Generation 2, Chapter 15

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I’ve known for a while now that Jason and I weren’t going to work out.. When it would all come down onto us, who knew, but I for one didn’t except it so soon. We’ve only been together for 4 years and already things are rocky, but I should’ve known better than to think he had the potential of changing. I knew deep, deep down that he’d always be the same guy, unable to stick with one person and I wasn’t even sure if he was capable of love. Gareth and Gibson bring me so much joy and happiness, but deep down I still wish they never happened, at least not with Jason..

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It was a goal of mine the whole time in college before I knew Jason to avoid him, never hearing anything good about him and knowing that he got around the most out of anyone I knew. Why couldn’t I have just resisted that one night by the bonfire? If I didn’t have that liquid courage coursing through me I would’ve been smart enough to say no, to tell him to get away from me and that there was no chance in hell.. Yet, I didn’t. The way he acted that night when we were in his room, he was gentle but fun, rough yet loving; he was a whole different person in bed. I knew why now that every girl wanted to be with him, the way he treated a girl when he was with them in bed made you 100% convinced that he had feelings for you, that you meant something to him, that he cared; a true Romancer.. But, you learned the awful truth only after everything had played out according to his needs. 

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I couldn’t believe the day had finally come, the day we were done with. Here I thought that I was the last one he’d ever be with, it made me feel amazing that he had chosen me out of every other girl out there, but it all meant nothing now. I sat in the park after I had gotten off work, not ready to go home yet though I knew I would have to since I had a few things waiting for me to pick up still. It’s been about two weeks since I had asked Anya and Julia for advice and since then, Jason and I have been a complete mess. I can’t bare to look at him and he can’t stand me not talking to him.. We had already worked out the hard details of when each of us would get the boy’s, but there was nothing else that needed to be discussed, so I refuse to talk to him anymore. Jason is officially dead to me.

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Breaking the news to Lucy made her upset, she cares for me a lot and I know that she considers me a motherly figure, but I won’t abandon her. I’ve talked to her about everything and have told her she’s still welcome to come to my new place with the twins if she ever wants to; I’ve grown fond of Lucy and if she still wants to see me and spend time with me, Jason is going to have to respect that and let her. Gareth and Gibson don’t really understand why I’m not going to be living with Jason and them anymore, and they don’t understand why  they need to be separated from at least one of us at a time, but they’ll grow to figure it and hopefully they’ll accept it soon.

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I finally raised myself from the park fountain slowly, looking around and still not wanting to go home, but Jason had to go to work soon and I needed to pick up the last of my things and the boys; we agreed that I would get them weekdays and he gets them on the weekends, and seeing how it was only Monday, I’ll take the boys with me to my new apartment in the city tonight. I’ve been on the edge of tears all day and it was nearly impossible to keep from crying at work when my friends at the lab wouldn’t stop asking what’s wrong, but somehow I managed. My pocket buzzed and I pulled out my cell phone, seeing Jason calling me and I hit the ignore button, walking out of the park then to make my way back to the house.

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The entire drive home I couldn’t get the sadness I felt out of the pit of my stomach, it had been there for a while now though and I knew it still wouldn’t be gone for an even longer while no matter how much I tried to ignore it. I was stupid to believe that we’d stay together forever, I was stupid to think that he loved me even the slightest bit, and I was stupid to let it go on this long and acting like he was a saint when deep down I knew he wasn’t faithful from the beginning. A car honking behind me snapped me back into reality and I saw that the light was green for me to go and I did, continuing to drive to the house and I could feel my insides beginning to tense up from nerves. All I wanted to do was pick up my stuff and the twins and leave, but I knew Jason wasn’t going to make it that easy for me.

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I took a deep breath and got out of the car, walking to the front door and looking in through the large windows to see if anyone was in the foyer and I noticed Lucy sitting on the couch reading a book. I stood there for a moment, watching her and almost savoring seeing her so calm, yet I knew she was doing reading in the foyer because she was waiting for me. I continued to the door and walked into the house, watching Lucy perk up instantly and she dropped her book on the couch to come over to me.

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Are you going now? I wish you didn’t have to leave, I liked having you around,” Lucy said softly and I couldn’t help but smile; she was such a sweet girl. 

“I don’t have to leave, I just need to. We’ve been over this, your Dad and I, just.. Want to be friends,” I repeated; we’ve been over this so many times within the past few weeks.

But, if you just want to be friends then why not just stay for my brothers?” She questioned for the hundredth time.

“Lucy..” I began, but I was cut off by a deeper voice.

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Luce.. Go to your room, please,” Jason told Lucy and she looked to him as he made his way downstairs to join us.

Dad, can I go with Gareth and Gibson to Faline’s? Pleeassee?” Lucy asked excitedly and my expression went surprised, not knowing she was going to put him on the spot like this and I looked to Jason as he reached the bottom of the stairs and walked over to join us.

No.. Don’t you think Faline wants to get settled into her new place? The boys are a handful as it is, I don’t think she-” He stopped when I cut him off.

“Sure, I don’t mind, I could use an extra pair of hands to help me unpack, huh, Lucy?” I asked her with a smile and she nodded happily towards me, looking back up to Jason then.

“See? She doesn’t care.. I wanna go, can I?” She asked again and I watched as Jason looked to me with a displeased expression. I wasn’t trying to make him angry, but I had to admit, it felt good seeing that annoyed look in his eyes after everything he’s done to me. Lucy obviously wanted to be with me more than him right now, and I knew that made him upset. I gave him a soft smirk, waiting for his answer with Lucy and I could see in his face that he wanted to say no again.

“Fine.. Go pack a bag while I help Faline with her things,” Jason replied and I was surprised by his answer. I watched Lucy excitedly run past Jason and upstairs to go to her room, though I was unhappy that it had led to him helping me with my stuff; I almost wanted to call Lucy back just to stay in the room with us so things didn’t get heated or out of hand. 

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Nothing good ever came to us when we were alone; ever since the night I had talk to his sisters about him, him and I have been cruel to one another and our fighting seemed to never stop. Once I had finally gotten him to confess everything, though I still felt he left some things out, my hatred almost instantly outweighed what I had thought was love and he’s seen how angry I can be. But, one thing that always bothered me and kept me wondering was when he was going to show me his true side.. I knew he was still keeping something from me, yet, despite how much I wanted to know what it was, I was scared at the same time. I was scared of him. Never have I seen him treat me like how he’d treated all of the girls before me in college, it was as if he’d done a 180 and nothing mattered between us anymore.. I knew now he was trying to hurt me, trying to bring me down like he had done to all of the others; I was curious on when that time would finally come.. But, the look in his eyes now told me I was about to experience a piece of it..

I looked to the last of my things near the door and Jason began to walk towards me, but I walked towards my things, not wanting to look at him anymore already and before I could begin bringing my stuff outside, Jason turned me forcefully to face him and I removed my arm from his grip, “Don’t touch me, you never get to touch me again. Are we clear?” I warned, but he barely backed down.

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He drew closer to me and I cowered slightly, taking a step away from him but my back hit the window. I could feel the heat of rage coming off of him and his face was inches from mine now. I averted my eyes from his and shut them, beginning to grow a little frightened by how successful his intimidation technique was. “Let me make something clear to YOU.. The moment we decided to end this and you decided to leave, you gave up the authority you held in this house. You will not pin Lucy against me, she will never be in the middle of this, and your word will never, ever, come first before mine when it comes to her. If I say no, then what’s the answer?” He asked me, though I thought it was rhetorical, so I didn’t respond. “What’s the answer?” I jumped gently in fear from his raised voice and harsher tone.

“No,” I replied in a whisper, trying my best to make sure he knew that I understood him so he would back off a little.

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I opened my eyes slowly and he was still standing his ground closer to me than I would like. “I’m glad we understand one another,” Jason said softly, “I’ll take this stuff to your car.. You get the boys ready,” he continued, reaching up to touch my face and I winced as he cupped my cheek into his palm. I watched him smirk out of the corner of my eye, leaning in then and kissing my cheek. My skin crawled and the only thing I could do was shut my eyes again to make this less painful, less uncomfortable. Was he trying to prove that I was powerless when it came to him? I couldn’t do anything, wouldn’t do anything, and he knew it. God, I hate this man. Even at the end of everything, my final few minutes of being in this house for the last time, he made sure that I knew who was in control, who had always been, and who would always remain in control; he had drained me completely. Even through all of this emotional pain and torment he had put me through, I could tell that this was him only making things worse, but with a smile on his face this time now that I was aware of everything he had been hiding. Now that I knew, there was nothing to hide and there was nothing to go back on; I could tell he enjoyed making me feeling like this now.. As if he hasn’t punished me enough already when I’ve done nothing wrong..

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Jason’s hand slipped away from my face and he finally backed off, stepping over to my belongings and grabbing it all for me to take to my car. When the front door shut behind him, I couldn’t hold back anymore, feeling a few tears escape my eyes and I covered my mouth to hush my crying. My heart was pounding out of my chest and I was relieved that I could breathe now without Jason in my face, trying my hardest to get my crying out as quick as possible so neither Jason nor the kids knew I wasn’t happy.

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After calming down the best that I could, I quickly went upstairs and to the boy’s room, wanting to hurry and leave faster. I saw the two playing in their pen, a forced smile running across my lips when Gibson looked over to me, “You guys ready to go to Mommy’s place?” I wondered.

“Yeah, I guess so..” Gibson replied, but nothing came from Gareth.

“Gareth, you ready?” I asked him, but he still didn’t reply; he hasn’t talked to me much since we told them everything that was going on.

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I walked over to the playpen and picked up Gibson, fixing his shirt a little and brushing down his hair in back in a soft manner, “I know this is tough and my place is going to be a little smaller and hard to get used to, but it’ll be fun. I’m on the very highest floor and you can see the city lights, it’s very pretty,” I told them both, yet Gareth still didn’t bother to acknowledge me within the room. Gibson was the same as Gareth at first, scared and unsure, but he came around quicker than I thought and he seemed excited about living here and also in the city at times.

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I heard the door open behind me and I knew it was Jason, not bothering to turn around and acknowledge him and I continued to pay attention to Gibson. “Car’s all ready, how are my little men doing?” Jason wondered, but I couldn’t tell if he was talking to me or asking them, so I didn’t say anything.

“I don’t wanna go,” Gareth said softly, sighing to myself and watching Jason walk over to him and lift him into his arms.

“Sure you do, it’ll be fine, big guy,” Jason comforted. Normally I would find all of this comforting, too, but now I just find it more heartbreaking that this man in front of me has many faces; though I am glad that none of the kids have ever seen the bad face that I know.

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“I wanna stay here,” Gareth continued and we both could tell he was about to start one of his notorious fits, but Jason tried to stop it before it started.

Remember what I told you a few weeks ago? That you need to watch out for Gibson?” Jason began quietly and I averted my eyes as they talked, holding Gibson closer and gathering a few things around the room for them. I couldn’t look at them, I couldn’t get over the fact that Jason was such a conniving, disgusting person, and yet I had children with him that he treated like precious gifts. It was weird and heartbreaking at the same time to watch him with either of the boys, but, if there was anything left to Jason that I could find comfort in, it was that I knew he was an good father; that’s all I can really ask for now, I guess..

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After Jason’s pep talk to Gareth, we left their room and walked towards the stairs, the hairs on the back of my neck standing, I could feel Jason looking at me and I hated it. I looked to the front door and saw Lucy by it, standing there and waiting for us. “All ready to go?” I asked, seeing her look to us and smile. 

Yup, all ready!” She replied happily, “I already put my bag in the car, are we going now?” She wondered and I nodded.

“Yeah, we’re going now. Did you remember everything? You still have school tomorrow, did you bring your school stuff, clothes, toothbrush?” I asked.

Yes, I have everything,” she answered and I nodded again. I would’ve taken a moment to bask in the house, try to remember more of the good than the bad, but there wasn’t much that I’d miss about this place. I decided against standing there for a moment and looking at everything, the bad memories outweighed the good and I didn’t want to bask in something I wasn’t going to miss.

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When we all walked out to the car, I got Gibson ready in his car seat as Jason talked to Lucy, but I couldn’t hear them too clearly; I only assumed he was telling her the basics, like get to bed on time, be sure to brush your teeth, watch out for your brothers.. I never imagined a goodbye like this would be so easy, it was almost as if I was going on vacation with the kids and I’d be back soon, but only the kids would be coming back in the end and I was refreshingly okay with never seeing Jason again though I knew I had to sometimes.. All I wanted now was a calm life, maybe get a raise at my work or even promoted, meet someone who actually cares about me, get married.. But, who knows.

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Gareth seemed to warm up to my new place, then again it could just be Lucy making him feel better about being here. Gibson loved the condo, loved the view, love the new scenery; he was excited about all of it. Gareth pouted the whole way here, saying he wanted to go back home, saying that he wanted to see Jason, but Lucy was a huge help in convincing him to give this place a chance; the boys loved Lucy so much, I was thankful that she had wanted to come with or I don’t think I could’ve calmed down Gareth myself, not in the condition I was in.

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I made dinner for Lucy and I as she played with the boys in the living room, I was finally able to calm down a little after everything that had happened today and I was glad that the hard part was over with. I made a stew that my mother used to make for me whenever I was feeling down in the dumps, the smell filling the condo and it helped me realized how much I needed this. I couldn’t straighten things out with Jason, I couldn’t let him get away with everything that he’s done to me, and I couldn’t be with him or near him anymore now knowing he could care less about me. This new place is just the thing I needed, it saved me from letting myself rot away in that house and I had to admit that I was a lot happier now than I’ve been in years. 

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When dinner was almost ready, I got the kid’s attention, “Alright, boys, time for bed. Lucy, could you grab Gareth for me?” I requested as I walked away from the stove to let the stew simmer. I picked up Gibson and watched as Lucy got Gareth for me like I had asked.

Wow, you guys are getting so heavy!” Lucy said with a gentle laugh, struggling only a little as she lifted Gareth up and into her arms.

“Yeah, they sure are,” I said with both a smile and a sigh, knowing that they were growing up quickly but I wished they would stay this small and sweet forever. They already looked so much like Jason, inheriting almost everything from him and the only thing that remotely resembled me was Gibson’s green eyes. I wished they had gotten a little more from me now, watching them grow up and resemble Jason more and more was going to be tough to get over.

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I changed both of them out of their clothes and Lucy put Gareth to bed for me while I said goodnight to Gibson, “I home you sleep well, my little prince,” I said softly, watching his eyelids getting heavier as I rubbed the top of his hand with my thumb. 

Goodnight, Gareth,” Lucy said softly, yet it didn’t sound like it was going well.

“I don’t wanna go to bed!” He said angrily and I sighed to myself, part of me already knew that he was going to make this difficult for me.

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I stepped away from Gibson’s crib when he had laid down to shut his eyes and I walked over to Lucy by Gareth’s crib, “What’s wrong, sweetie?” I asked him, “You know that it’s your bedtime, you need to sleep,” I tried to convince, yet he still had a fussing expression. 

“This room is stupid! It’s small! I wanna be in my other room!” He demanded.

It’ll be okay, you’ll get used to it.. You’re going to be in your old room this weekend,” Lucy tried to comfort him as well.

“I don’t care! I wanna go home! I want Daddy!” He yelled louder now and started to rattle his crib.

“Gareth, that’s enough.. You heard Lucy, you’ll be home with Daddy this weekend, only a few more days here, that’s all..” I added, but it was no use.

“I hate it here! I want Daddy!” He continued, repeating over and over that he wanted Jason and I had had enough.. I knew he wasn’t going to stop and the best thing I could do right now if just ignore his behavior and hope he wears himself out.

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I put my hand on Lucy’s shoulder and led her out of the boy’s room, both of us continuing to hear Gareth screaming and rattling his crib as hard as he could. I shut the light off and wished him goodnight even though he couldn’t hear me over his own screaming, but I shut the door anyhow and led Lucy downstairs.

He’s not always going to be like this, is he?” She wondered.

“No, he’ll get used to it soon enough.. It’ll take time, but he’ll adjust,” I replied with a smirk and Lucy nodded, both of us continuing on our way to the kitchen so we could eat dinner together.

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We sat at the table together and as much as I wanted to avoid talking about Jason with her, she couldn’t help but bring it up, “So, do you and Dad just.. Like.. Not love each other or something? I feel like all of this came out of nowhere still,” she began and I sighed, but covered up my frustration as I blew at the stew to cool it down.

“Lucy.. We’ve been over this, we just want to be friends. We want each other to be happy,” I replied softly.

But you’re not happy together? Why not? I thought you and Dad loved each other.. I mean, that’s why people have kids together, right?”

I hated this conversation, I couldn’t admit to her that Gareth and Gibson were mistakes from a drunk one night stand back in our college days, but I couldn’t not answer her either.. “Your Dad and I do love each other, just not in that way, I suppose.. More as friends.”

Then why’d you both have Gareth and Gibson together?”

“Can we talk about something else, please? We’ve been over this, Lucy, I don’t want to have to repeat myself for the millionth time,” I replied, slightly frustrated now and I noticed her expression turn somewhat sad, “I’m sorry, I know this is a lot to take in and it’s hard to understand.. It’s just a little tough for me to discuss it,” I continued with a slight smirk, watching her nod in understanding.

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There was a silence at the table now, but it wasn’t awkward and it didn’t last long, though the next thing that Lucy thought of to talk about threw me off a little, “Did you know my mom?” She asked and I stopped chewing for a brief second.

“Um.. I’ve only met her a handful of times, I don’t know nearly as much as your Father does.. Why do you ask?”

No reason.. I remember her a little, but she died when I was super young, you know. The only thing I really remember is that she drank a lot, she had a lot of friends, and she didn’t like my Dad too much,” she replied and I was surprised a little.

“What do you mean?” I wondered and I watched her shrug.

I don’t know, she was just never happy when he was around. They fought all the time, I knew they didn’t love each other.. Not to be mean, but I was happier around you than my mom, I knew you cared for my Dad. But, now, since you don’t love him like that either, he’s changed a lot. I just want him to love someone and be happy,” she answered and I didn’t quite know what to say. She’s been with Jason her whole life and she’s witnessed his losses, I just never imagined she’d understand him so well. 

“Well, he loves you. He loves Gareth and Gibson, too.. Even though I’m gone and we don’t love one another like that, just know that he’ll never stop loving you guys,” I reply and I watch her smirk and nod in agreement.

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After our meal, Lucy grabbed the bowls before I could and she went to the sink, washing them for me, “Luce, you don’t have to do that.. Let me,” I said.

It’s okay, it’s not like I’ve never done it before, but I’ve never done it here. I don’t mind helping you,” she replied and continued washing them and I smiled.

“Well, thank you for all of your help today.. With the dishes, the boys, helping me with my things. It’s a lot of help,” I answered, appreciating everything she’s done with me today.

You’re welcome,” she replied, finishing up the dishes as I put away the leftovers of the stew, “Can I watch TV before bed?” She asked next and I looked to her.

“Yeah, of course. Let’s go watch something,” I replied and she smiled, running excitedly over to the television.

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We watched Kid Zone for a while, talking and laughing back and forth as we watched one of Lucy’s favorite shows that had came on. The longer we were at my place, the more comfortable I felt and I could tell I was slowly starting to forget about Jason. All I wanted to do was start new, forget him and move on. But, I soon realized the more I purposely tried to forget him instead of just letting it happen on it’s own, bad thoughts ran through my mind again and I thought about earlier when he had pinned me against the wall and threatened me. My bottom lip quivered a little at the threat of getting emotional, but I took a few deep breathes and focused on the show with Lucy once again. 

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I heard a buzzing noise, then a ringtone I didn’t recognize coming from the couch. I was surprised when Lucy stood to her feet and pulled put a cell phone from her pocket, “Where did you get that?” I asked, worried she may have found it and kept it or even stole it, but then again, I couldn’t see her doing something like that.

Dad bought it for me last week, it’s him calling, too,” she replied and I raised a brow, not thinking once that he’d ever get her a phone, especially at her young age. “Hey, Dad,” she answered, and although I wanted to give her privacy with Jason, I couldn’t help but listen in on the conversation and guessing what he was saying to her judging by her replies. “I’m good, just watching TV with Faline,” there was a short silence, “Yeah, did you wanna talk to her?” She asked next and I froze up, hoping that he didn’t, “Oh, okay,” she replied, not handing me the phone and I let out a sigh of relief. 

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She walked over to the hallway and continued, “They were okay when they first got here and I played with them. Gareth got really fussy when being put to bed, though. He didn’t seem tired and he wanted you..”

“No, he’s asleep now I think, I haven’t heard him upstairs..”

“Yeah, it’s two stories, Faline’s room and the boys’ room is upstairs. There’s even a jacuzzi outside on the balcony, it’s awesome! I wish I brought my bathing suit!” She continued and I smiled, enjoying her enthusiasm in being here, though a little irritated that it seemed like Jason wanted to know what the place was like; if he wanted to know, he can come here himself and see, or he can mind his own business.

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Well, my show is on and I was going to watch it and then go to bed..”

No, that’s okay, I’ll take the bus home tomorrow..”

I know, Dad, I won’t..”

Okay.. I love you, too, goodnight,” she finished on the phone and hung up, walking back over to me and sitting on the couch again to finish her show before bed.

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When Lucy’s show was over, I turned the TV off and she wined a little, “Oh stop, you knew it was bed time,” I said with a motherly smirk. I stood up and she joined me, “So, you can sleep here on the couch, I have plenty of pillows and blankets, or you can sleep in my room in the bed with me, doesn’t matter,” I gave her some options and she thought for a moment.

I’ll just sleep with you, if that’s okay,” she replied.

“Of course.. My room is the opposite of the boys’ and there’s a bathroom in my room, too, you can get ready in there or there’s a bathroom by the front door,” I gave her more options and she nodded, going to her bag and going upstairs to change and get ready for bed.

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I soon followed behind Lucy after shutting all the lights off downstairs and she was ready and in bed in a flash. I enjoyed seeing her wear the pajamas I had gotten her for her birthday last year, smiling as I watched her tuck herself in, “All set?”

Yeah,” she replied with a smile and I changed out of my work clothes finally and joined her in my bed, climbing under the covers with her and turning the light off.

“Goodnight, Luce..” I said softly, but she turned towards me and forced a smile.

I want my Dad to be happy, but I want you to be happy, too.. I’m sorry I didn’t say that earlier, but I guess I get it now,” she replied and I smiled warmly.

“It’s okay, Luce, I know. Don’t worry about us, we’ll be truly happy in no time at all.. Goodnight,” I answered, seeing her smile and nod.

Night.”

Generation 2, Chapter 14 Pt2

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I drove away from Bennu’s place, punching the dashboard, “Stupid, stupid, stupid!” I yelled at myself every time my fist hit the hard plastic. I drove around the city aimlessly, berating myself, “Well, great going, genius.. Now the woman you love hates you and never wants you to touch her again. How the fuck do you fix this? How do you keep the boys? How do you have Bennu the way you want her? You can’t go over there and visit with Bahiti without thinking about what Bennu’s wearing or what her lips might taste like that day. You can’t hold her anymore, you can’t kiss her anymore, not to mention you can’t have the best sex of your life anymore.. Arruugghh! Stupid!” I yelled at myself, punching the dashboard once again and my knuckles started to turn red.

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I couldn’t go home, I didn’t want to go back to work, and there was no way I could go back to Bennu’s.. I wound up driving to the only other place I could think of that could help me calm down after all that has happened. I pulled up to the cemetery and the gate was locked, but I managed to hop onto the stone wall that only came up to my shoulders, then jumping over the gate behind it and I got in without a problem.

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I walked through the cemetery quickly and no one else was around, not even the keeper of the land and I was here alone. I walked to my parents graves and looked to my father’s for a few seconds, narrowing my eyes angrily, but I then looked to my mother’s headstone and my expression grew less irritated the more I looked at it. I took a few deep breathes in, letting each of them out slowly but my nerves didn’t calm nearly as much as I needed them to. 

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Mom, I don’t know what to do anymore.. There’s been too many times where something I loved has been threatened to be taken away from me, some of the most important ones I have lost, too.. I can’t lose anything else, I won’t.. I’ve known and loved this woman for so long, I found out we have a daughter together; she’s so, so beautiful.. I wish you could see her. She looks a lot like me, so smart, too.. You’d absolutely adore her, I know it. God I wish you could meet her,” I said softly, sighing and dropping my view to the grown in pink flowers, then back up to her headstone.

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“I love her, she’s the one I want, the one I want to be with, but Faline.. The boys.. Faline’s smart, if I left her, she’d know I’d been lying.. She’ll see in my face that there’s someone else even though I just denied it to her over and under. She’ll find out about Bahiti and I’ll never see her or the boys again,” I stopped, crossing my arms and looking over my shoulder towards the city, “I need to know what to do.. I need help, Ma. How do I keep the boys and have Bennu the way I want her so badly?” I questioned, my attention coming back to her headstone, “How do I get what I want without losing everything all at once?”

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I stepped closer to her grave and knelt down, holding my arm with my other hand, unable to hold back my tears and I felt one fall down my cheek. “Mom, please.. Anything. Show me anything, tell me what to do,” I begged, waiting there and keeping silent for what seemed like minutes as I wept there like a child. I felt so pathetic, only during desperate times did I ever ask so much from my deceased mother, especially knowing that after this long of feeling nothing from her, I knew she still wouldn’t help now. But, hell, I tried anyways..

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I crawled towards her headstone and turned around, leaning my back against it and looking up at the huge black sky full of blinking stars. “I wish you were still here.. It’d be so much easier if you were just still here,” I said softly. I stared up at the stars for I don’t know how long, watching each one individually for a few moments before switching to the next. The night was cool and each gentle breeze made me calmer by the minute, feeling a presence around me that was slightly comforting, but I was less eased by it than I thought I should be. It didn’t feel like my mother. A sudden force of weight fell over me and I felt uncomfortable, a gentle shiver down my spine and I didn’t feel alone anymore.

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I tilted my head down, away from the stars and my eyes searched the cemetery, taking a moment to adjust to the extra darkness the trees cast over the land. My eyes soon met the cement bench about 100 feet away from me, seeing a figure sitting upon it and I sat up slowly, “Hello?” I called out softly, not seeing the figure react to me as their head tilted up to look at the stars. I sat up more, climbing slowly to my feet and I dusted the back of my pants off, beginning to take a few hesitant steps towards the bench not too far from my parents graves. I looked back towards my mother, then around the cemetery once more to check if anyone else was there besides the stranger and I and we were all alone, my heartbeat accellerating quickly as I grew closer and I recognized the back of the man’s head, my body beginning to shake.

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I reached the bench and looked to the side of the man’s head, “This.. Can’t be happening,” I said softly, looking to the side of my father’s face and seeing his spiced-brown hair was now older and streaked gray, “You’re dead,” I continued. He didn’t look over at me when it was obvious I was standing near him, but he spoke instead.

“Not who you expected, I’m guessing..” He voiced quietly, his tone deeper and more intimidating than I remember. I didn’t respond, simply walking past him and standing on the edge of the tiny hill before us, “Probably the last person you wanted to see,” he continued. 

“Lucky guess,” I eventually replied, hearing a hummed chuckle come from him behind me.

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“What’s wrong? Not excited to see me?”

“Fuck you,” I spat quickly back at him.

“Still the little prick you always were, I see,” he replied and my spine tingled, I could feel him looking at me. I didn’t respond, I had nothing to say to him; he’s not who I wanted and asked to talk to. “Not even going to stick up for yourself.. That’s new. You were such a strong child, but I see you’ve only grown into a weak man. You’ve gone downhill, Jason. You never hesitated to throw my words back in my face, what’s so different now?” He wondered, cringing at him saying my name and it felt so weird to hear his voice again; how was this happening? Was I imagining this, or was he some sort of ghost like Archor was?

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“I know I asked for help, but not this, this is far from it.. I get someone like you to hover over me rather than someone who actually cared about me, someone like-”

“What, your mother? Sorry kiddo, she couldn’t make it this time, she doesn’t like watching her sons life crumble before her eyes,” he replied.

“But you do?” I asked quickly in return, turning my head and looking over his way, but still refusing to look directly at him; I couldn’t.

“No, I didn’t say that. I’m here because I can handle things better than she and you can. You’d both just end up crying on each others shoulders all night, she out of grief from what you’ve become and you out of happiness because you get to see Mommy again,” he answered and anger built up inside me. “So, four children, huh? Just like your old man,” He changed the subject.

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“I’m nothing like you.”

He ignored me, “Three of them are yours, only 2 are from the same mother, and one that isn’t yours at all, interesting life you’ve been making for yourself,” he began again and I let out a deep breath of annoyance, hating him even bringing the subject up. “First one, dead.. Faline’s a catch; small, frail, cute.. A good mother, yet the only reason you don’t like her is because she knows how promiscuous you can be and she has every right to think that. How many woman have you been with since you moved in with Faline?” He wondered, my hands beginning to shake with anger, “A dozen, I could imagine. Oh, and you’re last princess of the ball is a stripper whom you’ve just so happen to impregnate when you sleep with her at her place of work where it isn’t even allowed.. How low are you trying to go? How many more lives are you going to ruin, including your own? You can’t have everything you want, Jason..”

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“Don’t ever talk about them like you know them. You don’t know shit about them or me,” I warned.

“Is that so?” He asked bluntly. 

“I’ve had my doubts about every one of them. I doubted Lana ever since Lucy was born, I doubted Faline was going to last this long with me aleady, and I doubted that I’d ever get to see Bennu again. But, I’m trying to keep them all close to me for my children’s sake. I love them all and I’d do anything for them to make them happy, which is more than I can say for you.. I’m sure you’ve had your doubts about Mom. Never looked around the corner? Wished you’d never met her? Everyone makes mistakes..”

“Yeah, and you’ve made a lot so far now..” He replied and I clenched my teeth, “But, I can admit to that, I can admit I never wanted a family, but I gave your mother what she wanted regardless. And I was never unfaithful, I never so much as looked at another woman in that way.”

“Well, aren’t you just a saint. Killing your wife and attempting to kill your children as well is far less ungrateful,” I replied sarcastically, “I’d rather be unfaithful than kill someone, and on top of that being someone I cared about.”

“You’ve done both, so that still makes you half the man I am,” he replied and I heard him stand to his feet, still feeling his eyes on me and I thought about his words for a moment.

“What are you talking about? I’ve never killed anyone,” I answered sternly. 

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“Lana.. Did you really think she fell off herself? She was such a party girl, her attire was her everything, you think she’d really fall and slip in her heels? She was no stranger to a drunken stagger.. She needed help over that edge.”

I faced him instantly, “What the fuck are you saying? That I went there and pushed her off myself? Are you fucking insane?” I yelled and it only made me more angry when he smirked to my question.

“Funny you should mention that.. It’s all genetics, boy. You don’t know what you’re doing when you’re doing it, it just.. Happens. Like it’s something that’s meant to be. You’ve never felt it before? Blacked out and couldn’t explain it?”

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“Shut up, just leave me the hell alone! I wanted Mom because I hate you, I fucking hate you more than anything, so why would I believe a goddamn thing you’d ever say to me? Why are you here and she’s not!” I continued to yell at him.

“I’ve already told you..” He warned, “And you must’ve felt this anger before with something.. If I were to guess, you felt it before coming here, and you felt it before going over to Lana’s so late at night, breaking into her home and giving her that little extra help that she needed to be ridden from your life so you could keep Lucy,” he continued and I put my hands into my hair, pulling at the roots slightly from the built up anger.

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I walked away from him, unable to look at his face anymore and I stopped about ten feet away when he spoke again, “I didn’t want to do it, Jason..”

“Do what? Ruin my life?”

“Well, yeah, I guess if that’s how you see it. I never wanted you to have a life, anyways, any of us. Sometimes I wish I never met your mother,” he answered and I looked over my shoulder slightly. “I didn’t want you to become me, I couldn’t let you carry on the burden, so I.. I guess I torched everything, every trace, but I failed. Your great grandmother told me to be happy and to live my life with your mother, even despite everything that we both knew. I tried to get rid of it all and correct the mistakes I made, but it was too late, anyways.”

“And what did you two know?” I asked sarcastically, not bothering to give him sympathy.

“That we’re all out of our minds,” he replied and I scoffed, not believing a word he said, “You think it’s a joke, but it’s the only reason why I’d try and stop all of this. I couldn’t let anything continue, for your sake. Us men, our gene, it’s dangerous, we’re toxic and I needed to stop it all.. But th-that dammed dog ruined everything,” he finished and my eyes widened slowly.

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I turned around to face him, “Archor.. You did kill him, didn’t you? You’re mad at him for coming back and saving your children from death that you were going to be the cause of?” I asked angrily. 

“You don’t understand.”

“Then make me!” I yelled, “You owe me that much you son of a bitch,” I answered with more rage than I could muster.

“The pain.. All the pain that you’re feeling, you’ve caused and are going to cause would never happen. Jason.. Our family is hexed, we hurt the things we care about in the end of everything, no matter how hard we try not to,” he continued and I still couldn’t believe a word he said. How can he say such things? Making up excuses, blaming it on a curse when he killed my mother?

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I took the first chance I got and swung at him, missing the first few times and I never even grazed him, “How can you blame it on such bullshit! You killed my mother, your wife! How could you?” I yelled as I swung, still unable to strike him and he pulled back perfectly just out of my reach.

“Knock it off, you child! I tried to take responsibility and tried to stop the pain in this family, but I failed, accept it and deal with it for yourself now! You’re mother meant more to me than anything and I’d kill for her, but that hole was dug too deep already. I grew selfish for my own needs and I forgot what was important, and that was to not carry on this burden. I gave her everything she wanted despite what did and needed to do.. But I realized what I did only caused more pain, or would if I didn’t put a stop to it, but I failed! Now it’s on you! Think for yourself instead of running to Mommy every damn time, you coward, and figure out what to do about it because I sure as hell can’t do anything about it now!” He yelled back and grabbed the front of my suit, throwing me to the ground without so much as a struggle on his part.

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I turned as I was thrown, landing on my bottom and I looked up to the one thing that scared me more than anything; I felt as if I was 8 years old again having a fight in the house with my father. “You were always such a Momma’s boy. You hated me even before you could walk. Mommy isn’t here to help you, so what the hell are you going to do about it? Are you going to get rid of Faline to be with your mistress and the girl like you did to Lana to keep Lucy? Or are you going to be able to just be friends with your stripper whore and stay with Faline? Might as well make the best out of what you have already and don’t do anything stupid, or those boys are going to grow up hating you like you hated me,” he warned and I couldn’t breath; how did he know everything so clearly? The terrible things I had contemplated within my own mind and never spoke allowed? Despite me not believing a word he said, why did it sound so just and set in stone? Where there any other options besides the two he gave me?

“Wha…” I hesitated, succumbing to the fact that Dad showed up instead of Mom and it was the best option I had now, “W-What do I do?” I asked pleadingly, unable to take my eyes away from his hateful gaze.

“You’ve never asked me for advice..” He replied and I watched as he looked away from me briefly, but I couldn’t read his expression well; it almost looked as if he was appreciative, but I had never seen that before so I couldn’t be sure. He looked back to me and I held my breath again, “Think for yourself, be a fucking man and deal with it. Take care of what’s yours how you see fit. That’s all I’ve got, Jason,” he replied, lessening his cold stare and his expression went blank for a few moments.

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“B-But.. What do I do?” I asked, looking down at my lap, “What does that all mean? How can-” I continued, yet stopping when I looked back up and not seeing my father in front of me anymore, gone without so much as a sound. “D-Dad..?” I questioned and looked around frantically, twisting around on the ground and searching the cemetery, but I was alone again. “Dad!” I called out and looked around once more, but still nothing.

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I stood to my feet weakly, using the tree close to me for help and my head began to spin, dizzy after what I had just imagined and I wiped the back of my hand over my forehead; I was on fire. I couldn’t handle anything now. My mind was overflowing with things to worry about, ponder, contemplate, consider.. Too much. I staggered my way back towards the cemetery gate, not looking back at my parent’s graves once and I collided into the fence, catching my footing. I gathered myself for a moment, catching my breath and trying to calm my headache. I stood on the rocks next to me and jumped over the fence, going back to my car, getting in and sitting there for a few minutes, eyes shut and panting mouth open as I tried to comprehend everything I had just seen and heard. After about ten minutes of just sitting there, I pulled out my phone and noticed it was off; I remembered turning it off before I got to Bennu’s place. I turned it back on and checked the time, a little passed 11:45 pm and I started the car, deciding to go home after all of this.

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I got home and noticed a car in the driveway but I couldn’t tell who it belonged to, not helping my nerves settle at all as I starred at the mysterious vehicle and touched the hood for a few seconds; the car was still warm, whoever was here just got here before me. I walked into a dark house, looking around the foyer and standing there for a moment, hearing voices coming from the living room and I stepped slowly towards it, keeping each of my steps silent.

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The voices grew a little louder and I recognized the tones, peaking my head around the corner to confirm who I was thinking and I saw Anya and Julia in the living room with Faline; that must be Simon’s car or maybe Julia’s boyfriends, if she had one. I let out a quiet sigh, my heart had been racing at the thought of another man I didn’t know being in the house with Faline, with the twins, with Lucy, but I was relieved when it was only my sisters. Wait, what were they doing here anyway? 

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I heard Faline let out a large sigh as she sat on the couch and my sisters joined her, “Thanks for coming, I’m sorry it’s so late, but it’s my only free time I have after work when Jason isn’t here and after the boys and Lucy are sleeping,” Faline said softly and I could tell in her expression that she wasn’t happy.

It’s not a problem, really, it’s good that you called,” Anya replied.

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So, wha’d the little shit do now?” Julia asked and my brows furrowed at her insult, I already knew they were talking about me, or were going to. I could even tell by how Julia worded the question that they’ve talked about me before in the passed and it made me a little uneasy.

“Well, so much has happened since we’ve last gotten together, I don’t know where to start,” Faline replied. Was I going to sit here the whole time and listen to everything they said, or should I leave and go upstairs, shower, and go to bed and let them talk? The curiosity I had was beginning to be too much to bare, so I brought my head back out of their view and leaned against the bookshelf, deciding to listen and I’d retreat if they simply threatened to walk this way; I wanted.. No, needed to hear what she was going to say.

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Hmm.. Has he fired his secretary yet?” Anya wondered, starting things off for Faline.

“No, she’s still there.. After all this time and losing count on how many occasions I’ve asked him to and he still won’t do it.”

Have you told him she’s an idiot and can’t do math? Has the risk of losing his business even if she screws up any of the important paperwork?” Julia wondered.

“Yeah, I’ve told him that he could lose so much money because of her mistakes, but he still has someone checking her work, or he does it himself.. It’s such a waste of time to need to check it for her, she should just be able to do it and do it correctly. She’s just this ditsy bitch who can’t stand to even look at me and I know that she likes him.. He claims he doesn’t see it, though. But, I feel like they’ve..” Faline answered, hesitating.

Have you ever caught him?” Anya wondered and my heart raced a little.

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“No.. But it still doesn’t mean that nothing’s going on, or that something hasn’t happened already.. The way she looks, the things she wears at the office around him, it drives me insane.. But, I’m sure he doesn’t mind eyeing her all damn night,” Faline replied with a slightly angered tone. “I’m sorry, I know how hard this must me to talk about him with me, seeing as he’s your guys’ baby brother and all..”

We’re all adults here, and we want to help you and Jason, we just need to know what’s wrong,” Anya cooed sweetly.

Yeah, just skip the gross details,” Julia added and I can imagine the discomfort in her expression when she said that.

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“We had a fight the other day, a pretty big one.. It was about his secretary and I accused him of sleeping with her because what other reason was there for him to keep her? Even when I didn’t know anything set in stone.. He blew up, completely flew off the handle and yelled at me like crazy,” Faline began and I could already hear the mixed emotions coming out in her tone, “He was furious and I didn’t know what to say to him after that because he was right with everything he said. I had no proof, and..” She stopped, pausing for a moment, no doubt all three of us waiting eagerly for her to continue. “Well.. We haven’t, um..”

How long has it been?” Anya cut her off with a question, knowing that Faline was struggling with her words.

“Maybe about.. Four, five months? I don’t know..” Faline replied and I did the math in my head, trying to remember when really was the last time we had sex and I couldn’t remember either. “I guess it all kind of started when he hired his secretary.. That’s why I couldn’t take it anymore and I brought it up to see if he would deny it and he did.. But it just makes too much sense to me in my head. If it’s not her, though, I honestly think it could be someone else..”

Did he act like this in college?” Julia wondered and I sighed to myself, knowing the answer before Faline could say it.

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“Yeah, he was the big man on campus. Everyone knew him, especially the girls.. I honestly couldn’t tell you how many times I’ve seen girls at a party crying over him because he had ‘moved on to the next’, sometimes during the party, too, he’d move on. Happened with a few of my friends, too.. A lot of friendships crumbled because of him, and I watched more happen than anyone else.. But, I was the last one I guess, the cherry on top of his college cake,” Faline replied. My blood was boiling and I couldn’t believe she would tell my own sisters the things I did in college when I had changed so much since then, and Faline knew it. I especially didn’t want my sisters to know that, to know I was such a glutton for different women and even I had no idea how many women I’ve slept with; the number probably extends into the hundreds, though.

Ew, it’s so weird to know that Jason was That Guy..” Julia replied.

Stop..” Anya spoke towards Julia. “Faline, do you really think he’d be able to do something like this with all of what he already has on the table?” Anya wondered, and from what it sounded like, she was defending me.

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You said yourself you have no proof, and I’m not trying to make you sound wrong, but who are you to assume such things when he graduated 4 years ago? Who says he isn’t passed it?” Anya continued and I couldn’t describe my appreciation for her.

“He said he spent the night at the office last night after our fight, but he didn’t,” Faline replied, listening to the dead silence in the room and my heartbeat quickened even more. “I followed him, that’s why I called you to babysit last night, Anya.. He was at the bar until about midnight, then he suddenly came out, went straight to his car and sped off. I followed him to an apartment building, the one on the northeast edge of the city.. He was there until I got too tired to wait anymore, so I came home before I fell asleep in the car,” Faline finished and there was another silence within the room and I felt sick to my stomach. She.. She spied on me, she knew where Bennu lived, but not who she was.

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Faline.. I know with what you said, it seems like a lot of what you’re worrying about, but spying on him? You must’ve had this distrust with him for a while for you to call Anya when you know she works at the hospital and is on call all the time,” Julia replied and I listened intently as my body quaked with fear, “You have children to look after. Anya has her job to worry about, who are you to put your children on someone else with a more important job than you just to spy on my little brother?” Julia finished and I was warmed by her defense.

“I knew this wasn’t a good idea..” Faline said softly.

Julia.. Stop,” Anya demanded, “We’re not here to judge anyone, we’re here to help. She caught him going to someone else’s place, he stayed there, I think she might be right, as much as I hate to admit it,” Anya continued and I peaked in, seeing Faline looking at no one while Anya and Julia shared an electric stare. 

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So.. He’s seeing someone else let’s say, what are you going to do?” Julia asked, taking my attention away from them again and only listening as I leaned against the bookshelf again.

“You know… I’m sorry Julia, that I’m saying this.. That it may seem like I’m calling your brother a unfaithful asshole,” Faline said with anger in her tone, “But I don’t want to lose him, Gareth and Gibson are too young for us to separate, but I know that he’s not being honest with me. I know him, maybe more than you. But, to answer your question, I don’t know what I want to do. What would you do if the father of your children has been cheating on you, and you don’t even know for how long?” Faline spat back at Julia and I clenched my hands into fists, wanting to bust into there and defend my sister, yet I couldn’t, let alone had no idea how to defend myself at this point when she’s caught me red handed.

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I’d leave him, or make him tell the truth. He denied it, you TRIED already, and he denied it. Why not believe him? Oh man, it’s a coincidence that he stopped touching you when he hired his secretary, but seeing as how you seem to never be there, how the hell can you say that he’s sleeping with her if you’ve never even witnessed it?” Julia spat back and I could’t help it, I had to peak in again and see them. Julia stood to her feet sternly, “Maybe you just need to gain a little more self confidence before accusing someone of something they said they didn’t do.. It isn’t healthy, especially if you’re still thinking about it and following him now after he told you no,” Julia replied and I couldn’t describe the newly earned respect I had for Julia, even if she was wrong to defend me. I watched then as Julia looked to Anya, “Enjoy dealing with this, I’m done,” she finished, walking passed them and towards me and I panicked a little.

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I heard Anya saying something to Faline but I was too preoccupied by Julia making her way towards me.. Shit. What do I do? She’s walking over here too fast for me to hide. Fuck.. I thought fast and did the first thing that came to mind, seeing Julia come out of the living room and I pulled her quickly, covering her mouth and holding her against me as she struggled briefly, “Stop! Stop.. It’s me, it’s Jason,” I said in a whisper and she stopped struggling so I let her go. She turned to face me with an angered expression and grabbed my hand, pulling me away from the living room and into the foyer, then out the front door.

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Julia let me go and turned to face me, “What the fuck is wrong with you, huh? So you’re a cheating, lying, sex addict now? How long were you listening? You know that she knows, right?” Julia began and I sighed harshly.

“I was there from the beginning, I heard everything. I got here a little after you two did,” I replied, still unable to calm my nerves.

So it’s true, yeah? You’re seeing someone else behind her back? Who’s apartment is that that you went to?”

“No ones,” I said bluntly.

Don’t you ever bullshit me.. Do I know her? Do any of us do? Is it your secretary’s place?” She asked, 

“No.. It’s not her place, and no one knows her. Now drop it.”

No, I’m not going to drop it because I’m in this. I’ve been in this with Anya and Hitomi and Faline for a while now,” she began and I shut my eyes in defeat, hating that Hitomi knew as well, “I don’t know what it is that you think you’re doing, but Faline’s on to you, you’re not hiding this well at all.. And you shouldn’t be hiding anything in the first place. Why don’t you get over your college days and grow the fuck up? You have kids to worry about, Jason, they’re just toddlers.. They need you around more than ever at this age, you can’t just act like they don’t exist and run off to have fun with some bimbo who shouldn’t mean anything to you! Grow up already, okay?” She replied angrily and I didn’t know what to say to her, my blood was still boiling and it bothered me that she sounded a lot like Dad when talking to me.

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“You don’t get it.. I know my children need me and I would never put anyone else before them.. I’m taking care of my kids, all of them, all four,” I replied and I watched as Julia gave me an intimidating expression.

Whoa, whoa, wait.. Four, did you say? Last time I checked it was only three,” she paused, nodding her head when she eventually figured it out, “I get it. The one in the apartment is another baby momma, huh?” She asked and I hung my head, unable to look at her anymore. “Jesus, Jason.. Do you even know what the word protection means?” She asked harshly.

“Ew.. Julia, you’re the last person I need to have this talk with..” I replied, trying to avoid this topic with my sister and she sighed, looking down at my suit for a few moments.

Girl? Boy? How old?”

“She’s a little younger than the twins, only by a few months,” I admit.

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How long have you been seeing this woman?”

“I knew her all throughout college.. After I graduated we lost contact, but she actually found me yesterday and told me everything and showed me our little girl. She invited me to stay so I could meet her in the morning, so I did and I fell in love the moment I met her. I should’ve known better than to sleep somewhere else besides home, but I couldn’t leave.. I didn’t know when the next chance I was going to have to get to meet her,” I continued. Suddenly, earlier today popped back into my head and I remembered when Faline had asked me where I was last night, and I lied.. She didn’t call me out on it, she even let me pleasure her knowing full well I was lying. Why didn’t she tell me then that she didn’t believe me? Why didn’t she tell me that she spied on me?

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Are you ever going to tell Faline? Or are you just going to let her follow you around, spying on you and finding out that way?” 

I didn’t know what to say to Julia.. I couldn’t keep this up forever and have Faline find out the hard way, I’d come home to an empty house. Yet, what the hell would I say to her if I confessed? I thought I loved her in the beginning, but all we did was grow apart and stop trying; she’d always be important to me as the mother of my boys, but I just couldn’t deal with this anymore. “I’ll figure it out..”

Do you even want to be with her anymore? Try to fix this?” She wondered.

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“No.. I mean, I want to be on okay terms with her, but I don’t want to be with her,” I replied and Julia sighed, looking down to the ground and nodding in understanding.

You wanna be with the other mother, or just someone that’s not Faline?” She asked in return.

“I wanna be with the other mother.. I always have since I met her, even before having our little girl. Her name’s Bennu, our little one is Bahiti,” I replied, looking up to Julia.

Whoa, exotic names.. Is she foreign or something?”

“Yeah, she’s Egyptian.”

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Ooooo, sexyyyy,” Julia said in a teasing manner and I couldn’t help but let out an embarrassed chuckle. “Hey, listen.. You don’t have to stay here tonight if you don’t want, you can always crash at my place.. Might be a little easier than seeing her and having to interact with her if you’re not ready.. Give you some time to gather your thoughts, I guess..” She offered. I was touched by her concern and worry for me, but, I needed to be here; I needed to be here for when the kids wake up, I couldn’t abandon them and leave them on Faline just because I was too much of a coward to look Faline in the eye.

“Nah, thanks though.. Not coming home the other night only made things worse.. I don’t wanna do it again and make things even more difficult for when I finally decide to talk to her about everything,” I replied.

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Alright, suit yourself.. Call me if you ever need anything,” she said with a smirk and wrapped her arms around me, hugging me goodbye and I held her in return for a few moments longer than she expected. This was so much better than being with my Dad; Julia gave me real advice, talked me through this and listened to what I had to say. I was so grateful.. “Okay, let go now,” Julia said with a chuckle and I let her go.

“S-Sorry.. But thank you, for hearing what I had to say instead of just hearing Faline’s side..” I replied with an uneasy smile.

Never a problem, lil’ bro.. I’ll see you later. Don’t worry, things will work out soon enough.. And call me when I get to meet Bahiti,” she added, smiling as she walked away backwards pointing a strict finger at me and I nodded, then watched her turn around and leave, phone against her ear as she called a cab.

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I walked back over to the front door, opening it quietly and coming back inside. I stood there a moment, debating on if I should go back towards the living room and continue eavesdropping or if I should go upstairs and go to sleep. As much as I wanted to keep listening, I couldn’t do it; I had heard enough already, and I didn’t like hearing people talk about me behind my back. I went upstairs and to my bedroom, jumping in the shower for a quick few minutes and throwing on a pair of pajama pants when I got out. 

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I walked out into the bedroom and looked around, taking in my surroundings and wondering how much it was going to change soon. Although all of the inadequate objects wouldn’t change drastically, seeing how almost everything was something of mine, I still felt it would be a little empty without Faline, despite how I felt about her and not wanting her anymore. I kept feeling sorry for her, but at the same time I hated it because I was going to be with Bennu when all of this ended. But, I still couldn’t shake the fact that it was going to be hard on the both of us, whenever the time to talk did arrive..

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The baby monitor light lit up, picking up on subtle noises coming from the twins’ room and I looked to it, waiting to hear anything and I heard Gareth start to cry. I was used to him doing it around this time of night, but as I tried to ignore it in hopes he would go back to sleep, he didn’t. His cries got louder and he began calling for Faline and myself and it wasn’t like him to be so awake and upset. I grew a little worried, walking quickly over to the door and going out to go to the boy’s room.

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I opened their door and walked in quietly, seeing Garth standing in his crib and continuing to cry. I went to him instantly and watched him wipe tears from his eyes, “Hey, bud.. What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?” I asked with sympathy, watching as he continued to cry and he couldn’t form words just yet. He reached up for me and I picked him up, pulling his cheek to my lips and pecking him a few times, “Calm dooowwnnn,” I continued to talk quietly, trying to get him to stop so he didn’t wake his brother.

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I felt him wrap his arms around my neck tightly and I let out a nervous chuckle, walking him around his room and bouncing him gently, shushing him in hopes to calm him down eventually. As much as a downer this was, I was going to miss it; I knew once Faline and I got around to talking things through, the first thing we’d talk about is her moving out. Things were going to end up like how things went with Lana and Lucy, I wasn’t going to see them every day, every night, ever dinner; I wasn’t going to get to hold them like this whenever they woke up from a bad dream and I wasn’t going to hear Gareth fussing through the baby monitor around this time every night anymore, either.

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I continued to hold Gareth tightly and calm him, feeling his tears on my shoulder as I walked towards the window to look outside, trying to get my mind off of the inevitable. It took Gareth about five minutes to calm down and soon he had calmed to a light sob on my shoulder, feeling his tiny fingers gripping my hair. “Hey, how you doin’, champ? What woke you up?” I questioned.

“B-Bad dream,” he answered quietly and I smirked to his cute behavior.

“It’s okay now.. What was your dream about? What made you scared?”

“I-I wasn’t scared,” he replied confidently through the slight frog still in his throat and I chuckled softly.

“Okay, you weren’t scared, tough guy.. Why were you crying then?” I reworded my first question.

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“It.. It was a monster,” he answered and I rubbed his back, hoping to sooth him even more.

“A monster, huh? Well he’s not here anymore, is he? I’ve got you and he can’t get you anymore, I won’t let him,” I said softly, feeling his grip begin to give and I could tell he was calming down slightly. “There’s no such thing as monsters, only little things inside of your head to trick you. But, you’re stronger than them, right?”

“B-But he.. He was gunna hurt me and Gibs,” he continued quietly and I grew a little more worried. I tried to think of what I could say to him to make him feel better, he needed more of a push.

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“Did I ever tell you about when you were born? Hmm?” I asked and I felt him shake his head ‘no’. “Well, Mommy was scared, just like you. It took you two 4 hours to be born. But, she made it through, she used all of her strength to make sure you guys were born and you know what? You were born first, and Gibson was born two minutes after, which makes you the older brother. You gotta be strong, too, just like Mommy was, and just like how I’m doing now for you. You gotta do that for Gibs, to be strong and protect him, keep him close and don’t ever let anything come between you two, not even the scariest of monsters. Understand?” I concluded, feeling him then nod against my shoulder and his crying had finally stopped.

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I felt Gareth burrow into my shoulder a little, getting comfortable in my arms and I continued to rub his back soothingly. I swayed back and forth, trying to get him to fall back asleep with a newly calmed mind and I soon heard his exhales getting heavier. I continued to look out the window, watching the calm waters as I felt each of Gareth’s tiny breathes against my neck and feeling his tiny, quick heartbeat against my chest. I felt relaxed and nostalgic with all of them, unable to be or stay angry at anything when they were like this in my arms. I couldn’t hold Lucy like this anymore, so I took every opportunity I could to hold them when they wanted me to; they were all growing up so fast, I wasn’t ready for it.

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I soon turned around, still swaying Gareth back and forth in my arms as he slept against my shoulder and I looked up, seeing Faline by the door and I froze for a moment, wondering how low she had been standing there. We stared at one another for a few long seconds, watching as she dropped her gaze first and even through the dark I could see her eyes beginning to water. She traced her finger under her eyelid gently, acting as if she wiped something away other than a tear and she turned around, walking out of the room and shutting the door softly behind her.

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I let out a deep sigh through my nose and walked towards Gareth’s crib and as gently as I could, I pulled him from my shoulder and laid him down. He stirred a little as he slept, getting used to where he had been placed instead of being held and luckily he stayed asleep. 

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I walked to the door and left the boy’s room just as quietly as Faline did, looking then over to my bedroom door and seeing it finish shutting from Faline. I stood there a moment and contemplated going in to talk to her or just leaving her be, but I didn’t know what to do. If I didn’t go in there and act like nothing was wrong, she’d only assume worse things, but then again, she probably knew I had seen Simon’s car from Anya being here since I was home early and I’d most likely question it. It was getting late, she had work tomorrow morning and I needed to get my sleep, but how were either of us going to get shut eye while occupying the same room and knowing what we both knew? I knew she had talked to my sisters about me, I knew she thought I was cheating on her, and I knew there was no denying it once I walked through that door. But, we had to face it eventually, and despite us both needing our sleep, I thought I was ready to handle it tonight if she wanted to.

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I went to the bedroom door and slowly turned the knob, opening the door and looking in to see the room empty and I let out a relieved sigh, even though I knew she was just in the bathroom. I walked in and shut the door, walking then over to the bathroom and I raised a gently made fist to knock, but I held it back as I heard her crying and sniffling as softly as she could to try and hide it. I sighed lightly, not knowing what to do or what to say to her to make her feel better when I’m probably the last person she wants to see or talk to right now. I wasn’t good at this kind of thing, I’d never had a girlfriend in my life and I never had to break up with anyone before; I just simply moved on and they eventually found out the hard way.. Well, I guess it was the same thing in this case, it was only harder this time because I had children with this woman and I lived with her. But, I couldn’t avoid her forever, nor did I think she could do the same to me.. I remembered my Dad’s words back at the cemetery, telling me to man-up and as much as I didn’t want to, I committed to my raised fist and knocked gently.

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“Faline? Are you okay?” I asked and it took her a few seconds to respond.

“Yeah.. I’m fine,” she replied, her voice giving out a little and I sighed yet again.

I tried the doorknob but it was locked, “Can we talk? ..Please? Can you open the door?” I asked and I listened to silence for a few seconds.

“Uhm..” She cleared her throat a little better, “I was just going to take a bath, I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” She wondered and already I knew she was trying to avoid me.

I rested my forehead against the door and sighed again, “Faline, it’s almost one in the morning, don’t you wanna get some sleep instead?”

“Why do you want to talk then?” She asked in return and I didn’t know what to say really.

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“Because I don’t like talking to a door,” I replied, starting to get a little irritated, “Can you please, just.. Just open the door.. Okay?”

“I.. I cant,” she replied and I could hear her sobbing lightly again.

“Why?” I demanded to know, getting tired of this through-the-door conversation and I was beginning to have the urge to kick it down. She didn’t answer me and I was growing inpatient with each few seconds that passed without a response, my anger building quickly and I didn’t want to go back now, I couldn’t just give up yet and I hit the door hard with my fist, “Dammit, Faline! I just.. I want to know what’s wrong and I can’t help like this.. Just open the fucking door,” I voiced angrily and I heard shuffling behind the door.

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Faline came to the door and opened it, looking up to me and my expression grew less angered. Tears still fell down her face and I watched as her eyebrows furrowed suddenly in anger and her palm cracked hard against my cheek. My head jerked right and I held onto the door frame to keep myself from stumbling over from the unexpected slap. ..Well, not totally unexpected.. “You can help me by leaving me the hell alone you lying asshole! I can’t even look at you!” She answered and grabbed the door, slamming it in my face and I put my left hand on my cheek, feeling it getting hot under my touch and I stretched my jaw a little to help lessen the pain. 

“Ow..” I said softly; it had been a while since I’ve been slapped, I almost forgot what it felt like.

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Well, this was it.. The beginning to the end of us. “Fine.. Talk to me whenever you’re ready then,” I finished, stepping back from the door slowly and starring at it for a few seconds, not hearing anything but her crying on the other side and I walked towards the bedroom door, walking out and shutting it a little harder than I would’ve liked at this time of night. I walked passed the pool table and went to the couch, sitting upon it and hanging my head, unsure of what to do or if there was even anything I could do now.. I wanted to know desperately how this was going to end, how and when she was going to finally talk to me or even if she was ever going to. Would she just leave while I was at work, making it easier for the both of us? But no, it wouldn’t be easy, it would never be easy. Explaining all of this to the boys? To Lucy? But, as much as I hated to admit it, there were more pros than cons. Sure, Faline would be gone.. But I didn’t want her. Yeah, the boys wouldn’t be something I saw daily like they’re used to, but it could still work out. Hell, it did with Lana and Lucy.. Or did it? I doubted myself, or began to. I grew away from Lana, I’m growing away from Faline; who’s to say I won’t grow away from Bennu? 

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“No..” I said to myself, “I can’t lose all of this and have doubts about who I’m doing it for,” I reassured myself, taking a deep breath in and letting it out slowly, laying down upon the length of the couch and shutting my eyes, hoping that whenever Faline did end up talking to me, I’d actually be capable of letting it all go.

Generation 2, Chapter 14 Pt1

Attention: Heads up, loooonngg chapter :D

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The sun woke me, peaking his nosy face into Bennu’s room and I tousled a little before my eyes slowly opened. I looked to the spot next to me and noticed it was empty, then looking around the room to take in my foreign surroundings. I took a deep breath in and never wanted to get up, basking in the scent within the room and my insides fluttered at the familiar smell of the woman I loved. The smell eventually became too familiar to my senses for me to distinguish between anything else, finally convincing myself that it was time to get up. I sat up and swung my feet off the bed, sitting on the edge for a moment and I stopped, listening carefully and I could hear the faint sound of Bahiti on the other side of the wall, assuming she was playing with her toys and a wide smile formed on my lips; I couldn’t wait to meet her and see what she was like. After a few seconds of listening to her, I stood up from the bed and walked around Bennu’s room, picking up all of my clothes off the floor, though I had failed to find my orange sweater. Hmm..

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I gave up on looking for it, going to the door and stepping out into the hallway where I could hear Bahiti a little clearer with her door shut and I smiled once more. I looked left and saw Bennu in the kitchen, coming out of her room and walking towards her and she glanced at me with a flirtatious grin.

“How did you sleep?” She wondered, continuing to prepare whatever she was making, and I guessed waffles by the ingredients I saw.

“Haven’t had that good of sleep in years,” I replied, watching as she didn’t look at me but smiled more to my answer.

“Well, good.. Would you like to stay for breakfast?” She asked, glancing over at me once again and I nodded.

“Yeah, I’d love to,” I answered, reaching the outside of the kitchen and continuing to watch her prepare the meal.

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“How did you sleep?” I asked in return.

“Wonderfully,” she replied, seeing how nostalgic and relaxed she looked as she continued to prepare the meal.

“How’s Bahiti? Is she going to be eating with us?” I wondered, a little spark of excitement tousling my stomach.

“She is very well, and no, she won’t be joining us. She already ate. She gets to play for a little while longer and then its bath time and a nap after that, whether she likes it or not,” she answered, letting out a hummed chuckle and I smiled; I’ll have to remember that if I’m going to be around here more often.

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After she had put all that she had prepared into the oven, I slipped my way into the kitchen and wrapped my arm around her neck, pulling her closer and kissing her cheek and making my way up to her ear. Bennu let out ticklish giggles and it only compelled me to continue, nibbling on her earlobe, “Jazon, stop it,” she said in between her laughter.

“You wearing anything under this?” I whispered softly, running my left hand over her waist and slipping it under the closed flap of the robe she wore, soon feeling skin under the soft material.

“Stop ittt, you can’t distract me in the mornings, I have too much to do,” she teased, turning her head to look up at me and I sighed but smiled.

“Fiiiine,” I replied, seeing her lift her head and she kissed me briefly before going to the oven and checking on the food.

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After eating breakfast together, I gathered up the plates and utensils, “Oh, Jazon.. You don’t have to do that, really,” Bennu tried to stop me but I walked towards the kitchen anyways.

“It’s not a problem, I gotta thank you for the meal somehow since you won’t let me into that robe with you,” I replied with a grin and she smiled appreciatively. As I washed the dishes for her, all I could think about was Bahiti. Was she going to like me? What if she doesn’t want anything to do with me? I missed out on a lot of things with her already, but I knew that I didn’t want to miss out on anything else. “Has she ever asked about me? Well.. I mean, about who her father is or anything?” I asked as I cleaned one of the plates.

“Yes.. Recently I had gone over to a friends house who has a a kid of her own, too, and Bahiti wondered who the man was her friend was calling ‘Dad’. She started asking if she had one, too,” she replied.

“And what did you say?”

“I said she did, he just wasn’t with us at the moment. I promised her I’d let her meet him one day. I told her this morning that you were here and she was going to meet you; she seemed excited. But, Bahiti is a very shy girl, it takes her a little to warm up to people, don’t be discouraged if she doesn’t run into your arms right away,” Bennu added, smiling warmly and I nodded, finishing up the dishes.

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Bennu came into the kitchen and I watched as she wrapped up the rest of the waffles we didn’t eat and saved them for leftovers, “Do you think she’ll ever warm up to me?” I asked.

“Of course.. With time, she’ll grow to love you, don’t worry. She’ll eventually start to ask for things and ask you to play with her, that’s when you know she likes you,” Bennu comforted and I smiled, watching her step up to me and she put her arms around me, pushing herself up to kiss me, “I know realizing you have a child might be a little overwhelming, but I know you’ll be a great father,” she added, calming my nerves more. “Ready?” She wondered.

“Yeah, I think so,” I replied, Bennu then talking my hand as she led me towards Bahiti’s room.

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Bennu walked in first while I stayed out of view for a  moment and listening to them converse. A tiny, soft voice spoke before Bennu, “Mommy, I made their bedroom different colors! I put stripes on the walls with my crayons! Come see!” Bahiti said excitedly and I smiled to myself, hearing her dainty voice for the first time filled me with such joy.

“It’s beautiful, my amisi, I’m sure they love it,” Bennu replied, “Do you remember what we talked about this morning, about you meeting Daddy?” Bennu asked and I peaked into the room without Bahiti noticing. I saw her nod to Bennu and she continued, “Well, he’s outside the room, do you still want to say hi?” Bennu asked next, but Bahiti didn’t say or do anything, “Don’t be such a shy girl, he wants to meet you, too,” Bennu continued, running her fingers through Bahiti’s bangs and brushing the strands out of her face.

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Bennu stood up straight again and came to the door, looking to me and smiling as she took my hand and led me into Bahiti’s room. The moment I was within her sight, I watched as her bright eyes widened when she looked up at me; I could tell she wasn’t ready for someone so much taller than her mother to step in and for a moment I thought she was scared of me. Our sapphire eyes stayed connected for a few moments and I soon stepped in slowly a little more, stopping in front of her and bending down closer to her level. I smiled warmly, wanting to do what Bennu had done and touch her hair or even hold her, but I didn’t want to rush things, “Hi, Bahiti, I’m glad I finally get to meet you.. You’re very beautiful, did you know that?” I asked, watching as she averted her eyes from mine briefly and I couldn’t tell if she was just being shy or if she liked the compliment. I noticed that her eyes had found something else to stare at, looking at my arms and I smirked, “I’m pretty colorful, aren’t I?” I asked with a gentle chuckle, “Do you wanna see?” I asked, holding out my arm a little more and she looked at the designs with curiosity, yet she was still a little weary to get closer for a better look.

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I don’t know what I did, if I even did anything, but Bahiti suddenly ran around me and over to Bennu and I stood turning around and my expression went discouraged as I watched her tug on Bennu’s robe. I thought it was going well even for how little we talked, she seemed very interested in me, but what did I do to scare her away? She began to whine a little when Bennu wouldn’t pick her up.

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Bennu looked down at her and sighed, “What’s wrong with you, huh?” She wondered, picking up Bahiti and she hugged Bennu close, “Don’t be such a scaredy-cat,” she said softly, “He only wants to get to know you, you want to know him, too, don’t you?” She asked and Bahiti didn’t answer, hiding her face in Bennu’s shoulder. Bennu looked to me and smirked, her expression trying to reassure me that I didn’t do anything for her to be feeling this way, yet I still didn’t like seeing her get away from me. But, no matter how long it takes, I was going to get her to open up to me eventually.

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I stepped up to Bennu and Bahiti and smiled down at her before beginning, looking back up to Bennu, “It’s okay.. I should get going anyways,” I said softly, looking down at Bahiti again, “It was great meeting you, beautiful, I’m sure I’ll see you again very soon,” I said with another smile. I looked back up to Bennu, “Wanna walk me out?” I asked, seeing her smile and nod and she walked back over to Bahiti’s dollhouse, putting her down onto the floor again.

“I’ll be right back and then you’re getting a bath.. Can you say bye to him?” Bennu wondered and I stopped from leaving the room, looking back at her. Although she still didn’t use words, she lifted her hand and danced her fingers hesitantly, waving at me for a few seconds and I smiled wide. I waved back at her and watched as Bennu kissed the top of her head and stood straight, walking over towards me and we walked out of her room to go into the living room.

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When we got into the living room, I faced Bennu and smiled, “Well, I can see it’s going to take her a little while to get used to me, but I’d love to come back soon, anytime actually.”

“Well, what are you doing tonight? I could make us dinner,” Bennu suggested and I kept my smile.

“Yeah, I can figure something out for work.. What time?”

“Hmm.. How about I have it ready around 8:00? Bahiti goes to bed around then, but you’re welcome to stop by earlier and spend time with her if you want,” she continued. 

“Yeah, I’ll definitely be here earlier than eight,” I reply with a grin, watching her smile and I reached my hand up to run it down her arm.

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Bennu slowly wrapped her arms around me and pulled me to her, connecting our lips and my hands wrapped around her as well, pulling her against me even more and deepening the kiss. I didn’t want to leave, I wanted to stay all day and spend all of my time with them, but I needed to get home despite knowing I’d have to face Faline eventually. The quiet moans she hummed during our kiss only compelled me to forget about going home, wanting to disrobe her this instant and repeat everything we did last night. But, somehow I was finally able to pull from her lips and she looked at me with a gentle panting breath, her eyes telling me to stay, “I’ll see you tonight,” I said quietly, watching her nod and smile, slowly letting me go and I backed up towards the door, turning around when I reached it and walking out to go home.

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On my drive home, I started thinking of Faline and what I would say to her; she’ll probably be wondering where I was last night and why I never came home. I wondered what she would have to say to me now after having some time to think without me around. I thought about Bennu as well, unable to stand I was lying to her and I was debating on telling her about the family I had, even knowing the risk of making her upset. I couldn’t hide this from her, it would eventually turn into a huge problem and the sooner I told her, the better were my chances of keeping her. I was growing nervous as I got closer to home, but I knew Faline was at work by now and she probably dropped the twins off at Anya’s place; that’s what she usually did if I was ever unable to watch them. Anya had been helping out a lot ever since the twins were born; she fell in love with them and adores babysitting whenever she can. Her and Dwight broke up, but she found someone else at the hospital to date. A patient, actually, that had been rushed into the ER and she was his doctor during his recovery. I was happy for her and thankful that she had found someone that didn’t care if they had kids or not, he loved her and I could tell, that’s all that mattered.

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I parked the car and didn’t see Faline’s car there and the toddler seats were gone; good, she did take the boys, and Lucy was at school. I walked into the house without a care, glad that I could take a shower and have some time to myself in the house rather than just sleeping through the day. I went to sleep at a good time last night rather than around 4 or 5:00 in the morning, so I was less tired than I’d normally be during this time of the day. I walked through the foyer and up the stairs, walking towards my room to use the bathroom and clean myself up a bit.

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I showered for a long time, getting out after about 45 minutes of only reminding myself of last night over and over and I couldn’t wait to do it again. I found it so odd that this whole time I was never able to understand why I didn’t like Faline as much as I should, and that was because I loved someone else that I never had realized before until now. I walked up to the mirror and wiped my hand over it, clearing it from fog and checking myself out. I grabbed my toothbrush and filled it with toothpaste, brushing my teeth and mouth clean of everything I could still taste from being with Bennu. 

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After finishing up in the bathroom, I came out into my room and put a new set of clothes on, shutting the drawer to the dresser and taking a deep breath as I stood there, trying to calm my building nerves from thinking about what I needed to say to Bennu later. I was nervous, really nervous.. I knew she was going to be angry, but just how angry? I had always spent time with Bennu back at college, but we’ve never fought before, there was no need to, it was only normal, flirtatious yet loving conversations; there was obviously something there that she never cared to acknowledge like I wanted to every time I saw her. At this point, she seemed to finally succumb to her feelings for me once she had left the club like I’ve asked her to so many times, I guess a child needed to be her realization; though I wished she had realized it way, way sooner. 

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I knew it was early, it was almost 10:00 am but I went downstairs and grabbed a beer from the fridge; I wasn’t planning on drinking a lot, I only wanted one for now to help calm my nerves. My thoughts were beginning to give me a headache as my worry continued to grow, fearing that once I finally tell Bennu everything that was already going on, she would disappear from my life again and I couldn’t have that; especially not after knowing we have a beautiful baby girl together. This is everything that I’ve wanted with her, to be with her and have a family; but, it was so much more complicated than that now. 

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After my beer, I threw it out and pulled out my phone, calling Miss Chu to check up on how the rest of last night went without me at the bar. 

Hello..?” She answered after about five rings.

“Hey, it’s me.. How was work after I left? Did everything go okay?” I asked and I heard her yawn on the other end.

Jason.. It’s only a little passed 10:00, you woke me upppp,” she whined and I sighed.

“I’m sorry, but I left you in charge, I need to know that everything went okay,” I said sternly.

Yes, everything went fine.. Let now me go back to bed.”

“I need a favor,” I continued quickly, keeping her from hanging up and there was a silence over the phone.

What do you need?” She wondered, catching her attention.

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“I need to take another night off, I need you to be in charge again,” I demanded.

Jason, I can’t do your work, you know that.”

“I know, I’ll do it.. I’m not asking you to go in my office and do my work, I just need you to open, watch the place and close.. I might even come by before 10:00 pm,” I said with hesitation, planning ahead on Bennu kicking me out after I confess everything, “But just in case I don’t I need to know that you’re capable of watching the place,” I continued, hearing her sigh lightly over the other line.

Fine, but you owe me,” she teased and I scoffed.

“I don’t owe you shit, I’m your boss, do as I ask or you’re gone,” I retorted, hanging up after my words and putting the phone back into my pocket.

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I went back upstairs and into my room, not bothering to turn on the lights since the sun was still doing a great job of lighting every room I was in. I collapsed onto the bed, shutting my eyes and trying to relax and I tried to think of something better involving Bennu and how she might react to the news I was going to tell her. She was so beautiful, we had made such a gorgeous little girl and I couldn’t deny the fact that I also wanted to tell her that I loved her, but how would I do that? If I told her before my confession, she might think of it as a lie in the end, but if I told her afterward, she would think I was being desperate again, trying to keep her in my life like I constantly did back at the club when she worked there. But, what if she felt the same? If I was able to explain myself correctly, she might have more sympathy than anger, at least I hoped she would.

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I heard rustling and my eyes opened, lifting my head and the sun was less in the windows than it was two seconds ago; did I fall asleep? I checked my watch and it read 3:30 pm, I fell asleep for about 5 hours and had no idea I was going to. I looked towards the dresser where I heard the noise and saw Faline, changing out of her work clothes and into something more comfortable for around the house like she did after she got off work; yet, it was too early for her to be home still.. “You’re home early,” I voiced softly, seeing her expression change slightly, but she didn’t look at me, watching her throw on a shirt. 

“And you’re home late,” she replied blankly; I knew this was coming.

“Where are the boys? And Lucy?” I wondered, sitting up on the bed and rubbing my face, trying to wake myself up more.

“Still at Anya’s.. Lucy went over to Cara’s to do her homework.. I thought it might give us a chance to talk if I got off early, and if you were here,” she replied.

“Faline..” I began, standing to my feet and facing her, “I.. I’m sorry for the things I said, but-”

“Where were you all night?” She asked, cutting me off and my heartbeat increased slightly.

“At work.. I slept there.. I’m sorry,” I answered, taking a few steps closer to her.

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Faline faced me as she continued, “Don’t be sorry.. I’m the one who should be,” she finished.

I took a deep breath in and stepped closer, looking down at her as she stood there, seemingly ashamed of herself, “No, I was out of line.. I should be paying more attention to you, to the boys.. I get so caught up with work I forget what’s important,” I reply, walking up to her and lifting my hand, caressing her cheek, “Let me make it up to you.. Anything you want,” I retorted, seeing her look up to me and I noticed the quick glance at her looking to my lips. If I was going to keep the boys close to me without the threat of her leaving with them, I needed to do this. I could tell she was dying for me, I’ve seen this angst in her before and it was only after we wouldn’t be intimate for a long time; I understood her pent up energy and there was only one way to help her release it. 

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Honestly, I didn’t feel right with what I was about to do. Faline was in need and so was I, for her for feel release and for me to feel safe that she wouldn’t leave me and take the boys for what I’ve done. I slid my hand around her and lifted her chin with the other, taking a deep look into her eyes and regret consumed me as I thought of Bennu once more, knowing this wasn’t what I wanted, yet I knew I needed to take action to keep Faline happy and close. I leaned forward and kept my lips centimeters from hers, still unable to kiss her as I thought of something else, “Take off your clothes,” I demanded softly, watching as her eyes looked to mine and I knew her heart skipped a beat as I planted a few gentle pecks under her bottom lip along her chin.

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As I kissed her jawline and brushed her hair away from her neck to continue my way down, I felt her reach to the bottom of her shirt and she began pulling it over her head, separating my lips from her skin briefly as she removed it and I reached behind her to remove her bra. She slipped it off after the shirt and I continued my lips down, going over her clavicle and she pushed her chest against me in excitement and I knew she was on the brink of begging me for it. As I kissed her upper chest, I ran my fingers under the rim of her panties and pulled them down slowly, letting them fall to the floor and I gripped the back of her thighs, hoisting her up and she wrapped her legs around me as I brought her towards the window.

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I knelt down and gripped her thighs harder, managing to put them over my arms and her legs rested over my shoulders, her thighs hugging my cheeks and I pushed her bottom up gently, running my tongue below her belly button and eventually finding the warmth of her sex and my tongue began it’s torture. Her moans started instantly and within minutes I could feel her legs shaking against my shoulders, glancing up at her and seeing her eyes shut and mouth open in ecstasy and I continued even more. Her thighs eventually started to grip a little harder around my neck and I knew she was getting closer to the brink, only compelling me to continue harder and she whispered for me to stop repetitively at her own regret of not being able to hold out longer, but I didn’t quit. After a few more minutes, she let out moans I had never heard before that drove me mad, Faline quickly succumbing to my touch and she eventually let out gentle hums of relief. I slowly came to a stop and began kissing her lower stomach once more as she calmed and collected herself, her thighs still quaking against my shoulders and face.

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After giving her what she so desperately wanted, wiping my mouth and watching her get dressed yet again, she glanced over at me with a small grin and I smirked, “What is it?” I asked.

“Nothing,” she said softly, and although I wanted to question it more, I realized why she was happy; it was because she was convinced I still felt for her.. Good, that’s exactly the reassurance that I needed from her. I stepped closer to her as she pulled up and fastened a pair of pants she had pulled from the dresser, hugging her from behind and she laid her head against the front of my shoulder. “Did you shower already? You have work in a few hours,” she wondered as I kissed her cheek gently and let her go.

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I walked towards the bed again, “I already took a shower, I was just relaxing while I was here,” I hesitated, “I’m sorry I didn’t come back, but I figured you needed your space and time to think.. So I stayed away,” I said softly, laying back down on the bed.

I heard her over by the dresser as I looked out the window, “It’s all right.. I’m sorry for.. Well, being mean and accusing you of things just because I haven’t had you in a while.. I admit I was just getting pent up.. I know you work hard and you rarely see us, but I know why you do it..” She replied and I smirked as I lie there.

“Don’t worry, I understand,” I replied, shutting my eyes as I continued to hear her within the room.

Well, I’m going to get the boys from Anya’s place, will you be here when I get back?” She asked.

“Yeah, I’ll be here,” I replied, hearing her then exit the room. 

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After about 20 minutes, Faline returned with the boys and I went downstairs to see them, seeing Faline holding them both and I picked up my pace a little to help her. “There’s my boys!” I said warmly.

“Daddy!” They both said simultaneously, causing me to chuckle and I kissed Gibson on the forehead and took Gareth into my arms.

I tossed Gareth into the air and he giggled and flailed gently within my grasp, “How was seeing Auntie Anya and Simon?” I asked.

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“It was fun!” Gareth replied, “We watched Harry Potter with Simon and Auntie Anya made cupcakes and she let us eat the batter before she made them!” He replied excitedly and I chuckled again now that I realized his sugar rush. Anya always spoiled them rotten, they’ve never once came back from her place and said they had anything less of a great time.

“Well good, I’m glad. Daddy’s gotta get ready and go to work soon, let’s go upstairs for a little bit and play before I need to leave,” I suggested, bringing Gareth upstairs and Faline followed with Gibson.

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I played with the boys for a little while and soon put them in their playpen, needing to leave and get ready to go to Bennu’s and I wanted to be there around 7:00 like I normally would be leaving to go to work. I went over to Faline who was reading in the rocking chair and she looked up to my briefly and smiled, “Work?” She assumed, looking back down to her book.

“Yeah, I’ll uhh.. See you when I see you I guess,” I said with a faint chuckle and I watched her nod, turning around then and walking towards the door. I looked over towards the boys as I left, “Be good, I’ll see you guys tomorrow,” I said softly, watching them wave goodbye and I left the room to get ready.

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I pulled out a new suit I bought a few days ago; Faline wanted me to look more professional and this outfit said it all, I even got new dress shoes. I fastened my tie that also happened to be a gift from Lucy and adjusted the suit, buttoning one of the two buttons, then running my hands over my hair to straighten out any kinks I may have missed. I left the house and got into my car, taking the bridge into the city and the sight of the lights made me more excited and also extremely nervous to see Bennu. I remember whenever I ran away when I was little I would come to the city for peace; I loved the lights and the nightlife, the statues and strange personalities walking around town. But, everything was in the city; the place where my house burned down and I lost my parents, the cemetery, the death of Lana, my sisters, my work, and now Bennu. So many things tied me to this city, and although the bad outweighed the good, I still went to the city every day regardless for so many different reasons.

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I got to Bennu’s and went upstairs, knocking on her door and she greeted me almost instantly, shutting the door and going to her, “My God, you look beautiful,” was the first thing I said, reaching up and caressing the back of my hand down her cheek.

She smiled bashfully, bringing her hand up to lay over mine and she then stepped closer, putting her hands to either side of my face, “You look very handsome, I’m a very lucky woman,” she replied and I leaned in quickly to kiss her lips.

“Where’s Bahiti?” I wondered, feeling her arms then wrap around my neck in a relaxed manner.

“In her room, go say hi to her, she hasn’t stopped talking about you all day,” Bennu answered happily and I was overjoyed at the fact that she had already taken a liking to me despite what happened earlier this morning.

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“Go, I told her you were coming and I’m sure she’s been anxiously waiting,” Bennu continued with a smile and I pecked her on the lips once more, “I’ll start dinner.”

“Okay,” I replied warmly, watching Bennu go towards the kitchen and get out the ingredients, “What are you making?” I wondered, not recognizing anything that I’ve ever seen and she smiled.

“It’s recipes from my homeland and it’s a surprise,” she said teasingly and I chuckled, turning around and making my way towards Bahiti’s room.

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I slowly opened the door to Bahiti’s room and saw her on the ground playing with one of her toys. She looked up at me and smiled, then continued to play, “Hi, Bahiti,” I began.

“Hi,” she said quietly, jumping the toy around and making it walk along the ground.

I smiled warmly at her response, “That’s a cute toy you have there.”

“Yeah, he’s my favorite,” she replied quietly again.

“Does it have a name?” I wondered, stepping a few feet closer and she held it up, looking at it questionably.

“A name?” She asked.

“Yeah, you always need to name your favorite toy. What name do you think he’d have? ..Harry?” I joked, hearing her giggle softly and she continued to look at her doll. I remembered back to when Lucy was a toddler and I was on college summer break; I had bought her a bear and she thought of naming it all by herself, every new toy I got her was her favorite.. I still remembered that she named it May and Bahiti reminded me so much of Lucy.

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“Um.. I’ll.. I’ll name him Azizi,” she answered.

“Oh, that’s a wonderful name.. How’d you think of that?” I asked, acting over-exaggerated and excited to make her happy.

“It means pre-precious,” she replied, struggling slightly to say the word and my heart melted at how precious she was; I was in love already.

“That’s a great name! Do you know what amisi means? Your Mommy called you that earlier when I was here, ” I wondered, remembering her call Bahiti that and she continued to play with Azizi.

“It means flower. I-It’s my middle name, too,” she said with a smile, looking up at me briefly and I held my smirk; she was so smart for her age, Bennu has taught her so well and she was already growing up to be an amazing little girl. 

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“D-Do.. You wanna play?” She asked with her gentle tone and I nodded without question.

“Yes, of course.. What do you wanna do?” I asked.

“Do you know, um.. Hide and go seek?” She wondered, standing to her feet and I nodded happily.

“Yeah, I love that game.. What do you want me to count to?”

“Um.. Count to 10.. B-But slowly,” she replied excitedly and I couldn’t even describe the happiness I felt with her.

“Alright, I’ll go over here.. I’m warning you though, I’m pretty good at this game,” I answered and she giggled. 

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I walked towards an empty corner and stared at the cream colored wall, “One… Two… Three…” I began counting, hearing her scramble around behind me and her running footsteps were a dead giveaway on where she would be without her knowing. As I continued counting slowly like she had asked, still trying to calm my anxious nerves and I hoped playing with Bahiti took forever; I didn’t want to put Bahiti to bed, eat dinner and get to the must needed confession to Bennu.. I was nervous beyond belief. I heard the toy box lid open and I heard her jump inside and shut it somewhat quietly, already knowing where she was. “Eight… Nine… Ten, ready or not, here I come,” I said softly.

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I turned around and didn’t look at the toy box, seeing it cracked open a little in my peripherals and knowing for sure now that she was in there. Yet, I walked around the room, dumbfounded and confused, “W-Where did she go? The door didn’t open, yet she’s nowhere in sight! Where did she go??” I exaggerated again playfully. I walked towards the window and checked behind her dollhouse, out the window for kicks, along the side of her crib, but nothing. I turned around again, walking slowly towards the computer table, checking under it and around it. “Wow, she’s really good at this game.. I can’t find her at all!” I continued, standing up straight and hearing a soft giggle come from within the toy box behind me.

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“Well…” I continued, “There’s only one other place she could be!” I turned around and walked towards the toy box, seeing the lid close and my smile grew wider. I put my fingers to the lid and lifted it, seeing her inside and she laughed. “There she is!” I said happily, grabbing her up and tossing her in the air as she continued to giggle uncontrollably. I loved every second of this, I loved that so soon after meeting her she was so willing to let me play with her and she even let me hold her within the short time of knowing her. I pulled her close then and kissed the top of her head, seeing her look up at me with the same eyes as myself made my insides only melt more at how adorable this little girl was. Lucy will always be my daughter, always.. Yet, Bahiti was my actual first daughter, one that’s completely mine and better yet, with the woman I adored most in this world.

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“I get to look for you now!” She said excitedly and I was happy that this was continuing.

“Alright, but I need to go through the whole place! This room is too small for me to hide!” I requested and she thought for a moment.

“Okay, but no Mommy’s room, I can’t get in!”

“Okay, not Mommy’s room.. But here, the living room and kitchen!” I replied and she nodded.

“Yeah!” She confirmed and I set her down.

“Now go in the corner and count to ten, slowly,” I repeated her words back to her and she agreed, running over to the corner and covering her eyes as she began to count.

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As she counted, I went to the door and opened it quickly but slowly, trying to stay quiet and I quickly walked down the hallway and into the living room. Bennu looked to me with a questionable expression as she continued to cook and I put my index finger over my lips, telling her to stay hushed and she smiled warmly, nodding and continuing what she was doing. I went into the living room and hid behind a chair, hearing Bahiti’s voice faintly still in her room and she had finally reached ten.

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I heard her quickened footsteps coming down the hall and she went straight to Bennu, searching the kitchen for me and I listened as she questioned her, “Did you see him? Did he come out here?” She wondered and I held back a quiet laugh.

“No, who are you talking about? I have seen no one, Bahiti,” Bennu replied and I smiled, keeping my location a secret and I then heard Bahiti’s footsteps beginning to search the living room area. I saw her then walk into the dining room, looking around the chairs and under the table.

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But, before I could move, she looked over to where I was behind the chair and smiled, “Found you, found you!” She called out triumphantly and quickly walked towards me.

I stood up and acted shocked, “Wow, you’re way better at this game than I am!” I replied, reaching down and picking her up and tickling her as she laughed more.

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We played for a while longer, but Bennu eventually put a stop to it when she came into Bahiti’s room where we had wound up again playing. We looked to her and she smiled, “Bedtime, little one,” she cooed sweetly and I looked to Bahiti who pouted and looked to me as if to say she could stay up longer.

“Okay, you heard Mommy, time for bed,” I agreed, standing to my feet and Bennu came over towards us and picked up Bahiti.

“You’ll see him again, don’t worry,” Bennu said warmly, combing Bahiti’s hair softly with a gentle smile, “Say goodnight to Daddy,” she continued, looking at me and I smiled back at her in return.

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“Night,” Bahiti said somewhat sadly.

“Goodnight, beautiful,” I replied, seeing her smirk softly and I exited the room so Bennu could put her to bed.

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As I walked into the living room, the entire room smelled wonderful and I couldn’t wait to try whatever she had made. I noticed the hot meal laid out on the table and I smirked, walking around the living room then and waiting for Bennu.

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Within about 5 short minutes, Bahiti’s door closed and I looked down the hall, seeing Bennu walking towards me and my eyes trailed down her body and back up before she reached me. She threw her arms around me and pulled me into her lips, surprising me slightly but I barely hesitated as I kissed her passionately in return.

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Bennu soon released me from the kiss and I smirked slightly, feeling her let me go slowly, “I was thinking about you all day, too,” she said quietly and I noticed the gentle lust in her eyes as she looked to me. But, before I could say anything, she pulled away and walked towards the dining table and I checked her out as she walked away from me. “I made some traditional Egyptian dishes, Falafel and Shawarma, I hope you like them. And then just Key Lime pie for something sweet,” she continued and put her hands along the back of one of the dining chairs, looking at me with her same sweet smile. I smirked and made my way towards the dining table, taking the seat at the end opposite of hers and she served us both equal portions before beginning.

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We ate dinner together and I had to admit, with something so foreign in front of me, it tasted amazing and I enjoyed every bit of it, “Bennu, this is phenomenal, thank you,” I said during the meal, seeing her look over at me and smile warmly.

“I’m very happy you like it. I adore frog legs, but I thought this might be more appetizing,” she replied. 

I raised my brow and grinned, “I’ve had frog legs, actually.. They’re very good, maybe I’ll make them for you sometime,” I answered, watching as she looked back to the meal in front of her instead of at me, loving whenever I noticed she was smitten by something I had said.

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After dinner, I washed the dishes for her once more and she put away all of the leftovers like we had done in the morning. I finished the dishes and dried my hands, turning around and seeing Bennu already looking at me with a sweet smile and my heart skipped a beat, “What is it?” I wondered.

“You’re amazing with her, it almost seems like you’ve done this a thousand times before.. She’s never warmed up to someone so quickly, but it makes me very happy,” she replied.

I stepped up closer to her, running my hands down her soft arms and resting my forehead against hers, “Maybe she’s been waiting for this, so she’s happy that it’s finally happened.. I know I am,” I answered, seeing her look to my lips and she pushed herself up and kissed me suddenly.

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Our kiss only grew deeper and I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her closer and already regretting needing to stop her. If this continued, I’d never get to say what I came here to.. I reluctantly pulled from her lips and she looked at me with desperation,  “What’s wrong?” She asked, searching my expression for an explanation.

I looked down at her and gazed into her eyes, unable to speak at the moment and I eventually calmed myself and took her hand within mine, “Come to the couch with me,” I requested and she nodded, taking my lead and we sat together in a short silence.

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“Jazon, talk to me,” she said softly, able to tell in my eyes that something was wrong and I took a deep breath in, exhaling it slowly and looking towards the ground.

“I haven’t been honest with you, but, that’s why I’m here,” I began and I looked up to her briefly, seeing her expression turned slightly worried and I looked back down to the floor. “I know this is.. Going to be hard, but.. I want you to know now that I love Bahiti more than anything, even in the short time I’ve been with her.. I love her,” I looked to Bennu who continued the same expression, “I-I love you more than anything, too.. I have ever since our first night together,” I continued, my eyes going to the floor once again. “But, I should’ve told you sooner, yesterday when you came to my office.. I.. I-I have a.. I have 3 children already, Bennu.. A little girl who’s 8 and twin boys who are 4. My girlfriend and I aren’t on the best terms, but-” I stopped, seeing her stand from the couch suddenly and I looked up, worry written all over me.

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“You.. You’re with someone? Right now?” She asked and I averted my eyes from her, “And you have.. You have children with her,” she continued and I hung my head even lower.

“Bennu, it’s not what you think, honestly.. I was so caught up in seeing you after so long, it all escaped my mind the moment I saw you! I’m sorry for not telling you, but I couldn’t.. It all happened so fast and then finding out about Bahiti!? I couldn’t tell you.. But, it’s been only 24 hours, but dammit! I’m saying it now! I didn’t want to keep this a secret from you, so I’m telling you now before it gets any worse!” I watched as she walked away from me a few steps, keeping silent so I continued, “Bennu, I don’t love her.. I love You.. I’m only with her so she doesn’t take my boys away from me.. If she knew I was seeing you or if she ever found out about Bahiti, I’d never see my sons again,” I finished. 

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“Last night..” She began to reply quietly, “Last night you could’ve said something.. And you could’ve said something this morning when I said I knew you were going to be a good father.. You should’ve told me then, seeing as you already are a father!”

“I know, I know.. But Bennu, please.. You have to know that I’ve cared for you every single time we were together. You treated me differently than the rest and I did the same to you. It’s been a long time.. I’m not trying to sound rude, but me keeping this secret for 24 hours is better than you keeping Bahiti from me for 4 years,” I answered. 

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I reached for her as I sat on the couch, grabbing the bottom of her dress gently and beginning to pull her to face me. Once she turned around, I took her hand within mine and looked up to her, “Bennu, I love you, I should’ve told you that a long time ago, but after what I’ve been through.. I can’t lose you, I can’t lose Bahiti, I won’t allow it. I want to know that girl and love her even more than I already do, will you continue to give me that chance?” I asked, pleading with my eyes and I could see the discomfort in her expression.

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I pulled at her hand and brought her closer, putting my hands around her waist and continuing to look up at her, “Please, I already had one of my children threatened to be taken away from me, don’t take Bahiti from me,” I begged.

Bennu stood there silent, looking down at me with a saddened face, “Jazon.. I can’t be with you if you’re with someone else,” she replied and I sighed heavily.

“I know.. But, I can’t not be with you, I need you now. You’re my everything, you always were.. If she ever found out about you, I’d never see them again, but I’m willing to risk it. Please, say that you won’t leave me again, not this time,” I continued, a frog forming in my throat and I watched as she averted her eyes from mine.

“Look at what I’ve done already.. Jesus, you’re still with her and we.. I made you unfaithful to her..” She said regretfully.

“You didn’t make me do anything! I chose it all! I could’ve stopped you or myself and told you everything on the spot, but I didn’t. It’s my fault, not yours. I needed you, I was desperate to be with you again. I’m sorry for making you think I was available, I should’ve told you everything last night at my office or when I came over. But I’m telling you now, does that count for nothing?”

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“I need you to go,” she answered, my heart dropping into the bottom of my stomach and she pulled away from me, turning her back to me once again. “You said yourself that she’ll take them away from you if she found out about me or Bahiti, but I will not stand here and let that happen, nor will I be kept a dirty secret while you continue to get everything that you want. I won’t keep you from Bahiti, but we are nothing now, do you understand?”

“B-Bennu-”

“No,” she cut me off, turning around to face me with angry eyes, “You need to decide, Jazon.. Bahiti is already head over heels for you, but I will not be your side woman while you continue to be with her!”

“I’d lose them, I know, she’d never let me see them again, but I cannot lose you again, not when you’re back in my life now,” I retorted, standing to my feet but she held her ground.

“Then it only makes sense for us not to be together if you have a chance at losing them! What do I do while you sit back and continue to be with her while Bahiti and I stand around waiting for you to show up at the door whenever you please, just because you already have a family! I will not be your thing on the side.. Never.. I’m sorry, Jazon, but in this case, you cannot have both of us,” she finished.

“And if I leave her?” I asked with hope.

“We’ll see if you do,” she rebutted, giving me another enraged expression and I sighed heavily, looking to the floor in defeat.

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I walked towards Bennu and put my arms around her, watching her look up to me suddenly and I pressed my lips hard against hers. She struggled for a short while, but eventually stopped and stood there, accepting it. I released her from the kiss slowly and she looked up at me with softly pained eyes, “I love you, and I won’t lose you again, believe me,” I said softly, soon releasing her and walking towards the door, grabbing the knob forcefully and opening the it, shutting it sternly behind me.

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Generation 2, Chapter 13

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“Do we really have to keep discussing this?” I asked with an annoyed tone, helping Faline clean up the kitchen from dinner as we argued. 

“I just don’t understand why you won’t get rid of her.. She’s messed up your books and even simple calculations that could cost you thousands of dollars. She’s terrible at what she does for you, so why the hell is she not fired yet?” Faline asked back angrily, talking about Miss Chu.

“Yeah, she messes up sometimes, but I usually always check her work or someone else does, I’ve caught all of her mistakes before so I haven’t really lost anything,” I reply.

“Jason, the fact that you or someone else needs to check her work after every time that she does it means that you should get a new fucking secretary, she has no idea what she’s doing. All she does is sit in her office, wasting time and flirting with you. She’s a waste of your time, everyone’s time.. She should know how to do her job after 6 months of working there and not have to be graded like she’s 13 years old.. Didn’t I ask you last month when you were going to get rid of her, too? How many times do I have to ask?” She retorted.

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“I mean, what other reasons are you keeping her on the payroll besides..” She hesitated, beginning to wash the dishes.

I stopped what I was doing, seeing her back to me and watching as she washed the dishes more roughly than she normally would, “Besides.. What?” I asked with a short tone, watching then as she slowed her pace down.

“Nothing,” she answered quickly.

“Faline.. Besides what?” I repeated the question, slowly walking towards her but stopping a few feet away.

“I don’t know.. Maybe besides the fact that you’re probably sleeping with her,” she managed to say through the slight frog in her throat and I heard her sniff quickly at the possible build up of tears. I let out a gentle sigh and walked more towards Faline until I was right behind her, running my hands down her arms and I could feel her jump at my touch, as if she wanted nothing to do with me.

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“Stop what you’re doing,” I softly demanded, hearing her put the dishes down and shutting the water off. I turned her around slowly and she avoided eye contact with me, looking at my shirt instead, “I’m not sleeping with her, I would never do that,” I reassured her, but she still refused to look at me. I brought my hand up and put it under her chin, lifting her head to look at me and her eyes seemed so cold, “I promise you I’ve never slept with her, you need to believe that,” I coaxed more and she scoffed at me, turning back around and continuing what she was doing.

“You don’t know the first thing about what I need,” she answered angrily.

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“What the hell’s that supposed to mean?” I asked with a harsh tone, still standing behind her and waiting for an answer.

“Nothing.. Will you just.. Leave, or go to a different room, or something?” She asked, sniffing quietly again.

“No, I won’t. What the fuck else could I not be giving you? You have this house, the twins, Lucy loves you, money out the asshole, a great job, and you have me, what else do you need? What, is all of that not good enough anymore?”

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Faline stopped what she was doing once more and turned around, her face enraged, “Don’t even start with that bullshit! Don’t make me seem like this terrible bad guy or some kind of person who isn’t grateful for what they have. I’m not Lana, Jason, okay? I’m not going to lie to you and tell you the boys are yours when they aren’t or take all your money or treat you like shit! I’m not Lana.. The boys are yours, and I have my own job, I have my own money and I’m not constantly clinging onto you like you’re this huge sack of money!” She replied, her tone of voice getting louder as she finished and I was boiling over at the fact that she had the nerve to mention Lana.

“Can you get to the fucking point already?” I asked angrily, watching her stare me down and I could feel the rage radiating off of her.

“The point, Jason, is that we haven’t had sex in like, 3 months, maybe even more! I’ve somewhat lost track. But, knowing you, knowing who you were in college and even knowing you after living with you for this long, I know you.. If you’re not getting it from me, where else would you be getting it from?” She asked rhetorically, my expression calming down slightly.

“So, you’re just going off of assumptions then? You’re assuming that I’m sleeping around just because you haven’t gotten any? I don’t know what the fuck your problem is, but if you wanted it that bad, then say something! Woo me, dress in lingerie, wear edible panties, flirt with me instead of berate me all the time! When I’m watching television or in bed, jump on top of me! I don’t fucking care! You’re just so worried about me making the first fucking move so then you just assume the worst when I don’t! ” I retorted with a raised voice.

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“Whatever, Jason,” she replied and I watched as a tear fell from her eye but she turned around quickly back to the dishes in the sink.

I wasn’t done with this conversation, no matter what she would say; even if some of it was vaguely true, she had no proof of it to be accusing me of such things. “Look at our schedules, Faline! I work from 6 at night to 3 in the morning, maybe even longer! That’s 9 or more hours that we’re not together. By the time I get home, I go to sleep and a few hours later, you wake up to go to work. We never see one another besides the hour of dinner time we spend together, feeding us and the boys and Lucy.. This job is hard enough as it is, Faline.. I’m sorry that us not seeing that much of one another is causing you to think that I’m sleeping around, but I’m not! I’m at work! You don’t see me accusing you of anything that stupid, so why is it happening to me?” I kept my voice raised, talking to the back of her head as she furiously washed the dishes. 

I couldn’t keep my voice down if I tried, yelling now, “Have you been reading the newspaper? Is there anything in there about me fucking someone else!?” I watched as her body flinched when I swore at her, “I didn’t fucking think so! I run a goddamn business, I have shitty hours, and I barely get to see my own children let alone you! But, hey, I must be sleeping around through, because you know, I have sooooo much time on my hands to fucking do that!” I finished sarcastically, my hands shaking with rage.

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“What? Now you have nothing to say? No more assumptions jumping around in your brain? Because if that’s not all there is to it, then please, enlighten me on the other amazingly thought out assumptions that you’re accusing me of,” I continued sarcastically, still not hearing anything from Faline but the soft sounds of her sniffling as she weakly washed the dishes. “I’m going to workAt this point, if you have anything else to say, save it, ’cause I never want to talk about this again,” I finally finished, exiting the kitchen and hearing her crying get harder as I got closer to the front door and walked out, slamming the door as hard as I could behind me.

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In the car as I drove to work, I clenched the wheel as roughly as I could, letting go a few times to punch the wheel or the dashboard, anything to help me release this anger. I know I was wrong, I had cheated on her plenty of times with Synthia, but I had never slept with her, ever, and I don’t plan to. If I did, I knew she was the type of person to cling to me, kind of like she already does, but it would be way more intense if I slept with her. She struck me as the type of girl who would ruin my life in order to be with me if we got any more serious. I wiped my forehead, glistening with sweat at the rage I had managed to build up and I loosened my tie a little as I pulled into the parking lot of the bar. I clenched the wheel tightly and leaned forward, resting my forehead against it and taking a few long, deep breathes and my rattled nerves settled after about 5 minutes of just sitting there.

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There was a gentle knock on my driver’s side window and I turned my head slightly to see Miss Chu standing there, looking in at me. “Are you all right?” She asked through the closed window and I sighed heavily, lifting my head from the wheel and rubbing my face. I went to open my door and she stepped back a little, watching me get out and I walked towards the bar without saying anything. “Jas- Mr. Dubois, are you okay? You look.. Stressed,” she said with a somewhat worried tone, trailing behind me at my heels and I refused to say a word.

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I walked through Miss Chu’s office and went to my door, “Jason, can you talk to me? Tell me what’s wrong?” Miss Chu continued to ask, but I still said nothing, walking into my office and shutting the door quietly behind me.

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After I had shut the door, I went to the nearest wall and put my hand up, supporting myself as my entire body continued to shake from the anger I felt. Who was I kidding? I knew deep down that Faline would accuse me of cheating eventually, even if I was able to hide it masterfully or even if I never cheated on her at all, she’d still accuse me since she knew my history. She pretty much said herself that I had probably been cheating on her since college. The first day we actually met, I was sly and flirty, just like I was to every other girl I wanted to get with, yet ever since we moved in together, it’s been the other way around. I don’t go looking for women anymore, they just end up falling straight into my lap without any additional effort on my part. Yeah, I’ve taken up a few offers in the passed, but I couldn’t help myself. I was growing to resent Faline and I felt as if I didn’t need her anymore, despite the twins keeping us together. 

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A few hours passed and I was sitting at my coffee table within the room, consumed with my work when I heard a knock on the door, “Come in,” I called out softly, keeping my head focused on the work in front of me and I glanced up for a second to see Miss Chu poking her head in.

“Jason, there’s someone here to see you.. I think they want a job or something,” she said softly.

“I’m a little busy, but send them in I guess,” I replied with a slightly annoyed tone, putting my eyes back to my work.

I heard Miss Chu again, talking outside of my office as she stood in the door with it half closed, “You’re going to have to make it quick, he’s really busy right now.”

I noticed out of my peripherals another figure walk into the room, keeping my attention more on my work than conducting a simple interview. I took a moment to stop and look up, then back to my paperwork, but.. No.. I had to do a double take, looking back up once more and I felt my body freeze up.

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Bennu stood by the door with Miss Chu, giving me a shy smirk and looking to the ground briefly. I slowly stood from the floor, forgetting how to speak for a few long seconds but I soon snapped out of it, looking to Miss Chu, “Thank you,” I said softly, giving her the ‘go ahead’ to leave but I watched as she stood there for a few more moments, looking Bennu up and down in a resentful manner and I repeated myself a little more harshly this time, “Thank you, Miss Chu..” She looked to me and kept her scowl, slowly shutting the door behind her as she continued to eye Bennu up and down resentfully. The moment the door shut, my eyes went straight to Bennu and I was still in disbelief. She looked incredible, just as perfect as I had last seen her years ago. My heart beat out of my chest and I felt as if it was going to burst out at any moment. My Egyptian beauty in the flesh.“B-Bennu..?”

“Hello, Jazon,” she said quietly in the already silent room, but I heard it as clear as day and my insides melted from hearing her fragile accent after so long of being deprived of it.

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I stepped around the coffee table and walked towards her until she was before me, overjoyed and in complete shock. My hands moved by themselves, unable to resist touching her and they rose up to rest of either side of her neck, observing her face and still unable to believe she was in the same room with me after all the time that’s passed; all this time waiting for her to make some kind of contact with me and she was finally here. I couldn’t help it, in an instant my lips crashed into hers and my entire being felt lighter than air, deepening the kiss without hesitation and I felt her body weaken against mine.

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I didn’t want to let her go, not yet, not after all this time out of pure fear that I’d never see her again if I let go. It took me a good five minutes to drag myself away from her lips, and even then, I still went back for a few loving pecks before it ended completely. “I’ve missed you,” I begin quietly, “I never thought I’d hear from you again,” I continued, planting a few more much needed pecks on her lips. 

“It’s been a long time.. I’m sorry, I can only stay for a little bit.. I need to get back home soon,” she replied.

“Well then come sit on the couch with me, I’ve been wondering how you’ve been,” I answered, letting her go finally but taking her hand and leading her over to the couch.

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“So, how’d you know I’d be here?” I asked first.

“I’ve been looking for work, and it happened to lead me all the way out here. You had mentioned you lived here during one of our visits a long time ago, so I asked around to see if you were still in town. A man told me you owned a bar in town and it lead me here,” she replied, a little smitten that she had sought me out, and even happier that she had found me. Her accent had slightly diminished but I still loved the undertone of it and certain accents on the words she used; it was one of my favorite things about her.

“Oh, yeah.. I had called the club a long time ago and they said you had quit.. Why’d you leave it?” I wondered, raising a brow with my question, genuinely curious as to why she left and why she had never tried to get into contact with me sooner.

Bennu seemed a little discomforted at the question, “That is a discussion for another time,” she replied with a soft smirk, turning her attention away from me briefly.

I decided to change the subject, not wanting to pry, “Where are you living now? Here in the city?”

“Yes, I’m renting a place for the time being, but I’m not sure how long I’ll stay there if I can’t get a job to pay the rent,” she replied with a chuckle, “But I will find work, don’t worry about me.”

“Work here,” I replied without hesitation.

“Jazon.. I don’t know if that would-” She began, but I cut her off.

“You’re perfect for working here.. The drinks, the people, the atmosphere, you know it well. I feel like you’d enjoy working here, plus, you can keep your clothes on. I know I wouldn’t mind seeing your face around more often,” I continued, brushing my fingertips down her cheek a little and tucking a few strands of loose hair behind her ear.

I watched as she shied her eyes away briefly and smiled, “Maybe.. I’ll have to think about it,” she replied.

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“When do you stop working? You should come by tonight so we can catch up more,” she suggested and a burst of excitement flew through me, at ease in her own confirmation that this wasn’t going to be another time where she’d drop off the face of the earth and I’d sulk, wondering for who knows how many more years when I’d ever see her again.

“I actually get out of here every night around 3:00 am,” I replied, watching her expression sadden slightly, but I continued, “Umm.. But, I guess I could try and get out of here around midnight.. Would that work?” I asked, watching her expression turn happy once more.

“Yes, that’s fine.. I live in the Mason Complex, do you know where that is?” She wondered and I nodded, “Just go there and I’m on the 24th floor, first door that you see is my place.”

“Okay, I’ll be there,” I answered, watching Bennu smile and my insides melted every time she did it.

She scooted a little closer to me and put her head on my shoulder, hearing her let out a calmed sigh and I smiled, “It really is good to see you,” she said quietly and I looked down at her, kissing the top of her head and basking in her presence once again.

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Bennu eventually pulled herself up from my shoulder and gave me a sweet smile, “I should get going now,” she said softly, standing slowly to her feet and I joined her, walking her to the door and she turned around before leaving to embrace me, “I’ll see you in a few hours, yes?” She wondered and I smiled, anticipating it more than anything.

“Yeah, I’ll see you later,” I replied, pulling her closer to me and kissing her one last time before she left.

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I took my seat back on the floor about an hour ago and looked down at my work, still not touching it since Bennu had left and I couldn’t get my mind off of her. I glanced at my watch, seeing it was about 10:45 pm and I still had an hour and fifteen minutes to kill before I could leave. I tapped my fingers against my knee, antsy and wanting to just drop everything and go there now, but I didn’t. I listened to the second hand on my wristwatch clicking away and time seemed to be getting slower and slower, so I scooted closer to my work and started back up where I had left off, hoping that my work would distract me from the time and how slow it was going by.

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Around 11:50 pm, I quickly cleaned up my work and shut my lights off, coming out of the room and seeing Miss Chu sitting at her desk. She looked up to me with slight worry in her expression, “Jason, are you okay?” She asked quietly, “Who was that woman that came here earlier? It seemed like you knew her,” she continued and I was already not in the mood for her to be prying into my business.

“Miss Chu, you’re in charge, alright? I’m leaving now, I decided to call it a night. Just make sure you lock up properly and remember to check the place for anyone before closing. Ask one of the guys to help close up with you,” I replied, ignoring her questions and her expression went slightly confused.

“Wait, where are you going? Are you just going home?” She wondered.

“No.. Faline and I got into a fight before I came here, so I’m trusting you to tell her I’m here, but I just don’t want to talk to anyone, and that includes her.. Understand?”

“Well.. Yeah, sure. But what if she comes here?”

“She won’t.. Just tell her that she’ll hear from me when I’m ready to talk to her. She’ll understand and should leave you alone then,” I answered, watching Miss Chu nod in agreement to my request. I pulled my keys out of my front pant pocket and turned around, locking the doors to my office before walking out of Miss Chu’s office and going to my car.

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The moment I stepped out of the club, I picked up my pace and quickly walked to my car, unlocking it and getting in even quicker. The engine roared to life and I pulled out of the parking lot, picking up dust from the gravel and dirt as I stepped on the gas quickly, speeding off towards Bennu’s place. The excitement pulsating through my body gave me a rush, smiling to myself as I continued to try and convince myself that I wasn’t dreaming. I was mind-blown that Bennu was back in my life once more, happiness seeping out of every pore I had and I couldn’t wipe the shit eating grin off my face if I tried. 

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I got to Bennu’s building in record time and jumped out of the car after parking sloppily in the lot, walking quickly towards the door and into the main lobby. I noticed on the call box that there wasn’t any kind of code you needed to punch in, then looking over to the elevator and pushing the ‘up’ button. The elevator came down and opened, happy that I didn’t need to use the call box this late, yet annoyed a little that this building didn’t have better security; anyone could just walk into the elevator and go to any floor they wanted.. Knowing that made me a little uneasy and worried for Bennu, but there wasn’t really anything I could do about it now, so I stepped into the elevator before the doors shut and rode it up to the 24th floor. While riding the elevator up, I checked my reflection on the steel wall, combing at my hair to settle certain strands and even checking my teeth. The elevator stopped and opened, seeing a white door before I even exited and I assumed it was Bennu’s place from what she had told me. I took a deep breath in and let it out slowly, stepping out and up to the white door, raising my balled fist and gently knocking.

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I waited about 20 seconds, not hearing anything behind the door and I decided to knock again, but a little louder this time and I eventually heard rustling behind the door. The door opened slowly and I smiled warmly when I saw Bennu who gave me the same smile in return, opening her door more to let me in and I obliged. The door shut behind me and I looked to Bennu, her eyes were tired and I started to feel bad, “I woke you, didn’t I? I’m sorry..” I began, taking her hand within mine and watching her smile lightly.

“No, iss fine.. I only dozed off for a moment, I’m glad you woke me,” she replied, stepping up closer to me and wrapping her arms around me as I did the same to her. I bowed my head lower and kissed her lips softly, savoring it for a few moments before I felt her beginning to push me off of her.

I pulled my lips from hers and gave a questioning expression, “What’s wrong..?” I asked, studying her face a little more and she seemed to grow nervous about something, “Bennu, what is it?”

“You.. You wanted to know why I left the club, right?” She asked, her expression beginning to worry me a little as she looked extremely nervous now.

“Um, yeah, I did.. But you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.. That’s fine,” I tried to comfort.

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“No.. You should know.. Come with me for a moment,” she replied, looking up to me and giving a forced smirk, then turning around and beginning to walk down the hallway and I followed her without question. She really was worrying me now, her expression seemed as if she was ashamed of something, fearing that whatever it is she had to tell me was going to make me resent her or drive me away. I watched as she stopped at the end of the hall, opening a white door to another room and walking in. I caught up to her and took a deep breath before entering as well, not sure of what I was supposed to be ready for, but when I looked in, a warm tingling sensation filled my insides.

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I cautiously stepped into the room, keeping my footsteps hushed as I walked passed Bennu and towards the crib within the room. I peaked into the crib and a little girl lie on her back, sleeping soundly and a light smirk ran over my lips. She looked so much like Bennu, it made me happy for her. But, what happened to the dad? Judging by how we act around one another told me that she wasn’t with anyone at the moment and she wasn’t the cheating or home-wrecker type, either; had I told her about Faline and the boys and Lucy earlier, I doubt she would’ve talked to me, or stayed in my office, or kissed me for as long as she did. I could never imagine even thinking about leaving Bennu, so what idiot would? 

“Her name is Bahiti,” Bennu voiced softly behind me.

I stepped away from the crib and took a few steps towards Bennu, the tiniest smile on my lips, “She’s perfect, Bennu,” I said just above a whisper, trying not to wake the sleeping beauty. I watched as Bennu motioned with her hand for me to follow her back out of the room and I did, looking over my shoulder and back to the little girl sleeping in the crib, another smile forming on my lips before I shut the door.

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We stood in the hallway, Bennu speaking up first, “She is why I quit the club, I couldn’t be a pregnant stripper.. I didn’t want her to grow up having a stripper for a mother, either, so I’ve put it all behind me. I enjoyed it, and the money was outstanding, but I couldn’t do it anymore,” she said quietly.

“Why didn’t you ever call me? I’ve told you so many times that you should if you ever need any kind of help..”

“No, I am no freeloader, holding Bahiti with a sad face and sticking my hand out palm up? No.. I got by just fine without help,” she replied. She seemed so strong and independent out of nowhere, guessing that having Bahiti and raising her by herself really did make her a stronger person; I loved it, yet I was still a little disappointed that she had never called me.

“I’m not trying to be rude, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, but, do you know, um..” I hesitated, wondering how else I could word this question without her getting offended.

“Yes, I know who he is.. That’s what you were going to ask, yes?” She answered before I could finish my question, my nerves stabbing my insides like pin needles into a cushion.

“Can I ask why he left?” I wondered.

“He didn’t.. I did,” she replied, looking to the floor for a moment and back up to my face.

“Did he hurt you at all?” I asked my next question, needing to know if he had ever done anything to her physically so I could track him down and kill him myself.

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“No, never.. Not once,” she said with a smile and I nodded as I let out a relieved sigh. “I’ve known him for a long time, he was always so sweet to me. I don’t know why I left him.. He never even knew about Bahiti, I just packed up and left, because I was scared about what he would say. I was sure that he would want nothing to do with a child, one that wasn’t even planned. I never really took him or what he said seriously, he was a college student just looking for some fun every now and again, so I convinced myself that keeping her a secret would be better in the end. But, I’ve actually grown to miss him, quite a lot, too, and I often wondered if I had done the right thing or not,” my heart started to beat a little quicker; I couldn’t tell if she was talking about me or if she was actually talking about someone else and what I was feeling was simply immense jealousy. Before I could say anything, Bennu continued, “He’s about 6’2″, this brown hair that was always so easy to run my fingers through, and these piercing blue eyes that no one could ever ignore,” she finished with a warm smile, looking at me with intense eyes.

“Bennu.. I-I don’t know what to make of this,” I replied softly, unsure of what to say to her.

“I’m so sorry for hiding her from you, I really am,” she apologized, her voice getting weaker and I could tell I was about to see tears fall from her eyes.. But.. Wait, she kept her from me? 

“W-What?”

“Bahiti is yours, Jazon, I’m positive,” she added, my jaw dropping a little at the confirmation she gave to my scattered mind; everything suddenly made so much sense. She had told me the truth after all, she never slept with anyone else at the club but me and quit after she realized she was pregnant; I couldn’t even put into words how shocked and happy I was.

“Umm.. W-When do I get to meet her?” I wondered, a smile I couldn’t contain engulfed my lips as I looked at her.

“Tomorrow morning, if you would like to,” she hinted, noticing the faint lust in her eyes as she looked straight at me.

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I instantly put my hand behind her head and brought her lips hard into mine, kissing her roughly and hearing her light moans drove me even more. I reached down to the back of her thighs and hoisted her up, holding her tightly as I pushed her against the wall and continuing our passionate kiss. I felt her legs wrap around me over my hips, helping me keep her body up and I ran one of my hands under her nightgown, holding her bottom and right thigh up and pushing my pelvis against hers roughly. She somehow managed to pry my lips from hers and spoke quietly, “My room’s behind you,” she commanded and I kissed her again, supporting her weight fully as I turned us around and opened the door to her room.

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I walked in with her and shut the door with my foot, searching with my legs for the feeling of a bed and my shins hit a baseboard within seconds, sliding my hands up her body as I set her down while simultaneously pulling her nightgown off and over her head. I took a quick moment to catch my breath as I stared down at her, mouth open and heavy breathing as I watched her grip the bottom of my sweater and quickly removing it. She began undoing the buttons to my shirt at the bottom while I assisted with the top ones, the shirt coming off faster and I quickly crawled over her, continuing the kiss as I ran my hand over her pantie line and down her thigh.

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Bennu undid my belt and pants during our kiss, pushing them down and I sat up momentarily to remove everything completely. I crawled back on top of her and pulled her animal print panties off in less than a second and wasted no time climbing back on top of her and her legs caressed my torso on either side, begging for the feel of me and I didn’t dare waste anymore time. She let out a large gasp of air when I had finally given her what we both wanted in the end and I took my time, kissing her lips more and savoring each unique individual taste of them. This.. This is what I needed in my life; Bennu. I had never noticed it before now, it was always so foreign to me, but being with her now, and especially after the news she had given me.. She was finally the mother of one of my children. This is the most excited I’ve been, even after hearing that from two other women. Bennu’s confession of having my child was already my favorite, just because she was my favorite. I.. I loved her, so, so much.

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After about an hour of bliss, we finally called it quits to our immense fun and both crawled underneath her covers. I pulled her close to me, flesh against pure flesh and I relaxed completely at the warmth she emanated, kissing the back of her shoulders and neck until she fell asleep to my gentle and calming touch against her. I loved feeling her heartbeat and quickened breathes against my chest and over my hand and arm that held her close; I couldn’t describe how happy I was at this very moment. So this is what love is..

Generation 2, Chapter 12

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It’s been a few years since Detective Grander was here with his wife; Janelle came by about three times within the first year of me getting Lucy and she eventually granted me complete custody. Lucy is 8 now and the twins just turned 4, Faline had graduated and was already doing great at her job; she was a lad assistant and working her way up quickly. I opened a bar in town a while ago and it was doing really well, there were always people there no matter what day of the week and it was a nice little getaway whenever the kids or Faline would be a little too much to handle; not that I didn’t love seeing them and spending time with them, but everyone needs alone time every now and then, and running the bar was perfect for that.

I feel like I’ve changed so much, I feel good, better than I’ve been even despite living with Faline. Ever since she came home from college after she graduated and got this job, she’s been a little more arrogant than I’m used to. She’s always had strong opinions and she tells me what she thinks and whenever anything is wrong, yet she berates me a little more in the process.

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“Your haircut looks really nice, it’s better than what you had at least.. It looks more like you’re the boss instead of just an employee,” Faline says softly with a chuckle following it.

“Yeah, I’m glad I got it. I think I’m going to keep the scruff though,” I replied, turning around to face her taking a bath in the tub. She was still so beautiful, I still loved her bright emerald eyes mixed with her bright red hair.

“You’d look even better without it, but whatever,” she answered and I gave a slight grimace, “What? I’m just saying you’d look more professional and they might take you more seriously.”

“I think that they respect me enough.. They haven’t treated me in a way that’s anything less than their superior, so it’s fine,” I retorted.

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“Why don’t you get better dress shoes?” She questioned next.

“What’s wrong with these?” I wondered, beginning to get a little irritated and wanting leave so I could go to the bar a little earlier than usual..

“Those are so old, they look so plain, too.. You should get new ones.”

“I like these.. They’re comfortable and I don’t have to worry about scuffing them. They look nice enough.. I run a bar, Faline, it’s not like I’m running a five star restaurant,” I replied with a short tone.

“..Still..” She continued to persist and I rolled my eyes gently without her noticing. “Have you fired that secretary yet?” She asked next, throwing me off completely.

“What? No, why would I? She’s perfectly qualified, that’s why I hired her,” I replied in a slightly defensive manner.

“Jason, she’s what, 20? 21? The most she would have is a high school diploma. Not to mention she dresses slutty, always wearing those stupid tights,” Faline continued, but I couldn’t tell if the girl herself actually bothered Faline or if she was slightly jealous.

“Faline, I’m 27 with a girlfriend and 3 kids to look after, I doubt she would ever try anything,” I attempted to comfort.

“Oh please.. She’s not the one I’m worried about,” she said with a blunt tone, glancing up at me and I stared at her as my anger grew.

“I’m gunna go now, I’ll see you later,” I said, turning and leaving the bathroom before she could say anything else.

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I walked to the boys room and heard struggling from Gibson behind the door, stepping in quickly and seeing what was wrong. Gareth was chasing Gibson around the room making dinosaur noises and scaring him, and although I wanted to scold him for being mean to his twin brother, I couldn’t help but smile at the both of them. They were the best part of my life, my real sons, something that I’ve made; I’d do anything in the world for them.

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“Rawwrrr rarrr!” Gareth called out at he chased Gibson.

“Gareth, quit it! I said I give up! Stooppppp!” Gibson cried out as Gareth chased him.

They both brought so much joy to my life. They got their blonde hair from my mother and I loved looking at them. Gareth got my fathers eyes and he was still the little firecracker I knew him to be since he was a baby, still so fussy and now he’s become rambunctious and almost a little evil towards his brother constantly. Gibson got Faline’s beautiful emerald eyes and her sweet and innocent mannerisms, always becoming a target for Gareth and he loved to pick on Gibson. 

Gibson noticed me as he ran from Gareth, “Daddy! Make him stop! Make him stopppp!” He whined and I chuckled, running up behind Gareth and assisting Gibson.

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“Hey, hey, hey,” I voiced towards Gareth as I picked him up into my arms, “Stop picking on him, how many times have I told you that, huh?” I questioned.

“I just wanted to play, and, and he has to be such.. Such a baby about it!” He contested and I gave him a slightly warning expression.

“I’ve told you before that he doesn’t like how you play, you need to be more nice and be gentle with your brother, alright?”

“But I’m a dinosaur! H-He needs to capture me! I broke loose!” He continued to argue.

I brought him over to the playpen and put him into it, “I know, but stop when he asks you to, okay? He doesn’t like to play the way you do.. Find something else you can both do without scaring him, please,” I requested, kissing his forehead and he ignored me as he sat in the playpen, knowing that this was his ‘time out’.

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I walked over to Gibson after putting Gareth in the playpen and picked him up, feeling him wrap his tiny arms around my neck quickly and he sobbed gently on my shoulder, “I told him to stop! I told him..” He began and I smirked, holding him tightly and rubbing his back.

“I knowww, I know.. It’s okay, stop your tears, huh? He’s not chasing you anymore,” I tried to settle him down as he hugged me. “Don’t let him get to you.. He’s just trying to have fun and doesn’t know when to stop.”

“B-But I told him! He.. He shoud’ve-”

“Shhh shh sshhhh, stooooppp, you’re fine,” I continued to comfort, a smile forming on my lips as I continued to rub his back and calm him down.

“Baby!” Gareth voiced from the playpen and I looked to him.

“Knock it off,” I said with a short tone and he pouted, then turned away from us and I brought Gibson to the other side of the room.

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I set Gibson down and tousled his hair, waiting for him to smile and he soon did when he had finally calmed down. “I’m going to work now, alright? You two be good for Mommy and your sister and no more fighting, understand?” I said sternly, looking over my shoulder towards Gareth and my words were mostly for him since Gibson didn’t act out as much as he did.

Gibson smiled and nodded, “Okay, bye Daddy,” he said with an excited tone.

I stood slowly and smirked towards Gibson, then looked over to Gareth as I made my way to the door, “You stay in there until Mommy lets you out,” I say with warning and Gareth ignores me, acting like he didn’t hear me and I sighed as I left the room and shut the door behind me.

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I walked downstairs and noticed Lucy sitting on the couch by herself, fiddling with her thumbs and it seemed like she was thinking. It’s been a rough journey for us these past few years after Lana died, but somehow we managed to get through it together. Faline tried to help all that she could, but it was only me that could ever comfort Lucy whenever she would throw a fit yelling for her mother or just acting out in general because she wanted to see her, but as she grew older, she was able to understand it better and better, and Lana doesn’t seem to cross her mind too much anymore. It was a little harder for me, considering every single time I looked at Lucy, I couldn’t help but see Lana in her as well; even with her being gone, she’ll still always haunt me.

Lucy looked up to me when she heard me coming down and she quickly stood up with a smile on her lips; she definitely was waiting for me. “Hey, princess,” I said with a warm smile.

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“Hey, Daddy!” She said happily and made her way hastily over to me, “Um, I have a question,” she said with a gentle nerve in her tone.

“Oh yeah? What is it, baby girl?” I asked, keeping my smile as I looked down to the only girl in my life that I could truly say that I loved.

“Um.. Well, I know it’s a school day, but Cara needs help with her homework and she wants me to come over to help. It might take us a while, so I was wondering if I could just sleep over? We won’t stay up late at all, I promise!” She asked and almost begged. Cara was Lucy’s best friend since she had first entered school a few years ago, Cara also helped more than she even knew with helping Lucy get her mind off of Lana. I thought for a moment and Lucy watched me and waited impatiently for my answer.

“Did you ask Faline?” I wondered.

“Yeah, but she said no because I have school tomorrow, but I already said we’d get to bed on time and we’d get all of our homework done! It’ll be fine, I swear,” she replied, her tone beginning to get a little winy.

“Promise me you’ll call me before you go to bed, and you’d better have all the homework done, no going there just to fool around and what not,” I answered and I watched her nod quickly to my request with a smile.

“Yeah, I promise! Please, Daddy?”

“Alright, fine.. Go pack an overnight bag and I’ll drop you off on my way to work, okay?” I finally agreed and her smile grew even wider, squealing a little to my answer and I let out a gentle chuckle.

“Yay! Thank you, thank you!” She replied and ran passed me and upstairs to her room.

“I’ll be in the car!” I called up to her and I wasn’t sure if she heard me or not, but I continued on and went outside.

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As I drove Lucy to her friends place, listening to her talk about her and Cara, the city, the stars, all I could think about was Faline. I had never gotten around to asking her if she ever wanted to get married, it just never came to mind ever since that one night I found out about Lana. She’s changed a little, and I don’t even think I loved her in the first place, it was just this.. This weird feeling I was having that I can’t describe, but I can’t label it love. Maybe I just cared for her more knowing she was carrying my boys, she was the mother of my children, but there weren’t any other feelings for her besides that. Butterflies in my stomach and weak knees and legs didn’t happen that much anymore, only occasionally; pretty much only when we were intimate, but even that seemed forced sometimes instead of us lusting after one another. There wasn’t really that spark anymore, at least not for me. I still found her extremely attractive, our relationship, however, had turned into this awkward friendship with benefits to me. I can’t even figure out what we are anymore.. Maybe that’s why I still haven’t asked how she felt about getting married, it just never seemed right. One thing I did know though was that she didn’t use me for anything like Lana had. Faline had her own job, benefits, a great paycheck every two weeks, she had no reason to take anything from me, yet she stayed in the house for the boys. I didn’t want to go through the hassle of what I went through with Lana; driving back and forth to pick up and drop off Lucy, it was always such a pain. But, unlike with Lana, Faline and I were on good terms, there’d just be no point in her moving out, even if we don’t love one another. I want us to stay together for Gareth and Gibson’s sake.

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After dropping Lucy off at her friends, I drove to the bar and there were only a few cars in the lot. It was a little after 7:00 pm and we had just opened, so people wouldn’t get here for a little while still; most of the people I knew that came here to drink and party often came later, the bar was usually always this dead when it opened every night.

“Hey, Mr. Dubois!” A voice I recognized called over to me from across the room and I looked to the bartender behind the bar and I gave a gentle wave as I walked towards my office.

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I need to go through my secretary’s office in order to get to mine and when I walked in, she started talking before I even shut the door, “Hey, Mr. Dubois, I was going over sales and I noticed that ever since you added the outdoor bar and deck, the income has gone up by 15%, at this rate it should even go up 25-30% by the end of this month. That’s really exciting!” She said happily and looked up from her computer to me. “Whoa, big shot walkin’ in with a nice new haircut.. You look hot,” she said with a devious smile and I chuckled.

“Miss Chu, may I see you in my office for a moment?” I asked, continuing on and walking towards my door.

“Ooooh, of course, Mr. Dubois,” she said softly with a hint of excitement. 

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She followed me into my office and shut the door behind her, locking it quietly as if trying to hide it even though I heard her do it. I walked over to my desk and she began first again, “How are the boys doing?” She wondered, a smirk going over my lips as I pulled out my chair and took a seat in front of my computer.

“They’re doing great, thank you Miss Chu,” I replied and I heard her let out a bored sigh.

“For the billionth time, you can call me Synthia, it’s really not that big of a deal,” she pressured.

“A first name basis is better left alone, I don’t want to get used to it and have Faline stop by or whatever and hear me call you that, she’ll think there’s something going on,” I replied.

She let out a giggle, “Like there isn’t anything going on?” She said somewhat sarcastically and I looked up to her briefly.

“No, there isn’t.. Now, would you please..?” I asked, motioning with my hand for her to take a seat and she smiled as she rolled her eyes, walking over to a chair then and sitting like I had asked.

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“If you had to get rid of someone, who would you pick?” I asked first.

Miss Chu didn’t know what to say at first, somewhat put off by the question, “Um.. I didn’t know you were planning on getting rid of someone, so I haven’t really thought about it..”

“Who’s the first one to come to your mind, then?”

She hesitated for a moment before continuing, “Well.. There’s always Larry, he’s kind of a dick to the male customers and favors the girls, whereas the others don’t do that. I’ve been getting complaints about him actually from customers and other employees,” she hesitated once again, “He has kids though and a wife.. Him being a convicted felon, too, would make it hard for him to find any other job. You were the only one to cut him some slack.”

I thought for a moment, “True.. Have we warned him at all about his behavior? I don’t recall.”

“No, I don’t think so..”

“Well, talk to him about it tonight, I guess that’ll be his first warning.. Who else can you think of?”

“I’m sorry, Jason, I just don’t really see the point in getting rid of someone when profits are obviously increasing.. You just hired someone, too, for the outside bar, why would you get rid of someone?” She wondered.

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“Do you like working here?” I asked her next, watching as her expression grew a little offended.

“Of course I do.. Wait, are you firing me?” She asked quickly.

“No, no, I’m not firing you..”

“Then what the hell is this about?” She asked, and by my lack of response, she continued, “This is about Faline, isn’t it? She still wants you to get rid of me, huh? What the hell is up her ass?”

“Miss Chu..” I said with a slightly angered tone, “Please don’t get upset, I’m not firing you,” I continued to try and keep her calm.

“Then what the fuck is her problem with me, huh?”

“I don’t appreciate the tone, and if anything, you should take all of this as a compliment,” I replied with a gentle smirk. She looked at me as if she was confused at what I was trying to say, so I continued, “She doesn’t like you working under me because she thinks you’re too pretty to be my secretary, she pictures a woman in her 50’s wearing glasses with wrinkles and a raspy voice that doesn’t like to come into my office as often as she pleases.. Like you do. Locking the door is never a good idea, either, especially when you’re not out there.. Where else would you be?” I pointed out. 

Her expression grew less irritated and she looked at me with wanting eyes, her lips curling into a soft smirk, “Well, I’d be more than happy to work on you than under you, if you think that would be better,” she hinted as I watched her bite in the inside of her bottom lip.

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“Yeah, maybe you’re right,” I replied, raising one of my brows slightly. 

I watched as she slowly stood to her feet, keeping her sultry eyes on mine as she took her time walking around my desk, her index finger dragging softly over the glass surface that lay over the wood. My eyes trailed down her body as she moved closer to me and I couldn’t stop looking at her legs once they came into view, darkened and smooth from the thigh high stockings I knew she always wore.

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My heart started to race a little as she grew closer, her hand going to the back of my chair and swiveling me around to face her. “You seem a little stressed out, sir.. You don’t mind me helping you loosen up a bit, do you?” She asked, parting my legs with hers and she placed her hands upon the armrests of the chair, leaning down and she planted a few light pecks on my jawline and neck.

“Not at all,” I replied between breathes. I watched her hands lift from the armrests and she traced her fingers along the brim of my pants, beginning then to undo my belt, button and zipper.

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She separated her lips from my neck and I watched as she bent down, going onto her knees and she untucked my shirt a little, pulling down the front of my pants gently and pulling all of me out from underneath. I felt her mouth consume me and I let out a soft gasp of air, shutting my eyes and leaning back in my chair as she started out slow. Synthia didn’t get this job solely on her looks and what she could do perfectly with her mouth, it was only after I hired her off of her experience that I realized her full potential and generosity, and although Faline didn’t like her, I didn’t care. I felt awful when I cheated on her at college with Bennu, but something had changed with Faline and I over the years, and the more I thought about it, the less I regretted seeing Bennu. I felt the slightest bit of guilt, yes, but everyone has needs, and Faline wasn’t doing it for me. I loved the thrill with Synthia, just as I did with Bennu the night I had gotten back to my last year of college. Ever since Bennu had left me with nothing, no explanation, no note, no phone call, I felt a slight emptiness in me, something that was gone and I needed to fill it with something else; Sythia’s mouth was a pretty good example.

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The more she did the closer I got, her pace quickening and she eventually brought in the help of her hand to get me more excited. I sat up, putting my hands to the back of her head and assisting her even more, pushing her head and pulling her hair accordingly, letting out soft moans and not wanting her to stop even despite my body refusing me to hold out any longer. Her pace quickened even more and I felt my body light on fire, the sensation flowing through me and I let out one more gasp of air as she sucked the life out of me.

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I leaned back once again and panted softly through my parted lips, watching Synthia release me and smile devilishly as she stood to her feet and I put myself back into my pants. I secured them as I watched her walk towards the door and she turned to face me as she opened it, “Yes, Mr. Dubois, I’ll get those papers to you right away,” she teased and faked to anyone who may be in her office waiting for her. I smirked softly as she shut the door behind her and I shook my head, standing and fixing my pants the exact way I had left them when I left the house. I opened a drawer to my desk and pulled out a tiny bottle of cologne, spritzing myself a few times and trying to cover anything that might cause suspicion. I sat down in my chair again, sitting there and relaxing before starting any of my work.

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Synthia and I weren’t anything special, I didn’t love her or have a sweet spot for her or anything like that, we just simply loved to fool around. Synthia and Faline hated one another, I’m sure doing things with me behind Faline’s back only made her more willing to do them just to get at Faline; even if she didn’t know about it, I could tell it gave Synthia this sense of satisfaction and power. Though after Bennu, I haven’t slept with anyone else besides Faline, there just wasn’t anyone else besides those two that I found as interesting or worthy. But, Faline was right to be worried about me, Synthia had this attraction about her that I couldn’t resist. Maybe I just never lost my old habits back when I started college. Maybe it was even deeper than that, but I was in no mood to acknowledge it.

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I was in my office for a while doing work on the computer and paperwork, hearing the music faintly coming through the walls and looked to the time on my computer; it was almost ten and I still hadn’t heard from Lucy. It didn’t worry me, I was sure that she was safe at Cara’s, but maybe she just forgot and went to bed? Either way, I didn’t like that she didn’t call me. I decide to call Cara’s mother before it gets too late and I end up sitting here until closing still waiting for Lucy to call.

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I stood up to stretch my legs from sitting at the computer for so long, pulling out my cell from my pocket and I looked through my contacts as I paced around the room. I found Cara’s mother and called her, listening to it ring a few times before she finally answered.

Hello?

“Hi, Mrs. Jones?” I replied; I always felt as if I needed to address her like that because she was a little older than me, though she called me by my first name all the time.

Oh, Jason.. How are you?” She wondered, her tone sounding a little happy to hear from me and I was surprised that she recognized my voice so easily.

“I’m good, I’m good.. I’m just sitting here at work, but I had asked Lucy to call me before she went to bed and she didn’t, are the girls sleeping already?” I asked.

Yeah, they fell asleep about half an hour ago.. I’m sorry, had I known she was supposed to call, I would’ve made her do so.

“Oh no, it’s fine.. It’s not your fault, I’m not mad. Just checking in is all,” I reassured her.

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There was a short silence that went over the phone, but I quickly thought of something to say, “I’m sorry, how are you? I just noticed I didn’t ask like you had, I feel like a jerk now,” I said with a slightly nervous chuckle.

No no, it’s fine, I’m doing okay.. Doug is on a business trip for a few days; with him gone and Cara at school or over at a friend’s house all the time, it gets a little quiet around here..” She replied, referring to her husband and her tone having a hint of sadness. 

“Ahh, well you’re lucky that it’s quiet. Enjoy it.. My house is far from that, I almost look forward to coming to work sometimes,” I retorted, hearing her giggle over the phone made my lips smile slightly.

Of course, the twins.. Last time I saw them they were just beginning to talk, they must be chatting up a storm by now.. How are those little ones?” She wondered and my smile grew wider as I thought of them.

“They’re wonderful, thanks for asking.. They seem inseparable, yet they fight all the time.. I don’t know what’s going on with them,” I replied and we both let out simultaneous soft laughter.

Well, that’s great, I’m glad they’re doing well..” There was another short silence over the phone, but she broke the silence this time, “If you get done early enough, you should stop by for a glass of wine,” she offered, raising my brow in slight surprise as I paced more around the room.

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“Um..” I let out softly, hesitating a few short moments as I contemplated my answer, “You know, I’m not going to getting out of here any time soon, I’m here until 3:00 am actually,” I said with a gentle chuckle.

Oh come on.. You’re the boss, right? Don’t you make the hours?” She teased. As sexy as I thought she was, and this being the first opportunity she’s presented to me, there was no way I’d go over there, especially with Lucy there having a sleepover with her best friend; what if Cara or Lucy woke up like they sometimes do for a glass of water and saw me there with her? What if Doug came home early? No, no way, it was way too risky.

“Nah, sorry, Mrs. Jones.. As tempting as it sounds, I’ll have to decline. I still have a lot of work to do here, and the employees are looking forward to getting their hours in. I’d hate to cut them short, so..” I finally replied, hearing a dainty sigh on the other line.

Well, alright.. Rain check, then?” She offered an alternative, and as much as I wanted to drop everything and go over there, I sighed softly in defeat as well.

“Yeah, we’ll see.. Would you mind telling Lucy to call me before she goes to school tomorrow morning?” I asked, trying to change the subject before she could coax me anymore.

Of course, Jason.. Let me know when you wanna take me up on that offer, okay?” She said with a sensual tone that made me regret turning her down even more.

“Yeah, I will.. Have a good night,” I replied, hearing her say the same thing in return and I hung up. I looked to my phone and read the time, it was almost 10:30 pm now and I still had a lot more work to do before I went home for the night.

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The night went by faster than I had expected it to, looking to the corner of my screen and seeing it was 3:15 am; I wondered if I was the last person there. I shut the lights off to my office and went back to the computer to make a few last minute adjustments, then shut that off as well. I made my way out and looked to Miss Chu’s desk as I shut the door, noticing she was still here for some reason. “Why haven’t you gone home yet?” I asked.

“I felt like waiting for you,” she replied with a soft smile and I looked around her office briefly before going back to her.

“Did you talk to Larry like I asked before?”

“Yeah, I gave him a warning, he said it wouldn’t happen again, but we’ll see I guess..” She answered with a shrug.

“Good.. Is anyone else here or did everyone leave?”

“No one here but us, babe,” she replied with a giggle as her eyes danced over me.

“Don’t call me that, it’s weird,” I said with a short tone.

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“Aww, is someone grumpy?” She teased and my annoyed expression didn’t change.

“You look tired, you should go home and get some sleep,” I retorted with a bland tone. She only waited for me on occasion, but those were the nights she would always try to get me to come home with her.

“Oh, I’m not tired yet..” She answered with a devious grin, “Besides, I got dropped off, I need a ride home.. Would you mind?” She asked, sighing to myself.

“You didn’t ask them to pick you back up when you got off?”

“Well, no, because I haven’t yet,” she said with another lustrous look.

“Call a cab,” I suggested with a harsh tone and her smile faded.

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Miss Chu stood to her feet and my eyes couldn’t help but travel over her as she approached me, “Pleeeeaase?” She persisted, putting her arm around me and bringing her right hand to the side of my face. As much as I’ve tried to turn her down before, she always knew how to coax me into doing what she wanted; well, minor things.. She pressed her body against me and I could feel the stockings on her legs tracing over the fabric of my pants, glancing down at her legs and I watched then as her smile returned, “Don’t you want to take those off with your teeth again? I love it when you do that,” she spoke just above a whisper, making my body respond with a soft quiver at the thought of it. But, I wanted to get home, I was tired, I wanted to see the twins and tell them goodnight even if they were asleep, and I wanted Miss Chu to stop pressuring me.

“Fine, I’ll give you a ride home, but that’s it. Now go wait by the car as I close up,” I finally agreed and she smiled more, letting out an excited giggle as I gripped her bottom and pushed her towards the door. 

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I turned off all the lights and locked the doors, seeing Miss Chu closer to the deck and not by the car like I had told her. I walked up to her and she waited until I had passed her to wrap her arms around the front of my neck playfully, giggling as she did so and I tried to get her free from me. “Come on, get off.. What is someone were to see?” I asked, finally able to loosen her grip and she let go and trailed behind me at my heels.

“What? I’m just having fun.. It’s not like we’re screwing on the pavement,” she retorted and I sighed heavily.

“First of all, we’d never do that here, let alone anywhere else, and second, shut up and keep your voice down,” I replied harshly.

“Jeez, you really are grumpy tonight.. What’s wrong?” She asked as we reached the car and both got in.

I started the engine and pulled out of the parking lot, “Nothing, I just wish you’d be more discreet.. I have a lot more to lose than you do,” I said softly with a hint of worry, but I don’t think she caught on to it.

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After dropping off Miss Chu and turning her down at least five times in going up to her place, I managed to get home a little before 4:00 am. I locked the outside gate and the house, looking around the foyer and leaving one light on by the door. I looked upstairs to the second floor and it seemed like the darkest part of the house, giving me slight chills as I walked up. I went to Gareth and Gibson’s room, opening the door as quietly as I could and I peaked in, not seeing Gibson in his crib and my eyebrow raised in curiosity, stepping in more and going to Gareth’s crib then.

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As I walked over to Gareth’s crib, I adored the sight that came before me; Gibson was with him in his crib, sleeping soundly with one another and I couldn’t hold back the sudden smile on my lips, even if my life depended on it. It was always so foreign to see them so calm, let alone sleeping together; I wonder what happened while I was gone for them to want to do that..? As I looked down at them, nothing else was on my mind, and nothing in the world could take away the happiness I felt at this moment. I reached down and brushed Gareth’s hair out of his eyes and he let out an unconscious moan, seemingly irritated that I was touching him and I hummed a quiet chuckle. I did the same to Gibson then, brushing the hair from his eyes as well and cupping his small head into my palm. I traced my thumb over his cheek and he turned his head more, seemingly enjoying the warmth of my hand against his face and I let out a loving sigh. After a few moments of bliss, I slowly pulled my hand away from Gibson and watched as he turned his head back towards Gareth for the warmth that was just taken away from him. I grabbed one of their blankets and covered them, tucking them in on their sides and quietly leaving the room without waking them.

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I walked away from their room and loosened my tie, taking a deep breath in and sighing heavily as I made my way into my bedroom. I tossed my tie on top of the dresser and unbuttoned my shirt, throwing it aimlessly within the room. Faline was sleeping over the covers wearing a pair of white panties and a matching white bra, my eyes traveling from her shoulders slowly down to her feet, admiring her body as she laid. 

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I quietly walked over to the bed and undo my belt along with my pants in the process, pulling them down and sitting on the bed. I removed my shoes and socks and pulled each pant leg off slowly, slumping over from exhaustion and I sat there for a moment as I relaxed. I brought my hand up to the bridge of my nose and I rubbed the inner corner of my eyes with my index finger and thumb, helping myself relax more and Faline shifted gently behind me.

“How was work?” She spoke quietly, woken up by my presence.

“Fine, busy.. How were the boys tonight?” I asked in return.

“At each others throats, but they got better and then wanted to sleep together, so I let them,” she replied with the same quiet tone, still half asleep.

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I leaned back and laid on the bed, facing Faline’s back and pressing the front of my body against her warm skin. My arm wrapped around her torso and she lifted her head slightly to let my other arm be her new pillow, feeling her scoot her body even closer to me. I inhaled deeply, breathing in the scent of her hair and I relaxed completely, happy to be home after this long night. As much as I loved my college days and seeing my bed full of different woman every week, I had to admit that it was nice to always have someone there waiting for me, and not just any someone; knowing I’d never be alone was a great feeling. Faline’s scent had become all too familiar to me and I felt as if I wouldn’t be able to sleep without her there to hold on to. I lifted my head for a moment and kissed her shoulder a few times, “Are you still awake?” I wondered, listening to her heavy breathing with no response. I let out a soft sigh, kissing her shoulder once more before laying my head back down and slowly drifting off to sleep.

Generation 2, Chapter 9

Attention: Another long chapter, but at least it’s a little shorter than the last one.. A little..  >_> Enjoy!

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It was next Friday already, a week and a day since I had been with Bennu at Barefoot.. I was on my way home to see Faline, like I told her I would last Thursday when I had left her. I.. I had no words. I was already doing bad in all of my classes, even in the first week of being there. I couldn’t focus, I felt terrible, the guilt eating away at me, and yet.. I still couldn’t stop thinking about Bennu. Why didn’t she want to leave her job? I had made it a point to see her at least 6 times a year, and every time I asked her to be with me, every time, and she still said no.. Why? She knew I had money, she knew who I was and that I could support her without her needing to flaunt herself in such a way, for other men, but.. Why wouldn’t she do it? I wanted her to be mine, and yet, what would I even do if she did want to be with me now? I had Faline.. Thinking back on our time together now, I can’t believe I had asked Bennu to marry me, it came out of nowhere, but the strange thing was that I meant it.

I can’t see Faline, I’m not ready.. I can’t even think about looking at her. I miss her so much, I wanted to feel her growing tummy, listen to it, rest my head against it as I slept, but I just couldn’t. I couldn’t look at her without giving everything away in my eyes.. Not yet.

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I drive more and more through the city of Bridgeport, seeing everything all over again and now it brought out new memories instead of the old; how much Faline and I had wandered through the city together, showing her the sights, getting her used to being around here since she lived with me now. My eyes held back gentle tears as I then decided to go to Lana’s, I wanted to see Lucy; seeing her would get my mind off of Faline. Even though I was driving, I pulled my phone out and quick dialed Lana, her answering in a few rings.

What do you want?” She asked coldly and I was instantly enraged by her words.

“I want to see Lucy.. I’m back for the weekend from college, let me see her,” I demand and I hear her sigh heavily, though she eventually complies.

Fine, but I’m going out soon, just get here quick and get her,” she warned and hung up. Already, I had problems when coming back to this fucking town, despite even seeing Faline first.

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I get to Lana’s within minutes since I had been driving around her part of the neighborhood for a while, wanting to see Lucy and wanting to avoid Faline as much as possible. It was still light out, but it was getting dark quickly; I had told Faline I would leave early in the morning, but didn’t end up driving home from college until around 2:00pm. I arrived at Lana’s between 5:45 and 6:00pm, taking my time while driving and it didn’t take the normal 3 hours, I wasn’t excited to go home like I should be. I went into her building and already I felt a slight bit better, knowing anything that would happen here would take my mind off of Faline. I buzzed Lana’s residence and within 30 seconds, she let me in and I went upstairs.

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I went up the escalator and went to her door, not bothering to knock as she usually unlocked it before I ever got upstairs. I walked in and noticed Lucy playing with a yellow toy car on the ground and I smiled warmly, so happy to see her. Before Lucy noticed me, I looked around Lana’s place, noticing that she had renewed her furniture, the walls, the carpeting, almost everything. I was infuriated easily once again. What the fuck is this? This must’ve cost her at least a few grand to redo; I hadn’t been here in a few months, Lana didn’t like me coming here for a while after our fight at my place, but I didn’t doubt that it was all worth at least four of six checks I had given her in that time frame alone.

“Daddy! You’re here!” The sound of Lucy’s voice knocked me back into reality, looking to her as she had walked to me and stood about 5 feet from me, looking at me as if confused. She hesitated as she waited for me to give her a warm smile, “Are you okay?” She asked. 

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I didn’t like that I had left my expression angered enough for Lucy to notice, so once I looked at her, my smile grew wide and I lifted her up, throwing her around and she laughed until I brought her more into my arms and hugged her tightly, “I’m doing wonderful, especially now that I’ve seen my favorite lady,” I replied to her and pecked her cheek repeatedly until she eventually pushes my face away from my stubble tickling her. “How are you, beautiful?” I wondered.

“Good! I missed you! How’s school?” She wondered and I was touched by how she had remembered that I was at school again, I loved how she wanted to know how I was doing as well. Even though I was doing bad, I didn’t want to disappoint her or make her worry, so I lied..

“I’ve missed you so much, too! I’m doing so well I might even graduate early so I can see you even sooner, and I won’t be gone as long!” I replied with a joyful tone, though I knew she wouldn’t remember. I was impressed that she remembered I was even at school, yet she was still at that age where it didn’t matter how long I was gone, she’d miss me regardless and whenever I would show up, is, well, when I would show up..

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I soon looked towards the stairs and heard Lana walking down; I knew she was wearing heels, I could hear them clicking on each step down and although I was angry with her, I knew she looked good without even seeing her whole outfit yet. I could only see a little of her dress, but from what I could see, it got my blood pumping and I felt a little uncomfortable holding Lucy. 

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Lana came downstairs and I looked her up and down, admiring her shiny silver dress and I forgot to blink for a while. “You look nice,” I attempted to compliment her, the side of my mouth twitching into a brief smirk, but she ignored my words.

“Are you leaving now?” She asked coldly, looking at me, then looking to Lucy and giving a gentle smile at her. 

“Yeah, in a minute,” I answered, obviously checking her out and she scoffed, rolling her eyes and I knew she knew what I was trying to do.

“Jason, come on, knock it off,” she added with an irritated tone, turning away from me, but I knew she was flattered by my gestures. I needed to convince her to let me stay for a little bit so I could get a chance to talk to her about the remodeling she had done, but I had to get on her good side first.

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I can’t help it, the moment she walks away from me I can’t help but stare at the curves of her body, remembering what she felt like against me naked so long ago. My heart started to race a little, watching Lana walk up the stairs and the more she walked up, the more I saw under her dress, which there was nothing there under it. With Lucy still in my arms, I felt a little uneasy and I wanted to follow Lana upstairs, soon walking Lucy back over to the spot she was at when I had gotten here and placing her on the ground again. 

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“Be a good girl, okay? I’m going to talk to Mommy, you just play with your doll house or something and we’ll leave really soon,” I said with a smile and pecking her forehead.

“Okay!” She answered me and I stood again to make my way upstairs after Lana. The only thing I hated about discussing something important with Lana here was that her room upstairs wasn’t closed in, so if we got into an argument, Lucy would hear everything, and I hated when she heard us fight. But, I needed to talk to Lana about this and get it straightened out.

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I got upstairs and stopped Lana from going into her bathroom, probably just to continue getting ready so she could avoid me. I looked around her room quickly to see if she had made any changes up here as well, but her room was still the same; I couldn’t help but wonder though when she was planning to redo it, too. “Lana, what is all this?” I asked, trying to keep my cool as I brought up the subject.

“What is.. What?” She replied coldly, seemingly annoyed that I was even speaking to her.

“Lana, the living room.. The walls, the carpet, the furniture, how much did that cost you to do?” I wondered, my tone was already beginning to get angered.

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“Why do you care? You’re never here anyways, it’s not like you live here. I wanted to make it more homey, it looked like shit before,” she replied and it was hard for me to contain the aggravation that crept up my spine.

“That’s not what I asked,” I state with a short tone.

Lana got defensive, “It’s none of your concern,” she pointed out and my blood was boiling.

“It’s not my concern? You’re using my money!” I stress, yet try to keep my voice down, “I give you that money to take care of yourself and Lucy, not for you to go and blow on stupid shit that you don’t need,” I add angrily, “Do you really want me to have to cut down the checks to keep you from blowing it on luxuries?” I threaten a little and I can tell I finally had stepped over the line with Lana; I knew that threatening to take away money would hit a nerve in her.

“You’re a fucking asshole, you know that?” She insulted and I grew even more enraged; how could she even call me that when I’m giving her hundreds and hundreds of my own dollars to feed them and keep a roof over their heads?

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I’m furious by her words, watching as she went to turn around and attempt to go into the bathroom again, but I grab her wrist and twist her back around hard, forcing her to face me. Her eyes widened a little in fear and her chest rose and sank faster from quickened breathes, “Jason, you’re hurting me,” she said in a slight pleading tone, looking to me and asking with her eyes to let her go, but I don’t.

“You better prey that that little girl is always fed, clothed, and cared for with a roof over her head or so help me I’ll take her in an instant and leave you with nothing but this stupid fucking condo you seem to care about more than her. You can get a job and pay for it your fucking self. But, to avoid that from ever happening.. Don’t you ever use that money for anything else extravagant again, do you understand me?” I ask with a harsh tone and I watch as her face twists with different emotions and I can’t tell how she feels about my words.

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Finally her expression turns angered once more and she jerks her wrist out of my grip, no doubt hurting herself while doing it, but then shoving me away from her, “Fuck you, Jason!” My eyes widen by how she had raised her voice and I knew that Lucy had heard it. 

“Keep your voice down!” I pressured softly.

“No, this is bullshit.. How dare you say anything like that! You only see her a few months out of the whole fucking year and you’re going to tell me that I don’t care for her like I should? Look around, asshole! I’m making this place nicer for us to live in, the fridge is stocked and last time I checked, she has more clothes than she even needs! Don’t ever say I don’t take care of her when you barely ever see her! I’m surprised she even remembers you every time you walk in through that fucking door!” She replied angrily, my jaw dropping slightly. I realize that there’s no winning this argument, there never was; Lana always has to have the last word, and she always makes me feel like I should be to blame at the end of all our fights. She was right though.. I had already came back from college to visit Faline, but I had never came back that quickly from college to visit Lana and Lucy, I always waited about 3 months into the school year before I would even think of coming back for a visit. 

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“I want you to leave, now! I have to be somewhere and I don’t have time for this. You’re not getting Lucy, so forget it! I’ll drop her off at my Mom’s.. Now leave,” she threatened and my heart dropped. Lana went to walk away from me for the third time, but there was no way I’d let her leave just yet, especially after what she had said.

I reached for her quickly the moment she had turned around again and grabbed her hips, pulling her closer and she tried to get my hands off of her, “No no, it’s okay.. I’ll take her, I’m happy to,” I instantly felt pathetic as I began to beg Lana not to keep me from being with Lucy.

“Let me go, Jason!” She yelled louder than she needed to, no doubt wanting Lucy to hear her struggle so she would think badly of me.

Mommy?” Lucy called upstairs and her voice seemed worried, killing me inside and I called down to her.

“Everything’s fine, baby girl, we’re just talking,” I reassured her, though from Lana’s over-exaggeration of a struggle, I doubt I convinced her at all. 

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Both of us knowing I was the stronger one, I finally forced Lana to turn around and she was back into my arms and I held her against me. My hands wrapped around her tightly and she knew she wasn’t going anywhere anymore; this time around, this discussion wasn’t over with until I was the one ending it. I spoke quietly and my tone was harsh, “Keep-your fucking-voice down,” I threatened again and her eyes tried to avoid mine, as if she knew she had done something wrong but she still refused to voice her defeat. I had never been this physical with her before, I could tell in her face that she was a little scared of what I might do. In past fights, she’s shoved me, slapped me, yelled her heart out, anything to get her point across and the only thing she hasn’t done yet is straight pull a gun out and shoot me. Only once have I ever done more than just yelling and I had tossed her onto the couch to get her away because she was belligerent and wouldn’t stop hitting me; I don’t even remember what that fight was about anymore.. “I don’t need her hating me or worried that I might hurt her due to you exaggerating shit. I’m just a little nervous, that’s all.. I saw all of this change downstairs when I came in, it scared me. I didn’t think you were using the money properly, but knowing now that you guys are still okay, even after the remodeling, it’s fine.. I’m sorry, Lana, alright?” I apologize, feeling stupid that I did, but I had to; she’d milk keeping Lucy from me and I never wanted that, and she knew it.

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Eventually, after keeping her in her place, I see her eyes look up to mine and I can tell that she forgives me, though still doesn’t say anything. I let out a soft sigh through my nose and the corner of my mouth curls up slightly, lessening my hold on her and being able to relax again. I leaned in and gently kissed her cheek close to her lips, trying to comfort her more and to get her to stop being angered with me. I keep one arm wrapped around her as the other then slides down over her ass and then down her leg, threatening to sneak under her dress and I hear her sigh, “Jasonnnn,” she prolonged saying my name in a complaining manner, but I kissed her cheek again and my fingertips felt the bottom of her dress and then skin of her thigh was so smooth and inviting. “Come onnnn, I have to be somewhere,” she continued to coo softly and I smirked more.

“Do you have to go right now?” I asked with a flirtatious tone, feeling her arm wrap around my neck and her other hand came up to caress my face. I never quite understood why our relationship was like this; one minute we’d be at each other throats, the next we’d be all over one another as if the anger fueled us to have fun after a stressful argument. My hand began to make its way up the outside of her thigh and just as our lips were going to meet, the doorbell rang and Lana quickly pulled away from me.

Her expression went nervous, “Will you get Lucy and go now, please?” She asked, her demeanor completely changing and before I could even say anything, she was out of my grip and quickly going downstairs.

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There was nothing left for me to do now but follow Lana downstairs and get Lucy and her things. I talked with Lucy and convinced her everything was okay between me and her mother, then looking around the living room again, wondering if I had been out of line at all or if I was right to question Lana about the condo.. I felt a little guilty for how I had treated Lana, but I had to get to the bottom of it and see what she was doing with the money I had been giving her. I looked out the window briefly and noticed it was dark out now, guessing it was around 6:30pm and I felt my phone buzz in my pocket, knowing it was Faline again and I didn’t bother looking at it; I knew it would just be her asking when I would get here, or if I was okay. 

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I heard the door open to Lana’s place and I glanced over to see who had stopped by, guessing it would be one of Lana’s girlfriends eager to go out for the night, but instead, a man walked in. A frown was instantly on my lips and I nonchalantly eavesdropped on their short conversation.

“What are you doing here? I said I would meet you there,” Lana began and her tone was hushed and nervous.

“It’s okay, I thought I’d just come and get you instead,” the man replied, hesitating no longer and pulling her into a kiss. I don’t know why I was so jealous, maybe it was because he got to do it when I didn’t upstairs because he had rang the doorbell; he blocked me from it and it enraged me. The way Lana was acting, too, made me a little weary to go over by them, but I had to leave, Lana wanted me to.

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I rolled my eyes when they wouldn’t let go of one another, clearing my throat with an annoyed tone and they eventually separated, looking over to me and I could tell that Lana was uncomfortable. The man looked to me and I could tell he was surprised to see me, probably assuming that no one was here with Lana and Lucy. I walked over to them and I felt as if Lana couldn’t even make eye contact with me.

Lucy looked over to her mother and the man, smiling, “Hi, Matt!” She said happily and my insides twisted, hating that she was so friendly with this stranger and her tone even seemed a little happier towards him than it did for me when I had came in, causing me to hate this ‘Matt’ character instantly.

“Hey, Lucy! How are you, princess?” Matt asked as he looked at her while I starred him down.

“I’m good!” Lucy replied cheerfully.

“Hey, man.. I’m Matt, nice to meet ya,” Matt said to me but I had no words, hesitating as I studied him a little and I couldn’t stop looking at his eyes; they were identical to Lucy’s and I felt as if I was going to be sick.

“That’s Lucy’s father, Jason, and he was just leaving,” Lana said for me since I couldn’t find the words.

“Oh…?” Matt replied to Lana as if he questioned her.

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I ignored him, I had to; I was ready to put down Lucy and strangle Matt until I saw his eyes roll into the back of his head. I turned around and picked up Lucy’s bag with her belongings in it, “You left your wedding ring on,” I remind Matt and I don’t hear either of them say anything for a few moments. Even though I had no room to talk, since I had cheated on Faline almost 3 times already, but if I was married to her, I feel as if I wouldn’t have acted the way I did. But, now, seeing him with his ring on made me feel bad for whoever his wife was, especially knowing that Lana could give less than a shit about it and it probably gave her some sense of power knowing that he was going behind his wife’s back for her. The whole situation was too much, thoughts about Faline and what I had done to her came running through my mind again, and now this.. It was so obvious. 

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Matt then spoke up before I walked passed him to leave, but I only looked over my shoulder and not at him, still unable to, “Uhh, hey man.. Let’s just, keep that on the down low, huh?” He asked with a weary tone, a light chuckle following after it.

I ignored him again, going up to Lana and I glared at her, “Say goodbye to Mommy,” I told Lucy in a soft, bland tone, still glaring at Lana and she still couldn’t look at me, leaning in and pecking Lucy’s cheek.

“Be good for Daddy,” Lana said with a happy tone that I knew she was faking for Lucy, her demeanor told me she was still nervous and uncomfortable about being in the same room with the two of us. What was worse was that I felt as if we all felt the same way, but none of us wanted to discuss it. I glared at Lana until she locked eyes with me and I knew she could read what I was thinking, watching as she quickly looked away towards the door and I immediately took my leave, somewhat slamming the door on the way out.

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I got home with Lucy and braced myself for the worst. As I drove here my nerves skyrocketed every block we grew closer and I felt like vomiting when we pulled into the driveway; I could barely take the urge I had to just pull back out and drive to a hotel, but I couldn’t do that. We walked in and I nervously looked around, not seeing Faline and the house was quiet. Maybe Faline was resting? The closer she got to her due date, the more she needed to rest, maybe she was in the bedroom..?

I let out a gentle sigh and looked to Lucy, “Faline is probably sleeping, you should take your nap, too,” I suggested and she shook her head, though her eyes were droopy; she had been dozing off in the car, too.

“I’m not tireddd,” she complained and I smirked, pulling her head to my shoulder to rest and her eyes seemed to shut instantly.

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I brought Lucy upstairs to her room and changed her into a fresh pair of pajamas, putting her down in her crib and she was already sleeping. I turned on the baby monitor again and slipped out of her room quietly, not waking her and I took my time walking back downstairs to the 2nd floor where my bedroom was. Every step I took down made me want, need, and hope that Faline was sleeping; I still didn’t think that I could face her without breaking down. My emotions are always rattled and depending on what I’m dealing with at the time is when it is its worst or best, and in this case, I’m at my worst right now. I don’t know what I’ll do when I first look into her eyes, look at her growing tummy, hearing how much she missed me when I’ve been nothing but promiscuous.. I don’t know why I felt so guilty, I’ve never had this happen before; maybe it was because she was my first actual girlfriend, ever. That sounds pathetic.. And that’s exactly how I feel right now; pathetic.

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I didn’t bother knocking, gripping the door knob and turning it as slow as I could to keep it quiet, then opening the door at the same pace. The lights are off and I, for a moment, think that Faline isn’t home, but as I adjust my eyes to the dark, I see her laying on the bed, napping like I had assumed earlier. A wave of relief goes over me, and yet, my nerves are still attacking me. The sight of her is calming a little, but I hope she doesn’t wake as I walk closer and I stand on the side of the bed, looking at her sleeping without her glasses, her face calm and relaxed; she even had her phone clutched in her hand, no doubt still waiting for me to answer her. I looked to her growing tummy and more tears threatened to fall, but I held them back and quickly walked over to the dresser, turning the baby monitor up and setting it on top and exiting the room; Lucy’s cries would wake Faline if need be, and I had to get out of here.

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I took my car and drove 20 over the speed limit on every street, driving aimlessly and I had no idea where I was going. Over a period of 30 minutes, I led myself unknowingly to the graveyard where my parents were buried and it took me until I put my car in park to realize where I had ended up. Why did I come here? I looked to the dark church, no lights on and I turned off my car, getting out and pressing the button to lock it as I approached the gates. It was always so hard driving here to see my mother, but I felt more comfortable here than at home right now..

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As I approached my parents graves, I looked to my mothers headstone and for the first time today, I felt my body relax and my nerves started to settle; the exact opposite I usually feel when coming here. I stopped a few feet from them and my eyes were fixed on my mothers name etched into the stone, “Hey, ma,” I began how I usually do. “I’ve been a little confused lately.. I don’t know what I want, or who I want. But, I kinda fucked up, big time. Things had been great with Faline, but the moment I go back to college, everything was out of my control. I’m a loose nut that can’t be tightened,” I chuckle at my own choice of words, yet it finally triggers the tears that I had been holding back all day and a tear falls down one of my eyes but I wipe it away quickly. “I have a feeling you’d be disappointed. You raised a little boy well, but I’m not the man you probably hoped I would become,” more tears began to fall, “My little girl..” I pause, “Lucy is oblivious right now, but she’s so smart.. She’ll figure everything out as soon as she gets a little older. She’ll figure out that I should have nothing to do with her, but then what?” I wonder, shutting my eyes and rubbing the bridge of my nose.

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“Jason?” A familiar voice goes through my ears and I quickly wipe my tears away in the dark, looking back and I see Anya is slowly making her way towards me. I’m happy to see her, but I know that she’s mad at me for whatever reason, so I don’t say anything until she walks up and stops next to me, “What are you doing here?” She asks, though I think it’s a stupid question.

“Visiting,” I reply with a monotone voice. There’s an awkward silence that I couldn’t stand, but I didn’t know what to say to her.

“What’s bothering you?” She eventually breaks the silence and asks, but I don’t want to tell her, not until she tells me why she’s ignoring me. It wasn’t a special occasion, nor was it either of our parents birthday, so whenever one of us would come here, something always had to be eating at our brains; something was bothering both of us.

“What’s bothering you?” I ask in return with a hint of aggravation. Anya turned her attention towards our parents graves, silence fell around us once more and I sighed. “Why can’t you just talk to me?” I wonder, though I’m still monotone and it barely even sounded like a question.

Anya still hesitated, taking a moment to think about her next words, “It’s really hard to talk about, Jason.. Especially with you,” she finally spoke up and I looked towards her, wondering what she could mean.

“Why me?” I asked, curious and now I really wanted to know what was bothering her; had I done something to piss her off? I couldn’t think of anything I had done besides that night I had told all my sisters the truth about Faline and Lucy, but I didn’t think she’d be mad at me this long for something like that.. Would she? It wasn’t like her at all to hold grudges.

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“I don’t know, it just is,” she replies and looks to me, her eyes are sad and even through the dark, I can tell she had been crying.

“Come on, Anya.. We used to always talk. You’ve helped me in a lot of ways growing up, let me at least try to return the favor for once,” I admit. I had been a terrible brother, her and Hitomi raised me like our mother would’ve, but it was never the same; I turned into a very troubled child, which is where I am now, except now I’m a troubled man. No.. I’m still only a child, who am I kidding..

“Yeah.. Used to..” She emphasized the past tense and I sighed.

“Are you and Dwight doing okay?” I asked, watching as she looked to my fathers headstone and her expression went somewhat pained.

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“I’m sorry, Jason.. It was wrong of me to walk out on you, Faline, and everyone that one night, but I just couldn’t take it,” she replied, her voice beginning to give out and tears welled up in her eyes. I grew worried as I looked to her, I hadn’t seen Anya cry tears of sadness ever since our parents had died; something must be really wrong..

“It’s okay.. I just wanted to know why, that’s all.. But, if it’s hard for you, then you don’t have to tell me, just forget I asked. I don’t want you to be upset,” I retorted, looking over her face a little again and I noticed she couldn’t fight the tears anymore, seeing a few fall from her eyes.

Anya ignored my words, continuing anyways, “I-I found a ring, in one of Dwight’s pockets when I was doing laundry about 2 months ago.. H-He was going to ask me to marry him, but..” Anya began and I was happy for her and Dwight, though the ‘but’ at the end of her sentence made my heart sink. “You know we work at the hospital.. And one day I wanted to get checked out to see if I was healthy. Dwight wants children so bad.. So bad.. But, I.. I can’t give him any,” she continued, and I was a little confused.

“Why not..? You’re crazy about him.. Do you not want to be with him anymore?” I wonder, watching as her tears got worse and she tried covering her face.

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“It’s not that.. Mentally, emotionally, I want to give him as many as he wants, I want the same thing.. But, physically, I’m incapable. I’ll never get pregnant, Jason, ever. I’ll never be able to hold my own baby, one that I’ve created,” she continued and I understood now; she’s infertile. My heart sank even more, now into my stomach and I felt terrible for her; that’s why she couldn’t be around Faline, Lucy and I, she can’t have kids, and me already having one and now I’m having another.. Well, Lucy wasn’t mine.. But..

Dammit, a tear fell from my eye as well as I watched Anya cry, the most destroyed I had ever seen her. She cried more when our parents died, but I knew that she cared more about this than anything else now; she loved kids, always did, she was just like Mom.. Exactly like her. She loved children, was so kind and gentle, such a humble and forgiving person, and she had been cursed by being unable to have children? I felt like shit, I hated that I was capable of it and to her knowledge, I had already knocked up two different woman, to her she must’ve took it as rubbing it in her face.. I felt so sorry for her, I was crushed just as much as she was, just because I knew how much she wanted to experience being a mother; she was just like mom.. Just like her..

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I turned towards Anya as she cried heavily by herself, pulling her into a tight hug and tears then fell from my eyes as well. Jesus.. Here I am in her eyes getting ‘so many’ girls pregnant, when she can’t even have one, no wonder she walked out that one night; I didn’t blame her at all for leaving. She had always talked about Helena, Hitomi’s girl.. Ever since she was born, I knew that Anya was jealous, she showed signs as far as not wanting to be by Helena one minute, resenting Hitomi therefore resenting Helena, but then again, every now and then she would hold Helena and almost refuse to give her up once she had her in her arms.. Once she met Dwight, though, her hopes skyrocketed and we all knew she couldn’t wait to marry him and she was ecstatic about possibly having a child with him soon. I.. I had no idea what to tell her, besides the obvious.. 

“Anya..” I said softly, my own voice quivering as I heard her bawling into my shoulder and clenching her fists, gripping my shirt tightly, “I-I’m.. S-So sorry..” I continued and more tears fell from my eyes, holding her tighter and I knew just by how hard she was letting it out, I was the first one to know about it. Hitomi and Julia might know, since my sisters talked with each other more than I talked with them, but by how she was acting, and how hard she was crying, I somehow knew that she came here to let it all out to Mom and Dad, like I wanted to do about Lucy, but we had found one another instead.

Surprisingly, Anya was able to control herself and she continued, talking into my shoulder, “Now that I told him.. Now that he knows I can’t have children, we’ve been getting into more and more fights that would normally never happen.. I-It’s.. It’s as if he’s looking for reasons to leave me instead of coming right now and saying it.. H-He doesn’t want me anymore, I can’t give him what we both want so bad, I can’t give him what he wants..” She continued and cried even more, and I hugged her even tighter, if I even could. My God, I never thought this would happen. I couldn’t describe the guilt and pity I had for Anya; I’d do anything to switch places with her.. Anything. She, out of anyone I know, deserves a child the most.. I can’t even describe what I’m feeling for her right now.. I can’t even imagine how she feels..

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I was at a loss for words, all I wanted to do was go to the hospital and beat the living shit out of Dwight; he’d be lucky that he’d already be at a hospital to get treatment fast from the things I would do to him. Anya’s phone goes off and I  feel her pull away from my hug, pulling out her phone and looking to it, tears still falling from her eyes and they splashed onto her phone. “I-I have to go, Jason.. I’m on call tonight and they need me,” she says, the frog still in her throat, “Thank you, for listening.. I’ll talk to you soon, okay?” She continues and I sigh.

“Anytime.. Take care..” I wanted her to stay, to talk to me more, give me more details, but I knew she had to go right to work, so I didn’t keep her from going.. I watched as she wiped her eyes and got rid of her tears and walked back towards the main gate, leaving the cemetery and I could’t help but wonder how her condition came to be; it was so rare and foreign, and so unfair.. 

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I look back to my mothers grave and sigh heavily, knowing that she would be devastated to hear such news from Anya if she was still alive; I hate to admit it, but sometimes I feel like it’s better that she isn’t here to witness some of the things we’re going through. “Bye, ma,” I say softly, and although I had stopped crying already, from my own painful realization and also from Anya’s news, I fight back more tears as I walk away and back to my car. I left the graveyard feeling more depressed than I ever have, I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt like this.. Maybe when Mom died? I don’t know.. I can’t go home yet, it’s still early. I looked at my phone as I drove into the city, seeing that Faline had texted me, asking where I was since I had been home and dropped off Lucy. I haven’t answered her all day, not once; had I not dropped off Lucy she would still be under the assumption that I hadn’t even left the campus yet. I drove through the city, admiring my view and I searched for a good bar to go to to get a drink. Or seven.. After my night, no, the passed week and a day, have been difficult. I had drank since then, but I was ready to blackout everything, I needed to forget it all in order to act normally.. Whenever I decided to finally face Faline.

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I got to a bar and there weren’t many people as of yet, seeing only a few people walking around and drinking, dancing, enjoying themselves as all I wanted to do was drink my depression away. The bartender was.. Okay looking, she wore too much makeup though; maybe it was for her job, but either way, I didn’t care for it. I asked her to make me a drink with vodka, something sugary; I always blackout from vodka, and sadly, I was desperately wanting to do that tonight. 

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Drink, after drink, after drink, I kept putting them down, one after the other. The bartender was hitting on me all night and I barely paid for anything, though I only flirted back to get some drinks for free.  I felt like such a pussy for ordering nothing but stupid girl drinks, but it was the only thing I could think of getting that would get me hammered the quickest. 

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When did I get outside? What is this terrible green spot light on me? Where am I? No, I’m at the bar.. Did I pay my tab? The lights from the city are shining behind me and there aren’t any stars, I can see another city in the distance and I feel like the brightness of the horizon is three times as large as it is; its constantly swaying in my vision and I blink hard a few times, trying to focus but I can’t. Did someone say to me a little while ago that they would call me a cab? I can’t remember..

When did I get outside? ..Did I pay my tap? The same thoughts ran through my head over and over and my head was spinning. I could barely stand, gripping the side of the complex and I could feel the cold siding on my fingertips. I reached into my pocket and it seemed like it took ages to pull it out as my entire body continued to sway. A light was blinking green and I read a text message, or tried to.. After about 30 seconds of trying to get my eyes to focus, I managed to read the first few letters of the name, Fal, is all I could make out and I assumed it was Faline. My eyes then tried to read her text, but I couldn’t make out a single word, the light from the phone only hurting my eyes more and I grew even more dizzy.

“Jason?”  I heard a voice call out my name a few times and I eventually turned around, seeing someone I didn’t know coming over to me and helping be towards the curb so I didn’t fall. I recognized the car, it was a taxi, I guess someone did call me one. “Where we goin’, buddy?” The driver asked and I slurred my words, but eventually told him where I lived as my head bobbed in that car.

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The cab takes me home and it seemed as if I had just shut my eyes for no more than a few seconds and we were already at my house. I don’t even remember punching in the key code to open the gate, nor how I had managed to get out my keys and open the front door as well. My legs brought me straight to the kitchen and I looked at the clock hanging on the wall, but I couldn’t read it at all. I went to the fridge and opened it, looking inside and I noticed that there was beer in there still, grabbing one and popping off the top with my thumb effortlessly and I heard the cap hit the ground, but I wasn’t about to get on my hands and knees searching for it to throw it out. 

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Faline’s POV

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I heard a noise downstairs and it sounded like the front door, looking to my phone and seeing that it was almost two in the morning and still I hadn’t received anything from Jason; was that him downstairs? I got out of bed and went to check, hearing a noise then coming from the kitchen and when I reached the doorway, I saw Jason sitting in one of the dining chairs, holding a beer and he seemed bothered. “Jason?” I questioned, watching as he turned his head slowly to look at me. From where I was standing, I could smell the alcohol coming off of him, his eyes looked bloodshot and tired, and he didn’t even answer me when I said his name. “Jason.. Where have you been? ..Are you drunk?” I question next and my expression is worried, watching as his body swayed a little as he sat and I was worried he might fall off of the chair.

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As I went to go walk towards him, he instantly stood to his feet and I watched as he caught himself from falling, turning his back to me and drinking more of his beer; though I doubt he really needed any more. “Jason, why haven’t you talked to me all day? I was worried, I thought something might’ve happened to you,” I tried to talk with him once more.

“I-I’m fine.. As.. As you can see,” he replied in a rough manner and he slurred his words, struggling to talk to me.

“Is everything else okay?” I wondered, happy that he was alright, though I couldn’t help but wonder if something was bothering him to the point where it would drive him to get this drunk and ignore me. I watch him go to the counter and use it as a support to stand, “Did.. You wanna talk about anything?” I wonder as well.

“Jesus, how man-many questions are you going to ask!?” He suddenly raised his voice and set down his beer rather harshly onto the counter; I thought he was going to break it.

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“Jason.. Please don’t speak to me that way. I know you’re, well.. Not yourself right now,” I reply, taking another step closer, though I don’t think that I should’ve.

“Really? What gave that away?” He asks sarcastically and turns his attention away from me, looking at the wall for all I knew and I was growing less tolerable to him by the second. I had never seen him this way before, completely plastered and easily angered, something had to be bothering him. The last time we had seen one another, he couldn’t bare to say goodbye and I knew he didn’t want to leave my side, but now, he seemed like he didn’t want anything to do with me.. I had expected seeing him for the first time in over a week, he would’ve acted different, more excited to see me, just as much as I was to see him.

“Don’t talk to me like that when I’m clearly only worried sick about you,” he continues to ignore me and I feel as if he didn’t even hear the words I had just said, “So you’re ignoring me now, Jason? Really mature.. Is this the kind of behavior you’re going to use when the baby gets here?” I asked, getting frustrated a little.

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Jason looks to me and I knew I hit a nerve when I had said that, his expression turns angered and he makes his way over to me as he answers, “Jesus! Isn’t it, a li-little obvious that I don’t want to fucking talk to you right now?!” He yells and my eyes widen in shock, taking a step back as he approaches me.

“Jason, I-”

“And stop saying my fucking name! You sound like a fucking broken record!” He adds and I didn’t know what to say to him, I was in shock that he would act this way towards me when I had just experienced him a week ago not being able to leave me, or let go of me; all I wanted when I saw him was for him to maybe tell me that he had missed me, I wanted to embrace him like we always used to do. 

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After that, I didn’t say anything else, I kept my mouth shut in fear of him only getting more enraged. I had never seen Jason become violent before, and he’s never given me a reason to be scared of him, but the look in his eyes tonight did just that; they scared me. I bowed my head and he walked passed me in a hurry, fed up with me I assumed and I wanted to know why he was acting like this so badly. Had I done something? I did text him a few times today, and call him, but I don’t think I came off as annoying.. It’s not like I called him every five minutes, but every few hours I would ask for an update on when he would be home; I was so, so excited to see him. I woke up from my nap earlier to the sound of Lucy through the baby monitor and I thought that Jason would be around somewhere in the house as well, but he wasn’t, he had just dumped Lucy on me and left. With every fiber of my being, I wanted to know what was running through his head, I wanted to know what could’ve triggered this in him, but then again, I couldn’t shake the thought that maybe something else was wrong with him.. Was I the problem?

Generation 2, Chapter 8

ATTENTION: This chapter is super long and a lot happens.. It’s the longest one I’ve written yet, I hope it makes up for me being on a random hiatus. XD Enjoy.

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The summer is over, and I’m going back to the college dorm tonight so I can continue my education. Faline and I are still dating, I suppose it’s safe to say that we’re an item now, though it still kind of feels weird saying ‘I have a girlfriend’ out loud. I didn’t mind saying it, I actually liked to, but I can’t remember the last time I’ve said those words, or even if I ever have; I guess that’s why it feels weird. I didn’t want to go back to college, I wanted to stay with Faline and be there for her through her pregnancy like I was for Lana, but she insisted that one of us goes back, and seeing as how I only had one year left and she had two, it was me that was going. I was going to miss her, I was already convinced that I was going to travel back and forth as much as I could, probably every weekend or every other weekend to see her and see how the baby is doing; she moved in with me finally about a week ago. This year was going to be the most difficult for me, but Faline gave me confidence that I could pull it off, and she said she’d even help me with school work if she could whenever I would come home to visit since I’m so lazy and bad when it comes to school. But, I also had confidence in myself, Faline and the baby fueled me to want to try harder; also, I had forgotten until today that Auturo said he wasn’t going to help me this year, so I’d have to try my hardest on my own to pass.

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The night before . . .

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Yesterday was hard for us both. My heart hurt it was pounding so hard last night since I had finally told my sisters about Lana, Lucy and Faline. Faline finally convinced me that I needed to tell them what was going on before they found out themselves and then I would be in a huge mess of trouble. I felt like the confession wasn’t going to go smoothly, and it didn’t. I’ve somehow managed to keep everything from them over the summer until last night when I told them everything. Faline was beginning to get upset as well, I was beginning to make her feel like I was ashamed of her since I hadn’t told my family yet about her pregnancy, so to prove to her that I wasn’t, I caved in to finally telling them. Since she was going to start a family with me, she wanted to meet my sisters, and since I’ve already met her parents and her twin brother, she thought it was only fair for her to meet my siblings and to let them know they were going to be Aunt’s; well, they already were for Lucy, but they didn’t know that at the time. Plus, I also wanted to tell my sisters so that Faline wouldn’t be alone while I was gone; she did have her parents and brother, but they lived far away and my sisters didn’t, and I felt like my sisters deserved this chance to get to know the woman I was having a baby with since they didn’t get a chance to with Lana. I haven’t spoken a word to Lana since the night we had that fight and Faline was here; we’ve grown more and more apart ever since that night and it’s been hard to visit Lucy. 

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To say the least, my sisters were in complete awe and shock when I introduced them to Faline and Lucy. At first, they didn’t know what to think, or say, or do, they just stood there, all of their eyes going between Faline, Lucy and I for what seemed like long grueling minutes. Eventually I explained everything to them; how I’ve been hooking up with my psychiatrists daughter since I was 15, how I got her pregnant with Lucy, why I hid it from them, why I’m going to college, when I got Faline pregnant, everything. Faline took Lucy out of the room for a little bit as I explained to my sisters why I kept her from them, I didn’t want Lucy to hear my words and get sad or think that she was an accident; well, even though she technically was, but I didn’t think of her like that after I had first saw her when she was born because I fell in love with her immediately. I told my sisters that Lana and I don’t get along, and I knew they wouldn’t get along with her either, let alone like her even the tiniest bit, so I saved them from a lot of drama that I knew none of them needed in their lives. Plus, with how Lana’s been using my money, I wouldn’t put it passed her if she sunk as low as to ask my sisters for money, too.

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Hitomi and Julia took the news the easiest. Julia was happy for me from the beginning and I knew instantly that she liked Faline and Lucy; you could tell she was happy that I was having another baby, too. Hitomi acted as the mother of us all, and although she was disappointed that I had gotten two different girls pregnant that I technically wasn’t involved with at the time, she quickly warmed up to Lucy when she held her and she loved that Lucy and her daughter Helena could be play mates since they were so close in age. Anya, however, wasn’t pleased in the slightest. As I was explaining everything to them all, Anya decided to get up and leave, she couldn’t handle it for whatever reason and I had chased her out of the house to find out what was wrong. She wouldn’t say anything to me, so I just let her leave. She hasn’t talked to me at all today, either, not even to call and wish me luck at my last year of college, like she usually does before I’ve gone every year. Hopefully she’ll come around soon and talk to me..

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It was around noon and it was passed the time that I should have left, but Faline and I have been standing in the foyer for fifteen minutes already, unable to separate from one another. I kept beginning to say goodbye, then end up kissing her for a few minutes, then trying to leave again; it was an ongoing cycle that I wasn’t really against at all. Her baby bump hits my stomach every time I pulled her in and it only compelled me to call all of this college stuff off and stay home with her, but I knew she wouldn’t let me. For only being four months along, Faline’s stomach is larger than Lana’s was when she was around this far into her pregnancy with Lucy, but then again Faline is a lot shorter and smaller than Lana, maybe her stomach just looks bigger because she’s smaller?

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Three hours away is way too far, I don’t want to leave; I wish I had transferred to a closer school before this new year popped up seemingly out of nowhere. The summer was over too soon and I felt as if I had just gotten back yesterday; time was flying by with Faline around to make my days a lot smoother. Faline and I have finally made it outside, yet still can’t separate from one another. Every year so far, I’ve never had anyone to say goodbye to really, I didn’t think it would be this hard. Hitomi, Anya and Julia usually always call me and wish me luck and tell me to be safe on the drive, to call them every now and then to tell them how I’m doing, but I’ve never had someone like Faline to put the thoughts into my head that I shouldn’t go at all and I should stay home. Every second with her on the driveway gets me that much closer to blowing everything off and staying home, but finally, as she gives me one last kiss and throws her arms around me, I know she’s about to finally let me go.

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I can barely pay attention to the road as I slowly pull out of the driveway and begin my 3 hour drive to college. Faline and the house are in my rear view mirror and she doesn’t make a movement to go inside until I can’t see her anymore; I already want to turn around and say that I forgot something, just so I could say goodbye to her once more. What’s gotten into me? Why the hell am I acting like such a dog? I’m always happy and excited to be around her, willing to fetch for anything she should ask for or need, I even put my tail between my legs when I make her upset and what’s weird is that I actually feel bad and want to apologize; I’ve never felt like any girl has ever deserved an apology from me, ever. It’s only Thursday and I don’t have my first class until Monday, but Faline wanted me to go early so I could get used to being back there, and also so I could focus and get my mind into ‘college mode’ so I wasn’t scrambled on Sunday night or Monday morning to get there. I was already planning to come visit her the weekend after this one; I missed her already and I wasn’t even a mile away yet.

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The entire drive to college, all three hours of it, was unpleasant. My stomach felt sick the entire time and all I wanted to do was turn back and go home. Only when I finally got to the dorm did I start feeling a little better, the sight of it calmed my nerves a little as I reminded myself that I wasn’t going to be alone at least while I was away from Faline; Auturo, Sabastian and Dean were all supposed to be here, and I admit that I was a little excited to see them again. I walked into the dorm and listened for a few long seconds, trying to see if I could tell if anyone was home without needing to venture through the entire house.

“Dean?” I called out, not hearing anything in return, “Auturo? Ian?” I called for the others, not hearing anything still and I wondered if they weren’t back from summer break yet. 

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I took this opportunity to call Faline and let her know that I had gotten here okay, I missed hearing her voice, anyways. She picked up after two rings and I smiled when I heard how upbeat and happy her tone was.

Hey, did you make it okay?” She wondered first.

“Yeah, I just got here. How are you?” 

Good, Julia and Hitomi came over to say goodbye to you, but you had just missed them. Hitomi had to leave to get Helena from daycare, but Julia’s been here since, she’s such awesome company,” Faline added with a giggle and I only smiled more.

“Oh, well tell her thanks, I’m happy she stopped by to keep you company already,” I replied.

Yeah, me too, and I’ll tell her.. Call me whenever you want, um.. I’ll see you next weekend though, yeah?” She wondered and her voice sounded a little bashful.

“Yeah, same goes for you.. I’ll see you soon,” I answered and she said okay, but hesitated a moment and I grew a little nervous wondering if she was waiting for me to say anything else. But, she eventually ended the silence and said goodbye to me and we hung up. I stood there for a moment, wondering what that silence was between us and why my stomach was beginning to turn into knots. 

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After I put my phone away, I made my way into the kitchen where the fridge had fresh food inside that wasn’t there from last year, thank goodness; Auturo was always the one to keep track of the food, so he must be here already, just not at the dorm. Despite how much he had gone grocery shopping, I just ended up eating a plain bowl of cereal as I sat by my self, alone in the house and wondering what the hell I should do until the other guys get back. After eating, I was a little exhausted from the trip still and decided to take a nap, going back into the living room and dropping myself on the couch lazily. 

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I woke up alone, but within about 5 minutes of waking up, Dean walked in through the door and he shook my hand as I sat on the couch, “Pleasure to see ‘ya, friend, how was your summer?” Dean asked, taking a seat on the couch opposite from mine. 

“It was good, really good. What about you?” I asked in return with a smile on my lips.

“Same, it was pretty awesome. Sucks we’re back, though, I could’a used another month or so off,” Dean replied with a chuckle and I laughed; I coudn’t agree with him more.

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“Where’s Auturo and Sabastian? Are they back yet?” I questioned, though I already knew Auturo was here.

“Yeah, we all got here today I think except Auturo, he got back on Monday for whatever reason. He’s such a freak about school stuff,” Dean said with a chuckle. “But, we gotta start off the school year right and go out like tradition. What about if we went to Barefoot?” Dean suggested with a huge smile and my expression went blank. Barefoot was a strip club we usually always go to a few times out of the school year to get away from the stress of college stuff, but I, for the first time ever, didn’t really want to go there; I tend to go a little crazy with the guys there.

“I don’t know.. What about just a regular bar? Maybe one in town or something,” I replied and I noticed Dean give me an expression that confused me a little; I couldn’t tell if he was shocked by my answer or if he was contemplating just going to the bar like I wanted.

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“Aw, come on now. We haven’t been to Barefoot in months. Besides, it’s usually you who’s the one suggesting we all go out together first thing, you don’t seem as enthused as you usually are. I thought that was your favorite place, anyways,” he pondered and I sighed. It was my favorite place, it’s really expensive and uptight, but fun; plus, almost all of the girls were gorgeous and even better yet, clean. But, I didn’t feel like changing and looking nice, I was still tired from the drive and I missed Faline, I didn’t want so much excitement on my first night back.

“Well, I’m still tired from the drive. I was just thinking we’d go to a close bar, get wrecked, and walk home or something. At least that’s all I really have in me to do tonight,” I replied and I hear Dean sigh in disappointment, but he continued to press on.

“Come on, man, let’s just go, stop bein’ such a pussy. If you wanted to go and didn’t, you’d hound me until I finally said yes, so come on,” Dean continued to try and sway my answer, and sadly it was beginning to work. “I met someone before I left  for the summer, too. Now, I know we said no datin’ any of the girls from Barefoot, but we started dating before I even bothered to ask where she worked, and she works there, so it ain’t against the rules this time, and don’t you tell me otherwise, neither,” Dean continued and I sighed, finally hearing the real reason on why he wanted to go there tonight. 

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I finally agree in going to Barefoot with Dean and he calls up Auturo and Sabastian to tell them to meet us there and I go to my room to change and get ready. I could care less that Dean’s dating someone from Barefoot, I wasn’t even a part of that deal that he’s talking about, either, I just happened to be in the same room when they discussed it. I’d still never date someone from there, but that’s only because I don’t date strippers in general, I don’t really know the real reason why. There’s a woman there who absolutely adores me, and I adore her more than anything, but she wouldn’t give up her job to be with me, so I still see her only every now and then. Though, whenever we do see one another, things always tend to get a little hot and heavy quickly.

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A half an hour later, the guys and I all meet up there and we walk in together, the distinct smell of booze and perfume exciting all of our senses and we all grew more alive and ready for the night that was ahead of us. We’re greeted at the door by Auturo and Sabastian’s favorite girls, Avery and Noelle; Avery was the best bartender in town, and the blonde French bombshell was the best at lap dances, but her private dances are what every guy needs to experience at least once in his lifetime. Barefoot was a club with very little rules, but what little rules there were, they take them very seriously; You can’t touch the girls unless they do it first or tell you it’s okay, and absolutely no sex, though everything else is allowed just so long as you pay upfront. 

“Welcome, gentlemen,” Avery began in a sultry tone.

“Bonjour, boys!” Noelle welcomed us with her hard French accent.

“You guys going upstairs like usual?” Avery then asked and Dean nodded with a triumphant smile.

“You know it, doll,” he replied and the girls looked to one another and smiled, giggling as they turned around and lead us passed the red rope that sectioned off the club; upstairs was where the better girls were, though it was a lot more expensive. Luckily, no one ever gets stuck with the bill, we always try to keep our own tabs because we may do things with the girls that isn’t within the group, and the private visits are what makes these girls so much money.

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We all followed the girls passed the red rope and I looked to Dean who was looking at his jacket and picking off little specs of lint, trying to look his best and I rolled my eyes, “She’s not going to care if you have some shit on you, you look fine, you can’t even notice the crap you’re pulling off of yourself, anyways,” I berate him a little and he scoffs.

“Fuck off, I’m just tryin’ to look nice for ‘er.. Not everyone has $900 suits for no God damn reason like you just lyin’ ’round,” Dean rebutted and I chuckled.

“Hey, this place is reason enough to own a suit like this, I don’t want to look like a schmuck like you guys,” I teased in return and adjust myself in my attire, fixing the buttons if need be, “Why do you think Bennu doesn’t charge me for the private room visits?” I add quietly as I look around the room and Dean looks to me with a rather impressed expression.

“She doesn’t charge you? ..Have you guys ever, you know.. Broken the rules?” Dean wonders and I can’t help the smile that stretches across my lips.

“Hey man, whatever happens in those rooms, stays in those rooms, yeah?” I ask with a threatening tone but keep my smile, watching as he nodded and understood that we shouldn’t talk about it anymore, though he catches my drift.

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Dean and I continue on to catch up with Auturo and Sabastian and his question echoes in my mind, along with my answer that followed it; Faline would leave me in an instant if she knew what I was about to do tonight, what I do every time I come here, but, she won’t find out, ever. I’ve grown accustom to keeping my Bridgeport life separate from my College life, and so far it’s been easy to do since none of my friends know about Lucy still, and I haven’t said anything about Faline being pregnant either. I admit, I felt a small amount of guilt as I walked up the stairs to the best part of the club, but after I get a lot of drinks in me, I’ll feel better about it all.

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We get upstairs and Sabastian is already talking to Noelle, his favorite lady there. I’ve had private dances from every girl here, but Noelle made the whole dance look like an art form for how perfectly her hips can move. I like a girl who let’s me be the one in control, but Noelle is the exact opposite when it comes to her private room sessions, so after the first time I was with her, I moved on and haven’t had a private room with her since. Don’t get me wrong, she’s one girl I wish I had gotten the chance to break the rules with, but she was a little too dominating for me, she fit better with Sabastian. 

We walked passed Sabastian and Dean stopped Avery, her then looking to him with a sweet smile, “Hey, is um, Bunny workin’ tonight?” Dean asked and I let out a gentle snicker and Auturo kept himself from laughing as well; Auturo and I hated when girls gave themselves pet names.

Avery looked to us as if we were being children, but she kept her seductive grin anyways, “Eyes to the stage, tiger,” Avery replied and we all looked simultaneously to the stage in the middle of the room.

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Avery went to the bar and we walked around to get a better view of the stage that Bunny was entertaining on. Auturo and I thought it would be funny to mess with Dean a little, both looking to one another with the same conniving grins and we both put on personas as if we were analyzing a test subject, and overall just being cruel just because of her silly name.

“Don’t talk to loud, we’ll spook the wildlife.”

“Do you think she travels by hareplane?”

How many carrots do you think she can fit in her mouth?”

“I think I ran over her cousin with the lawnmower the other day.”

“How often do you think she cuts the grass?”

“Do you think she’d freeze up while crossing the street looking into the headlights of a car?”

“Guys, come on, shut the fuck up,” Dean finally chimed in and I let out a chuckle I couldn’t hold back anymore at Auturo’s final comment, this was too fun, and just too funny. I wasn’t very impressed, her pole skills were lacking, she looked like a little girl, and the worse thing about it, she belonged to Dean. If I wanted to take Noelle from Sabastian, I could, because she’s not his girlfriend, but I couldn’t do that with Bunny and Dean; I disliked that a little.

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The music pulsated throughout the room and Auturo and I were just glad that she didn’t hear anything we had said. “Seriously though, Dean, Bunny isn’t her real name, right?” Auturo asked, nudging Dean’s arm and he looked to us.

“What ‘re you, dumb? Course that ain’t her name,” Dean answered, looking back to the stage and not continuing.

Auturo and I looked to each other questionably, then back to Dean, “If Bunny isn’t her name, than what is it?” I asked, both of us starring him down a little until we realized something that made us both start laughing, “You don’t even know her name, do you!” I continued and Auturo joined in laughing with me.

“Yeah I do! It’s just harder to pronounce. It’s in Polish and it means ‘Bunny’. Shit, get off my ass already,” Dean added and as we calmed down our laughing, we could tell he was getting tired of this quickly. Auturo sighed and looked to me, rolling his eyes at Dean not being able to handle our jokes tonight and I shrugged at him in return, not really knowing what else to do.

Bunny’s dance was over and the first person she saw was Dean, a wide smile forming on her red lips and we all eyed her up and down. 

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“Dean! You came!” Bunny called out and jumped off the little stage into his arms, her voice very bubbly and her slight accent intrigued me a little, sounding almost if she was from Mississippi or Alabama. That’s probably why Dean liked her so much, Dean was straight from Texas, and although their accents were somewhat the same, her’s was still a little different; both were from the more Southern states, though. After Bunny had greeted Dean with a huge hug and a few pecks on the cheek, she looked over to Auturo and I, though her eyes ran over me much more than they did to him. “Who’re your handsome friends, Dean?” She wondered, her tone curious and slightly seductive.

Dean looked over to the two of us as he still held Bunny, “That there’s Auturo, and that’s Jason,” Dean answered her and Auturo smirked at her and that was it, looking away and around the club again, but my eyes traveled over her a little longer. I watched as Bunny bit the bottom of her lip just slightly by her lip ring as she looked at me, and she didn’t stop looking at me until Dean had caught her attention again. 

“We’re going in here,” Auturo said and I looked over to him when he motioned his head to another area with a stage that was blocked off a little by the main stage, in a more secluded area most likely for larger party groups. But, the place seemed a little dead tonight surprisingly, so we felt we could sit wherever. I followed Auturo into the other area and Dean stayed with Bunny to talk with her more, or go to a private room, I don’t know. Don’t really care, either.

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Auturo and I sat down and Avery dropped off a few beers to get us started off with. I watched as Auturo eyed her the most out of any other girl there and I could tell he wanted to do things with her, but he often didn’t ask for it. If the girl were to come up to him and ask him, then yeah, he would, but I don’t know if it’s his pride, or just a little weird twitch that he can’t handle and he can’t ask a woman for anything. Maybe girls like that about him though, he’s a mysterious man and even though we’ve been friends for four years now, I still feel like I know nothing about him.

I downed three beers and so did Auturo as we talked and watched a few different girls dance on the pole in front of us, but there was still one girl I hadn’t seen yet, and it was starting to upset me a little. Is she even working tonight? A few girls had come over to me and ask if I wanted a dance, a private dance, and even a private room, but I politely denied them all and they just looked at me as if I was weird for saying no, but as they walked away, I could tell on their faces they knew why I was saying no, and it was because they weren’t the girl I was looking and waiting for.

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But, after 3 girls had came and went on the pole, not satisfying my eyes nearly enough as they needed to be, my caramel-skinned Egyptian walked up onto the stage and my heart began to race a little from her hot pink attire and transparent pink stockings. Her stage name was Cleopatra, for obvious reasons, but Bennu was all that I knew her by and I liked that better anyways. There wasn’t anything about her that I didn’t like; her hair was so dark and long and she threw it around every chance she could, her body was perfect and even her breasts were real which was a huge plus, I wasn’t a big fan of fake ones.

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Auturo looked over to me and he could tell that I had found what I wanted, “Still choosing her this time?” He wondered, even though he already knew the answer; I think his way of asking that was a way to see if he could even be with her tonight, but no, I never shared. None of them could touch her, for the reason of me calling dibs on her for the rest of our lives as long as she works there, and also by the fact that she more than likely wouldn’t want to do anything with them anyways if I’m around, which I always was around these guys. 

“Yeah, like always,” I say rather proudly as I tilt my head while watching her, trying to get better views of certain areas as she danced. 

“None of us have been with her in a private room except you, what’s she like? How do you afford that every time?” Auturo asked and I smirked.

“She lets me come for free sometimes,” I reply with a quick wink in his direction and his expression turns to surprise, then eventually turns into complete and utter jealousy as he looks back to her. I lied, but only to not make him more jealous than he already was.. After the first time I was with Bennu, I didn’t have to pay for anything else just so long as she was the one doing it; I do turn down all of the other girls, but it isn’t for the money, I just have the most fun when I’m in the company of my beautiful Egyptian.

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When Bennu was done dancing, her eyes locked with mine and her entire face lit up, “Jazon!” She called out softly and ran over to me, dropping herself into my lap and she put her hand to the back of my head to bring me into a deep kiss. She soon ended the kiss and instantly her lips found my neck, licking and biting at me while slowly grinding her warmth into my lap to excite me more, and of course it worked instantly. Just her scent alone and watching her dance got me excited beyond belief, but now that she was in my lap, I couldn’t wait a second longer for us to go into a private room.

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Perfect timing, Avery.. She came back over to see how we were doing on drinks, but noticed Auturo wasn’t getting any attention like the rest of us were, setting down his beer for him and I watched Avery as Bennu continued to kiss at my neck and even moving the collar of my shirt and suit to get at my collarbone. Avery leaned over more towards Auturo and I watched as his lips quickly smiled at her, she leaned in more and whispered something into his ear and it was funny to watch his cheeks blush and his mouth seemed to be battling itself on whether to be excited, shocked, intrigued, or all of the above. Avery then took his hand and led him away from the area we were in and I assumed they were going to a private room, which is exactly what I wanted to do this instant or Bennu was going to leave marks all over my neck and I didn’t need that.

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I leaned my lips into Bennu’s ear and suggested we go to her room and she finally pulls away from my neck, nodding excitedly and she hops off my lap. She takes my hand and I stand as she then pulls me along, eyeing her body up and down and I already want to start undoing the back of her outfit. Bennu was the only one I broke the rules with, and she’s told me before that she doesn’t do that with anyone else. Even though it seems a little hard to believe, I like to think she’s telling the truth, at least she makes it believable enough for me to not think otherwise. 

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We walk out of the area and back into the main room where I see Dean is still talking with Bunny and Sabastian is eyeing Noelle like his life depended on it while she dances around the pole. As Bennu and I approach the others, I only notice Bunny look my direction and she quickly eyes me up and down, then her expression went to slight jealousy when she looked to Bennu pulling me along. I look back to Bennu and smile, seeing her look back at me with wanting eyes and I can hardly wait until we get to her room. 

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We eventually get to Bennu’s room and she looks back at me with another excited smile as she opens the door and I eagerly follow her inside, shutting the door behind me and I can finally relax now that I’m in a room without a security camera on me. 

“Zo, I aven’t zeen you in a vhile,” Bennu begins and her Egyptian accent makes my entire being quake with desire; the best way I can describe it is a cross between Russian and Indian but more soft spoken, often finding her replacing the ‘s’ with ‘z’ in certain words, and even the ‘b’ is sometimes replaced with the sound of a ‘p’. But, I can’t get enough of it.

“Summer break, it’s my first day back though. Had to pay you a little visit of course,” I reply with a soft grin and I can tell her by her expression that she missed me, “Now get over here,” I demand and keep my grin.

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When Bennu got close enough, I wrapped my arms around her and put my hands on her ass, gripping it tightly and pulling her pelvis against mine to show her how happy I was to be with her. She giggled at my actions, “Happy to zee me, huh?” She questioned teasingly and I brought one of my hands up to run my fingers through her hair on the back of her head. I gripped her hair gently and tilted her head back, forcing her lips to meet mine and I kissed her hard, soon hearing her begin to hum moans and her hands ran down my torso to the brim of my pants. 

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I lifted Bennu into my arms and she wrapped her legs around me instinctively as I brought her over to the bed and crawled over her, continuing our locked lips and I grew to hate the fabric that kept me from touching every inch of her skin. I couldn’t remember why I didn’t want to come here earlier, I was actually a little mad at myself that I had even thought that, and I didn’t want to be anywhere else, all I wanted to do was stay in her room until they closed at six in the morning. It even started to bother me that she wouldn’t leave her job for me like I’ve asked her so many times before, wondering what it was about it here that kept her from wanting to leave. Ever since I met her I’ve wanted to make her mine, maybe that’s why I always come back here, even though I know her answer is always going to be the same.

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