Generation 2, Chapter 13

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“Do we really have to keep discussing this?” I asked with an annoyed tone, helping Faline clean up the kitchen from dinner as we argued. 

“I just don’t understand why you won’t get rid of her.. She’s messed up your books and even simple calculations that could cost you thousands of dollars. She’s terrible at what she does for you, so why the hell is she not fired yet?” Faline asked back angrily, talking about Miss Chu.

“Yeah, she messes up sometimes, but I usually always check her work or someone else does, I’ve caught all of her mistakes before so I haven’t really lost anything,” I reply.

“Jason, the fact that you or someone else needs to check her work after every time that she does it means that you should get a new fucking secretary, she has no idea what she’s doing. All she does is sit in her office, wasting time and flirting with you. She’s a waste of your time, everyone’s time.. She should know how to do her job after 6 months of working there and not have to be graded like she’s 13 years old.. Didn’t I ask you last month when you were going to get rid of her, too? How many times do I have to ask?” She retorted.

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“I mean, what other reasons are you keeping her on the payroll besides..” She hesitated, beginning to wash the dishes.

I stopped what I was doing, seeing her back to me and watching as she washed the dishes more roughly than she normally would, “Besides.. What?” I asked with a short tone, watching then as she slowed her pace down.

“Nothing,” she answered quickly.

“Faline.. Besides what?” I repeated the question, slowly walking towards her but stopping a few feet away.

“I don’t know.. Maybe besides the fact that you’re probably sleeping with her,” she managed to say through the slight frog in her throat and I heard her sniff quickly at the possible build up of tears. I let out a gentle sigh and walked more towards Faline until I was right behind her, running my hands down her arms and I could feel her jump at my touch, as if she wanted nothing to do with me.

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“Stop what you’re doing,” I softly demanded, hearing her put the dishes down and shutting the water off. I turned her around slowly and she avoided eye contact with me, looking at my shirt instead, “I’m not sleeping with her, I would never do that,” I reassured her, but she still refused to look at me. I brought my hand up and put it under her chin, lifting her head to look at me and her eyes seemed so cold, “I promise you I’ve never slept with her, you need to believe that,” I coaxed more and she scoffed at me, turning back around and continuing what she was doing.

“You don’t know the first thing about what I need,” she answered angrily.

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“What the hell’s that supposed to mean?” I asked with a harsh tone, still standing behind her and waiting for an answer.

“Nothing.. Will you just.. Leave, or go to a different room, or something?” She asked, sniffing quietly again.

“No, I won’t. What the fuck else could I not be giving you? You have this house, the twins, Lucy loves you, money out the asshole, a great job, and you have me, what else do you need? What, is all of that not good enough anymore?”

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Faline stopped what she was doing once more and turned around, her face enraged, “Don’t even start with that bullshit! Don’t make me seem like this terrible bad guy or some kind of person who isn’t grateful for what they have. I’m not Lana, Jason, okay? I’m not going to lie to you and tell you the boys are yours when they aren’t or take all your money or treat you like shit! I’m not Lana.. The boys are yours, and I have my own job, I have my own money and I’m not constantly clinging onto you like you’re this huge sack of money!” She replied, her tone of voice getting louder as she finished and I was boiling over at the fact that she had the nerve to mention Lana.

“Can you get to the fucking point already?” I asked angrily, watching her stare me down and I could feel the rage radiating off of her.

“The point, Jason, is that we haven’t had sex in like, 3 months, maybe even more! I’ve somewhat lost track. But, knowing you, knowing who you were in college and even knowing you after living with you for this long, I know you.. If you’re not getting it from me, where else would you be getting it from?” She asked rhetorically, my expression calming down slightly.

“So, you’re just going off of assumptions then? You’re assuming that I’m sleeping around just because you haven’t gotten any? I don’t know what the fuck your problem is, but if you wanted it that bad, then say something! Woo me, dress in lingerie, wear edible panties, flirt with me instead of berate me all the time! When I’m watching television or in bed, jump on top of me! I don’t fucking care! You’re just so worried about me making the first fucking move so then you just assume the worst when I don’t! ” I retorted with a raised voice.

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“Whatever, Jason,” she replied and I watched as a tear fell from her eye but she turned around quickly back to the dishes in the sink.

I wasn’t done with this conversation, no matter what she would say; even if some of it was vaguely true, she had no proof of it to be accusing me of such things. “Look at our schedules, Faline! I work from 6 at night to 3 in the morning, maybe even longer! That’s 9 or more hours that we’re not together. By the time I get home, I go to sleep and a few hours later, you wake up to go to work. We never see one another besides the hour of dinner time we spend together, feeding us and the boys and Lucy.. This job is hard enough as it is, Faline.. I’m sorry that us not seeing that much of one another is causing you to think that I’m sleeping around, but I’m not! I’m at work! You don’t see me accusing you of anything that stupid, so why is it happening to me?” I kept my voice raised, talking to the back of her head as she furiously washed the dishes. 

I couldn’t keep my voice down if I tried, yelling now, “Have you been reading the newspaper? Is there anything in there about me fucking someone else!?” I watched as her body flinched when I swore at her, “I didn’t fucking think so! I run a goddamn business, I have shitty hours, and I barely get to see my own children let alone you! But, hey, I must be sleeping around through, because you know, I have sooooo much time on my hands to fucking do that!” I finished sarcastically, my hands shaking with rage.

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“What? Now you have nothing to say? No more assumptions jumping around in your brain? Because if that’s not all there is to it, then please, enlighten me on the other amazingly thought out assumptions that you’re accusing me of,” I continued sarcastically, still not hearing anything from Faline but the soft sounds of her sniffling as she weakly washed the dishes. “I’m going to workAt this point, if you have anything else to say, save it, ’cause I never want to talk about this again,” I finally finished, exiting the kitchen and hearing her crying get harder as I got closer to the front door and walked out, slamming the door as hard as I could behind me.

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In the car as I drove to work, I clenched the wheel as roughly as I could, letting go a few times to punch the wheel or the dashboard, anything to help me release this anger. I know I was wrong, I had cheated on her plenty of times with Synthia, but I had never slept with her, ever, and I don’t plan to. If I did, I knew she was the type of person to cling to me, kind of like she already does, but it would be way more intense if I slept with her. She struck me as the type of girl who would ruin my life in order to be with me if we got any more serious. I wiped my forehead, glistening with sweat at the rage I had managed to build up and I loosened my tie a little as I pulled into the parking lot of the bar. I clenched the wheel tightly and leaned forward, resting my forehead against it and taking a few long, deep breathes and my rattled nerves settled after about 5 minutes of just sitting there.

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There was a gentle knock on my driver’s side window and I turned my head slightly to see Miss Chu standing there, looking in at me. “Are you all right?” She asked through the closed window and I sighed heavily, lifting my head from the wheel and rubbing my face. I went to open my door and she stepped back a little, watching me get out and I walked towards the bar without saying anything. “Jas- Mr. Dubois, are you okay? You look.. Stressed,” she said with a somewhat worried tone, trailing behind me at my heels and I refused to say a word.

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I walked through Miss Chu’s office and went to my door, “Jason, can you talk to me? Tell me what’s wrong?” Miss Chu continued to ask, but I still said nothing, walking into my office and shutting the door quietly behind me.

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After I had shut the door, I went to the nearest wall and put my hand up, supporting myself as my entire body continued to shake from the anger I felt. Who was I kidding? I knew deep down that Faline would accuse me of cheating eventually, even if I was able to hide it masterfully or even if I never cheated on her at all, she’d still accuse me since she knew my history. She pretty much said herself that I had probably been cheating on her since college. The first day we actually met, I was sly and flirty, just like I was to every other girl I wanted to get with, yet ever since we moved in together, it’s been the other way around. I don’t go looking for women anymore, they just end up falling straight into my lap without any additional effort on my part. Yeah, I’ve taken up a few offers in the passed, but I couldn’t help myself. I was growing to resent Faline and I felt as if I didn’t need her anymore, despite the twins keeping us together. 

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A few hours passed and I was sitting at my coffee table within the room, consumed with my work when I heard a knock on the door, “Come in,” I called out softly, keeping my head focused on the work in front of me and I glanced up for a second to see Miss Chu poking her head in.

“Jason, there’s someone here to see you.. I think they want a job or something,” she said softly.

“I’m a little busy, but send them in I guess,” I replied with a slightly annoyed tone, putting my eyes back to my work.

I heard Miss Chu again, talking outside of my office as she stood in the door with it half closed, “You’re going to have to make it quick, he’s really busy right now.”

I noticed out of my peripherals another figure walk into the room, keeping my attention more on my work than conducting a simple interview. I took a moment to stop and look up, then back to my paperwork, but.. No.. I had to do a double take, looking back up once more and I felt my body freeze up.

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Bennu stood by the door with Miss Chu, giving me a shy smirk and looking to the ground briefly. I slowly stood from the floor, forgetting how to speak for a few long seconds but I soon snapped out of it, looking to Miss Chu, “Thank you,” I said softly, giving her the ‘go ahead’ to leave but I watched as she stood there for a few more moments, looking Bennu up and down in a resentful manner and I repeated myself a little more harshly this time, “Thank you, Miss Chu..” She looked to me and kept her scowl, slowly shutting the door behind her as she continued to eye Bennu up and down resentfully. The moment the door shut, my eyes went straight to Bennu and I was still in disbelief. She looked incredible, just as perfect as I had last seen her years ago. My heart beat out of my chest and I felt as if it was going to burst out at any moment. My Egyptian beauty in the flesh.“B-Bennu..?”

“Hello, Jazon,” she said quietly in the already silent room, but I heard it as clear as day and my insides melted from hearing her fragile accent after so long of being deprived of it.

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I stepped around the coffee table and walked towards her until she was before me, overjoyed and in complete shock. My hands moved by themselves, unable to resist touching her and they rose up to rest of either side of her neck, observing her face and still unable to believe she was in the same room with me after all the time that’s passed; all this time waiting for her to make some kind of contact with me and she was finally here. I couldn’t help it, in an instant my lips crashed into hers and my entire being felt lighter than air, deepening the kiss without hesitation and I felt her body weaken against mine.

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I didn’t want to let her go, not yet, not after all this time out of pure fear that I’d never see her again if I let go. It took me a good five minutes to drag myself away from her lips, and even then, I still went back for a few loving pecks before it ended completely. “I’ve missed you,” I begin quietly, “I never thought I’d hear from you again,” I continued, planting a few more much needed pecks on her lips. 

“It’s been a long time.. I’m sorry, I can only stay for a little bit.. I need to get back home soon,” she replied.

“Well then come sit on the couch with me, I’ve been wondering how you’ve been,” I answered, letting her go finally but taking her hand and leading her over to the couch.

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“So, how’d you know I’d be here?” I asked first.

“I’ve been looking for work, and it happened to lead me all the way out here. You had mentioned you lived here during one of our visits a long time ago, so I asked around to see if you were still in town. A man told me you owned a bar in town and it lead me here,” she replied, a little smitten that she had sought me out, and even happier that she had found me. Her accent had slightly diminished but I still loved the undertone of it and certain accents on the words she used; it was one of my favorite things about her.

“Oh, yeah.. I had called the club a long time ago and they said you had quit.. Why’d you leave it?” I wondered, raising a brow with my question, genuinely curious as to why she left and why she had never tried to get into contact with me sooner.

Bennu seemed a little discomforted at the question, “That is a discussion for another time,” she replied with a soft smirk, turning her attention away from me briefly.

I decided to change the subject, not wanting to pry, “Where are you living now? Here in the city?”

“Yes, I’m renting a place for the time being, but I’m not sure how long I’ll stay there if I can’t get a job to pay the rent,” she replied with a chuckle, “But I will find work, don’t worry about me.”

“Work here,” I replied without hesitation.

“Jazon.. I don’t know if that would-” She began, but I cut her off.

“You’re perfect for working here.. The drinks, the people, the atmosphere, you know it well. I feel like you’d enjoy working here, plus, you can keep your clothes on. I know I wouldn’t mind seeing your face around more often,” I continued, brushing my fingertips down her cheek a little and tucking a few strands of loose hair behind her ear.

I watched as she shied her eyes away briefly and smiled, “Maybe.. I’ll have to think about it,” she replied.

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“When do you stop working? You should come by tonight so we can catch up more,” she suggested and a burst of excitement flew through me, at ease in her own confirmation that this wasn’t going to be another time where she’d drop off the face of the earth and I’d sulk, wondering for who knows how many more years when I’d ever see her again.

“I actually get out of here every night around 3:00 am,” I replied, watching her expression sadden slightly, but I continued, “Umm.. But, I guess I could try and get out of here around midnight.. Would that work?” I asked, watching her expression turn happy once more.

“Yes, that’s fine.. I live in the Mason Complex, do you know where that is?” She wondered and I nodded, “Just go there and I’m on the 24th floor, first door that you see is my place.”

“Okay, I’ll be there,” I answered, watching Bennu smile and my insides melted every time she did it.

She scooted a little closer to me and put her head on my shoulder, hearing her let out a calmed sigh and I smiled, “It really is good to see you,” she said quietly and I looked down at her, kissing the top of her head and basking in her presence once again.

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Bennu eventually pulled herself up from my shoulder and gave me a sweet smile, “I should get going now,” she said softly, standing slowly to her feet and I joined her, walking her to the door and she turned around before leaving to embrace me, “I’ll see you in a few hours, yes?” She wondered and I smiled, anticipating it more than anything.

“Yeah, I’ll see you later,” I replied, pulling her closer to me and kissing her one last time before she left.

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I took my seat back on the floor about an hour ago and looked down at my work, still not touching it since Bennu had left and I couldn’t get my mind off of her. I glanced at my watch, seeing it was about 10:45 pm and I still had an hour and fifteen minutes to kill before I could leave. I tapped my fingers against my knee, antsy and wanting to just drop everything and go there now, but I didn’t. I listened to the second hand on my wristwatch clicking away and time seemed to be getting slower and slower, so I scooted closer to my work and started back up where I had left off, hoping that my work would distract me from the time and how slow it was going by.

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Around 11:50 pm, I quickly cleaned up my work and shut my lights off, coming out of the room and seeing Miss Chu sitting at her desk. She looked up to me with slight worry in her expression, “Jason, are you okay?” She asked quietly, “Who was that woman that came here earlier? It seemed like you knew her,” she continued and I was already not in the mood for her to be prying into my business.

“Miss Chu, you’re in charge, alright? I’m leaving now, I decided to call it a night. Just make sure you lock up properly and remember to check the place for anyone before closing. Ask one of the guys to help close up with you,” I replied, ignoring her questions and her expression went slightly confused.

“Wait, where are you going? Are you just going home?” She wondered.

“No.. Faline and I got into a fight before I came here, so I’m trusting you to tell her I’m here, but I just don’t want to talk to anyone, and that includes her.. Understand?”

“Well.. Yeah, sure. But what if she comes here?”

“She won’t.. Just tell her that she’ll hear from me when I’m ready to talk to her. She’ll understand and should leave you alone then,” I answered, watching Miss Chu nod in agreement to my request. I pulled my keys out of my front pant pocket and turned around, locking the doors to my office before walking out of Miss Chu’s office and going to my car.

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The moment I stepped out of the club, I picked up my pace and quickly walked to my car, unlocking it and getting in even quicker. The engine roared to life and I pulled out of the parking lot, picking up dust from the gravel and dirt as I stepped on the gas quickly, speeding off towards Bennu’s place. The excitement pulsating through my body gave me a rush, smiling to myself as I continued to try and convince myself that I wasn’t dreaming. I was mind-blown that Bennu was back in my life once more, happiness seeping out of every pore I had and I couldn’t wipe the shit eating grin off my face if I tried. 

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I got to Bennu’s building in record time and jumped out of the car after parking sloppily in the lot, walking quickly towards the door and into the main lobby. I noticed on the call box that there wasn’t any kind of code you needed to punch in, then looking over to the elevator and pushing the ‘up’ button. The elevator came down and opened, happy that I didn’t need to use the call box this late, yet annoyed a little that this building didn’t have better security; anyone could just walk into the elevator and go to any floor they wanted.. Knowing that made me a little uneasy and worried for Bennu, but there wasn’t really anything I could do about it now, so I stepped into the elevator before the doors shut and rode it up to the 24th floor. While riding the elevator up, I checked my reflection on the steel wall, combing at my hair to settle certain strands and even checking my teeth. The elevator stopped and opened, seeing a white door before I even exited and I assumed it was Bennu’s place from what she had told me. I took a deep breath in and let it out slowly, stepping out and up to the white door, raising my balled fist and gently knocking.

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I waited about 20 seconds, not hearing anything behind the door and I decided to knock again, but a little louder this time and I eventually heard rustling behind the door. The door opened slowly and I smiled warmly when I saw Bennu who gave me the same smile in return, opening her door more to let me in and I obliged. The door shut behind me and I looked to Bennu, her eyes were tired and I started to feel bad, “I woke you, didn’t I? I’m sorry..” I began, taking her hand within mine and watching her smile lightly.

“No, iss fine.. I only dozed off for a moment, I’m glad you woke me,” she replied, stepping up closer to me and wrapping her arms around me as I did the same to her. I bowed my head lower and kissed her lips softly, savoring it for a few moments before I felt her beginning to push me off of her.

I pulled my lips from hers and gave a questioning expression, “What’s wrong..?” I asked, studying her face a little more and she seemed to grow nervous about something, “Bennu, what is it?”

“You.. You wanted to know why I left the club, right?” She asked, her expression beginning to worry me a little as she looked extremely nervous now.

“Um, yeah, I did.. But you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.. That’s fine,” I tried to comfort.

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“No.. You should know.. Come with me for a moment,” she replied, looking up to me and giving a forced smirk, then turning around and beginning to walk down the hallway and I followed her without question. She really was worrying me now, her expression seemed as if she was ashamed of something, fearing that whatever it is she had to tell me was going to make me resent her or drive me away. I watched as she stopped at the end of the hall, opening a white door to another room and walking in. I caught up to her and took a deep breath before entering as well, not sure of what I was supposed to be ready for, but when I looked in, a warm tingling sensation filled my insides.

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I cautiously stepped into the room, keeping my footsteps hushed as I walked passed Bennu and towards the crib within the room. I peaked into the crib and a little girl lie on her back, sleeping soundly and a light smirk ran over my lips. She looked so much like Bennu, it made me happy for her. But, what happened to the dad? Judging by how we act around one another told me that she wasn’t with anyone at the moment and she wasn’t the cheating or home-wrecker type, either; had I told her about Faline and the boys and Lucy earlier, I doubt she would’ve talked to me, or stayed in my office, or kissed me for as long as she did. I could never imagine even thinking about leaving Bennu, so what idiot would? 

“Her name is Bahiti,” Bennu voiced softly behind me.

I stepped away from the crib and took a few steps towards Bennu, the tiniest smile on my lips, “She’s perfect, Bennu,” I said just above a whisper, trying not to wake the sleeping beauty. I watched as Bennu motioned with her hand for me to follow her back out of the room and I did, looking over my shoulder and back to the little girl sleeping in the crib, another smile forming on my lips before I shut the door.

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We stood in the hallway, Bennu speaking up first, “She is why I quit the club, I couldn’t be a pregnant stripper.. I didn’t want her to grow up having a stripper for a mother, either, so I’ve put it all behind me. I enjoyed it, and the money was outstanding, but I couldn’t do it anymore,” she said quietly.

“Why didn’t you ever call me? I’ve told you so many times that you should if you ever need any kind of help..”

“No, I am no freeloader, holding Bahiti with a sad face and sticking my hand out palm up? No.. I got by just fine without help,” she replied. She seemed so strong and independent out of nowhere, guessing that having Bahiti and raising her by herself really did make her a stronger person; I loved it, yet I was still a little disappointed that she had never called me.

“I’m not trying to be rude, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, but, do you know, um..” I hesitated, wondering how else I could word this question without her getting offended.

“Yes, I know who he is.. That’s what you were going to ask, yes?” She answered before I could finish my question, my nerves stabbing my insides like pin needles into a cushion.

“Can I ask why he left?” I wondered.

“He didn’t.. I did,” she replied, looking to the floor for a moment and back up to my face.

“Did he hurt you at all?” I asked my next question, needing to know if he had ever done anything to her physically so I could track him down and kill him myself.

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“No, never.. Not once,” she said with a smile and I nodded as I let out a relieved sigh. “I’ve known him for a long time, he was always so sweet to me. I don’t know why I left him.. He never even knew about Bahiti, I just packed up and left, because I was scared about what he would say. I was sure that he would want nothing to do with a child, one that wasn’t even planned. I never really took him or what he said seriously, he was a college student just looking for some fun every now and again, so I convinced myself that keeping her a secret would be better in the end. But, I’ve actually grown to miss him, quite a lot, too, and I often wondered if I had done the right thing or not,” my heart started to beat a little quicker; I couldn’t tell if she was talking about me or if she was actually talking about someone else and what I was feeling was simply immense jealousy. Before I could say anything, Bennu continued, “He’s about 6’2″, this brown hair that was always so easy to run my fingers through, and these piercing blue eyes that no one could ever ignore,” she finished with a warm smile, looking at me with intense eyes.

“Bennu.. I-I don’t know what to make of this,” I replied softly, unsure of what to say to her.

“I’m so sorry for hiding her from you, I really am,” she apologized, her voice getting weaker and I could tell I was about to see tears fall from her eyes.. But.. Wait, she kept her from me? 

“W-What?”

“Bahiti is yours, Jazon, I’m positive,” she added, my jaw dropping a little at the confirmation she gave to my scattered mind; everything suddenly made so much sense. She had told me the truth after all, she never slept with anyone else at the club but me and quit after she realized she was pregnant; I couldn’t even put into words how shocked and happy I was.

“Umm.. W-When do I get to meet her?” I wondered, a smile I couldn’t contain engulfed my lips as I looked at her.

“Tomorrow morning, if you would like to,” she hinted, noticing the faint lust in her eyes as she looked straight at me.

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I instantly put my hand behind her head and brought her lips hard into mine, kissing her roughly and hearing her light moans drove me even more. I reached down to the back of her thighs and hoisted her up, holding her tightly as I pushed her against the wall and continuing our passionate kiss. I felt her legs wrap around me over my hips, helping me keep her body up and I ran one of my hands under her nightgown, holding her bottom and right thigh up and pushing my pelvis against hers roughly. She somehow managed to pry my lips from hers and spoke quietly, “My room’s behind you,” she commanded and I kissed her again, supporting her weight fully as I turned us around and opened the door to her room.

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I walked in with her and shut the door with my foot, searching with my legs for the feeling of a bed and my shins hit a baseboard within seconds, sliding my hands up her body as I set her down while simultaneously pulling her nightgown off and over her head. I took a quick moment to catch my breath as I stared down at her, mouth open and heavy breathing as I watched her grip the bottom of my sweater and quickly removing it. She began undoing the buttons to my shirt at the bottom while I assisted with the top ones, the shirt coming off faster and I quickly crawled over her, continuing the kiss as I ran my hand over her pantie line and down her thigh.

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Bennu undid my belt and pants during our kiss, pushing them down and I sat up momentarily to remove everything completely. I crawled back on top of her and pulled her animal print panties off in less than a second and wasted no time climbing back on top of her and her legs caressed my torso on either side, begging for the feel of me and I didn’t dare waste anymore time. She let out a large gasp of air when I had finally given her what we both wanted in the end and I took my time, kissing her lips more and savoring each unique individual taste of them. This.. This is what I needed in my life; Bennu. I had never noticed it before now, it was always so foreign to me, but being with her now, and especially after the news she had given me.. She was finally the mother of one of my children. This is the most excited I’ve been, even after hearing that from two other women. Bennu’s confession of having my child was already my favorite, just because she was my favorite. I.. I loved her, so, so much.

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After about an hour of bliss, we finally called it quits to our immense fun and both crawled underneath her covers. I pulled her close to me, flesh against pure flesh and I relaxed completely at the warmth she emanated, kissing the back of her shoulders and neck until she fell asleep to my gentle and calming touch against her. I loved feeling her heartbeat and quickened breathes against my chest and over my hand and arm that held her close; I couldn’t describe how happy I was at this very moment. So this is what love is..

Generation 2, Chapter 12

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It’s been a few years since Detective Grander was here with his wife; Janelle came by about three times within the first year of me getting Lucy and she eventually granted me complete custody. Lucy is 8 now and the twins just turned 4, Faline had graduated and was already doing great at her job; she was a lad assistant and working her way up quickly. I opened a bar in town a while ago and it was doing really well, there were always people there no matter what day of the week and it was a nice little getaway whenever the kids or Faline would be a little too much to handle; not that I didn’t love seeing them and spending time with them, but everyone needs alone time every now and then, and running the bar was perfect for that.

I feel like I’ve changed so much, I feel good, better than I’ve been even despite living with Faline. Ever since she came home from college after she graduated and got this job, she’s been a little more arrogant than I’m used to. She’s always had strong opinions and she tells me what she thinks and whenever anything is wrong, yet she berates me a little more in the process.

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“Your haircut looks really nice, it’s better than what you had at least.. It looks more like you’re the boss instead of just an employee,” Faline says softly with a chuckle following it.

“Yeah, I’m glad I got it. I think I’m going to keep the scruff though,” I replied, turning around to face her taking a bath in the tub. She was still so beautiful, I still loved her bright emerald eyes mixed with her bright red hair.

“You’d look even better without it, but whatever,” she answered and I gave a slight grimace, “What? I’m just saying you’d look more professional and they might take you more seriously.”

“I think that they respect me enough.. They haven’t treated me in a way that’s anything less than their superior, so it’s fine,” I retorted.

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“Why don’t you get better dress shoes?” She questioned next.

“What’s wrong with these?” I wondered, beginning to get a little irritated and wanting leave so I could go to the bar a little earlier than usual..

“Those are so old, they look so plain, too.. You should get new ones.”

“I like these.. They’re comfortable and I don’t have to worry about scuffing them. They look nice enough.. I run a bar, Faline, it’s not like I’m running a five star restaurant,” I replied with a short tone.

“..Still..” She continued to persist and I rolled my eyes gently without her noticing. “Have you fired that secretary yet?” She asked next, throwing me off completely.

“What? No, why would I? She’s perfectly qualified, that’s why I hired her,” I replied in a slightly defensive manner.

“Jason, she’s what, 20? 21? The most she would have is a high school diploma. Not to mention she dresses slutty, always wearing those stupid tights,” Faline continued, but I couldn’t tell if the girl herself actually bothered Faline or if she was slightly jealous.

“Faline, I’m 27 with a girlfriend and 3 kids to look after, I doubt she would ever try anything,” I attempted to comfort.

“Oh please.. She’s not the one I’m worried about,” she said with a blunt tone, glancing up at me and I stared at her as my anger grew.

“I’m gunna go now, I’ll see you later,” I said, turning and leaving the bathroom before she could say anything else.

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I walked to the boys room and heard struggling from Gibson behind the door, stepping in quickly and seeing what was wrong. Gareth was chasing Gibson around the room making dinosaur noises and scaring him, and although I wanted to scold him for being mean to his twin brother, I couldn’t help but smile at the both of them. They were the best part of my life, my real sons, something that I’ve made; I’d do anything in the world for them.

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“Rawwrrr rarrr!” Gareth called out at he chased Gibson.

“Gareth, quit it! I said I give up! Stooppppp!” Gibson cried out as Gareth chased him.

They both brought so much joy to my life. They got their blonde hair from my mother and I loved looking at them. Gareth got my fathers eyes and he was still the little firecracker I knew him to be since he was a baby, still so fussy and now he’s become rambunctious and almost a little evil towards his brother constantly. Gibson got Faline’s beautiful emerald eyes and her sweet and innocent mannerisms, always becoming a target for Gareth and he loved to pick on Gibson. 

Gibson noticed me as he ran from Gareth, “Daddy! Make him stop! Make him stopppp!” He whined and I chuckled, running up behind Gareth and assisting Gibson.

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“Hey, hey, hey,” I voiced towards Gareth as I picked him up into my arms, “Stop picking on him, how many times have I told you that, huh?” I questioned.

“I just wanted to play, and, and he has to be such.. Such a baby about it!” He contested and I gave him a slightly warning expression.

“I’ve told you before that he doesn’t like how you play, you need to be more nice and be gentle with your brother, alright?”

“But I’m a dinosaur! H-He needs to capture me! I broke loose!” He continued to argue.

I brought him over to the playpen and put him into it, “I know, but stop when he asks you to, okay? He doesn’t like to play the way you do.. Find something else you can both do without scaring him, please,” I requested, kissing his forehead and he ignored me as he sat in the playpen, knowing that this was his ‘time out’.

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I walked over to Gibson after putting Gareth in the playpen and picked him up, feeling him wrap his tiny arms around my neck quickly and he sobbed gently on my shoulder, “I told him to stop! I told him..” He began and I smirked, holding him tightly and rubbing his back.

“I knowww, I know.. It’s okay, stop your tears, huh? He’s not chasing you anymore,” I tried to settle him down as he hugged me. “Don’t let him get to you.. He’s just trying to have fun and doesn’t know when to stop.”

“B-But I told him! He.. He shoud’ve-”

“Shhh shh sshhhh, stooooppp, you’re fine,” I continued to comfort, a smile forming on my lips as I continued to rub his back and calm him down.

“Baby!” Gareth voiced from the playpen and I looked to him.

“Knock it off,” I said with a short tone and he pouted, then turned away from us and I brought Gibson to the other side of the room.

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I set Gibson down and tousled his hair, waiting for him to smile and he soon did when he had finally calmed down. “I’m going to work now, alright? You two be good for Mommy and your sister and no more fighting, understand?” I said sternly, looking over my shoulder towards Gareth and my words were mostly for him since Gibson didn’t act out as much as he did.

Gibson smiled and nodded, “Okay, bye Daddy,” he said with an excited tone.

I stood slowly and smirked towards Gibson, then looked over to Gareth as I made my way to the door, “You stay in there until Mommy lets you out,” I say with warning and Gareth ignores me, acting like he didn’t hear me and I sighed as I left the room and shut the door behind me.

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I walked downstairs and noticed Lucy sitting on the couch by herself, fiddling with her thumbs and it seemed like she was thinking. It’s been a rough journey for us these past few years after Lana died, but somehow we managed to get through it together. Faline tried to help all that she could, but it was only me that could ever comfort Lucy whenever she would throw a fit yelling for her mother or just acting out in general because she wanted to see her, but as she grew older, she was able to understand it better and better, and Lana doesn’t seem to cross her mind too much anymore. It was a little harder for me, considering every single time I looked at Lucy, I couldn’t help but see Lana in her as well; even with her being gone, she’ll still always haunt me.

Lucy looked up to me when she heard me coming down and she quickly stood up with a smile on her lips; she definitely was waiting for me. “Hey, princess,” I said with a warm smile.

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“Hey, Daddy!” She said happily and made her way hastily over to me, “Um, I have a question,” she said with a gentle nerve in her tone.

“Oh yeah? What is it, baby girl?” I asked, keeping my smile as I looked down to the only girl in my life that I could truly say that I loved.

“Um.. Well, I know it’s a school day, but Cara needs help with her homework and she wants me to come over to help. It might take us a while, so I was wondering if I could just sleep over? We won’t stay up late at all, I promise!” She asked and almost begged. Cara was Lucy’s best friend since she had first entered school a few years ago, Cara also helped more than she even knew with helping Lucy get her mind off of Lana. I thought for a moment and Lucy watched me and waited impatiently for my answer.

“Did you ask Faline?” I wondered.

“Yeah, but she said no because I have school tomorrow, but I already said we’d get to bed on time and we’d get all of our homework done! It’ll be fine, I swear,” she replied, her tone beginning to get a little winy.

“Promise me you’ll call me before you go to bed, and you’d better have all the homework done, no going there just to fool around and what not,” I answered and I watched her nod quickly to my request with a smile.

“Yeah, I promise! Please, Daddy?”

“Alright, fine.. Go pack an overnight bag and I’ll drop you off on my way to work, okay?” I finally agreed and her smile grew even wider, squealing a little to my answer and I let out a gentle chuckle.

“Yay! Thank you, thank you!” She replied and ran passed me and upstairs to her room.

“I’ll be in the car!” I called up to her and I wasn’t sure if she heard me or not, but I continued on and went outside.

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As I drove Lucy to her friends place, listening to her talk about her and Cara, the city, the stars, all I could think about was Faline. I had never gotten around to asking her if she ever wanted to get married, it just never came to mind ever since that one night I found out about Lana. She’s changed a little, and I don’t even think I loved her in the first place, it was just this.. This weird feeling I was having that I can’t describe, but I can’t label it love. Maybe I just cared for her more knowing she was carrying my boys, she was the mother of my children, but there weren’t any other feelings for her besides that. Butterflies in my stomach and weak knees and legs didn’t happen that much anymore, only occasionally; pretty much only when we were intimate, but even that seemed forced sometimes instead of us lusting after one another. There wasn’t really that spark anymore, at least not for me. I still found her extremely attractive, our relationship, however, had turned into this awkward friendship with benefits to me. I can’t even figure out what we are anymore.. Maybe that’s why I still haven’t asked how she felt about getting married, it just never seemed right. One thing I did know though was that she didn’t use me for anything like Lana had. Faline had her own job, benefits, a great paycheck every two weeks, she had no reason to take anything from me, yet she stayed in the house for the boys. I didn’t want to go through the hassle of what I went through with Lana; driving back and forth to pick up and drop off Lucy, it was always such a pain. But, unlike with Lana, Faline and I were on good terms, there’d just be no point in her moving out, even if we don’t love one another. I want us to stay together for Gareth and Gibson’s sake.

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After dropping Lucy off at her friends, I drove to the bar and there were only a few cars in the lot. It was a little after 7:00 pm and we had just opened, so people wouldn’t get here for a little while still; most of the people I knew that came here to drink and party often came later, the bar was usually always this dead when it opened every night.

“Hey, Mr. Dubois!” A voice I recognized called over to me from across the room and I looked to the bartender behind the bar and I gave a gentle wave as I walked towards my office.

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I need to go through my secretary’s office in order to get to mine and when I walked in, she started talking before I even shut the door, “Hey, Mr. Dubois, I was going over sales and I noticed that ever since you added the outdoor bar and deck, the income has gone up by 15%, at this rate it should even go up 25-30% by the end of this month. That’s really exciting!” She said happily and looked up from her computer to me. “Whoa, big shot walkin’ in with a nice new haircut.. You look hot,” she said with a devious smile and I chuckled.

“Miss Chu, may I see you in my office for a moment?” I asked, continuing on and walking towards my door.

“Ooooh, of course, Mr. Dubois,” she said softly with a hint of excitement. 

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She followed me into my office and shut the door behind her, locking it quietly as if trying to hide it even though I heard her do it. I walked over to my desk and she began first again, “How are the boys doing?” She wondered, a smirk going over my lips as I pulled out my chair and took a seat in front of my computer.

“They’re doing great, thank you Miss Chu,” I replied and I heard her let out a bored sigh.

“For the billionth time, you can call me Synthia, it’s really not that big of a deal,” she pressured.

“A first name basis is better left alone, I don’t want to get used to it and have Faline stop by or whatever and hear me call you that, she’ll think there’s something going on,” I replied.

She let out a giggle, “Like there isn’t anything going on?” She said somewhat sarcastically and I looked up to her briefly.

“No, there isn’t.. Now, would you please..?” I asked, motioning with my hand for her to take a seat and she smiled as she rolled her eyes, walking over to a chair then and sitting like I had asked.

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“If you had to get rid of someone, who would you pick?” I asked first.

Miss Chu didn’t know what to say at first, somewhat put off by the question, “Um.. I didn’t know you were planning on getting rid of someone, so I haven’t really thought about it..”

“Who’s the first one to come to your mind, then?”

She hesitated for a moment before continuing, “Well.. There’s always Larry, he’s kind of a dick to the male customers and favors the girls, whereas the others don’t do that. I’ve been getting complaints about him actually from customers and other employees,” she hesitated once again, “He has kids though and a wife.. Him being a convicted felon, too, would make it hard for him to find any other job. You were the only one to cut him some slack.”

I thought for a moment, “True.. Have we warned him at all about his behavior? I don’t recall.”

“No, I don’t think so..”

“Well, talk to him about it tonight, I guess that’ll be his first warning.. Who else can you think of?”

“I’m sorry, Jason, I just don’t really see the point in getting rid of someone when profits are obviously increasing.. You just hired someone, too, for the outside bar, why would you get rid of someone?” She wondered.

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“Do you like working here?” I asked her next, watching as her expression grew a little offended.

“Of course I do.. Wait, are you firing me?” She asked quickly.

“No, no, I’m not firing you..”

“Then what the hell is this about?” She asked, and by my lack of response, she continued, “This is about Faline, isn’t it? She still wants you to get rid of me, huh? What the hell is up her ass?”

“Miss Chu..” I said with a slightly angered tone, “Please don’t get upset, I’m not firing you,” I continued to try and keep her calm.

“Then what the fuck is her problem with me, huh?”

“I don’t appreciate the tone, and if anything, you should take all of this as a compliment,” I replied with a gentle smirk. She looked at me as if she was confused at what I was trying to say, so I continued, “She doesn’t like you working under me because she thinks you’re too pretty to be my secretary, she pictures a woman in her 50’s wearing glasses with wrinkles and a raspy voice that doesn’t like to come into my office as often as she pleases.. Like you do. Locking the door is never a good idea, either, especially when you’re not out there.. Where else would you be?” I pointed out. 

Her expression grew less irritated and she looked at me with wanting eyes, her lips curling into a soft smirk, “Well, I’d be more than happy to work on you than under you, if you think that would be better,” she hinted as I watched her bite in the inside of her bottom lip.

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“Yeah, maybe you’re right,” I replied, raising one of my brows slightly. 

I watched as she slowly stood to her feet, keeping her sultry eyes on mine as she took her time walking around my desk, her index finger dragging softly over the glass surface that lay over the wood. My eyes trailed down her body as she moved closer to me and I couldn’t stop looking at her legs once they came into view, darkened and smooth from the thigh high stockings I knew she always wore.

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My heart started to race a little as she grew closer, her hand going to the back of my chair and swiveling me around to face her. “You seem a little stressed out, sir.. You don’t mind me helping you loosen up a bit, do you?” She asked, parting my legs with hers and she placed her hands upon the armrests of the chair, leaning down and she planted a few light pecks on my jawline and neck.

“Not at all,” I replied between breathes. I watched her hands lift from the armrests and she traced her fingers along the brim of my pants, beginning then to undo my belt, button and zipper.

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She separated her lips from my neck and I watched as she bent down, going onto her knees and she untucked my shirt a little, pulling down the front of my pants gently and pulling all of me out from underneath. I felt her mouth consume me and I let out a soft gasp of air, shutting my eyes and leaning back in my chair as she started out slow. Synthia didn’t get this job solely on her looks and what she could do perfectly with her mouth, it was only after I hired her off of her experience that I realized her full potential and generosity, and although Faline didn’t like her, I didn’t care. I felt awful when I cheated on her at college with Bennu, but something had changed with Faline and I over the years, and the more I thought about it, the less I regretted seeing Bennu. I felt the slightest bit of guilt, yes, but everyone has needs, and Faline wasn’t doing it for me. I loved the thrill with Synthia, just as I did with Bennu the night I had gotten back to my last year of college. Ever since Bennu had left me with nothing, no explanation, no note, no phone call, I felt a slight emptiness in me, something that was gone and I needed to fill it with something else; Sythia’s mouth was a pretty good example.

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The more she did the closer I got, her pace quickening and she eventually brought in the help of her hand to get me more excited. I sat up, putting my hands to the back of her head and assisting her even more, pushing her head and pulling her hair accordingly, letting out soft moans and not wanting her to stop even despite my body refusing me to hold out any longer. Her pace quickened even more and I felt my body light on fire, the sensation flowing through me and I let out one more gasp of air as she sucked the life out of me.

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I leaned back once again and panted softly through my parted lips, watching Synthia release me and smile devilishly as she stood to her feet and I put myself back into my pants. I secured them as I watched her walk towards the door and she turned to face me as she opened it, “Yes, Mr. Dubois, I’ll get those papers to you right away,” she teased and faked to anyone who may be in her office waiting for her. I smirked softly as she shut the door behind her and I shook my head, standing and fixing my pants the exact way I had left them when I left the house. I opened a drawer to my desk and pulled out a tiny bottle of cologne, spritzing myself a few times and trying to cover anything that might cause suspicion. I sat down in my chair again, sitting there and relaxing before starting any of my work.

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Synthia and I weren’t anything special, I didn’t love her or have a sweet spot for her or anything like that, we just simply loved to fool around. Synthia and Faline hated one another, I’m sure doing things with me behind Faline’s back only made her more willing to do them just to get at Faline; even if she didn’t know about it, I could tell it gave Synthia this sense of satisfaction and power. Though after Bennu, I haven’t slept with anyone else besides Faline, there just wasn’t anyone else besides those two that I found as interesting or worthy. But, Faline was right to be worried about me, Synthia had this attraction about her that I couldn’t resist. Maybe I just never lost my old habits back when I started college. Maybe it was even deeper than that, but I was in no mood to acknowledge it.

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I was in my office for a while doing work on the computer and paperwork, hearing the music faintly coming through the walls and looked to the time on my computer; it was almost ten and I still hadn’t heard from Lucy. It didn’t worry me, I was sure that she was safe at Cara’s, but maybe she just forgot and went to bed? Either way, I didn’t like that she didn’t call me. I decide to call Cara’s mother before it gets too late and I end up sitting here until closing still waiting for Lucy to call.

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I stood up to stretch my legs from sitting at the computer for so long, pulling out my cell from my pocket and I looked through my contacts as I paced around the room. I found Cara’s mother and called her, listening to it ring a few times before she finally answered.

Hello?

“Hi, Mrs. Jones?” I replied; I always felt as if I needed to address her like that because she was a little older than me, though she called me by my first name all the time.

Oh, Jason.. How are you?” She wondered, her tone sounding a little happy to hear from me and I was surprised that she recognized my voice so easily.

“I’m good, I’m good.. I’m just sitting here at work, but I had asked Lucy to call me before she went to bed and she didn’t, are the girls sleeping already?” I asked.

Yeah, they fell asleep about half an hour ago.. I’m sorry, had I known she was supposed to call, I would’ve made her do so.

“Oh no, it’s fine.. It’s not your fault, I’m not mad. Just checking in is all,” I reassured her.

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There was a short silence that went over the phone, but I quickly thought of something to say, “I’m sorry, how are you? I just noticed I didn’t ask like you had, I feel like a jerk now,” I said with a slightly nervous chuckle.

No no, it’s fine, I’m doing okay.. Doug is on a business trip for a few days; with him gone and Cara at school or over at a friend’s house all the time, it gets a little quiet around here..” She replied, referring to her husband and her tone having a hint of sadness. 

“Ahh, well you’re lucky that it’s quiet. Enjoy it.. My house is far from that, I almost look forward to coming to work sometimes,” I retorted, hearing her giggle over the phone made my lips smile slightly.

Of course, the twins.. Last time I saw them they were just beginning to talk, they must be chatting up a storm by now.. How are those little ones?” She wondered and my smile grew wider as I thought of them.

“They’re wonderful, thanks for asking.. They seem inseparable, yet they fight all the time.. I don’t know what’s going on with them,” I replied and we both let out simultaneous soft laughter.

Well, that’s great, I’m glad they’re doing well..” There was another short silence over the phone, but she broke the silence this time, “If you get done early enough, you should stop by for a glass of wine,” she offered, raising my brow in slight surprise as I paced more around the room.

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“Um..” I let out softly, hesitating a few short moments as I contemplated my answer, “You know, I’m not going to getting out of here any time soon, I’m here until 3:00 am actually,” I said with a gentle chuckle.

Oh come on.. You’re the boss, right? Don’t you make the hours?” She teased. As sexy as I thought she was, and this being the first opportunity she’s presented to me, there was no way I’d go over there, especially with Lucy there having a sleepover with her best friend; what if Cara or Lucy woke up like they sometimes do for a glass of water and saw me there with her? What if Doug came home early? No, no way, it was way too risky.

“Nah, sorry, Mrs. Jones.. As tempting as it sounds, I’ll have to decline. I still have a lot of work to do here, and the employees are looking forward to getting their hours in. I’d hate to cut them short, so..” I finally replied, hearing a dainty sigh on the other line.

Well, alright.. Rain check, then?” She offered an alternative, and as much as I wanted to drop everything and go over there, I sighed softly in defeat as well.

“Yeah, we’ll see.. Would you mind telling Lucy to call me before she goes to school tomorrow morning?” I asked, trying to change the subject before she could coax me anymore.

Of course, Jason.. Let me know when you wanna take me up on that offer, okay?” She said with a sensual tone that made me regret turning her down even more.

“Yeah, I will.. Have a good night,” I replied, hearing her say the same thing in return and I hung up. I looked to my phone and read the time, it was almost 10:30 pm now and I still had a lot more work to do before I went home for the night.

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The night went by faster than I had expected it to, looking to the corner of my screen and seeing it was 3:15 am; I wondered if I was the last person there. I shut the lights off to my office and went back to the computer to make a few last minute adjustments, then shut that off as well. I made my way out and looked to Miss Chu’s desk as I shut the door, noticing she was still here for some reason. “Why haven’t you gone home yet?” I asked.

“I felt like waiting for you,” she replied with a soft smile and I looked around her office briefly before going back to her.

“Did you talk to Larry like I asked before?”

“Yeah, I gave him a warning, he said it wouldn’t happen again, but we’ll see I guess..” She answered with a shrug.

“Good.. Is anyone else here or did everyone leave?”

“No one here but us, babe,” she replied with a giggle as her eyes danced over me.

“Don’t call me that, it’s weird,” I said with a short tone.

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“Aww, is someone grumpy?” She teased and my annoyed expression didn’t change.

“You look tired, you should go home and get some sleep,” I retorted with a bland tone. She only waited for me on occasion, but those were the nights she would always try to get me to come home with her.

“Oh, I’m not tired yet..” She answered with a devious grin, “Besides, I got dropped off, I need a ride home.. Would you mind?” She asked, sighing to myself.

“You didn’t ask them to pick you back up when you got off?”

“Well, no, because I haven’t yet,” she said with another lustrous look.

“Call a cab,” I suggested with a harsh tone and her smile faded.

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Miss Chu stood to her feet and my eyes couldn’t help but travel over her as she approached me, “Pleeeeaase?” She persisted, putting her arm around me and bringing her right hand to the side of my face. As much as I’ve tried to turn her down before, she always knew how to coax me into doing what she wanted; well, minor things.. She pressed her body against me and I could feel the stockings on her legs tracing over the fabric of my pants, glancing down at her legs and I watched then as her smile returned, “Don’t you want to take those off with your teeth again? I love it when you do that,” she spoke just above a whisper, making my body respond with a soft quiver at the thought of it. But, I wanted to get home, I was tired, I wanted to see the twins and tell them goodnight even if they were asleep, and I wanted Miss Chu to stop pressuring me.

“Fine, I’ll give you a ride home, but that’s it. Now go wait by the car as I close up,” I finally agreed and she smiled more, letting out an excited giggle as I gripped her bottom and pushed her towards the door. 

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I turned off all the lights and locked the doors, seeing Miss Chu closer to the deck and not by the car like I had told her. I walked up to her and she waited until I had passed her to wrap her arms around the front of my neck playfully, giggling as she did so and I tried to get her free from me. “Come on, get off.. What is someone were to see?” I asked, finally able to loosen her grip and she let go and trailed behind me at my heels.

“What? I’m just having fun.. It’s not like we’re screwing on the pavement,” she retorted and I sighed heavily.

“First of all, we’d never do that here, let alone anywhere else, and second, shut up and keep your voice down,” I replied harshly.

“Jeez, you really are grumpy tonight.. What’s wrong?” She asked as we reached the car and both got in.

I started the engine and pulled out of the parking lot, “Nothing, I just wish you’d be more discreet.. I have a lot more to lose than you do,” I said softly with a hint of worry, but I don’t think she caught on to it.

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After dropping off Miss Chu and turning her down at least five times in going up to her place, I managed to get home a little before 4:00 am. I locked the outside gate and the house, looking around the foyer and leaving one light on by the door. I looked upstairs to the second floor and it seemed like the darkest part of the house, giving me slight chills as I walked up. I went to Gareth and Gibson’s room, opening the door as quietly as I could and I peaked in, not seeing Gibson in his crib and my eyebrow raised in curiosity, stepping in more and going to Gareth’s crib then.

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As I walked over to Gareth’s crib, I adored the sight that came before me; Gibson was with him in his crib, sleeping soundly with one another and I couldn’t hold back the sudden smile on my lips, even if my life depended on it. It was always so foreign to see them so calm, let alone sleeping together; I wonder what happened while I was gone for them to want to do that..? As I looked down at them, nothing else was on my mind, and nothing in the world could take away the happiness I felt at this moment. I reached down and brushed Gareth’s hair out of his eyes and he let out an unconscious moan, seemingly irritated that I was touching him and I hummed a quiet chuckle. I did the same to Gibson then, brushing the hair from his eyes as well and cupping his small head into my palm. I traced my thumb over his cheek and he turned his head more, seemingly enjoying the warmth of my hand against his face and I let out a loving sigh. After a few moments of bliss, I slowly pulled my hand away from Gibson and watched as he turned his head back towards Gareth for the warmth that was just taken away from him. I grabbed one of their blankets and covered them, tucking them in on their sides and quietly leaving the room without waking them.

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I walked away from their room and loosened my tie, taking a deep breath in and sighing heavily as I made my way into my bedroom. I tossed my tie on top of the dresser and unbuttoned my shirt, throwing it aimlessly within the room. Faline was sleeping over the covers wearing a pair of white panties and a matching white bra, my eyes traveling from her shoulders slowly down to her feet, admiring her body as she laid. 

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I quietly walked over to the bed and undo my belt along with my pants in the process, pulling them down and sitting on the bed. I removed my shoes and socks and pulled each pant leg off slowly, slumping over from exhaustion and I sat there for a moment as I relaxed. I brought my hand up to the bridge of my nose and I rubbed the inner corner of my eyes with my index finger and thumb, helping myself relax more and Faline shifted gently behind me.

“How was work?” She spoke quietly, woken up by my presence.

“Fine, busy.. How were the boys tonight?” I asked in return.

“At each others throats, but they got better and then wanted to sleep together, so I let them,” she replied with the same quiet tone, still half asleep.

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I leaned back and laid on the bed, facing Faline’s back and pressing the front of my body against her warm skin. My arm wrapped around her torso and she lifted her head slightly to let my other arm be her new pillow, feeling her scoot her body even closer to me. I inhaled deeply, breathing in the scent of her hair and I relaxed completely, happy to be home after this long night. As much as I loved my college days and seeing my bed full of different woman every week, I had to admit that it was nice to always have someone there waiting for me, and not just any someone; knowing I’d never be alone was a great feeling. Faline’s scent had become all too familiar to me and I felt as if I wouldn’t be able to sleep without her there to hold on to. I lifted my head for a moment and kissed her shoulder a few times, “Are you still awake?” I wondered, listening to her heavy breathing with no response. I let out a soft sigh, kissing her shoulder once more before laying my head back down and slowly drifting off to sleep.

Generation 2, Chapter 11

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I got up and showered, my mind and body awake and ready for the day ahead of me. I woke up today feeling refreshed, relaxed, and content, something I was normally never used to. I don’t remember going to bed last night, I woke up in my clothes from yesterday and that didn’t really seem normal for me, considering I only woke up in my clothes from the night before when I was at college and too drunk off my ass to care to change before bed. I remembered putting the boys to bed, going into my room after I had called the club with the intent to talk to Bennu, but she wasn’t there. I remember being on the computer and also Lana calling me, but I couldn’t remember what we had talked about.. Sometimes, though a little rare, she would call me and let me say goodnight to Lucy, but only because Lucy would make her. Did Lana call because Lucy wanted to talk to me? Did I tell her goodnight? I don’t know why I couldn’t focus enough to remember though.. I held Gareth in the rocking chair, trying to get him to sleep for his nap like Gibson was, but he was being fussy as usual. 

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I stood from the rocking chair and walked over to his crib, looking to Gareth and he was still pretty awake and deciding against putting him in his crib since I knew he would only cry the moment I put him down. I heard the doorbell ring and I wondered who it could be; everyone I knew that was close to me knew the combination to the gate and could get in, so it had to be someone trying to sell something.. I sighed and looked to Gareth again, “Wanna see who’s at the door with me?” I asked and Gareth wiggled in my arms, “I’ll fix you a bottle while we’re downstairs too, maybe that will get you to sleep, huh?” I coaxed and walked towards the door, exiting out and going downstairs.

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The bell rang once more and I was growing just as impatient as they were, “Alrighttttt, alright..” I said out loud, getting to the intercom and pressing the button to talk, “Sorry, whatever you’re selling I’m not interested,” I say into the panel, then holding down the listening button.

“Oh, I’m not selling anything, Mr. Duboys.. My name is Reed Grander, I’m a detective at the Bridgeport Police Department. Do you mind if I come in and ask you a few questions?” The man asked and I grew confused, wondering what he could be doing here.

I pressed the talk button once more, “Oh.. Um, sure.. I’ll open the gate and you can park your car,” I replied and pressed the button to open the gate for him. 

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I peaked out one of the large windows in the foyer and saw a well built man walking towards the door, though he didn’t wear the typical black or blue uniforms I was so used to seeing on cops. As he grew closer to the door, I unlocked it and opened it, ready for him to come in and for whatever reason he was here, I wanted to come off as polite as possible; I was never a fan of cops, hated them, actually.

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He reached the door and came in, shutting it behind him and giving me a warm smile as he removed his sunglasses. He was an older man, I’d guess maybe in his mid to late 30’s, “Hello, Mr. Duboys.. Again, I’m Detective Reed Grander from the department and I was wondering if I could get a minute of your time,” he introduced himself once more and I grew a little irritated by how he was pronouncing my name.

“It’s pronounced Doobwah, actually..” I corrected him.

“Ahh, a Frenchman, my apologies.”

“Don’t worry about it.. Just curious, do you mind if I see your badge?” I asked, wanting to make sure I didn’t just let a random stranger into my home claiming to be someone else.

“Oh, of course, of course..” Reed answers, reaching into his back pocket and flashing me his credentials. Seeing the badge in the flesh made my nerves increase a bit, the golden emblem shining at me and even through all of my wild college days, you’d think I’d be used to seeing it by now, but no.. It still made me cringe at his authority.

“Thank you.. Now, what can I help you with?” I wondered.

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“Cute kid,” he replied, not answering my question and I looked down to Gareth.

“Thanks..” I answered, looking back up to him.

“He yours or are you baby sitting for someone?” He asked next and I raised my brow.

“He’s mine,” I replied somewhat protectively.

“Hmm, how old are you?” His next question came and I gave a gentle grimace.

“..23..”

“So young still to be having children, but congrats. What’s this little ones name?” He asked next and I was already growing tired of him wanting to know my life story; why was he so interested in me in particular?

“His name’s Gareth, his twin brother Gibson is sleeping upstairs,” I answered, my patience growing thin for this man already.

“Wow, twins? Must be a handful,” he added. 

“Well, yeah, any newborn is. They’re only a few months old, too,” I continued and I watched him keep him smile the whole time and he then nodded. 

“Wonderful.. I have a few kids as well. Though, it’s a pretty big age gap,” he replied. I didn’t like this small talk, it seemed forced with him and for some reason I felt like he was lying that he had children, I don’t know why.. Was he stalling until I did something about Gareth? Why is he even here?

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“I’m sorry, but I’m trying to get this little guy to nap. I’m going to make him a bottle and put him upstairs, you can make yourself at home if you’d like,” I offered and turned around, making my way towards the kitchen.

“Thank you, I will,” he replied with a polite tone and I heard his footsteps slowly walking behind me as I went to the kitchen. 

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I made Gareth his bottle and fed him, watching as his eyes wandered around the room as he drank and this was always my favorite time with Gareth; he was awake, but not fussing since he couldn’t with his mouth full. I chuckled a little as he hiccuped when the bottle was almost done and his eyelids were getting heavy as well, just what I wanted to happen. I had to admit, it was a little difficult being with the boys alone for weeks at a time like this without Faline, she was so good with them and especially Gareth; if he needed to sleep but was being stubborn, all I would usually need to do was give him to Faline and she could get him to sleep in no time. I had more luck with Gibson. Gibson loved both of us, but Gareth tended to be more calm and ‘alive’ when Faline was around.

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I brought Gareth upstairs after feeding him and he went right to sleep, then making my way back downstairs and I approached Reed and stood just passed the doorway, standing in the small library Faline had established over the short period of time she had been here; in one year she had almost filled every single shelf with books that she’s had her whole life, as well as plenty of new additions to her collection. Personally, I hate books, it always reminded me of school, and of course I hated school, but having this library to walk through every day to get to the kitchen or the living room was nice; I liked the smell of all the leather bounds and paper, as weird as it may sound. 

“Nice library.. Yours?” He asked.

“No, my girlfriend’s.” I answered, hating that we were back to small talk once more when I was extremely curious as to why he was even here in the first place.

“She the mother of the twins?” I scowled at his question, trying to figure out if there was any hidden meaning behind it, but I answered regardless.

“..Not that it should matter, nor is it any of your business, but yes, she is,” I said confidently, which is more than I could say for Lana. 

“And where is she?”

“College..”

“Do you plan on marrying her anytime soon? Maybe when she graduates?” Reed asked and I grew a little nervous.. I never really thought about marrying Faline, at least it had never crossed my mind until now. I wasn’t really the marrying type, but then again, I had asked Bennu out of the blue before, so maybe I was? I don’t even know..

“Maybe,” is all I could say and I watched him nod at my response, but still didn’t look towards me.

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“Do you always keep pictures of your ex’s in the books?” Reed asked and it caught me off guard.

“W-What?”

“This book, American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis, great book by the way.. There’s a picture of you and Lana Hughes. You look around the age of your late teens, you looked happy,” he added and my eyes widened in surprise, yet I glared at him quickly with a grimace.

It astonished me that out of all the books in the entire collection, he had picked the one book where I had put a picture of Lana and I together. He was right, I was 18 and she was 17 in the picture he mentioned, it was just after she had told me she was pregnant with Lucy. Was he that good, or just that lucky to find that photo? “What about it,” I said with a short tone.

“Just an interesting book to choose to hide a picture,” he replied and I was confused; exactly what is he trying to get at? What is he trying to figure out?

“Who said I was hiding it?” I retorted, though it sounded stupid coming out of my mouth. I was hiding it, but only so Faline wouldn’t see it and I could keep it to remember a time in my life where Lana and I actually got along. I can’t even remember the last time I was happy with her like I was in that picture.

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Uh-huh.. Shall we sit?” He continued, ignoring my question once again and we made our way to the lounge area Faline had set up when she decorated her library. 

“So, Mr. Duboys-”

“It’s Doobwah, and just call me Jason..” I answered, cutting him off before he could continue. Was he saying my name like that on purpose to piss me off or something? Because it was working.

“Well, Jason.. How many children do you have?”

“There’s just Gareth and Gibson, my boys.”

“No others?” He questioned as if he didn’t believe me.

“Well, I was led to believe that Lana had a daughter with me, Lucille, but I actually found out a little while ago that she wasn’t mine, so.. It’s.. Just the boys,” I repeated myself, hating that it seemed as if he was trying to stir up some kind of emotion from me by asking such questions.

“I have a boy and a girl.. Ryan is almost 11 now, and Jayda is 8,” he added. Why did this feel so weird? So.. Familiar? It took a moment for me to realize that he was talking to me exactly how Lana’s mom used to talk to me when I was a kid and I first started going to her for help, yet his way was more.. Intimidating. “You’re a good father, Jason, at least from all that I’ve seen and heard,” he added.

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“..What do you mean, heard?”

“You and Lana Hughes were close, yes?” He asked, once again, ignoring my question to him; it was starting to really irk me.

“I’m sorry, but I don’t understand what you’re trying to get at.. You obviously know who Lana is, and it seems you know more about me than I’m comfortable with.. Though, I don’t think you’re grasping our relationship.. You’re guessing that we were close, knowing full well that we had-” I paused, catching myself at my own words and stopping when I was about to say that Lucy was mine, “Well, it seems to me that you know about Lucy, too, but to answer your question regardless, yes.. We were close.. Ever since we were kids, actually.”

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“Do you have any reason to believe that someone would want to cause harm to her?” He asked and I raised a brow in more confusion.

“Well.. No, not really.. I mean, she might be a little hard to get along with sometimes, but I don’t think anyone ‘has it out for her’ or anything like that. She’s a difficult woman, to say the least, but no..”

“Not even you?” He continued and I glared at him, “Finding out that Lucy wasn’t yours must’ve really made you resent her.”

I was beginning to get worried a little, and also very angered at the way he worded things, what was he getting at? From the way he was making everything sound, it seemed like something happened to her, that or she was just being stubborn again and I then began to feel as if he came here to give me a restraining order. Does she really not want me around Lucy to the point she would go this far though? I haven’t done anything bad to her that I could recall that would make her take such wild actions. “Of course I resent her a little, anyone would.. Wouldn’t you resent your wife if she told you Ryan and Jayda weren’t yours after you put in all the time, effort and money? Hearing them call you ‘dad’ ever since they could talk? Giving them everything and sacrificing so much just to see them happy?” I asked in return and his expression didn’t seem to waver. “But no, I wouldn’t do anything to her.. It would only risk me completely losing Lucy, she’d take her away from me and I don’t want that to happen, so thankfully we’re still on good terms.. Well, the best terms that we can be, I suppose, after hearing news such as that..” I reply. Reed didn’t say anything for a few long seconds, his expression barely changed and he hardly blinked as he stared at me after my answer.

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Reed then went back on the subject of Lucy, something I was finding somewhat hard to talk about, “Lucy is a very beautiful girl, she has a lot of her mother’s features.. I’ve also met with Matthew Hamming today, she looks a lot like him as well,” my heart sank to his words and I sighed.

“Would you mind telling me why you’re here, Detective Grander? I’d like to know that instead of you reminding me over and over that the daughter I thought was mine isn’t.. It’s beginning to upset me,” I suggested strongly and he leaned back a little in the chair, relaxing more.

“Of course, my apologies, Jason.. I don’t mean to make you uncomfortable,” he said with a smile, changing the subject once more, “Well, under better circumstances, I’d be happy to be meeting all of you today, but I will get to the point, like you’ve asked,” he replied and I was thankful that he finally stopped prying into my business.

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“Jason.. There’s been an incident. Lana Hughes was found dead early this morning.. It appears that she had fell off of her balcony over the railing,” he continued and I was shocked and in disbelief.

“W-w-what?! H-how?” I asked in a panic.

“Well.. We found alcohol in her system and there was a radio that was still on blasting music upon the balcony. We’ve come to believe that she was drunk, maybe dancing, and judging by the heels she was wearing, she might’ve lost her footing and she fell over the railing, landing 30 stories down on the road below.. The surveillance video shows us nothing because the building was being worked on, and the cameras within the lobby and elevator weren’t working, so we have no evidence if someone had come up there and pushed her off and there was no sign of a struggle, thus ruling it as just an accidental fall. The neighbors, too, couldn’t tell us anything, they were either asleep or could only hear her music outside from their windows being open, but nothing more, Lucy was asleep as well.. I’m.. Sorry, for your loss,” he concluded and I was at a loss for words.. I didn’t know what to say.

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I slowly stood to my feet, avoiding eye contact with him as I held my twisting emotions inside, “Please excuse me for a moment..”

“Of course, take all the time you need, Jason,” Reed answered and I could tell in his tone he was genuinely sorry for me. I nodded gently and walked towards the kitchen, not knowing how I was going to express myself from the news once I got out of the sight of the detective. 

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I entered the kitchen and tears began to fall instantly. I couldn’t think. I could barely breathe as I thought of Lana, gone, dead, I’m never going to see her again. I’m never going to touch the warmth of her skin again or see the fire of anger and lust in her eyes when she looks at me.. Ever. The mother of my illegitimate child was now dead, a friend since I was a little kid, someone who’s been in my life for so, so long; gone.. 

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I staggered over to the counter and put my hand upon it to catch myself from losing balance. I turned around and my knees finally buckled, dragging my back down the side of the counter and I sat on the floor, crossing my foot over the other as I continued to weep. As rough as Lana was towards me, and as much as I didn’t want her to be in my life anymore, I was so torn that she was gone.. I had gotten what I wanted. But, now with it being real, she was actually gone.. I didn’t know what to feel anymore. Now, all I could think about then was Lucy. Jesus.. Does she know? Did they tell her? Where was she, who was she with right now? Was I going to have to tell her what happened to Lana? Do I have to tell my baby girl that her mother is dead..? How will I be able to do that.. 

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I was in the kitchen for about ten minutes to myself, forgetting completely that Detective Grander was there and I heard footsteps approaching the kitchen. I could see out of the corner of my eye him entering the room and he stopped by the doorway, “Are you alright?” He asked.

I shut my eyes and sat there silent for a moment, not knowing how to respond to him. How could I? He gave me only ten minutes to grieve and I still had so much to think about, to miss, to let everything out, but I suppose now was not the time.

“I’m sorry.. I don’t mean to interrupt your mourning, but there are still a few matters we must discuss, Jason,” he continued, my sobbing beginning to let up and I eventually nodded. 

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I was able to get back to my feet, but it was still hard to stand. I didn’t face the detective, I wanted my tears to get until control before I could actually talk to him. It was like an ongoing cycle that I was afraid wouldn’t stop; one tear fell, I would wipe it away, another would fall, again, I’d wipe it away. It seemed to never want to stop.

“I’m sorry, I wish I could leave and give you time to yourself and leave you with your sons, but we need to talk about Lucille,” he continued and caught my attention. Was Matt going to take her, or were they going to let Lucy decide who she wanted to be with?

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I finally managed to control my tears, wanting to discuss Lucy as well and I eventually turned around and walked closer to Reed, “Well.. Does she know what happened to Lana?” I asked.

“Yeah, she knows.. Matt actually told her, because she wouldn’t talk to the social worker. We felt it was better to tell her sooner rather than later.. She would only get scared or worried for Lana,” he replied and I was a little angered that they had made that call, but also relieved that I didn’t have to tell her.

“How did she react? Is she alright?”

“Well, at first she didn’t quite understand, but once Matt finally arrived, someone she knew and was comfortable with, he was able to explain it and she grasped it better. She cried for a long time, wouldn’t really talk to anyone, demanded for Lana even when she knew she couldn’t see her, but.. I’d like to believe that she’s a little better now. Still emotional, yes, but she’s finally stopped crying.. She asked for her dad, which we assumed was Matt, but even after he came she still demanded for him, I can only assume she was referring to you now,” he answered and I wanted to tear up all over again but I managed to hold it in.

“W-Where is she now?” I asked after that, wanting to see her now more than ever.

“She’s outside actually, with the social worker, who also happens to be my wife, Janelle,” he replied and I went to go outside, but he put his hand to my chest, pushing me back to my place, “Please, there’s still something I need to discuss,” he insisted and I stopped, waiting for him to continue.

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“I need to ask where you stand on Lucy’s housing situation.. I’ve talked with Matt and he said he would be open to taking Lucy.. He does have the right to take her from you, since he is her biological father,” I felt my body go numb and I didn’t know what to think.. I wanted Lucy so bad, I don’t know what I would do if Matt took over custody. “However, with him being married, he mentioned that his wife wouldn’t be too happy bringing home a child that wasn’t hers. He’s trying to keep his and Lana’s relationship secret, so he told me to offer you custody. If you agree, then you may have full custody, if you don’t, then Matt will still take her. Either way, she will have a home. So, should I tell Matt that he needs to take her? Or-”

“No, no, no! I want her, please! I want her, I want custody..” I answered quickly, cutting him off from saying anything else.

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I watched as Reed soon smiled and nodded, “I’d expect no other answer from you than that.. Lucy clearly prefers you and cares for you, and you’ve been there for her. I’m sure she would be a lot happier here, too,” he replied and I let out a huge sigh of relief. I was so happy, even despite learning of Lana’s demise. I had always wanted Lucy, I’ve always wanted this, and although I wish Lana was still alive but me have custody of Lucy instead, I was still happy that she was finally all mine. “Well, she’s outside, let’s go get her, huh?” He continued and I nodded, following him out of the house and I couldn’t wait to see Lucy, but at the same time, I knew she was going to cry again over Lana once she saw me, and I hated seeing her cry. It was going to take the both of us a long time to get over this. 

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As we walked outside, I felt so nervous for some reason. Maybe it’s because I’ve never needed to comfort Lucy this much, I wasn’t ready for her to be so upset.. What was it going to be like now for her knowing she would never see her mother again? Reed knocked me out of my thoughts as I followed him outside, “We’re going to need you to sign some papers before we leave, they’re just papers saying that you’re taking responsibility for Lucy, and Matt has requested that you let him still be able to visit Lucy every once in a while.. Also, my wife will need to come back here a few times, just to make sure she’s being taken care of. I know you won’t disappoint her whenever she needs to visit, but it’s just mandatory.. You’re technically adopting her, so her visits will most likely only be a few times within the next year, then if she passes you, you have her officially.”

His words confused me a little and I grew more nervous, “Wait, so even after signing these papers, there’s still a risk of her getting taken away from me?” I asked.

“Well, yes, there’s a possibility.. But, if my wife comes over and sees that Lucy isn’t being taken care of, which is something I doubt will happen, considering your background, income, and good housing, you have nothing to worry about.”

“Oh, of course.. Yes, she’ll be well taken care of, I can promise that,” I replied with determinatin and he looked to me.

“I know that,” he reassured me and I appreciated his confidence in me.

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We walk to the driveway and I see a blonde woman, around the same age as the detective and I assumed it was his wife he had been referring to. She held Lucy and she turned around to face us when she heard us coming, Lucy then lifting her head from the woman’s shoulder and looking to me. I was so happy to see her, though the moment she looked at me, her eyes watered within mere seconds and so did mine. She struggled to find words as she reached for me and I went to her, pulling her into my arms as quick as I could and she sobbed into my neck. There wasn’t anything that I could think of to say to her at that moment; she had just found out she had lost her mother, and I my childhood friend.. I wanted to tell her it would be okay, to stop crying, to let her know that we’ll get passed it eventually and things will be better, but I couldn’t; she wouldn’t understand, and I also didn’t want to lie to her.

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Reed and his wife gave us both a moment to reunite and to calm down and I soon looked to them after wiping the rest of my tears away that I wasn’t able to hold in from seeing Lucy so upset. Reed’s wife reminded me of my mother a little, except my mother’s hair was longer and more vibrant, and she had blue eyes instead of Mrs. Grander’s teal green. I sighed softly as I thought of her for a moment, but Reed caught my attention once more, “This is my wife, Janelle, the social worker I mentioned, she’ll be visiting you a few times within the next year, like I had told you.. And this is Jason,” Reed introduced us both.

“It’s wonderful to meet you Jason.. Although my check-up’s may seem like a bother or a waist of time, I still need to do it, though I think I’ll have nothing to worry about every time I visit,” she said with a smile as she looked to Lucy. 

I was happy by her words, nodding and accepting the conditions. 

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After signing the necessary papers outside with Reed, they left and we came inside. I checked on the boys before taking Lucy to her room and I spent the whole rest of the day with her. As much as I had done it before, it felt different this time, I felt more at ease with the situation since I didn’t have to worry about getting her home in time to Lana, nor did I have to worry about getting into another fight with her when I drop Lucy off.. I’d never have to worry about something like that again. It felt so.. Weird and wrong to think that way, to think positively of the situation, but then again, I was happy Lucy was all mine now.

It was rough handling 3 children now, especially on my own.. I couldn’t wait for Faline to come visit this weekend, maybe then I could get a breather and stop having to be on my toes going back and forth between the three of them. I fed the twins and Lucy and managed to put them all to bed when it was getting late. The twins were a little hard to handle tonight, since I was juggling with giving them attention now that Lucy was there and I wanted to pay a little more attention to her, just from what she’s been through all day. I wanted to make her day as easy as possible. I let out a long, lazy sigh as I waited for Lucy to fall asleep before leaving her room.

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I was so exhausted from today, my eyes burned from crying and wiping away the tears so much. After coming downstairs from Lucy’s room, I checked on the boys one last time before going to my room where I laid down lazily on the sofa. I started to think of Faline and I wondered how she would react to all of this. I felt as if how I pictured her response was pretty accurate; first she would probably be happy that I got Lucy after all of this time, she’d probably be happy that Lana was out of my life for good, too, but she would also show me sympathy that she was dead instead of simply ‘gone’. I wished she was only gone; packing her bags and moving away.. I still wasn’t that ready to accept that she was gone forever, just knowing I’d never see her alive again only made me want to see her more, talk to her, call her, hold her..

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I sat up slowly upon the couch, crossing my arms and holding myself as my core became weak and fragile. Tears formed in my eyes for what seemed like the millionth time today but I didn’t bother stopping them, feeling them trickle down my cheeks and landing on my knees. I needed comfort, I needed someone to tell me everything was going to be okay. I missed Faline so much, I hated and dreaded the nights that I had to sleep alone and with no one to hold on to and no one to hold on to me. But, I couldn’t call Faline just yet, I didn’t want her to be distracted while she was at college and if I had told her what happened and told her how upset I was, she would probably skip school and come home, but I couldn’t let her do that. Detective Grander’s question ran through my mind once more; “Do you plan on marrying her anytime soon?” Saying ‘maybe’ to his question had gotten me thinking though, and I wondered if it was the right time for this..? I couldn’t take losing anyone else, being married to Faline instead of her being just my girlfriend would probably make her think twice if she ever did want to leave me.. I knew Bennu always turned me down, but she was the only other woman I’d marry before Faline and she had already said no to that question; I didn’t even know where the hell she was.. But, I had children with Faline, I lived with her, I knew she loved me without ever needing to say it, but would I be marrying her for the same reasons? I let out a gentle chuckle as I thought of a few times in our relationship where I knew she wanted to hear those three little words, but I could never bring myself to do it. She never did either, which made me wonder if she was waiting for me to say them first and I wondered if she would even agree to marrying me without either of us ever saying those words.. I guess that’s something I’m just going to need to find out for myself.