know damn well that this is how I am,” I pointed out strongly.

“W-Well.. There’s always room for improvement.. Whenever you get the strength to change..”

“Now you’re calling me weak? You’re walking on some pretty fuckin’ thin ice, Nina, you should watch what you fucking say to me,” I threaten and she only replies after a long silence.

“..I-I’m not calling you weak.. I-I’m just concerned.. Do you always want to be like this?”

“If I’m happy, then why the hell not?” I ask harshly.

“Well.. Are you happy?” She wondered in return and I fell silent. Any other day I could answer’yes’ proudly, but after what Gibson said earlier, I wondered myself if I was happy, or even if I ever was. I shook off my doubt and grew angry once more, getting sick and tired of this back and forth conversation that seemed to be going nowhere and I wanted it to be over with.

“Look Nina, either get to the fucking point and tell me what’s wrong with you or I’m leaving and not coming back,” I threaten her again and finally, she gets to her damn point.

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“I-I’m.. Pregnant,” she replied quietly and I sensed the joy in her tone.

I turned around and gave a threatening gaze, “What the fuck did you just say to me?” I question with my anger rising, seeing the motherly glow in her eyes quickly disappearing from the mere sight of my expression. She was right to be scared.

Generation 3, Chapter 10

Attention: Heads up, NSFW chapter. A little lengthy as well.

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It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this relaxed and content. Gareth hasn’t been home in a week since we last saw one another, but we weren’t ignoring each other, he just hadn’t come home yet. It was weird having a somewhat loving moment with him before he left, it was weird of me to act so vulnerable and to let down one of my many walls in order to show him how I really felt, but I was glad I had let myself be that weak. Maybe he’s finally able to understand me a little better now. Everything I said was true though, I never wanted to see Gareth locked up and I never wanted him to live out his life in a place where I can’t be with him whenever I wanted to be. A place like that would change him, and not for the better.. I can’t let him throw his life away.. I know I was being selfish by coming out and saying I didn’t want to be alone, but that’s the thing, even if I wasn’t alone and I was surrounded by everyone I loved, I still would be if he wasn’t there.

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I sit on my bed for a few hours, browsing the internet and reading random articles to keep up on current news and stories. However, browsing soon turned into searching, trying to find anything I could on deaths that have occurred within Lucky Palms from the date we moved here until now. There were over one hundred results within the last 5 years, but most of them seemed to be of either natural causes or accidents that even Gareth couldn’t pull off. But, there was roughly twenty deaths that I wasn’t sure about, all of them seemed to be something that Gareth could do, but of course, there was no other information for me to go on in order to be sure it was him.. He is pretty good at what he does.. That, or he hasn’t been killing as much as I had thought he was. I looked up the most recent murder and nothing has happened since that Katherine girl turned up on the shore, and still no leads.. She was last seen at the Spring festival a few weeks ago, but it wasn’t the night that Gareth got involved with her.. “Hmm.. At least he hasn’t done anything since her.

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A knock on the front door made me jump, thinking it was Gareth and I closed out of every tab I had open and shut my laptop in a hurry. I stood from my bed and thought for a moment.. It couldn’t be Gareth, he’d just barge right in.. So who was it? I walked down the steps cautiously and peaked towards the door without coming all the way downstairs, seeing Hannah waiting on the other side for someone to answer the door. “Shit..” I panicked a little. I didn’t look presentable at all, but I couldn’t make her wait while I went to change and I didn’t want to ignore her and act as if I wasn’t here.. I guess I had to answer it.

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I walked downstairs to the door and smirked when we made eye contact through the glass, sliding it open and coming out of the house to greet her. “What are you doing here?” I asked, looking around the dock and towards the parking lot, trying to see if Gareth was anywhere nearby in case he was planning on coming home at all today, but luckily he wasn’t around.

“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to barge in like this, I hope I didn’t interrupt anything..?” She said with a sorrowful tone and I shook my head.

“No, no.. It’s fine, I just.. Wasn’t expecting company,” I replied.

“Well, I was in town getting a few things and I thought I’d stop by.. I’m sorry I haven’t called you. I’ve been really busy lately with work.. Today’s been my first day off since we last saw each other,” she answered my first question.

“It’s okay, I figured you were busy. I’m glad you’re here, actually,” I answered and she smiles more.

“Do you mind if I come in? It’s.. Kinda hot out,” she said with a giggle and I froze for a moment, not wanting to be rude and wanting to let her in, though I wasn’t sure if any of Gareth’s stuff was lying around..

“Not at all.. Please,” I said reluctantly, but added a smirk afterwards, gesturing her to come inside and she did so as I followed behind her.

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I walked in after her, but I walked faster than her so I could get into the living room first, scanning the room quickly to see if I could find anything of Gareth’s and hide it before she notices. “Oh, is your room upstairs?” She wondered and I was thankful that she hadn’t come this far yet, seeing one of Gareth’s many half packs of cigarettes sitting on the coffee table along with his ashtray and I brought them into the kitchen to shove into a drawer and hide.

“Yeah, feel free to check it out if you want,” I add, seeing yet another pack of cigarettes lying on the counter and I shoved those into a random drawer as well. 

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“Cool,” she replied happily and I could hear her going upstairs, letting out a relived sigh now that I had more time to check the whole place for his things without worrying if she’d find something that I couldn’t explain. Jess started barking and my eyes widened momentarily, wanting to let her out of her crate in hopes that Hannah wouldn’t assume that I just lock her up all day, even though I do. I rushed downstairs and to Jess’s crate, letting her out and she bolted passed me to run upstairs and investigate who else was here.

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I went back upstairs quickly and noticed Hannah still wasn’t on the first floor.. She was probably still within my room, which meant Jess was up there now as well and I hated whenever she was up there.. I could hear Hannah talking to Jess, but I couldn’t make out the words, walking to the bottom of my stairs and making my ascent up to join them and see what they were up to. I came up to find Hannah rubbing Jess’s belly and I scoffed, seeing the mutt begging for attention like she usually did and rubbing her disgusting dog fur all over my clean wooden floor.

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Hannah stood up from petting Jess when she noticed me and she looked around my room once more before making eye contact again, “I like your room, it’s so clean,” she added with a chuckle, “The view is amazing, too, just like I thought it would be.”

I smiled at Hannah, “Thanks,” I reply, looking to Jess and I pointed towards the stairs; first things first.. “Go downstairs,” I demanded and she put her ears down, but did as she was told and left. I looked up to Hannah, “Sorry, I don’t like her in my room, she has the tendency to chew on my stuff,” I add.

“Oh.. Sorry, I didn’t know,” she replied with an innocent smile.

“I know, it’s alright, she just wanted to see who was here.. I’m glad you like my room, though,” I reply with a smirk and she walks around my room, seeing her admire it as I watched her.

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“Oh yeah.. Well, I have off today, which is another reason why I stopped by. I was wondering if you’d be up for taking me out to dinner tonight like we had talked about?” She asked, facing me from across the room as her fingers dragged over my pile of books and I nodded.

“Yeah, I’d love to. I remember telling you to choose anywhere you wanted to go, as well.. Any idea on where I can take you?” I wondered, walking around my room and making my way towards her slowly.

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“Hmm..” She thought for a moment, turning her attention towards my back sliding door and admiring the view, “Do you like seafood? Would The Blue Horizon work? It’s one of my favorite spots,” she replied, looking towards me with a smile and then returning her gaze to the large back porch. 

“Of course, we can go there,” I replied, soon reaching her side and looking out the back with her.

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“When do you want to go?” I asked, looking down towards her and we connected eyes. I could barely contain myself, staring at her elegant blue-green orbs and the faint smell of her perfume made my heart beat faster, but she turned away shyly and I watched her shrug.

“Whenever.. You could get dressed now and we could go to my place so I could change, by the time we get to the restaurant, it’ll be around 6:00, perfect time for dinner.. Sound good?” She asked, looking back to me as I still hadn’t taken my eyes off of her.

I noticed her glance at my lips and back to my eyes before I answered her, “Yeah, sounds good,” I confirmed softly, glancing to her lips as well before returning to her eyes and I didn’t want to wait any longer before I could kiss her.. Even without going on a romantic date to set the mood, it seemed appropriate timing now, yet I still didn’t know if I should.

“Well, get dressed.. I’ll wait for you downstairs,” she added with a tone that made my hair stand on end, watching as she then walked passed me and she gave me a flirtatious smirk as she made her descent down the staircase.

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I let out a breath of air through my lips, taking a moment to calm myself so I could try and focus on what I should wear. I looked through all of my clothes, focusing mostly on my black attire since this was a formal occasion and I was aiming to highly impress. I ended up picking a black pair of pants as well as a black suit, a white undershirt, and I was tousling between different colors of ties I could wear. I pondered for a moment, looking towards the stairs and calling out to Hannah, “What’s your favorite color?” I called down.

“Umm…” She said loudly, “I like the color lilac a lot, anything really that’s some shade of purple,” she replied, searching through my ties again and soon finding a tie that matched her favorite color.

“It’s already 5:30, are you sure you only need a half hour to get ready?” I call down the stairs as I throw the tie around my neck and begin securing it so it laid nicely.

“Yeah, don’t worry about me,” she replied and I shrugged to myself as I finished my tie, taking a moment to look in the reflection of the glass on the front sliding door at how I looked. Not bad, it’ll have to do for such short notice. 

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I dabbed some cologne on my neck and wrists before walking downstairs and going towards the living room in search for Hannah, seeing her standing by the back door, “Ready?” I asked, adjusting my tie a little as she turned around. She stared at me for a few seconds, looking up to her from my tie and I raised my brow, “What is it?” I wondered, a little nervous by how she wasn’t saying anything.

Hannah shook her head slowly, “Nothing.. You just look really handsome,” she replied, surprising me slightly and a smirk formed on the edge of my lips. I was more than happy that she was pleased with how I looked, I could feel my chest constricting from slight nerves and it didn’t help that the look in her eyes said that she wanted me. I was feeling pretty damn good about myself right now.

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I grew a little more on edge as she walked towards me and her hands reached up, her fingertips beginning to straighten out my tie. I found it hard to form words at the moment, all I could stare at was the smile on her lips as she adjusted my tie to lay nicer, “I like your tie, it goes well with your eyes..” She said softly, a light giggle following after, “I was wondering why you were asking my favorite color,” she added, the tie in between her index finger and thumb and she dragged her hand down it slowly. I nearly keeled over when her eyes met mine with my tie still in her grip, wanting her to pull on it and kiss me like I know both of us have been wanting to do, yet that wish was shattered when she finally let go of my tie and gave a flirtatious grin. “Let’s get going, yeah?” She recommended. I didn’t like how hard she was to read, though one thing I knew for sure was she loved to tease, and I wasn’t sure if I liked that now, either. It was fun at first and I even played along, but now whenever she did such subtle yet erotic implications, it was hard not to act on my inner thoughts wanting me to throw her on the couch and take her right at this very moment. But, I had a good amount of self control and a reputation to uphold that only I cared about, and that was to be a gentleman until the very end. Besides, if I were lucky enough to go home with her tonight, I had plans for her that I knew she’d more than appreciate and I could wait until then.

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Hannah went out to her car to wait for me as I locked Jess in Gareth’s room and locked up the house. Driving to her place was a little quiet, but not as awkward as I thought, the sooner our dinner date came the more my nerves began to spike. We arrived at her home and she looked to me in the car, “Come on in, I can’t let you wait in the car the whole time,” she gestured and I agreed, getting out of the car and following her upstairs to the living quarters above her work. I didn’t have time to look around before the smell of sugar cookies and fruity baked goods entered my nose, believing now judging by only the smell that she was a good cook like has said she wanted to become. Hannah faced me and smirked, “The place isn’t as clean as I’d like it, but make yourself at home anyways. I’ll go get ready,” she said in a welcoming manner and I nodded, watching her go into her room and shut the door. 

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Hannah had a very tiny home, but it inhabited a very homey feeling and I liked how she had decorated it; it reminded me of a quaint cottage with unique art that went well with the feel of it. I noticed a bunch of cook books stacked on a small coffee table next to her television, looking recently used which is more than I could say for her TV with the amount of dust that clouded the screen and the remote nowhere to be found. I enjoyed knowing she would rather stick her nose in a book than laze around on the couch. I walked around her small home with one hand in my jacket pocket, taking in all that there was to her living room and moving into the kitchen. The counter tops were pristine and nothing was on the floor, though I don’t know why I thought it would be otherwise. I enjoyed it here already, hoping I’d get to return here with her on another night that we didn’t have dinner plans.

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Even though I didn’t much care for television myself, I came back into the living room and turned it on, not knowing what else to do. I would’ve read one of the many books that she had, but they were all cook books and I didn’t have near enough patience to force myself to read one of those. It was hard enough already trying to keep my active mind occupied, what with knowing that Hannah was undressing behind a door that was no more than ten feet from where I sat, but I tried to focus on whatever the hell I was watching.. Something about robots and a mad scientist..

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I heard Hannah’s door open, “Okay, ready to go,” she announced and I stood up in a hurry, turning the television off and turning to face her. I stopped, frozen in my tracks as I looked to her, make up done and she was neatly dolled up in a halter dress that came down to her mid thigh and off-white pumps that made my Adam’s apple hurt I swallowed so roughly. “Gibson?” She wondered with a chuckle following it.

“Oh, uhm.. Sorry. I’m not used to my breath being taken away,” I replied with a soft tone, witnessing her cheeks turn a light pink and I finally regained my motor functions enough to smile in return. I was excited by the dress she had worn, it was as if she already knew how spectacular her legs were and she had every right to show them off. I’m glad she did. 

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I stepped closer to her and I watched her lips lose their smile, yet her eyes still contained anticipation as she watched me approach. My left hand reached for her right, picking it up gently and pulling her fingers to my lips, kissing them softly as I was unable to hold back putting my lips on her somewhere at least once before going to dinner. “You look exquisite, Hannah,” I voiced with a charming smirk, watching as she broke eye contact and her cheeks flushed a little more. “Shall we?” I gestured towards the door with my right hand, letting go of her hand with my left and placing it on her lower back, escorting her out of her house and to her car.

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After a short drive, we arrived at the restaurant and Hannah took the opportunity to put her hand around my arm and I happily escorted her. Coming into the restaurant together with her on my arm made me feel accomplished and proud, happy to have such a catch accompanying me to such a privileged establishment and it made me feel above everyone else. A man in his early fifties greeted us at the door, “Table for two?” He asked and I nodded in agreement, “Wonderful. I’m Branden, I’ll take you to your table and I’ll also be your waiter tonight.. Inside or on our outside deck?” He wondered.

“Outside, please,” Hannah replied, Branden nodded with a smirk and escorted us to the outside part of the restaurant. 

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We were seated outside like Hannah had requested and the view was incredible. I had never been here before and as much as it was hard to take my eyes off of Hannah, her in the foreground of such a beautiful background made her so much more glorious in my eyes. Branden asked what we could like to order and I had chosen a shrimp dish while Hannah had ordered grilled salmon and he walked away to put our order in as we talked. I always liked the conversations Hannah and I had, it was never something I couldn’t deal with or was bored talking about, I was surprised when she was so much like me to the point where we’d agree on a lot of the same views about subjects that most would conflict with, but it made me that much more interested in her.

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It was only about a half an hour wait before Branden had brought us our food, “Can I get you anything else?” He had asked and neither of us could think of anything that we needed and he left us alone to enjoy our meals and each other. We spent about two to three hours at the restaurant, I had ordered a few glasses of wine for us after eating and we continued to talk and flirt as the night went on. There even came a time where Hannah began sliding her ankle up and down my calf and I couldn’t help my self, needing to touch her skin and she let me caress her knee and upper thigh with my fingertips. After finishing our second glass of wine, my thumb circled her knee softly as I worked up the courage to invite her over, though judging on how the night was already going, I assumed she wouldn’t have a problem with it. “I have a new bottle of wine sitting at home that I still haven’t opened, would you like to go back to my place and help me drink it?” I asked, seeing the corners of her lips curling up into a soft smile.

“Yeah, I’d love to,” she agreed and I grew excited, but also nervous. The easier part of the date was over now as we both stood up and I escorted her out of the restaurant, but the harder part was still to come and I hoped she’d be open to any advance I’d make. It was safe for me to assume that tonight wouldn’t end without finally getting to kiss her, though in the back of my mind, I hoped there would be so much more to come as all of my pent up energy began to rear its head the longer I was with her.

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Gareth still wasn’t home and I didn’t expect him to be for a few more days, at least with how long he’s been gone already, knowing that tonight I could enjoy the house alone with Hannah. I got out a bottle of the best wine I had and poured us each a glass, taking a seat on the couch and Hannah took the seat directly next to me. I watched as she crossed her magnificent legs and rested her hand on the inside of my thigh, making my whole body heat up and I took a few sips of my wine so the glass could hide a smile I couldn’t hold back. It was hard to focus on anything she was saying as my eyes constantly glanced at her hand upon my leg, but I did the best that I could, able to reply with short answers yet just long enough to prove I was still paying attention.. Well, slightly paying attention. What was amusing though was how much more talkative and giggly she got after she had finished two more glasses at my place, now four down and I knew she was getting a bit buzzed, but I didn’t like that. I didn’t want her to have anymore, another glass and in my mind I’d then be taking advantage of her, and I wasn’t Gareth. But, there’s no way I could be as bad as him, she’d be tanked if he was the one giving her drinks.

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When there was a break in our conversation, I reached for her glass and took it, getting up momentarily to place both mine and hers on the coffee table and I came back to where I was. I put my arm back around her and my hand cupped her shoulder, Hannah giving me a questionable look. I didn’t want to wait anymore, I couldn’t, her presence was overwhelming and I couldn’t keep looking at her lips when she talked knowing I haven’t tasted them yet. “I’ve enjoyed tonight, it’s been a lot of fun, wouldn’t you agree?” I asked.

“Yeah, definitely,” she replied, “I’ve been worried, though.. I didn’t feel like you felt the same, I’ve been waiting for you to kiss me practically all day,” she replied and I was a little surprised, feeling slightly bad now that I had caused her to worry if I had liked her or not.

A small grin formed on my lips, “I’m sorry for making you think that, I’ll make it up to you now,” I replied.

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I brought my right hand up to her face, dragging it back to the nape of her neck and I pulled her towards me, bringing her lips to mine and a rush of excitement coursed through me. I could taste the excellent wine on her lips and as the kiss grew deeper, I could taste it more on her tongue. At last, I had finally kissed her, she was finally mine. I’ve known her for such a short time, yet I felt like I’ve known her for years, but either way the payoff was just as sweet and as selfish as this was, I already wanted more.

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I finally pulled away from our kiss, panting softly as I tried to contain myself, though as I looked to Hannah, I could easily read she didn’t want me to stop. After the extremely short silence after the kiss, I was surprised when Hannah rose from her seat and threw her leg over me, straddling me and her lips crashed back into mine. This was it, we both felt it and I knew it, already I was crazy about her and I still hung on to the promise I had made myself; nothing was going to ruin this. My hands gripped her thighs in my need for her and they slowly ran up underneath her dress, I could feel her pantie line barely grazing my fingertips and I felt my heart begin to race faster. She pulled away from me momentarily and looked me in the eye, “Take me upstairs,” she softly demanded and I had no reason to contest.

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Hannah’s lips pushed back into mine and I lifted her up within my grasp, her legs wrapping around my waist as we continued our passionate kiss and I made sure not to trip as I brought her up to my room. I set down Hannah when we reached my bedroom and she broke the kiss to take off my jacket, tossing it aside and she undid my tie next and threw that aside as well. Neither of us wanted to stop kissing, continuing it and I then felt her fingertips beginning to unbutton my undershirt. I reached behind her and felt the hanging straps from her haulter dress, grabbing hold of one and pulling it so her dress would fall off of her and it slid slowly down her slender body until it hit the floor.

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After removing her dress and tossing it aside along with my glasses and shirt, there was something I needed and wanted to do since this morning when I had seen her in my room. “Lie down,” I requested softly and I watched as she smiled seductively, wondering what I was up to though I know she knew exactly what I wanted to do. Eyeing her incredible body up and down before my knees met the floor, I took in just how much more beautiful she was as she laid there, half naked on my bed and I couldn’t explain how much I anticipated and hoped for this. My hands ran up and down her smooth, endless legs, pulling her left thigh to my lips and softly kissing her knee and slowly moving my lips up to her thigh with every sensual peck I gave. I heard her letting out quiet, whispered giggles as my lips tickled the inside of her thigh.

“Gibson..” She let out quietly, her saying my name only compelled me to continue.

“Your legs so are perfect..” I added softly in between a kiss, my lips getting closer to her pantie line and as much as I wanted to keep worshiping her legs, my fingers acted on their own, sliding underneath the only thing that kept me from indulging on her womanhood and slipping them all the way down her endless lower limbs.

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I slipped my hands underneath her and gripped her bottom, forcibly pulling her towards the edge of the bed more and she fell back onto my sheets as she let out a gasp of anticipation. Securing both of her legs over both of my shoulders on either side, I kissed the insides of her thighs roughly as I made my way up and up until my lips finally met the warmth of her. I’ve been dying to make her toes curl, make her ache for me, but only when the time was right. I admit it had been longer than I wanted to get another girl worthy enough to grace the soft sheets of my bed, but I’m glad that I had waited until Hannah; she was more than worth the wait. 

“Ohh, God, Gibson.. Don’t stop,” she pleaded softly through her pleasure and I felt her fingers run through my hair and grip it tightly within her balled fist. She made my pulse race, gripping her thighs harder and I loved feeling her legs softly squeezing the sides of my face as I then put more effort into it and my tongue was relentless. This was one of my top favorite things to do when it came to, well.. Anything, really.. Legs were my weakness, but having the privilege to be let in in between the legs of the woman I favored was so much more satisfying. The taste alone sent myself to feel the ecstasy that I knew she felt, I could do this for days on end if she would let me, but there was only so much I knew she could take before she’d want all of me entirely. I knew what I was doing, I had had enough practice and I knew she would beg for me within minutes of this. Every second of her pleasure accompanied by pleasureful moans and cries that filled my ears built me up and although I wanted to do this all night, she finally spoke up like I knew she would, “Please.. Ahh! ..Stop.. I-I need you.. Now,” she pleaded with a raspy tone, her voice already exhausted from what I had been doing to her, but I wasted no time at her request, letting go of her legs and wiping my mouth before unbuckling my pants and getting rid of the last shreds of clothes that hugged my body.

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I crawled on top of her and I could see the exhaustion in her eyes already, but I wasn’t about to let her be done with me yet even when she had asked for me. I guided myself inside of her and she let out a large gasp of air that I thought would send her over the edge alone, but as I began thrusting, she struggled to get used to the sudden change from my tongue to my member and her eyes pinched shut as I took her at first. I had been waiting for this ever since I met her, just as I did with any potential girlfriend, but finally getting the chance to experience her for all that she could give was more than I could take and as much as I could usually control myself in these situations, I found myself more attracted to her than normal, growing close to my breaking point even when I wanted to do this until the sun rose. I kept up for as long as I could, but as I heard her continue to let out loud cries and moans of gratification, as well as her panting heavily and saying my name more and more throughout our satisfying activity, I soon felt her insides tighten and at that same moment, I reached my max potential and I held inside of her for a long, sensual moment. I let myself indulge completely in between her quivering hips and I couldn’t hold back, the sight of the tops of her breasts almost hitting her chin made me climax and I watched as she clenched the sheets of my bed and I listened to her let out the last of her moans and pleasureful whimpers. I remained over her for a long moment, catching my breath as she caught hers and I looked down at her below me with a satisfied, small grin, watching as her eyes gleamed with pleasure from the moonlight that snuck into my room and at this very moment, I couldn’t think of anything else but her, nor did I want to. She had now become my everything and I wanted nothing more than to make sure that I’d always see a smile on her face like the one she was making at me now.

Generation 3, Chapter 8

     Gibson’s POV     

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The sound of my alarm rang at 8:00 am and I stirred in my bed, I had set it two hours later than I normally do to get as much relaxed sleep that I could now that I had the opportunity to bask in the serene silence that settled over the house. I reached back and shut the alarm off, pulling my arm back under the blanket and clasping it to bring it closer to me and I laid there comfortably as I tried to work up the willpower to get out of bed. Gareth left yesterday evening and he hadn’t come home, at least I didn’t think he was here. I felt like I would know; I’d either hear him playing with Jess, still drunk from his night out, or I’d hear his music blaring from the basement but he’d be passed out on his bed, sound asleep. It was so nice to finally have a good nights sleep without hearing any of that.

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I stayed in bed for roughly twelve more minutes and finally decided it was time to get up. I got out of bed and turned around to make up the blankets and keep my bed looking untouched, taking a moment then to stretch my arms over my head and I perched up on my toes to stretch my back and legs as well. I love that sensation. I looked over to my back balcony through my tall windows and admired the scenery, walking over to the sliding door to get a better view. The change to Lucky Palms from Bridgeport was a vast difference and it was still hard to get used to when I took the time to think about it, but I always came back to the same conclusion; we came here for a change, and the change was good for me. I wasn’t sure about everyone else, though..

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“Tsk..” I let out softly, displeased as my mind went to Gareth and how he had stormed out. What a dramatic display that was. I admit, I was getting pretty angry with him for how he assumes that nothing bad will come his way when he does bad things, he’s completely delusional. How could he not understand the danger in what he does? The audacity he had to say that I was the cause of Candace’s death was just preposterous. She was just weak, and my words just so happened to hit her a little harder to her core. He should know I would never go to my full potential, especially with a coworker and especially after making that promise. He’s the one that physically takes their lives and watches the life drain from their eyes, which was never quite my style. But, now was not the time to think about him.. I had to focus. I had a lot planned for today, that is, after breakfast of course.

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I went downstairs to the first floor and walked towards the living room, seeing it nice and neat, just how I had left it after Gareth left. Silence. I could never be so sure, though.. I walked to the basement steps, stopping at the top of them and listening for a moment, not hearing any life coming from downstairs besides Jess locked in her crate. “Gareth? You home?” I called down, listening for a few seconds, but all I heard was Jess scratching in her crate and whimpering a little to be let out. “Shut up, Jess.. I’ll let you out after I eat,” I called back, but she still whimpered and let out high-pitched, questioning barks as if saying ‘please’. “Stupid dog..” I said to myself and walked away from the stairs, going towards the kitchen.

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I was pleased to see that there was still food in the fridge and it hadn’t been raided from the drunken lunatic that I lived with.. I pulled out eggs, shredded cheese, mushrooms and even some leftover ham, dicing up the mushrooms and ham first, preparing them for when I needed to add them to the stirred eggs in the frying pan. I began the scrambled eggs first, pouring the stirred thick whites and yolks into the pan and cooking it until it was just right, adding the shredded cheese, diced ham and mushrooms into the mixture and flipping one side over the other to create the generously packed omelette. It was nice having all of the ingredients to myself and not having to make another share, I finally get to taste all of the elements that I included in every bite instead of only a slight few. I couldn’t wait. I always cherished the days I had off of work and plus with Gareth being gone, it made the time by myself that much more enjoyable. 

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Finally, I had gotten to eat my creation for all that it was worth and it came out perfect, I couldn’t be happier and more prepared for anything now that I had had the most important meal of the day, and a good one at that. I arose from my chair and walked to the kitchen sink with my cleared plate, taking my time with washing it as I enjoyed the warm water over the air-conditioned skin on my hands. As much as I utterly enjoyed the silence in all it’s entirety, it still felt a little off without constantly hearing some form of life coming from the basement. I hated that no matter how hard I tried to not think of Gareth, he still managed to weasel his way into my mind, but then again, he was someone that was impossible to forget completely, especially in my stance with living with him my entire life. But, as I finished washing my plate, I shut my eyes as I turned the water off, focusing and trying to free myself from thoughts of Gareth as I worked up the courage for my next plan.

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I walked into the living room, looking out the windows in the back of the house and seeing the same view from my bedroom upstairs. Looking out at the scenery gave me courage that I couldn’t describe, a new town for a new beginning, and with Gareth gone at the moment, I could start anew once more with something I wanted to hide from him.. I grabbed my phone from the coffee table where I had forgotten it last night, going to the contacts and hesitating as I looked at Hannah’s number like I had been doing for the past three days, waiting for the right time and moment to call her. I didn’t want to call her too soon as to come off as desperate, though I didn’t want to wait too long to seem disinterested.. I was forced to acknowledge that Gareth and I’s argument couldn’t have come at a better time so I could leave him out of this completely. Even though I forgave him for what he had done to my relationship in the past, I was still worried about showing any interest in someone without wondering how he might be able to ruin it.. Now was my chance. I finally pressed the bright green ‘send’ button and pulled the phone slowly to my ear, hearing it ring once, twice, and three times, feeling my heart rate increase as each ring filled my ear.

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Hello?” Hannah had answered and I stood there a few quick seconds, unable to remember what I had told myself I would do once she answered. But, luckily, I was able to grab my wits just in time to not make a fool of myself during our second encounter.

“Hi, Hannah.. It’s Gibson. I met you a few days ago in the pavilion? I gave you my umbrella to take home..?” I somewhat questioned, wondering if she even remembered me.

“Oh, hi!” She replied joyously, which only added more nerves to my overwhelming excitement, “I was wondering when you’d call me,” she replied. She was.. Looking forward to it?

I chuckled lightly, “Yeah.. I was wondering if you were free today to grab that coffee I had offered?” I questioned once more, waiting for her response as I could feel my chest shaking from the harsh beat of my heart.

“Actually, it’s kinda funny because you called me on my day off.. How convenient,” her tone sounded somewhat sultry and I almost lost it from her voice alone, but I kept my composure.

“Well, then I’m hoping that’s a yes in seeing one another?” I questioned again with a sly tone, hearing another gentle ‘hum’ of a laugh from her.

Yeah, sounds good, where do you wanna meet?” She asked. I took a deep, joyfully slow breath so she wouldn’t hear a gasp of excitement that my body wanted to subconsciously announce.

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I thought for a few moments, “Let me think.. Hmm..” I contemplated. Out of nowhere, I could hear Jess whimpering and barking from the basement, wishing instantly that she would shut her trap, but I heard something from the other line that I didn’t expect.

Oh! Do you have a dog? I can hear it! I have a dog, too. Boy or girl?” She wondered and I sighed away from the phone, realizing just from her excitement that she was a dog lover like Gareth. God dammit. Stupid fucking dog! 

“Oh, yeah, that’s my Collie, Jessica, or Jess. What do you have?” I asked in return, seemingly interested, though I couldn’t stand dogs. 

I have a German Sheppard! His name is Klaus,” she replied.

I laughed happily, “That’s a very fitting name for a German,” I replied and I heard her laugh in return. 

I thought so, too,” she laughed softly once more, “Hey, why not meet up at the dog park instead of coffee? Klaus needs a good playtime with another dog, anyways.. I haven’t taken him there in a long time,” she offered. I pulled the phone away from my mouth again so I could sigh harder, wanting to hang out with her badly, yet I didn’t want to do it when it involved dealing with Jess.

“Stupid.. Fucking.. Dog..” I repeated in the whisper from before but with more harshness this time.

What?” I heard her question.

“Oh, no, nothing.. Yeah, that’s a great idea. She could use a new friend to play with,” I said into the phone.

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Great! Let’s me there in.. Twenty minutes?” She questioned.

“Yeah, sounds good,” I confirmed.

Awesome.. Oh, and be sure to dress light, today is supposed to be really hot,” she added and I agreed, saying our goodbyes. I pulled my phone away from my ear, looking at it as I watched the time of our call stop and flash, signifying that she had ended the call and I wanted to throw my phone against the wall, but I squeezed it tightly instead as I struggled to regain my composure. 

“Dammit, Jess..” I said softly to myself, hating that I had to involve that dense canine in on my date. I clenched my phone within my hand as I went upstairs, getting changed for the occasion.

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I finished getting ready and went downstairs again, this time going to the basement in search of Jess’s leash so I could walk her to the park. I opened Gareth’s door and saw the room dark and in a complete mess, beer bottles scattered all over the place and the small of alcohol and his musk filled my nostrils. “Uck.Disgusting..” I voiced softly to myself, looking around his room in search of what I had came for, though I couldn’t help but critique the conditions in which he lived and slept in. I was surprised to see a single surviving plant withing his room in the corner, and that’s when I noticed Jess’s leash lying on top of his computer desk in which I grabbed in a hurry and got out of there as quick as I could.

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I closed up the house and brought Jess outside with me, putting on her collar as she tapped her paws excitedly upon the wooden deck, “Stand still, stupid.. Jeez,” I said softly, trying to secure it around her neck. The moment I secured her collar, she broke away from me and ran around the front of the house in her excitement, barking and becoming playful. I let out a pained sigh, “Get back here or we’re not going!” I called out angrily, watching her calm down a little as she waited by the front gate. I shook my head in annoyance, walking to the gate and opening it and she ran around the other deck as well until I yelled for her to come back to me, “Jess, get over here!” She came back over to me and her paws danced enthusiastically, her claws tapping on the wooden planks and I was finally able to secure her to the leash so we could begin our walk. “If you’re not a good girl today, I’m locking you in the crate until whenever Gareth decides to come back and he can let you out,” I threatened, but she was too excited to care about my tone, turning around and ready for the walk as she pulled me and urged me to follow.

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Hannah was right, it was pretty hot today already, even with it being only a little passed 10:00, glad that I had wore light clothing that breathed easily. The walk wasn’t that bad, Jess was a little too excited when we had finally reached grass on our walk, sniffing everything that she possibly could, yet she began to calm down and simply enjoy it when we reached about half way to the park. “You’re actually succeeding at not pissing me off for once, Jess, I never thought I’d see the day,” I said to her somewhat surprised, seeing her wag her tail from me saying her name as she kept walking. As much as I didn’t care for dogs, this was actually going a lot easier than I thought. I was convinced that Jess would be a crazy handful and she’d be a terrible dog while on a leash, but she actually was behaving herself.. I wonder if it was because I was the one walking her instead of Gareth, since I showed her more discipline than he did..?

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Jess and I soon reached the dog park a little passed the time we were supposed to get there, probably because Jess wouldn’t stand still and it took me forever to put on her collar and then leash. I noticed from afar that Hannah was already there with her dog, Klaus, playing fetch with him while they waited for us to arrive. I admired her from where I was while I could before she noticed, my eyes instantly drawn to her long, exposed legs and I could see from where I was walking how smooth they were, gently glistening in the sun from most likely a lotion she had used on them before coming here. I could picture her perfectly, sitting on the edge of her bed or the tub after showering, her hands sliding down her thighs and over her knees all the way to her ankles and back up. I felt my heart quicken slightly at the thought of her in any less clothing than she was wearing now, shaking my head briefly to get rid of these kinds of notions as I approached her with Jess.

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“Oh, hey! You finally made it,” she teased a little and I smirked, reaching forward to remove Jess from the leash and Hannah and I watched as both Jess and Klaus noticed one another. The two went to investigate each other, ears perked up, sniffing excitedly and tails wagging happily. “Seems like they like each other,” Hannah added and I nodded.

“Yeah, sure does.” I confirmed.

“Jess is so beautiful, is she a pure bread?” Hannah wondered and I honestly wasn’t sure.

“Yeah, I believe so,” I replied, remembering the high price that Gareth had told me he had got her for and I assumed by the large amount that she was pure, “Is Klaus?”

“Yup, isn’t he so handsome? I picked him from the litter because he had the biggest ears of the bunch.. So cute when he was a puppy, I just had to get him,” she replied and I chuckled. 

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I admired her face when we had approached one another, but was a little displeased to notice that she hid her eyes with a pair of designer sunglasses. It was my favorite feature about her aside from her smooth, endless legs. “You’re wearing a bathing suit, did you plan to go swimming today before I called?” I asked.

“Well, yeah, sort of, but I figured this would be more fun,” she replied and I smiled, “I might still go later, maybe some night swimming, who knows,” she continued.

“Even with a crazed killer roaming along the beaches? I hear he likes beautiful young women, you should be careful..” I added with a slightly worried tone as I watched her smirk when she picked up on my compliment.

“Oh, that.. Well, I don’t think I’d go to the beach, at least not at night.. I’ll probably just hop the fence at the community pool after closing,” she thought of the alternative and I nodded, unsure of how to take her lack of worry when it came to the news of a murderer on the loose. “Let’s sit down and get out of the sun, hmm? Come on,” she added, walking with her over to a table with chairs under a canopy near us.

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I sat down with her and I watched as she finally removed her sunglasses when she wasn’t blinded by the sun anymore, holding my breath for a moment as she looked at me with a warm smile. I snapped out of my quick trance and tried to think of something to talk about, “So, tell me a little about yourself,” I began, “You moved here a year ago, I remembered you saying.. Did you find work easily here?” I wondered.

“Actually, yeah, I did. I’ve been a babysitter since I was 16 and I saved up a ton of money since then. I opened my own small daycare when I moved here, and since I’m experienced, I’ve been able to get some pretty good clients out of it. There’s these two kids, brother and sister, that I usually watch every weekday, their parents are pretty wealthy and they pay me hourly, sometimes leaving the kids in my care all day long. But, I don’t mind. I love children. I have another child I watch, too, usually during the weekdays as well, but I only watch her for about half of the day most of the time.. I’d like to eventually become a chef though, maybe open my own restaurant someday. I still need to save up a little more for schooling and training before Ido that,” she replied and I was a little surprised. 

“So you can cook?” I asked with a slightly impressed tone.

“Yup,” she answered confidently, “At least my mom and brother think I can,” she added with a soft laugh.

“Forgive me for saying this, but I never really pictured you to have a soft spot for children,” I replied and she chuckled.

“What makes you say that?” She wondered.

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“Well, I don’t mean to come off as rude, but I’ve noticed your sense of style, and I must admit, it seems a little bit lavish, almost a little too much to be wearing it around children.. With how careless and unknowing they can be about expensive or fragile things,” I replied. 

She laughed a little and didn’t take my remark as if she was offended, “It seems you have a keen eye for details.. The children never touch my stuff, they know better, and besides, the place I bought has two separate stories. You can only get into my living area from an outside stairwell and I never bring the kids up there. The first floor is dedicated to the daycare, I keep my things away from them all the time, I usually wear more comfortable and cheap clothes when around them, just in case anything gets ripped, stretched out or spit up on,” she replied with a chuckle.

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Jess and Klaus ran around the whole park, keeping one another company as Hannah and I enjoyed ourselves. A few times, Jess would try to run off, but Klaus was catch her attention and keep her within the park, as if herding her like a sheep to keep her where she’s supposed to be, yet in a playful manner. I was surprised at his behavior, he had much better manners and control than Jess did, I was a little jealous that she had a better dog than we did and I had to put up with that stupid, untrained mutt. 

“What about you? Do you work?” She asked and I looked to her after watching the dogs.

“Yeah, I work at the bookstore across the street and a few doors down from the community pool,” I answered.

“Ohh, I know that place.. I’ve never been in there yet, do they have a good children’s section? I’ve been meaning to get some new books for the kids,” she wondered and I nodded.

“Yeah, there’s a great selection, I’ll let you know the next time I’m working and I can pick you out some good ones,” I replied and I watched as she smiled warmly.

“That’d be great, thanks!” She retorted with excitement and appreciation. 

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Everything seemed to be going great so far; there were hardly any awkward silences, just like the first night we had met, and I was soon getting pretty comfortable around her. My heart wasn’t beating nearly as fast as it was the first twenty minutes of being with her today, being able to relax a little the more we talked and joked. I couldn’t help but notice how some of the smiles she held came of as slightly lustrous and I only hoped she was having as good of a time as I was. We must’ve sat there for a few hours, the sun that cast a shadow on me before had moved a lot since I had sat down and I could feel the suns rays beginning to warm my already hot skin. The dogs seemed to be getting tired, noticing them both panting and their movements were getting slower, yet they still refused to stop playing together. I think it’s safe to say that Jess has a boyfriend now.

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“Wow, it’s already almost 4:00?!” Hannah announced after she glanced at her phone and returned it to her pocket, “Do you, uhm.. Wanna keep hanging out, or do you have to get going?” She wondered and I smiled, enjoying that her tone seemed as if she still wanted to be with me.

“Well, I don’t mind either way.. If you’re not sick of me yet, we can do something else..?” I teased and she chuckled.

I watched her think for a moment, “How long has it been since you’ve been bowling?” She wondered, “We could drop the dogs off at my place and go?”

“I’m.. Not very good at bowling,” I said with a nervous laugh.

“Oh come on, it’ll be fun, I promise,” she encouraged and I shrugged. I wasn’t much for sports except football, Gareth and I played that a lot with our friends after some school days and it was the only sport that I wasn’t that bad at. But bowling, let alone any other sport? That was different.. 

“Uhm.. Okay, sure.. Why not,” I agreed and she smiled happily. I guess I could give it another try.

“Awesome! I drove here actually, so we don’t have to walk that long way.. Ready to go?” She asked and I nodded, joining her in standing and we gathered Klaus and Jess so we could go drop them off before bowling. 

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Hannah drove us to the other side of town, over the highway and to a small, remote area where I had never been before. It was a very rural place and it was only just outside of town.. I wondered how I had never even known it was here? We pulled into her driveway and I admired her home, it was well kept and flourishing with foliage, the doghouse was outside and I liked that Klaus was an outdoor dog; finally, someplace to hopefully come to in the future and not have it reek like a mutt. Hannah and I got out of her car and let the dogs out, Hannah then walking over to the doghouse and filling the food bowl for them. 

“You’re house is very nice, Hannah,” I pointed out, following her and so did the dogs.

“Oh, thanks! The style kind of reminded me of my house in Florida, plus the layout was perfect for what I wanted to do here,” she replied, turning to face me, “We could leave the dogs out here, Klaus won’t run away. Is Jess okay without a leash?” She asked.

“No, tying her up would probably be best,” I answered. Hannah understood and walked to the doghouse, grabbing a thin rope and calling Jess over to her and Jess listened the very first time, to my surprise. Hannah tied a good knot around her collar, keeping her within the yard and we went back to her car to leave.

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Arriving at the bowling alley not far from her home, we went in and I pulled out my wallet naturally, opening it but her hand met my wrist which made my heart jump a little, “Stop, I’m buying,” she said with a tone that implied I had no other choice in the matter.

I furrowed my brows, “Just let me, I want it to be my treat,” I contested even despite her ‘no arguing’ tone.

“It was my idea anyways, you can take me out to dinner next time and then I’ll let you buy,” she hinted with a coaxing smile and I sighed softly.

“Fine..” I succumbed, something I don’t normally do. Ever. I didn’t like not paying, even with her offer at another chance to see her. I had always paid for things when taking a woman out, it made me feel generous and I liked treating whoever I was with, no matter what the occasion or the price of anything. I enjoyed giving them the reason to believe that I enjoyed their company enough to let them do and have anything they wanted, because.. Well, most of the time it was true, I enjoyed them enough to do so. I suppose another reason I try to get Gareth in line is because we’re twins and most people think that makes us the same person, which then makes some think that I act the same as Gareth when it comes to women and I never want to be anything like him in that aspect. I’m no womanizer, I’ve never been with a prostitute, and I’ve never even been to a gentleman’s club, either. But, not paying now bothered me more this time around, simply because even in the short time of knowing Hannah, I feel this attraction to her that I haven’t felt with anyone else, and treating her to anything I possibly could would make me happy. I wasn’t pleased to learn that she was stubborn like me, but I suppose it was better than being with someone that was weak and submissive.

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We began our game and I was a little nervous, the last time I went bowling was when I was fifteen with Gareth and a few of our friends, but I only bowled one game because I scored less, way less than everyone else. I ended up just sitting there the rest of the night, not playing. I was a little intimidated, too, by how Hannah’s first roll knocked down every pin but one. Dammit.. I’m going to make a fool of myself. 

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We stayed at the bowling alley for a few hours, playing 3 games so far and she had won all of them. I was a little upset after every game, but she had the ability to keep me from getting too angry about losing when she sometimes ran her hand down my arm or giving me sultry eyes that were irresistible, not to mention how she flirted sometimes threatened to push me over the edge and it was hard to keep this date from getting too heated. Hannah was last to throw the ball for the game to be over and she won by 25 points, frowning as I watched her throw her hands up victoriously, but her victory dance at the end of her turn gave me a chance to fully appreciate the movement of her body. I was eager to get back into bed with someone, but I wasn’t Gareth, I’d keep these thoughts deep down in my mind and save them for a more appropriate time. Unlike him, I thought getting to know someone made the attraction more intense and it made love making that much more worth it. Instead of just diving in and doing what I wanted without consideration, it was more important and much more enjoyable to me to get someone on the same level of ecstasy that I wanted to feel. I liked the challenge.

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“Yesss! I won!” She called out, now winning all four games and she came towards me, surprised when she had jumped into my arms victoriously but I caught her and held her without a second thought. “Are you sure you didn’t just let me win?” She asked with a tone that made me body ache and I slowly let her go, yet still kept my hands around her waist.

“I told you I was terrible at this stuff, you won fair and square,” I confirmed and I watched her smile appreciatively. 

“I’m having a lot of fun, Gibson. I hope you’re not mad at me for winning every game,” she said with a conniving grin, rubbing it in my face a little and I smirked, amused by her ability to tease me about things that normally would make me angry, but I guess the anger didn’t even bother to show it’s face as I felt her fingertips play with the hair by my right ear. At that very moment, I felt the need to kiss her and it was hard not to, but I still withheld from doing so. As much as I knew she wanted it, too, it was fun for me to hold back and wait for the right moment, even if the chance had already presented itself a few times throughout the night. 

“I can’t be mad about losing something I’m already bad at,” I replied and she snickered softly.

“Well, it’s getting late, would you like to go pick up Jess and I can take you home?” She offered and I nodded.

“Yeah, that’d be great,” I replied, walking with Hannah away from the lanes and outside to her car.

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Driving to Hannah’s place was pretty enjoyable, I loved how our conversations were turning more and more into flirtatious banter and I was able to tell without a doubt now that she was liking the time she was spending with me just as I enjoyed it with her. We picked up Jess, who was hard to coax into the car and get away from Klaus, whining and whimpering softly almost the entire drive home. Hannah found it more sweet and amusing than I did.. I thought it was utterly annoying and pathetic.. “Here we are,” Hannah announced, “Which one’s yours?” She asked.

“The only one on the left at the end of the dock,” I replied.

“Oh, it’s cute. You’ll have to give me a tour sometime.. The view must be great when the sun rises, living on the water like that,” she said with a soft tone, noticing her look to me from the driver’s seat and I smirked, looking to her and nodding in agreement.

“You’re right, the mornings really are amazing to see. I’d be happy to show it to you someday,” I confirmed. I wondered if now was the time that I should attempt to kiss her, I could tell by the look in her eyes that she wouldn’t deny me if I tried, but something was still telling me to wait. So, I did. “Is that offer still open to take you out to dinner next time?” I asked, watching her smile more and nod.

“Yeah, it definitely is,” she confirmed and I grinned, getting out of the car then and Jess hopped into the front seat and ran out of the car, surprising both Hannah and I and we watched as she ran down the dock towards the house.

I frowned at her behavior, “Jesus, Jess, you psycho!” I called out and Hannah laughed, turning my attention back to her and smiling once more, “Thank you for a great time, call me on a day that you’re free and I’ll take you out somewhere nice, anywhere you want to go,” I offered, seeing her nod with a shy smile, “Goodnight, Hannah.”

“Night,” she replied sweetly and I shut the car door, trying to wipe the stupid love-struck grin off my face as I walked down the dock and towards the house.

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The first thing I did when I went inside is take Jess downstairs, feeding her and giving her water before putting her into her crate. I went to Gareth’s room and looked through the glass on his door, seeing his room empty and I went inside to put back Jess’s leash on his computer desk. I took a moment to look around his room.. Not knowing where he was or what he was doing was beginning to bother me, and just when I thought I could end tonight on a good note, too, I’m stuck here.. Still worrying about him. He doesn’t care about anyone but himself, he didn’t even have the urge to check on Jess since he probably would’ve called me, asking me where she was if he had even bothered to come home.. Wherever he was, I hoped he wasn’t doing anything that could get him in trouble.

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I went upstairs and got ready for bed, changing out of my clothes, placing my glasses upon the dresser and turning off the light before climbing onto my bed. I laid there awake for a while, I couldn’t sleep, my mind was too active with thoughts of both Gareth and Hannah. I tried to balance out my brain with the good and the bad, but I couldn’t help always ending up thinking of the bad. Where did Gareth stay last night, and where is he staying tonight? Why was he so goddamn adamant about all of this? He’s acting like a child and he needs to come home and own up to what he’s done.. I need to try and get through to him and try to get him to find a better – well, ‘activity’.. Something more productive. Maybe a job to keep him occupied would help set him straight..?

“Tsk.. Yeah right..” I spoke in a whisper, finding it almost impossible to believe that Gareth would be open to getting a job in almost the same second that I thought he could. I sighed heavily before trying to shut my eyes and get some sleep, trying not to think of Gareth anymore and I tried my hardest to focus on Hannah.. Her smile, how intoxicating the scent of her perfume was, the way she moved when she walked.. To hell with Gareth, he can find his own way without me. He still has a home here, but I’m not taking care of him anymore. I needed to start focusing on myself and my own life, and to start it off right.. And my new, fresh start begins with Hannah. I won’t let him ruin this, I won’t let anything ruin this.

Generation 3, Chapter 6

     Gibson’s POV     

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I let out a long, heavy sigh as I starred at the large shelf filled of books before me, unable to choose anything to read as I worked my shift at the bookstore. It made me angry that Gareth has been such a nuisance lately, but at the same time, I missed talking to him a little. It isn’t like us to go now two weeks without talking.. I admit I was a little over excited at Bennu’s house on her birthday when I yelled at him, I meant a hell of a lot of what I had said to him, but I just wished I didn’t say all of it.. It bothered me that he drove me to question my own actions towards him, but who else was going to watch out for him? He’s completely wreckless and inconsiderate. I just wish he’d be more appropriate when certain situations arose. 

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Though, one thing that I have noticed about Gareth since we had our fight, was that he took a little better care of Jess and I didn’t have to constantly be the one responsible for her anymore. I noticed I was tripping over her chew toys a lot less and he’s been locking her in the crate more like I’ve asked him to do when no one’s watching her. I’ve been contemplating whether or not to tell him to get rid of her since I seemed to be the only one taking care of her and I could spend my time doing much more productive things besides cleaning up after her and giving her attention I didn’t want to give, but he’s been getting better, I guess.. So, I’ll still withhold my suggestion from him, but if it doesn’t continue to get any better or he refuses to get rid of her should I mention it.. Well, maybe I really should move out then..

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“Wasting time while on the clock, I see..” A feminine voice rang in my ears and I stopped starring at the bookshelf, looking to my right briefly to see my young coworker standing next to me. My expression didn’t waver, giving her a blank stare and looking back to the bookshelf. I began to rearrange the books alphabetically according to the author’s last name, “Why do you just space out all the time? You’re useless, really.. All you do is sit around and read books and you couldn’t give a crap about helping customers..” She continued and I could see her smirk from the corner of my eye.

“Shut it, Candace.. What the hell are you doing anyways? Talking to me and not working.. Now leave,” I spat back at her, continuing my task.

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“And that’s another thing, you’re constantly such a jerk. Do you hate your life or something?” She continued and I let out another sigh, though this time it was filled with irritation instead of my indecisiveness on choosing reading material. 

“I’m not nice to people whom I know have no idea what the word accolade means,” I replied.

“..What..? See, what’s your problem? Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed? I bet even if you woke up on the right side of the bed, you’d still be this mean and droll,” she answered.

“Get out of my face and go bother someone else,” I continued to try and get her away from me. I hated this girl, she was a Senior in High School and I could tell she was one of those cynical, bitchy broads that liked picking on others at her school who were less fortunate. I suppose she enjoyed doing it to her coworkers as well. But I saw passed the berating she did all the time and I knew that in her case, she was a girl who often got ‘anger’ and ‘affection’ mixed up in her small head, often thinking that whenever I said something mean to her, she took it as if I wanted to get with her..

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Her voice grew quieter, “There’s no one in the bathroom right now.. We can both not work at the same time but still be productive,” she voiced suggestively and I looked to her again.

“That’s disgusting. I’d never touch you like that anyways,” I replied with a short tone and continued rearranging the books.

“What? Why?” She asked quickly, “What’s wrong with me?”

“Where do I start..” I asked rhetorically, hearing her gasp a little.

“Oh my God, Gibson.. You’re gay? That has to be it,” she said a little louder than I woud’ve liked, but I assumed she did it on purpose to make me angrier.

“I’m not gay.. Just because someone doesn’t want to do anything sexual with you doesn’t make them a homosexual. Just go away, Candace, go do some work for a change..”

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“So, that guy that comes in every now and then to pick you up after your shift isn’t your boyfriend?” She continued to ask and I shut my eyes, taking a deep breath and trying my hardest not to bash a book over her head.

“That’s my brother.. Twin brother. We look incredibly alike, I’d think you’d at least be smart enough to have noticed that, but of course, you’re still just as dense as I always knew you to be,” I replied, opening my eyes after calming down a little and I walked away from the bookshelf I was working on, going around the corner to another to rearrange but my anger returned when I heard her following me. 

“Wait, so he’s your brother? You’re not together? ..Is he single?” She asked and I rolled my eyes.

“Yeah, he’s single, but he has a new girl every few days. He’d do the exact same thing to you, too. Just spare yourself and don’t even bother with the likes of him,” I add.

“Aww, Gibby, is that you looking out for me?” She asked, seemingly smitten at the moment and I wanted this to all be over with already. She was so painfully annoying. I wasn’t ‘looking out’ for her, I was more so trying to keep Gareth from having his millionth fuck while I hadn’t gotten any in over a month.

“Do not call me that,” I demanded harshly.

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“See? You’re always so mean.. Grumpy Gibby doesn’t like making friends, does he?” She began to tease more and I had had about enough. 

I turned towards her and stepped closer until I was about a half foot from her face, “Listen closely you worthless, laughable little girl.. I have no interest in you, I have no interest knowing you, I have no interest in getting to know you, and I literally cannot imagine who else doesn’t feel the same as I do.. It’s literally that hard to believe that anyone would want to get to know someone like you at all. Lemme guess, you’re popular at school but you don’t know why. Is it because of your looks? Or is it only because you’ll open your legs to any man – excuse me – boy that gives you even the slightest bit of attention? Did you used to be fat and ugly but once you matured, you took advantage of the stares that boys gave you? Lost weight, or actually went bulimic because of it just to fit in? Daddy must’ve been so disappointed as he watched you grow up, hell, maybe he even did a few inappropriate things to you when you were younger that made you into the girl you are now who wants any attention from boys that don’t resemble your own father?” I watched as her expression twisted from shocked to immense disbelief at what she was hearing, though I could tell that most of what I had said was true to some extent.

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Why don’t you just do the rest of the world a favor and save us from the trash that you are and stop wasting your time trying to find happiness or something that will fill that pathetic void in your life that nothing and no one wants to have the displeasure of being responsible for,” I continued, starring into her eyes and I watched as tears began to form and fall down her cheeks. I gave her a tiny smirk before she ran off, sobbing and not even bothering to tell anyone she was leaving work, hearing the front door burst open and the familiar ‘ding’ the door made every time it was opened. “Well that was easy.. Why didn’t I do that sooner?” I asked myself in anger, though I then brushed it off and looked towards the bookshelf, rearranging a few books I had noticed that were out of place and I was finally able to go about my day normally again.

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I read a few books here and there for the next hour of work, but I couldn’t find anything to keep my interest for very long. I had already read most of what I was infatuated with within my first few weeks of working here and I was running out of books. I wondered if I should quit here and work at a library, there was so much more to choose from, but the closest library was an hour away.. Sometimes I hated how remote and small this town was.

I started to remember our lives back in Bridgeport, remembering how calm the town was despite the roaring city and I even wondered how my Father felt now without living within the confines of his birth town.. He’s lived there all his life, just like we had up until 5 years ago.. I questioned whether or not he was happy here knowing he was so far away from anything normal. He lived within the confines of the Mental Hospital and was surrounded by supportive staff and others that were experiencing similar disorders, yet I couldn’t help but wonder if he felt alone now more than ever.. 

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I started wondering how he could even do the things he had done, what drove him to be this way? From all of our views, he seemed like he was happy, a proud husband and father of four.. What could’ve drove him to do such things to his ex-lover and her mother? Did he have something against them or did he just lose his mind in their presence? I then began to wonder if it went back even further, when my Father was but a teen or child.. How did he live? I admit, the curiosity of it all was eating at me and I remembered that he had never really mentioned our Grandfather even once without a glint of hatred in his eyes. Why had I never thought to look into this more until now?

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I rose from the chair I was sitting in and put the book I was reading away in its proper spot, going to the spiral staircase near the front of the store and ascending up the steps with slight haste to my feet. The upstairs was small and was more of an area where you could look up archives on paper or on the few computers that we provided for use. I snagged up one of the empty seats and began a search through all of the information we had within our database, as well as browsing through the internet to see if anything would pop up about the ‘Dubois’ last name that involved both Bridgeport and Lucky Palms.

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After roughly an hour of searching and digging and digging even further, I finally found something that eventually lead back to my Father’s trial, along with why and how he was sentenced. Reading the words from the article made me a little angered, reading phrases within the report that made my Father seem as if he was some crazed murder and they over-exaggerated a lot. Reading the article and even seeing an attachment of a picture of my Father’s mug shot from when he was first arrested unsettled me a little, starring into his bottomless sapphire eyes that were both filled with regret and sadness, the skin around them red in irritation from either crying or getting no sleep at all. I began to miss him a little, thinking that Gareth and I should pay another visit to him whenever we got over this ‘no-talking’ phase of ours, but at the same time, he hasn’t said a word to us the passed few times we’ve visited him when it was just the two of us. When visiting with Bennu though, I mostly just heard his voice faintly when he talked to her away from Gareth and I, but I just couldn’t understand why he chose us to not share anything with. It hurt slightly when he did that.. I hated going there and trying to talk to him, only to watch his eyes avoiding ours and keeping his lips locked shut.

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I tried to focus again and I began digging deeper into his past, trying to find out anything I could about his parents or where he lived or something that could help me better understand him. Finally, after about twenty more minutes of searching, I found a link that read ‘Gas leak leads to a gruesome explosion, two dead’. With a hesitant click, I opened the link and the first thing my eyes were drawn to was a photo of two people I had never met, though the man and woman pictured both looked so much like my Father that I knew this story had to involve him somehow. I read the article, finding out the names of the couple and we shared the same last name, my eyes flashing over the screen as I read as fast as I could to take in all of the information quickly. “Are these my grandparents..?” I asked myself in a whisper, taking in more and more information and my eyes had finally read the one name I both feared and hoped to find.. “Marrick and Sadie Dubois, the only ones to parish by an accidental fire caused by a gas leak. Their three daughters, Hitomi, Anya, and Julia Dubois,” my Aunts? “..Along with son, Jason Dubois, were not within the home when the explosion took place..” My heart was racing and I erased my history before completely shutting the computer down, sitting there and resting my chin on the back of my propped up hand. His parents died in an accidental gas leak? Was it true..? I couldn’t read any more information about the whole thing, there wasn’t much else to read, but it made me begin to wonder immediately if my Father may have caused that fire given now knowing his capability of taking a life. But.. No. How could he have done that to his parents? “Why am I jumping to conclusions..” I asked myself quietly, “It was an accident, nothing more.”

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I got up from the chair and pushed it back into the desk, standing there a moment in silence as I reminded myself again about what I had just read and unable to be sure what to think. I looked up to a clock on the wall, seeing it was a little passed 5:00 pm and it was passed the time I needed to have clocked out. I sighed softly and made my way downstairs, going to the front of the store and behind the counter so I could fill out my time card and leave. Before I walked out of the store, I remembered it was still raining and just before I walked outside, I reached into an umbrella bin and took a black one without being noticed. I opened the umbrella and held it up to block the rain, walking down the steps and standing on the sidewalk as I contemplated how to get home. I didn’t want to call Gareth, no way in hell would I succumb to him and admit defeat just because I didn’t want to walk in a little rain.. I could call Bennu or Bahiti for a ride, but I didn’t want to be a bother to Bennu and I knew Bahiti didn’t really like leaving the house anyways, so I tossed that idea out.. Ezra was too busy of a man for me to call and for him to actually answer and have the time to pick me up and drop me off, so I crossed him off of my mental list, too.. Well, looks like I’m walking home.

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Maybe this was a good thing, maybe I needed even more alone time, especially now after what I had discovered today at work about my Father. Whenever Gareth and I would be talking again, I wondered if I should share with him the information I learned about our grandparents.. Would he even care at all? I thought back on the picture I had seen of them and I remembered my Grandmother being such a beauty, realizing now that she’s where Gareth and I had gotten our blonde hair and I recognized the same sapphire eyes she had that she bestowed upon my Father. Her eyes were gentle and even just looking at her face for the short amount of time that I had, I could already tell that she was a kind person and I wish I had the honor of meeting her. My Grandfather, on the other hand, looked a little more menacing, even more than my Father could at his worst moments, like when he was yelling at us for something we did wrong. This man wore that expression permanently I could tell, and I was safe to assume that it was probably rare to see him smile, almost as if the man didn’t have any emotions to begin with. His eyes are what I didn’t enjoy the most, they reminded me of Gareth’s eyes, but even Gareth had more life in his sadistic glares than this man.. My Grandfather just seemed so.. Disconnected with the world, unloving and uncaring though he was pictured with his loving wife.. Now that I thought about it once more, it was wrong of me to question my Father and I wondered if my Grandfather was the one to maybe start that fire, it didn’t dawn on me until now how much more likely it was to be my Grandfather’s fault after thinking about his picture once more and remembering how my Father seemed to despise the man. Was that the reason he hated him so much, or was there more to this than I know now?

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There was still about twenty minutes left to my walk home, but thinking about all of this new information made the time go faster. For how hard it was just to find the little information that I had today, I figured there wouldn’t be much else I could find over the internet that I either hadn’t read yet or didn’t already know from experience, but I couldn’t deny the fact that I was still extremely curious about it all.. I contemplated asking my Father about it the next time I saw him, but.. Would he be open to talking about it..? I wasn’t sure. The only sure thing I knew about all of this was my Father hated his, so maybe it wasn’t a good idea to bring something like that up.. What if he flew off the handle again? I’ve heard from Bennu that he’s getting better, though there’s obviously still something wrong if he still lives within the Mental Hospital. I sighed heavily, the thoughts of my Father weighing me down a little and I decided to stop at a pavilion to rest a little and get my mind off of the things I’ve learned today about our family’s history.

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I stepped up the stairs and walked into the pavilion, looking to my left quickly when I noticed I wasn’t alone. My eyes began on a pair of dainty black cat-shoes, following up a woman’s legs that were covered in black high stockings that stopped just under her thighs and a comfortable-looking burgundy dress with a small denim vest over her shoulders. Her hair was an extremely dark brown that came close to being pitch black, though subtle shines from the pavilion light told me it was her true color, uncolored and untainted. It was slightly curled and wispy as it laid over her shoulders and the majority of it was pulled in front of her right shoulder. Her face was speckled with cute freckles and her unique turquoise eyes stood out the most to me. Her Monroe was pierced and I’m ashamed to admit I stared at her a little longer than I should’ve, enough to let her notice and I grew slightly embarrassed, averting my eyes then and walking over to an empty bench across from her and taking a seat.

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I closed my umbrella and set it next to me upon the bench, still avoiding looking at the woman across from me, but it was hard to accomplish such a task when I heard her speak up, “Let me guess, you’re not used to seeing rain like this,” She made small talk and our eyes met again. 

“Oh, uhm.. Yeah. It’s odd seeing rain in such a hot, dry climate,” I replied and I watched her nod.

“The climate is actually weirder to me.. I moved here only about a year ago and this is only the second time I’ve seen rain,” she added with a cute chuckle that made my insides twist a little.

“Where did you live before here?” I wondered.

“Twinbrook, Florida. It rains like crazy there and I’ve actually been kind of missing it.. But, I enjoy this weather, now that I think about it. Kind of reminds me of home,” she replied with anther hum of a chuckle and I smirked.

“What compelled you to leave it all and move here?”

“Well, my Dad died a little under a year ago and my Mom went a little bonkers. She turned into this huge control freak and I just couldn’t live with her anymore, so I left. It was time I moved out, anyways,” she retorted and I lost the little smirk I held.

“Oh.. My condolences,” I said with a slightly remorseful tone, but she waved her hand gently in the air to brush it off.

“It’s okay.. I’ve had time to get over it, he wasn’t that great of a guy, at any rate,” she added and I nodded in understanding.

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“So, have you been enjoying it here in Arizona, despite missing this rain?” I wondered, trying to find reasons on why I was so interested, yet the more I looked at her, how could I not be? She was utterly beautiful and I found it hard not to keep my eyes on her, especially now that we’ve engaged in conversation. 

“Yeah, I’ve always been a fan of warm climates, it was hard getting used to such dry air, though, when I first got here. Florida is so much more humid, but I found I sweat a lot more there just because of the air than I do here,” she replied with a humorous laugh at her own words and I couldn’t hold back a quiet chuckle. She wasn’t afraid to mock herself, she seemed like a pretty confident woman with her head on straight. I had a different view of her from when I first saw her. I’ve seen her shoes in a catalog I glanced through that came in the mail and I remembered seeing them worth over $250, knowing they were the designer pair just by the gold trim they had that all the knock off’s couldn’t pull off nearly as well. She had expensive taste which made me wonder earlier if she was a snob, but after engaging in a little conversation, I grew to like her the more she proved my first thought of her wrong.

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The more we talked about unimportant things, the more I thanked myself for choosing to walk home today and take this route to go home. “Mind if I ask your name?” I wondered as I then watched her smile.

“I’m Hannah, and you are?” She wondered in return and it warmed me that she seemed just as curious to know my name as well.

“Gibson.”

“Ooohh, unique.. I don’t know if I’ve ever heard that name before.. Well, as a first name, at least,” she added with a light giggle, “Do you have any siblings, Gibson? Any family here in town?” She wondered next and I froze a little. I took a quick moment to think of something, I wasn’t comfortable enough yet to fill her in on my Father, and I even took it upon myself to not mention another key detail.

“My Step-Mother and Step-Sister live here, my Father has passed as well.. The two of them are the only family I have, really. What about you?” I don’t know why all of those words were the first thing to come out of my mouth, but I didn’t regret anything I had left out of the conversation, nor did I regret what lied about.

“I have a younger brother, but he still lives back in Twinbrook with my Mom. He wanted to move here with me, but there was no way in hell,” she laughed softly, “He’s such an ass and a huge brat. It’s like he always needs to get what he wants or he throws a tantrum.. He’s 20 years old and he still acts like a child,” she continued with a smirk, shaking her head at the thought of him. It was weird seeing how much we had in common, even odder that I could relate to her having an unbearable brother, but I still kept Gareth as far away from our conversation as I possibly could.

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The rain continued, listening to the raindrops hitting the roof of the pavilion calmly together and I then watched as she smiled warmly towards me and patted the seat next to her, “I’m waiting for the rain to stop before I head back home, might as well come a little closer so we’re not shouting across the pavilion anymore,” she suggested with a charming chuckle and I nodded in agreement. I picked up my umbrella and walked over to her bench, taking the seat next to her and we continued to engage in a conversation that helped us pass the time as well as learn a little more about one another. Sitting much closer now, I could finally fully appreciate her features and now I found it even harder to keep my eyes off of her. She was someone I could get used to looking at and talking to, I wanted to spend more time with her and get to know her even more than I did now, but it seemed our evening would be cut short when we heard her phone chime, watching her then taking it out from her denim vest pocket and she gasped softly when she had read what I assumed was a text.

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“Oh, man.. I wish I could stay longer, but it seems that I need to work tonight.. Just when I thought I had the night off, too, something comes up,” she sighs softly and I could tell by her expression that she genuinely didn’t want to leave just yet. I watched her stand from the bench and put her phone away, “It was nice meeting you, Gibson,” she said with a sweet smile.

I stood as well and without knowing fully what I was doing, I reached out and grabbed her hand gently, “Wait, Hannah..” I voiced softly, watching her turn around and I let go of her hand quickly and grabbed my umbrella off the floor, “Here, take it.”

“Ohh.. No, I couldn’t do that,” she denied it politely and I shook my head.

“Please, you need it more, you wanted to wait for the rain to stop, but you can’t now.. So use it, keep dry,” I offered humbly and I saw her smile turn more appreciative, taking the offered umbrella.

“Thanks a lot, Gibson.”

“Not a problem..” There was then a knot in my throat as I pondered my next words, “Uhm.. Is there any way I could get you to go out for coffee with me sometime?”

“Hmm..” She thought for a moment which made me a little nervous, I couldn’t help but wonder if she was trying to think of a way to let me down easy or not.. “I suppose so.. I’ll need to give you back your umbrella sometime, right?” She asked in returned and relief washed over me, nodding to her question and taking my phone out so I could add her into my contacts. 

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“Call me,” She confirmed sweetly before she left and I nodded with a smile. watching her leave the pavilion and she stood by the street for a few moments before being lucky enough to wave down a passing taxi. She pulled away in the cab and her fingers danced towards me as if waving goodbye and I continued to stand there smiling. I then made the realization that I’d be the one who would have to initiate everything, seeing as the only numbers exchanged were hers to me. This made me a little nervous, yet at the same time, it made me excited to get back into the grueling game of Dating. I wanted, no, needed to get back into it and I was happy to finally have someone else to focus on besides my brother, my family, or my ex. Well, I guess I wasn’t off to a good start though, seeing as I’ve lied to her twice already, but keeping my Father and Gareth as far away from her knowledge as I possibly could was my best choice at the moment to make sure nothing could possibly ruin a potentially good thing.

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I sat at the pavilion a little while longer, waiting until the rain died down more before continuing my short journey home. A lot has happened already today and it was more information I’ve taken in in such a short day that wasn’t from reading a book. Telling my coworker to kill herself, finding out a lot more of my family history, meeting a new, beautiful woman.. More pros than cons, at least. My house came into view and I remembered all over again that Gareth and I still weren’t talking.. I wondered if he was even still mad at me from two weeks ago, I was somewhat over it, seeing as he’s been getting slightly better, but there was still some anger within me that I couldn’t quite let go of yet.

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I got inside to the cool, dry house and walked towards the living room, hearing Jess growling playfully and I walked passed the wooden screen that acted as a wall to separate kitchen from living room, seeing Gareth playing tug-of-war with her. I was surprised.. The house didn’t smell like dog piss, there wasn’t anything on the floors and the house was actually just as clean as I remembered leaving it. I hate to admit it, but I was impressed. I watched as Gareth glanced up at me quickly before returning to play with Jess, “Why are you all wet?” He asked and I was a little surprised to hear him say anything. Was he not angry anymore? 

“It’s.. Raining out.”

“You walked? Why? You could’ve called me,” he retorted, still playing with Jess.

“It’s okay, I’m glad I walked home,” I replied.

“Oh, why’s that?”

“No reason..”

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Gareth let go of Jess’s tug rope and we watched as she jerked at it at the wrong time, causing herself to fly away from Gareth with the toy still in her mouth and she fell down playfully on her back. Gareth laughed at her as I continued to stand there without so much as a smirk, “Oh yeah, some girl killed herself today.. Her name was, uhh.. Cammy? Caroline..?”

“Candace?” I corrected him and he nodded.

“Ah, yeah! So you heard already? Well, you must’ve.. Didn’t she work with you or something?” He wondered and my lips twitched into a smirk, but it quickly disappeared.

“Yeah, she did.. That’s too bad.” I answered. Huh.. I guess she actually took my advice.

“Yeah..” Gareth replied, a moment of silence between us before he spoke up again. “Uh.. Are we cool, bro?” He wondered and I stood there a moment, briefly breaking eye contact. I suppose through us not talking, my words may have finally sunk in and it did seem as if he was trying to get better, at least at some things..

“Sure.. We’re okay.” I confirmed.

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“I need a shower..” I voiced heavily, the entire day catching up with me now and I was suddenly exhausted.

“All right, do you wanna have a drink with me later?” Gareth wondered and I shook my head, turning around and walking towards the bathroom.

“Sorry, too tired.. Maybe tomorrow night,” I replied, not hearing anything else come from him and I entered the bathroom.

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I started the shower and made it a little warmer than anyone in their right mind would start it as, stripping down and stepping in, feeling the slight sting of the temperature hitting my skin. I refused to get out of the hot, standing there as I felt my body struggling to keep up with the pace I wanted it to run at. My skin started to turn a darker shade of pink as the water hit the same spots, a few minutes later and my body had gotten used to the water to the point where it was still hot but now completely enjoyable without the stinging. My mind was incapable of wandering, my body was the most calm it had been all day and I didn’t want to bother myself with thinking, which sometimes turned into worrying over nothing. All I wanted now was to have a calm night compared to my already enriched afternoon. For the first time ever, I felt as if forgetting everything I had learned, even just for a few minutes, would benefit me more than being aware of it all at once.