Generation 2, Chapter 10

Attention: I have two potential heirs! *screams* This chapter is a little shorter than past chapters as well. Enjoy!

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It’s been almost a year and a half since Faline and I’s fight that I didn’t even know we had.. I was so drunk, I had blacked out that night and the last thing that I had remembered was grabbing another beer from the fridge when I got home. Faline told me what had happened the next day and I felt terrible.. I apologized profusely; I’ve been trying to make it up to her ever since, too. Not that she was holding it against me or anything, but I didn’t want to lose her, especially when we had just gotten used to one another and have been pretty much inseparable ever since I went to college.. I didn’t want to lose all that we had created for ourselves, everything that we had created together. I’ve graduated college with my business degree, thankfully; Auturo said he wouldn’t help me, but I actually studied and he noticed, so when it came to test time, we would study together and I’d passed every test with at least a ‘B’ every time. I’m so thankful for Auturo and I’m glad I know him, he’s helped me and my family more than he even realizes.

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But.. I was unconditionally happy. Faline gave birth right before I graduated to twin boys and we named them Gareth and Gibson. Gareth is a little firecracker already, his personality was so different from Gibson. Gareth was always crying for attention; the moment I put him down, I swear he would notice when I would play with Gibson, and he would get jealous and cry instantly when I held his twin brother.. Gibson was so laid back though, only wanting attention when needed and he didn’t care if I held Gareth more than him; he just sat in his crib and starred at me whenever I would circle their cribs trying to calm down Gareth. So, that’s why while Faline was pregnant she looked bigger than Lana when Lana was pregnant.. Faline was carrying twins, just like Faline and her brother were twins.

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After I had graduated and decided to take over caring for the kids, Faline wanted to go back to school and continue her education as well, so she could get a job, too. I tried telling her that she didn’t need to, I still had plenty of money left over from inheriting it from my parents, and I would be working soon anyways to continue the income, but she insisted. Her mindset seemed to always be circling around school and a career, but who was I to stop her from doing what she wanted? I was planning on starting my own business, maybe even opening my own bar in town since that seemed to be the only thing that interested me in owning, or maybe even opening my own restaurant.. I still couldn’t decide. I loved alcohol, but I also loved food, and I had gotten quite good at cooking since I had always watched my mother cook. I still had some of her own recipes in a cabinet in the kitchen. 

After I had successfully gotten Gareth to sleep finally, I picked up Gibson who was still awake. I played with him for a little bit, poking his nose and watching it twitch and he giggled after every time I did it. I chuckled at Gibson, admiring his eyes and how much more excitement and life they had in them than Gareth’s. He yawned in my arms and I smiled, pulling him close to me and rubbing his back, “Don’t worry.. Momma will be back real soon to visit,” I said softly as I hugged him to me, then placed him in his crib and I watched as his eyes shut.

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I quietly walked out of the twins’ room, shutting the light off and closing the door silently. I let out a sigh of relaxation, glad that tonight the boy’s were exhausted enough to not fuss too much when putting them to bed and I gazed out of the windows in the foyer. The lights from the city illuminated the house even more than my own lights were and I wanted to go out for a little bit, but then the boys would be left alone, and I couldn’t do that.. My mind began to wander as I stared at the city lights, feeling somewhat alone and I didn’t like it too much.. Before, I would usually be around my sisters 24/7, then I got closer with Lana and soon Lucy was my muse. Faline then kept me company, and if she didn’t, it was my college friends and Bennu.. But with Faline gone now, and the boys now asleep, I didn’t like not knowing what to do with myself and having no one to keep my mind at ease. I sighed once more, but with more of a sense of grief than relief. I haven’t seen Bennu since I had went to the club with the guys the night I went back to college for my last year. I had to admit, I missed her, a lot; I’ve given her my number, telling her to call me if she ever changes her mind about being with me, but she’s never called once in the entire time I’ve known her since my freshman year of college..

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I grew desperate, taking advantage of Faline not being here and she wasn’t going to be home until a week from now, pulling out my phone and I scrolled through my endless list of contacts. I hoped that by chance Bennu added her number in, but the more I scrolled, the more discouraged I grew. An idea ran through my head as I looked at the number for Barefoot, wondering if I should call the club and ask if I can talk to her.. A pinch of excitement ran through my body, wanting desperately to hear her voice and I caved in to calling the club.

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I heard the phone ring and I recognized who answered, it was Avery, the black haired girl that Auturo liked, “Hello, thank you for calling Barefoot,” she began and I heard loud music behind her slightly shouting voice.

“Avery? It’s Jason, um.. Dubois.. Is Bennu there?” I asked.

“Jason? Man, you haven’t been in here in a while, that’s not at all like you, sweetheart,” she replied and I sighed.

“Yeah, I got.. Caught up in something.. But, uh, is Bennu there? Working tonight?” I asked once more.

“No, sweetie, you didn’t hear? She quit.. Maybe about a month after you were last here,” she answered and my eyes widened.

“Did she sa.. D-Do you know why?” I asked in a slight panic, wondering why she hasn’t called me at all since then like I had told her to so many times if she left..

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I don’t know why.. She just said she was done and hasn’t came back.”

“Did she tell you to say anything to me? Leave a note or a number?” I asked.

Nah, she didn’t leave anything like that,” she replied, her tone beginning to sound bored, “If that’s all Jason, I gotta get back to work, hun, so..”

“Wait.. Do you know her number?”

Even if I did, Jason, she never told me to give it to you if you just so happened to call, and you’re not getting it, I’m not allowed to give out information like that to guys who have pathetically fallen in love with a stripper.. Bye, Jason,” she retorted with an irritated tone and hung up.

I was beyond angry by her words, “I’m not in love with her..” I said softly to no one, putting my phone back into my pocket and letting out a heave of a sigh. 

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I went to my room and left the light off, sitting on my sofa as my mind raced and the waves I watched from the ocean out my window couldn’t even calm my nerves. I sat there for roughly two hours, just thinking, trying to find an explanation on why Bennu wouldn’t – didn’t call me like I had told her to so many times. Did she really not want to be with me? Every time we were together, it always seemed as if we were feeling all the same things without needing to speak of them, always having the greatest time together and it only made me wonder more why she didn’t want to be with me.

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To distract me from my constant thoughts, I went online and browsed the internet for a while, looking for places around town for sale and trying to figure out if any were a good place to start my own business. I was browsing for a few hours, noticing the time in the bottom right hand corner of the screen and it was almost 11:30pm. I looked to the baby monitor, knowing Gareth too well already and he always made a tiny fuss around now, waiting a few long moments and I eventually heard him beginning to cry, but right after that I heard him making gentle noises again and then I heard nothing. I smiled at his behavior; I always would jump straight to my feet and run to their room, but I’d only wake him from his fake cries and then he’d be up for hours with me, just to trick us in giving him attention. But, eventually I realized what he was doing, and I stopped going to his room every time he did it, he always went back to sleep after crying for about half a minute. Such a fussy boy..

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My cell rang and I x’ed out what I was doing, looking to my phone and sighing when I saw Lana’s name on the ID. I stood from the chair and let it ring a few times.. I haven’t spoken more than 5 words to Lana ever since her ‘friend’ Matt came over while I was picking up Lucy..

“Hello…?” I answered with a bored tone.

“Hi..” Lana replied.

“Is anything wrong? Are you and Lucy okay?” I wondered, trying to figure out why she would call me out of the blue and late at night. 

No, we’re okay,” she added with the same bored tone that I had answered with.

“Then, why’d you call..?” I asked.

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I’m moving in with Matt, and I’m taking Lucy with me.. He got a job somewhere else,” she continued her bland tone and my eyes widened in horror.

“W-w-what?”

Um.. I’m – taking – Lucy – and – leaving.. Stupid. Did you not hear me?” She questions angrily, and even through the phone I can tell she’s drunk; she has Lucy, too, which only made me more furious that she was drinking while Lucy was asleep.. What if Lucy woke up and needed her, and she was plastered? What if she dropped her? What if she.. Just.. I was furious once again.

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“What the fuck Lana!? You can’t just up and leave! What would Lucy say!? She would miss me like crazy! But I know for a fact you’d probably just lie to her and tell her some bullshit to make me look bad! Hoping she would just forget me! Am I fucking wrong!? What the fuck is wrong with you?” I yelled. I couldn’t take it anymore, I was so tired of all these surprises she’s been springing on me lately. “You can’t take my daughter away from me!”

I heard her give a gentle chuckle from her drunken behavior to my words, my blood boiling and I felt as if I was going to crush my cell phone as I held it, “Yeah.. Well, I don’t even know why you still label her as that..” She replied and I was at a loss for words.. I.. I couldn’t speak.. Even though she had never admitted it, it hurt me more than ever now finally confirming her words, and confirming my constant assumptions ever since Lucy was born, “Good luck winning her in a court hearing, but, anyways.. You can come by tomorrow and say goodbye, that’s all I’m giving you.”

Wh..What the fuck was happening right now? Have I lost my mind? Did I hear her correctly?? 

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“Lana.. Baby.. Please.. Don’t do this to me.. I.. I-I know she’s not mine.. But please, I’ve been her father for 4 years.. 4 fucking years! And it was all because of you! Even though we’ve never talked about, I know.. But, that still doesn’t mean I don’t have every right to try and keep her close to me! You’ve tricked me this entire time! I.. I love that girl so much, so fucking much.. Please.. Please don’t take her from me,” I beg her, like I always find myself doing..

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Tomorrow, 11:00am.. Any later and we’re not going to be here,” she replied and that’s the second person that has hung up on me tonight. I looked at my phone and it shook in my nervous hand as I watched the call end and go to the home screen, my heart racing and I turned on my heal, my entire body hot with rage and I raced towards my bedroom door, running out and I nearly fell down the stairs I was racing so quickly to get to my car outside to go to Lana’s. 

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I drove to Lana’s, though I don’t really remember driving there; one second I was in my room, the next, I had typed in Lana’s code to get buzzed in that she didn’t know I knew and I was on her floor, attempting to unlock the door using one of my credit cards. I was having a hard time thinking, it was almost as if my body knew what to do for me and I felt that even if I didn’t want to be doing this, I was. I finally managed to slip the credit card in at just the right angle and I hear the door make a ‘click’ sound, letting me know that it was unlocked and I place my credit card back into pocket. 

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There she is.. Out on the balcony, dancing with herself and still drunk no doubt. This has never happened before, this feeling in spine, the voice of reason gone and my entire body felt numb. I was mad, so, so mad.. I don’t need this from her anymore. I don’t need her constant torment, lies, her ability to keep me stuck on this invisible leash so tight without ever giving me any slack or room to run. I was her pet, I was her bank account, and I was the idiot that fell for it all. She made a fool out of me and I couldn’t let her do it anymore; I won’t let her take what’s mine.

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I walked through the kitchen and opened the door to go outside, the music then becoming clearer and louder, though I couldn’t make out a single word they were saying or even the rhythm; I was too distracted. The door shut behind me but it was still too quiet for Lana to hear, continuing to be oblivious to my presence. I watched her for a little bit, letting her enjoy herself a little more before finally speaking up, “Looks like fun, mind if I join?”

I watch as Lana almost jumps out of her skin and she stops dancing, looking to me in serious confusion, “J-Jason? H-How the hell did you get in h-”

“Do you enjoy hurting me? Does it bring you some sense of solace whenever you hear the pain in my voice? The lifelessness you bring to my eyes when you tell me terrible things?” I asked. She doesn’t answer me and even through the darkness of the night, I watch as her throat bounces from swallowing hard from her nerves. “Well..? Do you enjoy it?”

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“Wha.. What the hell are you talking about? Y-You need to leave, Jason! Right now!” She voiced in concern and anger, her words over exaggerated due to the alcohol. I was happy when I noticed the intense finger she pointed at me begin to shake slightly, she was scared right now. I loved it. I’ve been fearing this day ever since Lucy was born, that one day she’d take her from me, but no.. That wasn’t going to happen. I moved closer to her slowly and Lana continued to bark orders at me, “Jason, I’m warning you! Turn around and leave, or.. Or.. I’ll call Matt, a-a-and I’ll call the cops, and you can be sure as hell that you’ll never set eyes on Lucy again!” She called out. I stopped about ten feet from her and stare at her angered expression, her words not phasing me in the slightest.

“Are you ever going to answer my questions?” I asked.

“Leave, Jason.. Now!” She yelled again and I was glad that Lucy couldn’t hear anything that was happening out here.

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My expression was enraged, stepping closer to her now and she grew more scared, putting her hands up in an attempt to keep her distance from me. “This entire time, all this time you’ve lied to me about so many things.. Kept me from the one thing that you made me believe was my own.. You’ve been stringing me along and for what, my money? My own happiness? My life has never been the same ever since you came into it. You’ve been playing me for a fool for too long now, Lana, and I can’t take it anymore. Lucy isn’t going anywhere, but I don’t think I can say the same thing for you.”

“J-Jason, please, don’t come any closer.. Stay away from me!” She began to plead, her mannerism surprising me since I figured she wasn’t afraid of anything by how she’s always so confident and almost proud whenever she knows she’s hurt someone. “I-I won’t leave, okay? Just, p-pretend I didn’t say anything.. I’m not taking her away anymore, alright?” She continued to plead.

“Like I’m supposed to believe that after everything else you’ve ever said to me.. Every time I saw you, talked to you, you could’ve told me the truth, you could’ve prevented this and made everything right.. Hell, I may have taken the news better before. If you had even told me that she wasn’t mine from the beginning, I would’ve still helped you with her.. But, who knows now, right?” I paused for a moment and for once in her miserable life, she has nothing to say, “The moment I leave, you’d get Lucy and get out of the city and as far away from me as physically possible, I can’t let that happen.. Not anymore.. Not after everything I’ve done for you, for her, for putting up with all of your bullshit.. I can’t do it anymore Lana, and I’m not going to let you continue it.”

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I stepped closer, closing in on the gap between us and I watched as her body came to a stop when she had backed all the way into the guard railing. She looked behind her and down, then back to my eyes, terror written all over her face and I couldn’t help but feel a rush of excitement flow through me. “I never thought we’d end up like this, honestly.. When I came to your mother for help when I was little, I was a messed up little boy.. I saw things, gruesome things, and she helped me with what I saw. She helped me through my parents death, and I met you soon after they died, she thought you’d be good for me. We were friends for years, Lana, ever since we were kids. We looked out for one another, helped each other through things that no one else could help with. You were my best friend, actually, I didn’t take the time to get to know anyone else as much as I grew to know you. Eventually we grew intimate, and it.. It almost makes me wonder if you knew what you were doing the whole time.. The moment I turned 18 I got the money I had inherited from my parents, and out of nowhere you were pregnant, apparently with my baby, too. But, that was never the case, she wasn’t mine. Now that I look back on it, I can’t remember having sex with you around the time that we should’ve conceived her.. The news just filled me with so much joy that it blinded me, I never once thought she wasn’t mine until she was born, but.. It was better to just accept it than to bring it up and risk losing both of you. After she was born, though.. Everything changed. You grew heartless and cold, it was hard to visit Lucy though easy to convince you to let me buy her things, to let me take care of the daughter you told me I had..”

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Suddenly my hand was on Lana’s throat and I could feel her quick pulse over her hair that was underneath my fingertips. She could still breath, but it was difficult for her to form words, “You’ve lied to me for the last time. You’ve tormented me, used me, and killed me inside from it all, but this where it all stops. I don’t want to put Lucy through this anymore, she doesn’t deserve it. You’re her mother, and I’m not her father, but I’ll be both for her from now on, so you don’t have to worry about a thing. She’ll be very well taken care of.. But nothing will get better until you’re taken care of.” The corner of my mouth twitches into a smirk and with a hard exertion of my strength, I pushed at Lana’s throat and she lost her footing, falling over the rail and I heard her head hit the concrete on the edge of the building and as quickly as I had pushed, her body was out of my sight just as quick.

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I didn’t hear her scream on the way down, the grip I had on her throat must’ve hindered her from being able to use her voice as she fell to her death. A breeze went by and I inhaled deeply, looking around the city and a smile ran across my lips. I couldn’t describe what I was feeling, I still felt numb, I still felt as if I wasn’t even there, non-existent and unaware. But, I felt free.. Excited, exhilarated, ecstatic, and finally, at ease. I let out a gentle chuckle and turned around, walking back towards the door to walk back through Lana’s place and I left without waking Lucy.

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Generation 2, Chapter 9

Attention: Another long chapter, but at least it’s a little shorter than the last one.. A little..  >_> Enjoy!

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It was next Friday already, a week and a day since I had been with Bennu at Barefoot.. I was on my way home to see Faline, like I told her I would last Thursday when I had left her. I.. I had no words. I was already doing bad in all of my classes, even in the first week of being there. I couldn’t focus, I felt terrible, the guilt eating away at me, and yet.. I still couldn’t stop thinking about Bennu. Why didn’t she want to leave her job? I had made it a point to see her at least 6 times a year, and every time I asked her to be with me, every time, and she still said no.. Why? She knew I had money, she knew who I was and that I could support her without her needing to flaunt herself in such a way, for other men, but.. Why wouldn’t she do it? I wanted her to be mine, and yet, what would I even do if she did want to be with me now? I had Faline.. Thinking back on our time together now, I can’t believe I had asked Bennu to marry me, it came out of nowhere, but the strange thing was that I meant it.

I can’t see Faline, I’m not ready.. I can’t even think about looking at her. I miss her so much, I wanted to feel her growing tummy, listen to it, rest my head against it as I slept, but I just couldn’t. I couldn’t look at her without giving everything away in my eyes.. Not yet.

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I drive more and more through the city of Bridgeport, seeing everything all over again and now it brought out new memories instead of the old; how much Faline and I had wandered through the city together, showing her the sights, getting her used to being around here since she lived with me now. My eyes held back gentle tears as I then decided to go to Lana’s, I wanted to see Lucy; seeing her would get my mind off of Faline. Even though I was driving, I pulled my phone out and quick dialed Lana, her answering in a few rings.

What do you want?” She asked coldly and I was instantly enraged by her words.

“I want to see Lucy.. I’m back for the weekend from college, let me see her,” I demand and I hear her sigh heavily, though she eventually complies.

Fine, but I’m going out soon, just get here quick and get her,” she warned and hung up. Already, I had problems when coming back to this fucking town, despite even seeing Faline first.

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I get to Lana’s within minutes since I had been driving around her part of the neighborhood for a while, wanting to see Lucy and wanting to avoid Faline as much as possible. It was still light out, but it was getting dark quickly; I had told Faline I would leave early in the morning, but didn’t end up driving home from college until around 2:00pm. I arrived at Lana’s between 5:45 and 6:00pm, taking my time while driving and it didn’t take the normal 3 hours, I wasn’t excited to go home like I should be. I went into her building and already I felt a slight bit better, knowing anything that would happen here would take my mind off of Faline. I buzzed Lana’s residence and within 30 seconds, she let me in and I went upstairs.

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I went up the escalator and went to her door, not bothering to knock as she usually unlocked it before I ever got upstairs. I walked in and noticed Lucy playing with a yellow toy car on the ground and I smiled warmly, so happy to see her. Before Lucy noticed me, I looked around Lana’s place, noticing that she had renewed her furniture, the walls, the carpeting, almost everything. I was infuriated easily once again. What the fuck is this? This must’ve cost her at least a few grand to redo; I hadn’t been here in a few months, Lana didn’t like me coming here for a while after our fight at my place, but I didn’t doubt that it was all worth at least four of six checks I had given her in that time frame alone.

“Daddy! You’re here!” The sound of Lucy’s voice knocked me back into reality, looking to her as she had walked to me and stood about 5 feet from me, looking at me as if confused. She hesitated as she waited for me to give her a warm smile, “Are you okay?” She asked. 

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I didn’t like that I had left my expression angered enough for Lucy to notice, so once I looked at her, my smile grew wide and I lifted her up, throwing her around and she laughed until I brought her more into my arms and hugged her tightly, “I’m doing wonderful, especially now that I’ve seen my favorite lady,” I replied to her and pecked her cheek repeatedly until she eventually pushes my face away from my stubble tickling her. “How are you, beautiful?” I wondered.

“Good! I missed you! How’s school?” She wondered and I was touched by how she had remembered that I was at school again, I loved how she wanted to know how I was doing as well. Even though I was doing bad, I didn’t want to disappoint her or make her worry, so I lied..

“I’ve missed you so much, too! I’m doing so well I might even graduate early so I can see you even sooner, and I won’t be gone as long!” I replied with a joyful tone, though I knew she wouldn’t remember. I was impressed that she remembered I was even at school, yet she was still at that age where it didn’t matter how long I was gone, she’d miss me regardless and whenever I would show up, is, well, when I would show up..

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I soon looked towards the stairs and heard Lana walking down; I knew she was wearing heels, I could hear them clicking on each step down and although I was angry with her, I knew she looked good without even seeing her whole outfit yet. I could only see a little of her dress, but from what I could see, it got my blood pumping and I felt a little uncomfortable holding Lucy. 

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Lana came downstairs and I looked her up and down, admiring her shiny silver dress and I forgot to blink for a while. “You look nice,” I attempted to compliment her, the side of my mouth twitching into a brief smirk, but she ignored my words.

“Are you leaving now?” She asked coldly, looking at me, then looking to Lucy and giving a gentle smile at her. 

“Yeah, in a minute,” I answered, obviously checking her out and she scoffed, rolling her eyes and I knew she knew what I was trying to do.

“Jason, come on, knock it off,” she added with an irritated tone, turning away from me, but I knew she was flattered by my gestures. I needed to convince her to let me stay for a little bit so I could get a chance to talk to her about the remodeling she had done, but I had to get on her good side first.

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I can’t help it, the moment she walks away from me I can’t help but stare at the curves of her body, remembering what she felt like against me naked so long ago. My heart started to race a little, watching Lana walk up the stairs and the more she walked up, the more I saw under her dress, which there was nothing there under it. With Lucy still in my arms, I felt a little uneasy and I wanted to follow Lana upstairs, soon walking Lucy back over to the spot she was at when I had gotten here and placing her on the ground again. 

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“Be a good girl, okay? I’m going to talk to Mommy, you just play with your doll house or something and we’ll leave really soon,” I said with a smile and pecking her forehead.

“Okay!” She answered me and I stood again to make my way upstairs after Lana. The only thing I hated about discussing something important with Lana here was that her room upstairs wasn’t closed in, so if we got into an argument, Lucy would hear everything, and I hated when she heard us fight. But, I needed to talk to Lana about this and get it straightened out.

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I got upstairs and stopped Lana from going into her bathroom, probably just to continue getting ready so she could avoid me. I looked around her room quickly to see if she had made any changes up here as well, but her room was still the same; I couldn’t help but wonder though when she was planning to redo it, too. “Lana, what is all this?” I asked, trying to keep my cool as I brought up the subject.

“What is.. What?” She replied coldly, seemingly annoyed that I was even speaking to her.

“Lana, the living room.. The walls, the carpet, the furniture, how much did that cost you to do?” I wondered, my tone was already beginning to get angered.

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“Why do you care? You’re never here anyways, it’s not like you live here. I wanted to make it more homey, it looked like shit before,” she replied and it was hard for me to contain the aggravation that crept up my spine.

“That’s not what I asked,” I state with a short tone.

Lana got defensive, “It’s none of your concern,” she pointed out and my blood was boiling.

“It’s not my concern? You’re using my money!” I stress, yet try to keep my voice down, “I give you that money to take care of yourself and Lucy, not for you to go and blow on stupid shit that you don’t need,” I add angrily, “Do you really want me to have to cut down the checks to keep you from blowing it on luxuries?” I threaten a little and I can tell I finally had stepped over the line with Lana; I knew that threatening to take away money would hit a nerve in her.

“You’re a fucking asshole, you know that?” She insulted and I grew even more enraged; how could she even call me that when I’m giving her hundreds and hundreds of my own dollars to feed them and keep a roof over their heads?

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I’m furious by her words, watching as she went to turn around and attempt to go into the bathroom again, but I grab her wrist and twist her back around hard, forcing her to face me. Her eyes widened a little in fear and her chest rose and sank faster from quickened breathes, “Jason, you’re hurting me,” she said in a slight pleading tone, looking to me and asking with her eyes to let her go, but I don’t.

“You better prey that that little girl is always fed, clothed, and cared for with a roof over her head or so help me I’ll take her in an instant and leave you with nothing but this stupid fucking condo you seem to care about more than her. You can get a job and pay for it your fucking self. But, to avoid that from ever happening.. Don’t you ever use that money for anything else extravagant again, do you understand me?” I ask with a harsh tone and I watch as her face twists with different emotions and I can’t tell how she feels about my words.

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Finally her expression turns angered once more and she jerks her wrist out of my grip, no doubt hurting herself while doing it, but then shoving me away from her, “Fuck you, Jason!” My eyes widen by how she had raised her voice and I knew that Lucy had heard it. 

“Keep your voice down!” I pressured softly.

“No, this is bullshit.. How dare you say anything like that! You only see her a few months out of the whole fucking year and you’re going to tell me that I don’t care for her like I should? Look around, asshole! I’m making this place nicer for us to live in, the fridge is stocked and last time I checked, she has more clothes than she even needs! Don’t ever say I don’t take care of her when you barely ever see her! I’m surprised she even remembers you every time you walk in through that fucking door!” She replied angrily, my jaw dropping slightly. I realize that there’s no winning this argument, there never was; Lana always has to have the last word, and she always makes me feel like I should be to blame at the end of all our fights. She was right though.. I had already came back from college to visit Faline, but I had never came back that quickly from college to visit Lana and Lucy, I always waited about 3 months into the school year before I would even think of coming back for a visit. 

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“I want you to leave, now! I have to be somewhere and I don’t have time for this. You’re not getting Lucy, so forget it! I’ll drop her off at my Mom’s.. Now leave,” she threatened and my heart dropped. Lana went to walk away from me for the third time, but there was no way I’d let her leave just yet, especially after what she had said.

I reached for her quickly the moment she had turned around again and grabbed her hips, pulling her closer and she tried to get my hands off of her, “No no, it’s okay.. I’ll take her, I’m happy to,” I instantly felt pathetic as I began to beg Lana not to keep me from being with Lucy.

“Let me go, Jason!” She yelled louder than she needed to, no doubt wanting Lucy to hear her struggle so she would think badly of me.

Mommy?” Lucy called upstairs and her voice seemed worried, killing me inside and I called down to her.

“Everything’s fine, baby girl, we’re just talking,” I reassured her, though from Lana’s over-exaggeration of a struggle, I doubt I convinced her at all. 

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Both of us knowing I was the stronger one, I finally forced Lana to turn around and she was back into my arms and I held her against me. My hands wrapped around her tightly and she knew she wasn’t going anywhere anymore; this time around, this discussion wasn’t over with until I was the one ending it. I spoke quietly and my tone was harsh, “Keep-your fucking-voice down,” I threatened again and her eyes tried to avoid mine, as if she knew she had done something wrong but she still refused to voice her defeat. I had never been this physical with her before, I could tell in her face that she was a little scared of what I might do. In past fights, she’s shoved me, slapped me, yelled her heart out, anything to get her point across and the only thing she hasn’t done yet is straight pull a gun out and shoot me. Only once have I ever done more than just yelling and I had tossed her onto the couch to get her away because she was belligerent and wouldn’t stop hitting me; I don’t even remember what that fight was about anymore.. “I don’t need her hating me or worried that I might hurt her due to you exaggerating shit. I’m just a little nervous, that’s all.. I saw all of this change downstairs when I came in, it scared me. I didn’t think you were using the money properly, but knowing now that you guys are still okay, even after the remodeling, it’s fine.. I’m sorry, Lana, alright?” I apologize, feeling stupid that I did, but I had to; she’d milk keeping Lucy from me and I never wanted that, and she knew it.

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Eventually, after keeping her in her place, I see her eyes look up to mine and I can tell that she forgives me, though still doesn’t say anything. I let out a soft sigh through my nose and the corner of my mouth curls up slightly, lessening my hold on her and being able to relax again. I leaned in and gently kissed her cheek close to her lips, trying to comfort her more and to get her to stop being angered with me. I keep one arm wrapped around her as the other then slides down over her ass and then down her leg, threatening to sneak under her dress and I hear her sigh, “Jasonnnn,” she prolonged saying my name in a complaining manner, but I kissed her cheek again and my fingertips felt the bottom of her dress and then skin of her thigh was so smooth and inviting. “Come onnnn, I have to be somewhere,” she continued to coo softly and I smirked more.

“Do you have to go right now?” I asked with a flirtatious tone, feeling her arm wrap around my neck and her other hand came up to caress my face. I never quite understood why our relationship was like this; one minute we’d be at each other throats, the next we’d be all over one another as if the anger fueled us to have fun after a stressful argument. My hand began to make its way up the outside of her thigh and just as our lips were going to meet, the doorbell rang and Lana quickly pulled away from me.

Her expression went nervous, “Will you get Lucy and go now, please?” She asked, her demeanor completely changing and before I could even say anything, she was out of my grip and quickly going downstairs.

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There was nothing left for me to do now but follow Lana downstairs and get Lucy and her things. I talked with Lucy and convinced her everything was okay between me and her mother, then looking around the living room again, wondering if I had been out of line at all or if I was right to question Lana about the condo.. I felt a little guilty for how I had treated Lana, but I had to get to the bottom of it and see what she was doing with the money I had been giving her. I looked out the window briefly and noticed it was dark out now, guessing it was around 6:30pm and I felt my phone buzz in my pocket, knowing it was Faline again and I didn’t bother looking at it; I knew it would just be her asking when I would get here, or if I was okay. 

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I heard the door open to Lana’s place and I glanced over to see who had stopped by, guessing it would be one of Lana’s girlfriends eager to go out for the night, but instead, a man walked in. A frown was instantly on my lips and I nonchalantly eavesdropped on their short conversation.

“What are you doing here? I said I would meet you there,” Lana began and her tone was hushed and nervous.

“It’s okay, I thought I’d just come and get you instead,” the man replied, hesitating no longer and pulling her into a kiss. I don’t know why I was so jealous, maybe it was because he got to do it when I didn’t upstairs because he had rang the doorbell; he blocked me from it and it enraged me. The way Lana was acting, too, made me a little weary to go over by them, but I had to leave, Lana wanted me to.

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I rolled my eyes when they wouldn’t let go of one another, clearing my throat with an annoyed tone and they eventually separated, looking over to me and I could tell that Lana was uncomfortable. The man looked to me and I could tell he was surprised to see me, probably assuming that no one was here with Lana and Lucy. I walked over to them and I felt as if Lana couldn’t even make eye contact with me.

Lucy looked over to her mother and the man, smiling, “Hi, Matt!” She said happily and my insides twisted, hating that she was so friendly with this stranger and her tone even seemed a little happier towards him than it did for me when I had came in, causing me to hate this ‘Matt’ character instantly.

“Hey, Lucy! How are you, princess?” Matt asked as he looked at her while I starred him down.

“I’m good!” Lucy replied cheerfully.

“Hey, man.. I’m Matt, nice to meet ya,” Matt said to me but I had no words, hesitating as I studied him a little and I couldn’t stop looking at his eyes; they were identical to Lucy’s and I felt as if I was going to be sick.

“That’s Lucy’s father, Jason, and he was just leaving,” Lana said for me since I couldn’t find the words.

“Oh…?” Matt replied to Lana as if he questioned her.

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I ignored him, I had to; I was ready to put down Lucy and strangle Matt until I saw his eyes roll into the back of his head. I turned around and picked up Lucy’s bag with her belongings in it, “You left your wedding ring on,” I remind Matt and I don’t hear either of them say anything for a few moments. Even though I had no room to talk, since I had cheated on Faline almost 3 times already, but if I was married to her, I feel as if I wouldn’t have acted the way I did. But, now, seeing him with his ring on made me feel bad for whoever his wife was, especially knowing that Lana could give less than a shit about it and it probably gave her some sense of power knowing that he was going behind his wife’s back for her. The whole situation was too much, thoughts about Faline and what I had done to her came running through my mind again, and now this.. It was so obvious. 

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Matt then spoke up before I walked passed him to leave, but I only looked over my shoulder and not at him, still unable to, “Uhh, hey man.. Let’s just, keep that on the down low, huh?” He asked with a weary tone, a light chuckle following after it.

I ignored him again, going up to Lana and I glared at her, “Say goodbye to Mommy,” I told Lucy in a soft, bland tone, still glaring at Lana and she still couldn’t look at me, leaning in and pecking Lucy’s cheek.

“Be good for Daddy,” Lana said with a happy tone that I knew she was faking for Lucy, her demeanor told me she was still nervous and uncomfortable about being in the same room with the two of us. What was worse was that I felt as if we all felt the same way, but none of us wanted to discuss it. I glared at Lana until she locked eyes with me and I knew she could read what I was thinking, watching as she quickly looked away towards the door and I immediately took my leave, somewhat slamming the door on the way out.

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I got home with Lucy and braced myself for the worst. As I drove here my nerves skyrocketed every block we grew closer and I felt like vomiting when we pulled into the driveway; I could barely take the urge I had to just pull back out and drive to a hotel, but I couldn’t do that. We walked in and I nervously looked around, not seeing Faline and the house was quiet. Maybe Faline was resting? The closer she got to her due date, the more she needed to rest, maybe she was in the bedroom..?

I let out a gentle sigh and looked to Lucy, “Faline is probably sleeping, you should take your nap, too,” I suggested and she shook her head, though her eyes were droopy; she had been dozing off in the car, too.

“I’m not tireddd,” she complained and I smirked, pulling her head to my shoulder to rest and her eyes seemed to shut instantly.

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I brought Lucy upstairs to her room and changed her into a fresh pair of pajamas, putting her down in her crib and she was already sleeping. I turned on the baby monitor again and slipped out of her room quietly, not waking her and I took my time walking back downstairs to the 2nd floor where my bedroom was. Every step I took down made me want, need, and hope that Faline was sleeping; I still didn’t think that I could face her without breaking down. My emotions are always rattled and depending on what I’m dealing with at the time is when it is its worst or best, and in this case, I’m at my worst right now. I don’t know what I’ll do when I first look into her eyes, look at her growing tummy, hearing how much she missed me when I’ve been nothing but promiscuous.. I don’t know why I felt so guilty, I’ve never had this happen before; maybe it was because she was my first actual girlfriend, ever. That sounds pathetic.. And that’s exactly how I feel right now; pathetic.

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I didn’t bother knocking, gripping the door knob and turning it as slow as I could to keep it quiet, then opening the door at the same pace. The lights are off and I, for a moment, think that Faline isn’t home, but as I adjust my eyes to the dark, I see her laying on the bed, napping like I had assumed earlier. A wave of relief goes over me, and yet, my nerves are still attacking me. The sight of her is calming a little, but I hope she doesn’t wake as I walk closer and I stand on the side of the bed, looking at her sleeping without her glasses, her face calm and relaxed; she even had her phone clutched in her hand, no doubt still waiting for me to answer her. I looked to her growing tummy and more tears threatened to fall, but I held them back and quickly walked over to the dresser, turning the baby monitor up and setting it on top and exiting the room; Lucy’s cries would wake Faline if need be, and I had to get out of here.

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I took my car and drove 20 over the speed limit on every street, driving aimlessly and I had no idea where I was going. Over a period of 30 minutes, I led myself unknowingly to the graveyard where my parents were buried and it took me until I put my car in park to realize where I had ended up. Why did I come here? I looked to the dark church, no lights on and I turned off my car, getting out and pressing the button to lock it as I approached the gates. It was always so hard driving here to see my mother, but I felt more comfortable here than at home right now..

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As I approached my parents graves, I looked to my mothers headstone and for the first time today, I felt my body relax and my nerves started to settle; the exact opposite I usually feel when coming here. I stopped a few feet from them and my eyes were fixed on my mothers name etched into the stone, “Hey, ma,” I began how I usually do. “I’ve been a little confused lately.. I don’t know what I want, or who I want. But, I kinda fucked up, big time. Things had been great with Faline, but the moment I go back to college, everything was out of my control. I’m a loose nut that can’t be tightened,” I chuckle at my own choice of words, yet it finally triggers the tears that I had been holding back all day and a tear falls down one of my eyes but I wipe it away quickly. “I have a feeling you’d be disappointed. You raised a little boy well, but I’m not the man you probably hoped I would become,” more tears began to fall, “My little girl..” I pause, “Lucy is oblivious right now, but she’s so smart.. She’ll figure everything out as soon as she gets a little older. She’ll figure out that I should have nothing to do with her, but then what?” I wonder, shutting my eyes and rubbing the bridge of my nose.

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“Jason?” A familiar voice goes through my ears and I quickly wipe my tears away in the dark, looking back and I see Anya is slowly making her way towards me. I’m happy to see her, but I know that she’s mad at me for whatever reason, so I don’t say anything until she walks up and stops next to me, “What are you doing here?” She asks, though I think it’s a stupid question.

“Visiting,” I reply with a monotone voice. There’s an awkward silence that I couldn’t stand, but I didn’t know what to say to her.

“What’s bothering you?” She eventually breaks the silence and asks, but I don’t want to tell her, not until she tells me why she’s ignoring me. It wasn’t a special occasion, nor was it either of our parents birthday, so whenever one of us would come here, something always had to be eating at our brains; something was bothering both of us.

“What’s bothering you?” I ask in return with a hint of aggravation. Anya turned her attention towards our parents graves, silence fell around us once more and I sighed. “Why can’t you just talk to me?” I wonder, though I’m still monotone and it barely even sounded like a question.

Anya still hesitated, taking a moment to think about her next words, “It’s really hard to talk about, Jason.. Especially with you,” she finally spoke up and I looked towards her, wondering what she could mean.

“Why me?” I asked, curious and now I really wanted to know what was bothering her; had I done something to piss her off? I couldn’t think of anything I had done besides that night I had told all my sisters the truth about Faline and Lucy, but I didn’t think she’d be mad at me this long for something like that.. Would she? It wasn’t like her at all to hold grudges.

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“I don’t know, it just is,” she replies and looks to me, her eyes are sad and even through the dark, I can tell she had been crying.

“Come on, Anya.. We used to always talk. You’ve helped me in a lot of ways growing up, let me at least try to return the favor for once,” I admit. I had been a terrible brother, her and Hitomi raised me like our mother would’ve, but it was never the same; I turned into a very troubled child, which is where I am now, except now I’m a troubled man. No.. I’m still only a child, who am I kidding..

“Yeah.. Used to..” She emphasized the past tense and I sighed.

“Are you and Dwight doing okay?” I asked, watching as she looked to my fathers headstone and her expression went somewhat pained.

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“I’m sorry, Jason.. It was wrong of me to walk out on you, Faline, and everyone that one night, but I just couldn’t take it,” she replied, her voice beginning to give out and tears welled up in her eyes. I grew worried as I looked to her, I hadn’t seen Anya cry tears of sadness ever since our parents had died; something must be really wrong..

“It’s okay.. I just wanted to know why, that’s all.. But, if it’s hard for you, then you don’t have to tell me, just forget I asked. I don’t want you to be upset,” I retorted, looking over her face a little again and I noticed she couldn’t fight the tears anymore, seeing a few fall from her eyes.

Anya ignored my words, continuing anyways, “I-I found a ring, in one of Dwight’s pockets when I was doing laundry about 2 months ago.. H-He was going to ask me to marry him, but..” Anya began and I was happy for her and Dwight, though the ‘but’ at the end of her sentence made my heart sink. “You know we work at the hospital.. And one day I wanted to get checked out to see if I was healthy. Dwight wants children so bad.. So bad.. But, I.. I can’t give him any,” she continued, and I was a little confused.

“Why not..? You’re crazy about him.. Do you not want to be with him anymore?” I wonder, watching as her tears got worse and she tried covering her face.

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“It’s not that.. Mentally, emotionally, I want to give him as many as he wants, I want the same thing.. But, physically, I’m incapable. I’ll never get pregnant, Jason, ever. I’ll never be able to hold my own baby, one that I’ve created,” she continued and I understood now; she’s infertile. My heart sank even more, now into my stomach and I felt terrible for her; that’s why she couldn’t be around Faline, Lucy and I, she can’t have kids, and me already having one and now I’m having another.. Well, Lucy wasn’t mine.. But..

Dammit, a tear fell from my eye as well as I watched Anya cry, the most destroyed I had ever seen her. She cried more when our parents died, but I knew that she cared more about this than anything else now; she loved kids, always did, she was just like Mom.. Exactly like her. She loved children, was so kind and gentle, such a humble and forgiving person, and she had been cursed by being unable to have children? I felt like shit, I hated that I was capable of it and to her knowledge, I had already knocked up two different woman, to her she must’ve took it as rubbing it in her face.. I felt so sorry for her, I was crushed just as much as she was, just because I knew how much she wanted to experience being a mother; she was just like mom.. Just like her..

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I turned towards Anya as she cried heavily by herself, pulling her into a tight hug and tears then fell from my eyes as well. Jesus.. Here I am in her eyes getting ‘so many’ girls pregnant, when she can’t even have one, no wonder she walked out that one night; I didn’t blame her at all for leaving. She had always talked about Helena, Hitomi’s girl.. Ever since she was born, I knew that Anya was jealous, she showed signs as far as not wanting to be by Helena one minute, resenting Hitomi therefore resenting Helena, but then again, every now and then she would hold Helena and almost refuse to give her up once she had her in her arms.. Once she met Dwight, though, her hopes skyrocketed and we all knew she couldn’t wait to marry him and she was ecstatic about possibly having a child with him soon. I.. I had no idea what to tell her, besides the obvious.. 

“Anya..” I said softly, my own voice quivering as I heard her bawling into my shoulder and clenching her fists, gripping my shirt tightly, “I-I’m.. S-So sorry..” I continued and more tears fell from my eyes, holding her tighter and I knew just by how hard she was letting it out, I was the first one to know about it. Hitomi and Julia might know, since my sisters talked with each other more than I talked with them, but by how she was acting, and how hard she was crying, I somehow knew that she came here to let it all out to Mom and Dad, like I wanted to do about Lucy, but we had found one another instead.

Surprisingly, Anya was able to control herself and she continued, talking into my shoulder, “Now that I told him.. Now that he knows I can’t have children, we’ve been getting into more and more fights that would normally never happen.. I-It’s.. It’s as if he’s looking for reasons to leave me instead of coming right now and saying it.. H-He doesn’t want me anymore, I can’t give him what we both want so bad, I can’t give him what he wants..” She continued and cried even more, and I hugged her even tighter, if I even could. My God, I never thought this would happen. I couldn’t describe the guilt and pity I had for Anya; I’d do anything to switch places with her.. Anything. She, out of anyone I know, deserves a child the most.. I can’t even describe what I’m feeling for her right now.. I can’t even imagine how she feels..

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I was at a loss for words, all I wanted to do was go to the hospital and beat the living shit out of Dwight; he’d be lucky that he’d already be at a hospital to get treatment fast from the things I would do to him. Anya’s phone goes off and I  feel her pull away from my hug, pulling out her phone and looking to it, tears still falling from her eyes and they splashed onto her phone. “I-I have to go, Jason.. I’m on call tonight and they need me,” she says, the frog still in her throat, “Thank you, for listening.. I’ll talk to you soon, okay?” She continues and I sigh.

“Anytime.. Take care..” I wanted her to stay, to talk to me more, give me more details, but I knew she had to go right to work, so I didn’t keep her from going.. I watched as she wiped her eyes and got rid of her tears and walked back towards the main gate, leaving the cemetery and I could’t help but wonder how her condition came to be; it was so rare and foreign, and so unfair.. 

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I look back to my mothers grave and sigh heavily, knowing that she would be devastated to hear such news from Anya if she was still alive; I hate to admit it, but sometimes I feel like it’s better that she isn’t here to witness some of the things we’re going through. “Bye, ma,” I say softly, and although I had stopped crying already, from my own painful realization and also from Anya’s news, I fight back more tears as I walk away and back to my car. I left the graveyard feeling more depressed than I ever have, I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt like this.. Maybe when Mom died? I don’t know.. I can’t go home yet, it’s still early. I looked at my phone as I drove into the city, seeing that Faline had texted me, asking where I was since I had been home and dropped off Lucy. I haven’t answered her all day, not once; had I not dropped off Lucy she would still be under the assumption that I hadn’t even left the campus yet. I drove through the city, admiring my view and I searched for a good bar to go to to get a drink. Or seven.. After my night, no, the passed week and a day, have been difficult. I had drank since then, but I was ready to blackout everything, I needed to forget it all in order to act normally.. Whenever I decided to finally face Faline.

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I got to a bar and there weren’t many people as of yet, seeing only a few people walking around and drinking, dancing, enjoying themselves as all I wanted to do was drink my depression away. The bartender was.. Okay looking, she wore too much makeup though; maybe it was for her job, but either way, I didn’t care for it. I asked her to make me a drink with vodka, something sugary; I always blackout from vodka, and sadly, I was desperately wanting to do that tonight. 

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Drink, after drink, after drink, I kept putting them down, one after the other. The bartender was hitting on me all night and I barely paid for anything, though I only flirted back to get some drinks for free.  I felt like such a pussy for ordering nothing but stupid girl drinks, but it was the only thing I could think of getting that would get me hammered the quickest. 

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When did I get outside? What is this terrible green spot light on me? Where am I? No, I’m at the bar.. Did I pay my tab? The lights from the city are shining behind me and there aren’t any stars, I can see another city in the distance and I feel like the brightness of the horizon is three times as large as it is; its constantly swaying in my vision and I blink hard a few times, trying to focus but I can’t. Did someone say to me a little while ago that they would call me a cab? I can’t remember..

When did I get outside? ..Did I pay my tap? The same thoughts ran through my head over and over and my head was spinning. I could barely stand, gripping the side of the complex and I could feel the cold siding on my fingertips. I reached into my pocket and it seemed like it took ages to pull it out as my entire body continued to sway. A light was blinking green and I read a text message, or tried to.. After about 30 seconds of trying to get my eyes to focus, I managed to read the first few letters of the name, Fal, is all I could make out and I assumed it was Faline. My eyes then tried to read her text, but I couldn’t make out a single word, the light from the phone only hurting my eyes more and I grew even more dizzy.

“Jason?”  I heard a voice call out my name a few times and I eventually turned around, seeing someone I didn’t know coming over to me and helping be towards the curb so I didn’t fall. I recognized the car, it was a taxi, I guess someone did call me one. “Where we goin’, buddy?” The driver asked and I slurred my words, but eventually told him where I lived as my head bobbed in that car.

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The cab takes me home and it seemed as if I had just shut my eyes for no more than a few seconds and we were already at my house. I don’t even remember punching in the key code to open the gate, nor how I had managed to get out my keys and open the front door as well. My legs brought me straight to the kitchen and I looked at the clock hanging on the wall, but I couldn’t read it at all. I went to the fridge and opened it, looking inside and I noticed that there was beer in there still, grabbing one and popping off the top with my thumb effortlessly and I heard the cap hit the ground, but I wasn’t about to get on my hands and knees searching for it to throw it out. 

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I heard a noise downstairs and it sounded like the front door, looking to my phone and seeing that it was almost two in the morning and still I hadn’t received anything from Jason; was that him downstairs? I got out of bed and went to check, hearing a noise then coming from the kitchen and when I reached the doorway, I saw Jason sitting in one of the dining chairs, holding a beer and he seemed bothered. “Jason?” I questioned, watching as he turned his head slowly to look at me. From where I was standing, I could smell the alcohol coming off of him, his eyes looked bloodshot and tired, and he didn’t even answer me when I said his name. “Jason.. Where have you been? ..Are you drunk?” I question next and my expression is worried, watching as his body swayed a little as he sat and I was worried he might fall off of the chair.

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As I went to go walk towards him, he instantly stood to his feet and I watched as he caught himself from falling, turning his back to me and drinking more of his beer; though I doubt he really needed any more. “Jason, why haven’t you talked to me all day? I was worried, I thought something might’ve happened to you,” I tried to talk with him once more.

“I-I’m fine.. As.. As you can see,” he replied in a rough manner and he slurred his words, struggling to talk to me.

“Is everything else okay?” I wondered, happy that he was alright, though I couldn’t help but wonder if something was bothering him to the point where it would drive him to get this drunk and ignore me. I watch him go to the counter and use it as a support to stand, “Did.. You wanna talk about anything?” I wonder as well.

“Jesus, how man-many questions are you going to ask!?” He suddenly raised his voice and set down his beer rather harshly onto the counter; I thought he was going to break it.

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“Jason.. Please don’t speak to me that way. I know you’re, well.. Not yourself right now,” I reply, taking another step closer, though I don’t think that I should’ve.

“Really? What gave that away?” He asks sarcastically and turns his attention away from me, looking at the wall for all I knew and I was growing less tolerable to him by the second. I had never seen him this way before, completely plastered and easily angered, something had to be bothering him. The last time we had seen one another, he couldn’t bare to say goodbye and I knew he didn’t want to leave my side, but now, he seemed like he didn’t want anything to do with me.. I had expected seeing him for the first time in over a week, he would’ve acted different, more excited to see me, just as much as I was to see him.

“Don’t talk to me like that when I’m clearly only worried sick about you,” he continues to ignore me and I feel as if he didn’t even hear the words I had just said, “So you’re ignoring me now, Jason? Really mature.. Is this the kind of behavior you’re going to use when the baby gets here?” I asked, getting frustrated a little.

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Jason looks to me and I knew I hit a nerve when I had said that, his expression turns angered and he makes his way over to me as he answers, “Jesus! Isn’t it, a li-little obvious that I don’t want to fucking talk to you right now?!” He yells and my eyes widen in shock, taking a step back as he approaches me.

“Jason, I-”

“And stop saying my fucking name! You sound like a fucking broken record!” He adds and I didn’t know what to say to him, I was in shock that he would act this way towards me when I had just experienced him a week ago not being able to leave me, or let go of me; all I wanted when I saw him was for him to maybe tell me that he had missed me, I wanted to embrace him like we always used to do. 

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After that, I didn’t say anything else, I kept my mouth shut in fear of him only getting more enraged. I had never seen Jason become violent before, and he’s never given me a reason to be scared of him, but the look in his eyes tonight did just that; they scared me. I bowed my head and he walked passed me in a hurry, fed up with me I assumed and I wanted to know why he was acting like this so badly. Had I done something? I did text him a few times today, and call him, but I don’t think I came off as annoying.. It’s not like I called him every five minutes, but every few hours I would ask for an update on when he would be home; I was so, so excited to see him. I woke up from my nap earlier to the sound of Lucy through the baby monitor and I thought that Jason would be around somewhere in the house as well, but he wasn’t, he had just dumped Lucy on me and left. With every fiber of my being, I wanted to know what was running through his head, I wanted to know what could’ve triggered this in him, but then again, I couldn’t shake the thought that maybe something else was wrong with him.. Was I the problem?

Generation 2, Chapter 8

ATTENTION: This chapter is super long and a lot happens.. It’s the longest one I’ve written yet, I hope it makes up for me being on a random hiatus. XD Enjoy.

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The summer is over, and I’m going back to the college dorm tonight so I can continue my education. Faline and I are still dating, I suppose it’s safe to say that we’re an item now, though it still kind of feels weird saying ‘I have a girlfriend’ out loud. I didn’t mind saying it, I actually liked to, but I can’t remember the last time I’ve said those words, or even if I ever have; I guess that’s why it feels weird. I didn’t want to go back to college, I wanted to stay with Faline and be there for her through her pregnancy like I was for Lana, but she insisted that one of us goes back, and seeing as how I only had one year left and she had two, it was me that was going. I was going to miss her, I was already convinced that I was going to travel back and forth as much as I could, probably every weekend or every other weekend to see her and see how the baby is doing; she moved in with me finally about a week ago. This year was going to be the most difficult for me, but Faline gave me confidence that I could pull it off, and she said she’d even help me with school work if she could whenever I would come home to visit since I’m so lazy and bad when it comes to school. But, I also had confidence in myself, Faline and the baby fueled me to want to try harder; also, I had forgotten until today that Auturo said he wasn’t going to help me this year, so I’d have to try my hardest on my own to pass.

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The night before . . .

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Yesterday was hard for us both. My heart hurt it was pounding so hard last night since I had finally told my sisters about Lana, Lucy and Faline. Faline finally convinced me that I needed to tell them what was going on before they found out themselves and then I would be in a huge mess of trouble. I felt like the confession wasn’t going to go smoothly, and it didn’t. I’ve somehow managed to keep everything from them over the summer until last night when I told them everything. Faline was beginning to get upset as well, I was beginning to make her feel like I was ashamed of her since I hadn’t told my family yet about her pregnancy, so to prove to her that I wasn’t, I caved in to finally telling them. Since she was going to start a family with me, she wanted to meet my sisters, and since I’ve already met her parents and her twin brother, she thought it was only fair for her to meet my siblings and to let them know they were going to be Aunt’s; well, they already were for Lucy, but they didn’t know that at the time. Plus, I also wanted to tell my sisters so that Faline wouldn’t be alone while I was gone; she did have her parents and brother, but they lived far away and my sisters didn’t, and I felt like my sisters deserved this chance to get to know the woman I was having a baby with since they didn’t get a chance to with Lana. I haven’t spoken a word to Lana since the night we had that fight and Faline was here; we’ve grown more and more apart ever since that night and it’s been hard to visit Lucy. 

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To say the least, my sisters were in complete awe and shock when I introduced them to Faline and Lucy. At first, they didn’t know what to think, or say, or do, they just stood there, all of their eyes going between Faline, Lucy and I for what seemed like long grueling minutes. Eventually I explained everything to them; how I’ve been hooking up with my psychiatrists daughter since I was 15, how I got her pregnant with Lucy, why I hid it from them, why I’m going to college, when I got Faline pregnant, everything. Faline took Lucy out of the room for a little bit as I explained to my sisters why I kept her from them, I didn’t want Lucy to hear my words and get sad or think that she was an accident; well, even though she technically was, but I didn’t think of her like that after I had first saw her when she was born because I fell in love with her immediately. I told my sisters that Lana and I don’t get along, and I knew they wouldn’t get along with her either, let alone like her even the tiniest bit, so I saved them from a lot of drama that I knew none of them needed in their lives. Plus, with how Lana’s been using my money, I wouldn’t put it passed her if she sunk as low as to ask my sisters for money, too.

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Hitomi and Julia took the news the easiest. Julia was happy for me from the beginning and I knew instantly that she liked Faline and Lucy; you could tell she was happy that I was having another baby, too. Hitomi acted as the mother of us all, and although she was disappointed that I had gotten two different girls pregnant that I technically wasn’t involved with at the time, she quickly warmed up to Lucy when she held her and she loved that Lucy and her daughter Helena could be play mates since they were so close in age. Anya, however, wasn’t pleased in the slightest. As I was explaining everything to them all, Anya decided to get up and leave, she couldn’t handle it for whatever reason and I had chased her out of the house to find out what was wrong. She wouldn’t say anything to me, so I just let her leave. She hasn’t talked to me at all today, either, not even to call and wish me luck at my last year of college, like she usually does before I’ve gone every year. Hopefully she’ll come around soon and talk to me..

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It was around noon and it was passed the time that I should have left, but Faline and I have been standing in the foyer for fifteen minutes already, unable to separate from one another. I kept beginning to say goodbye, then end up kissing her for a few minutes, then trying to leave again; it was an ongoing cycle that I wasn’t really against at all. Her baby bump hits my stomach every time I pulled her in and it only compelled me to call all of this college stuff off and stay home with her, but I knew she wouldn’t let me. For only being four months along, Faline’s stomach is larger than Lana’s was when she was around this far into her pregnancy with Lucy, but then again Faline is a lot shorter and smaller than Lana, maybe her stomach just looks bigger because she’s smaller?

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Three hours away is way too far, I don’t want to leave; I wish I had transferred to a closer school before this new year popped up seemingly out of nowhere. The summer was over too soon and I felt as if I had just gotten back yesterday; time was flying by with Faline around to make my days a lot smoother. Faline and I have finally made it outside, yet still can’t separate from one another. Every year so far, I’ve never had anyone to say goodbye to really, I didn’t think it would be this hard. Hitomi, Anya and Julia usually always call me and wish me luck and tell me to be safe on the drive, to call them every now and then to tell them how I’m doing, but I’ve never had someone like Faline to put the thoughts into my head that I shouldn’t go at all and I should stay home. Every second with her on the driveway gets me that much closer to blowing everything off and staying home, but finally, as she gives me one last kiss and throws her arms around me, I know she’s about to finally let me go.

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I can barely pay attention to the road as I slowly pull out of the driveway and begin my 3 hour drive to college. Faline and the house are in my rear view mirror and she doesn’t make a movement to go inside until I can’t see her anymore; I already want to turn around and say that I forgot something, just so I could say goodbye to her once more. What’s gotten into me? Why the hell am I acting like such a dog? I’m always happy and excited to be around her, willing to fetch for anything she should ask for or need, I even put my tail between my legs when I make her upset and what’s weird is that I actually feel bad and want to apologize; I’ve never felt like any girl has ever deserved an apology from me, ever. It’s only Thursday and I don’t have my first class until Monday, but Faline wanted me to go early so I could get used to being back there, and also so I could focus and get my mind into ‘college mode’ so I wasn’t scrambled on Sunday night or Monday morning to get there. I was already planning to come visit her the weekend after this one; I missed her already and I wasn’t even a mile away yet.

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The entire drive to college, all three hours of it, was unpleasant. My stomach felt sick the entire time and all I wanted to do was turn back and go home. Only when I finally got to the dorm did I start feeling a little better, the sight of it calmed my nerves a little as I reminded myself that I wasn’t going to be alone at least while I was away from Faline; Auturo, Sabastian and Dean were all supposed to be here, and I admit that I was a little excited to see them again. I walked into the dorm and listened for a few long seconds, trying to see if I could tell if anyone was home without needing to venture through the entire house.

“Dean?” I called out, not hearing anything in return, “Auturo? Ian?” I called for the others, not hearing anything still and I wondered if they weren’t back from summer break yet. 

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I took this opportunity to call Faline and let her know that I had gotten here okay, I missed hearing her voice, anyways. She picked up after two rings and I smiled when I heard how upbeat and happy her tone was.

Hey, did you make it okay?” She wondered first.

“Yeah, I just got here. How are you?” 

Good, Julia and Hitomi came over to say goodbye to you, but you had just missed them. Hitomi had to leave to get Helena from daycare, but Julia’s been here since, she’s such awesome company,” Faline added with a giggle and I only smiled more.

“Oh, well tell her thanks, I’m happy she stopped by to keep you company already,” I replied.

Yeah, me too, and I’ll tell her.. Call me whenever you want, um.. I’ll see you next weekend though, yeah?” She wondered and her voice sounded a little bashful.

“Yeah, same goes for you.. I’ll see you soon,” I answered and she said okay, but hesitated a moment and I grew a little nervous wondering if she was waiting for me to say anything else. But, she eventually ended the silence and said goodbye to me and we hung up. I stood there for a moment, wondering what that silence was between us and why my stomach was beginning to turn into knots. 

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After I put my phone away, I made my way into the kitchen where the fridge had fresh food inside that wasn’t there from last year, thank goodness; Auturo was always the one to keep track of the food, so he must be here already, just not at the dorm. Despite how much he had gone grocery shopping, I just ended up eating a plain bowl of cereal as I sat by my self, alone in the house and wondering what the hell I should do until the other guys get back. After eating, I was a little exhausted from the trip still and decided to take a nap, going back into the living room and dropping myself on the couch lazily. 

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I woke up alone, but within about 5 minutes of waking up, Dean walked in through the door and he shook my hand as I sat on the couch, “Pleasure to see ‘ya, friend, how was your summer?” Dean asked, taking a seat on the couch opposite from mine. 

“It was good, really good. What about you?” I asked in return with a smile on my lips.

“Same, it was pretty awesome. Sucks we’re back, though, I could’a used another month or so off,” Dean replied with a chuckle and I laughed; I coudn’t agree with him more.

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“Where’s Auturo and Sabastian? Are they back yet?” I questioned, though I already knew Auturo was here.

“Yeah, we all got here today I think except Auturo, he got back on Monday for whatever reason. He’s such a freak about school stuff,” Dean said with a chuckle. “But, we gotta start off the school year right and go out like tradition. What about if we went to Barefoot?” Dean suggested with a huge smile and my expression went blank. Barefoot was a strip club we usually always go to a few times out of the school year to get away from the stress of college stuff, but I, for the first time ever, didn’t really want to go there; I tend to go a little crazy with the guys there.

“I don’t know.. What about just a regular bar? Maybe one in town or something,” I replied and I noticed Dean give me an expression that confused me a little; I couldn’t tell if he was shocked by my answer or if he was contemplating just going to the bar like I wanted.

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“Aw, come on now. We haven’t been to Barefoot in months. Besides, it’s usually you who’s the one suggesting we all go out together first thing, you don’t seem as enthused as you usually are. I thought that was your favorite place, anyways,” he pondered and I sighed. It was my favorite place, it’s really expensive and uptight, but fun; plus, almost all of the girls were gorgeous and even better yet, clean. But, I didn’t feel like changing and looking nice, I was still tired from the drive and I missed Faline, I didn’t want so much excitement on my first night back.

“Well, I’m still tired from the drive. I was just thinking we’d go to a close bar, get wrecked, and walk home or something. At least that’s all I really have in me to do tonight,” I replied and I hear Dean sigh in disappointment, but he continued to press on.

“Come on, man, let’s just go, stop bein’ such a pussy. If you wanted to go and didn’t, you’d hound me until I finally said yes, so come on,” Dean continued to try and sway my answer, and sadly it was beginning to work. “I met someone before I left  for the summer, too. Now, I know we said no datin’ any of the girls from Barefoot, but we started dating before I even bothered to ask where she worked, and she works there, so it ain’t against the rules this time, and don’t you tell me otherwise, neither,” Dean continued and I sighed, finally hearing the real reason on why he wanted to go there tonight. 

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I finally agree in going to Barefoot with Dean and he calls up Auturo and Sabastian to tell them to meet us there and I go to my room to change and get ready. I could care less that Dean’s dating someone from Barefoot, I wasn’t even a part of that deal that he’s talking about, either, I just happened to be in the same room when they discussed it. I’d still never date someone from there, but that’s only because I don’t date strippers in general, I don’t really know the real reason why. There’s a woman there who absolutely adores me, and I adore her more than anything, but she wouldn’t give up her job to be with me, so I still see her only every now and then. Though, whenever we do see one another, things always tend to get a little hot and heavy quickly.

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A half an hour later, the guys and I all meet up there and we walk in together, the distinct smell of booze and perfume exciting all of our senses and we all grew more alive and ready for the night that was ahead of us. We’re greeted at the door by Auturo and Sabastian’s favorite girls, Avery and Noelle; Avery was the best bartender in town, and the blonde French bombshell was the best at lap dances, but her private dances are what every guy needs to experience at least once in his lifetime. Barefoot was a club with very little rules, but what little rules there were, they take them very seriously; You can’t touch the girls unless they do it first or tell you it’s okay, and absolutely no sex, though everything else is allowed just so long as you pay upfront. 

“Welcome, gentlemen,” Avery began in a sultry tone.

“Bonjour, boys!” Noelle welcomed us with her hard French accent.

“You guys going upstairs like usual?” Avery then asked and Dean nodded with a triumphant smile.

“You know it, doll,” he replied and the girls looked to one another and smiled, giggling as they turned around and lead us passed the red rope that sectioned off the club; upstairs was where the better girls were, though it was a lot more expensive. Luckily, no one ever gets stuck with the bill, we always try to keep our own tabs because we may do things with the girls that isn’t within the group, and the private visits are what makes these girls so much money.

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We all followed the girls passed the red rope and I looked to Dean who was looking at his jacket and picking off little specs of lint, trying to look his best and I rolled my eyes, “She’s not going to care if you have some shit on you, you look fine, you can’t even notice the crap you’re pulling off of yourself, anyways,” I berate him a little and he scoffs.

“Fuck off, I’m just tryin’ to look nice for ‘er.. Not everyone has $900 suits for no God damn reason like you just lyin’ ’round,” Dean rebutted and I chuckled.

“Hey, this place is reason enough to own a suit like this, I don’t want to look like a schmuck like you guys,” I teased in return and adjust myself in my attire, fixing the buttons if need be, “Why do you think Bennu doesn’t charge me for the private room visits?” I add quietly as I look around the room and Dean looks to me with a rather impressed expression.

“She doesn’t charge you? ..Have you guys ever, you know.. Broken the rules?” Dean wonders and I can’t help the smile that stretches across my lips.

“Hey man, whatever happens in those rooms, stays in those rooms, yeah?” I ask with a threatening tone but keep my smile, watching as he nodded and understood that we shouldn’t talk about it anymore, though he catches my drift.

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Dean and I continue on to catch up with Auturo and Sabastian and his question echoes in my mind, along with my answer that followed it; Faline would leave me in an instant if she knew what I was about to do tonight, what I do every time I come here, but, she won’t find out, ever. I’ve grown accustom to keeping my Bridgeport life separate from my College life, and so far it’s been easy to do since none of my friends know about Lucy still, and I haven’t said anything about Faline being pregnant either. I admit, I felt a small amount of guilt as I walked up the stairs to the best part of the club, but after I get a lot of drinks in me, I’ll feel better about it all.

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We get upstairs and Sabastian is already talking to Noelle, his favorite lady there. I’ve had private dances from every girl here, but Noelle made the whole dance look like an art form for how perfectly her hips can move. I like a girl who let’s me be the one in control, but Noelle is the exact opposite when it comes to her private room sessions, so after the first time I was with her, I moved on and haven’t had a private room with her since. Don’t get me wrong, she’s one girl I wish I had gotten the chance to break the rules with, but she was a little too dominating for me, she fit better with Sabastian. 

We walked passed Sabastian and Dean stopped Avery, her then looking to him with a sweet smile, “Hey, is um, Bunny workin’ tonight?” Dean asked and I let out a gentle snicker and Auturo kept himself from laughing as well; Auturo and I hated when girls gave themselves pet names.

Avery looked to us as if we were being children, but she kept her seductive grin anyways, “Eyes to the stage, tiger,” Avery replied and we all looked simultaneously to the stage in the middle of the room.

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Avery went to the bar and we walked around to get a better view of the stage that Bunny was entertaining on. Auturo and I thought it would be funny to mess with Dean a little, both looking to one another with the same conniving grins and we both put on personas as if we were analyzing a test subject, and overall just being cruel just because of her silly name.

“Don’t talk to loud, we’ll spook the wildlife.”

“Do you think she travels by hareplane?”

How many carrots do you think she can fit in her mouth?”

“I think I ran over her cousin with the lawnmower the other day.”

“How often do you think she cuts the grass?”

“Do you think she’d freeze up while crossing the street looking into the headlights of a car?”

“Guys, come on, shut the fuck up,” Dean finally chimed in and I let out a chuckle I couldn’t hold back anymore at Auturo’s final comment, this was too fun, and just too funny. I wasn’t very impressed, her pole skills were lacking, she looked like a little girl, and the worse thing about it, she belonged to Dean. If I wanted to take Noelle from Sabastian, I could, because she’s not his girlfriend, but I couldn’t do that with Bunny and Dean; I disliked that a little.

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The music pulsated throughout the room and Auturo and I were just glad that she didn’t hear anything we had said. “Seriously though, Dean, Bunny isn’t her real name, right?” Auturo asked, nudging Dean’s arm and he looked to us.

“What ‘re you, dumb? Course that ain’t her name,” Dean answered, looking back to the stage and not continuing.

Auturo and I looked to each other questionably, then back to Dean, “If Bunny isn’t her name, than what is it?” I asked, both of us starring him down a little until we realized something that made us both start laughing, “You don’t even know her name, do you!” I continued and Auturo joined in laughing with me.

“Yeah I do! It’s just harder to pronounce. It’s in Polish and it means ‘Bunny’. Shit, get off my ass already,” Dean added and as we calmed down our laughing, we could tell he was getting tired of this quickly. Auturo sighed and looked to me, rolling his eyes at Dean not being able to handle our jokes tonight and I shrugged at him in return, not really knowing what else to do.

Bunny’s dance was over and the first person she saw was Dean, a wide smile forming on her red lips and we all eyed her up and down. 

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“Dean! You came!” Bunny called out and jumped off the little stage into his arms, her voice very bubbly and her slight accent intrigued me a little, sounding almost if she was from Mississippi or Alabama. That’s probably why Dean liked her so much, Dean was straight from Texas, and although their accents were somewhat the same, her’s was still a little different; both were from the more Southern states, though. After Bunny had greeted Dean with a huge hug and a few pecks on the cheek, she looked over to Auturo and I, though her eyes ran over me much more than they did to him. “Who’re your handsome friends, Dean?” She wondered, her tone curious and slightly seductive.

Dean looked over to the two of us as he still held Bunny, “That there’s Auturo, and that’s Jason,” Dean answered her and Auturo smirked at her and that was it, looking away and around the club again, but my eyes traveled over her a little longer. I watched as Bunny bit the bottom of her lip just slightly by her lip ring as she looked at me, and she didn’t stop looking at me until Dean had caught her attention again. 

“We’re going in here,” Auturo said and I looked over to him when he motioned his head to another area with a stage that was blocked off a little by the main stage, in a more secluded area most likely for larger party groups. But, the place seemed a little dead tonight surprisingly, so we felt we could sit wherever. I followed Auturo into the other area and Dean stayed with Bunny to talk with her more, or go to a private room, I don’t know. Don’t really care, either.

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Auturo and I sat down and Avery dropped off a few beers to get us started off with. I watched as Auturo eyed her the most out of any other girl there and I could tell he wanted to do things with her, but he often didn’t ask for it. If the girl were to come up to him and ask him, then yeah, he would, but I don’t know if it’s his pride, or just a little weird twitch that he can’t handle and he can’t ask a woman for anything. Maybe girls like that about him though, he’s a mysterious man and even though we’ve been friends for four years now, I still feel like I know nothing about him.

I downed three beers and so did Auturo as we talked and watched a few different girls dance on the pole in front of us, but there was still one girl I hadn’t seen yet, and it was starting to upset me a little. Is she even working tonight? A few girls had come over to me and ask if I wanted a dance, a private dance, and even a private room, but I politely denied them all and they just looked at me as if I was weird for saying no, but as they walked away, I could tell on their faces they knew why I was saying no, and it was because they weren’t the girl I was looking and waiting for.

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But, after 3 girls had came and went on the pole, not satisfying my eyes nearly enough as they needed to be, my caramel-skinned Egyptian walked up onto the stage and my heart began to race a little from her hot pink attire and transparent pink stockings. Her stage name was Cleopatra, for obvious reasons, but Bennu was all that I knew her by and I liked that better anyways. There wasn’t anything about her that I didn’t like; her hair was so dark and long and she threw it around every chance she could, her body was perfect and even her breasts were real which was a huge plus, I wasn’t a big fan of fake ones.

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Auturo looked over to me and he could tell that I had found what I wanted, “Still choosing her this time?” He wondered, even though he already knew the answer; I think his way of asking that was a way to see if he could even be with her tonight, but no, I never shared. None of them could touch her, for the reason of me calling dibs on her for the rest of our lives as long as she works there, and also by the fact that she more than likely wouldn’t want to do anything with them anyways if I’m around, which I always was around these guys. 

“Yeah, like always,” I say rather proudly as I tilt my head while watching her, trying to get better views of certain areas as she danced. 

“None of us have been with her in a private room except you, what’s she like? How do you afford that every time?” Auturo asked and I smirked.

“She lets me come for free sometimes,” I reply with a quick wink in his direction and his expression turns to surprise, then eventually turns into complete and utter jealousy as he looks back to her. I lied, but only to not make him more jealous than he already was.. After the first time I was with Bennu, I didn’t have to pay for anything else just so long as she was the one doing it; I do turn down all of the other girls, but it isn’t for the money, I just have the most fun when I’m in the company of my beautiful Egyptian.

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When Bennu was done dancing, her eyes locked with mine and her entire face lit up, “Jazon!” She called out softly and ran over to me, dropping herself into my lap and she put her hand to the back of my head to bring me into a deep kiss. She soon ended the kiss and instantly her lips found my neck, licking and biting at me while slowly grinding her warmth into my lap to excite me more, and of course it worked instantly. Just her scent alone and watching her dance got me excited beyond belief, but now that she was in my lap, I couldn’t wait a second longer for us to go into a private room.

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Perfect timing, Avery.. She came back over to see how we were doing on drinks, but noticed Auturo wasn’t getting any attention like the rest of us were, setting down his beer for him and I watched Avery as Bennu continued to kiss at my neck and even moving the collar of my shirt and suit to get at my collarbone. Avery leaned over more towards Auturo and I watched as his lips quickly smiled at her, she leaned in more and whispered something into his ear and it was funny to watch his cheeks blush and his mouth seemed to be battling itself on whether to be excited, shocked, intrigued, or all of the above. Avery then took his hand and led him away from the area we were in and I assumed they were going to a private room, which is exactly what I wanted to do this instant or Bennu was going to leave marks all over my neck and I didn’t need that.

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I leaned my lips into Bennu’s ear and suggested we go to her room and she finally pulls away from my neck, nodding excitedly and she hops off my lap. She takes my hand and I stand as she then pulls me along, eyeing her body up and down and I already want to start undoing the back of her outfit. Bennu was the only one I broke the rules with, and she’s told me before that she doesn’t do that with anyone else. Even though it seems a little hard to believe, I like to think she’s telling the truth, at least she makes it believable enough for me to not think otherwise. 

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We walk out of the area and back into the main room where I see Dean is still talking with Bunny and Sabastian is eyeing Noelle like his life depended on it while she dances around the pole. As Bennu and I approach the others, I only notice Bunny look my direction and she quickly eyes me up and down, then her expression went to slight jealousy when she looked to Bennu pulling me along. I look back to Bennu and smile, seeing her look back at me with wanting eyes and I can hardly wait until we get to her room. 

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We eventually get to Bennu’s room and she looks back at me with another excited smile as she opens the door and I eagerly follow her inside, shutting the door behind me and I can finally relax now that I’m in a room without a security camera on me. 

“Zo, I aven’t zeen you in a vhile,” Bennu begins and her Egyptian accent makes my entire being quake with desire; the best way I can describe it is a cross between Russian and Indian but more soft spoken, often finding her replacing the ‘s’ with ‘z’ in certain words, and even the ‘b’ is sometimes replaced with the sound of a ‘p’. But, I can’t get enough of it.

“Summer break, it’s my first day back though. Had to pay you a little visit of course,” I reply with a soft grin and I can tell her by her expression that she missed me, “Now get over here,” I demand and keep my grin.

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When Bennu got close enough, I wrapped my arms around her and put my hands on her ass, gripping it tightly and pulling her pelvis against mine to show her how happy I was to be with her. She giggled at my actions, “Happy to zee me, huh?” She questioned teasingly and I brought one of my hands up to run my fingers through her hair on the back of her head. I gripped her hair gently and tilted her head back, forcing her lips to meet mine and I kissed her hard, soon hearing her begin to hum moans and her hands ran down my torso to the brim of my pants. 

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I lifted Bennu into my arms and she wrapped her legs around me instinctively as I brought her over to the bed and crawled over her, continuing our locked lips and I grew to hate the fabric that kept me from touching every inch of her skin. I couldn’t remember why I didn’t want to come here earlier, I was actually a little mad at myself that I had even thought that, and I didn’t want to be anywhere else, all I wanted to do was stay in her room until they closed at six in the morning. It even started to bother me that she wouldn’t leave her job for me like I’ve asked her so many times before, wondering what it was about it here that kept her from wanting to leave. Ever since I met her I’ve wanted to make her mine, maybe that’s why I always come back here, even though I know her answer is always going to be the same.

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I parted my lips from hers after a while and we both caught our breath and I looked into her bright brown eyes; I don’t know what came over me, “Marry me,” I said first and she widened her eyes and smiled, then laughed as I then put rough kisses on her clavicle.

“Jazon, not zis again.. A zouzand times, no,” she replied through her soft laughter and I gripped her breast somewhat roughly, continuing my lips further down and I did the same thing to the tops of her breasts that she was doing to my neck earlier. 

“Why not?” I asked next, continuing my kissing and my hand then ran over her shoulder and I pulled down the strap of her lingerie, beginning to expose more and more of her breast and my lips followed the fabric as it uncovered her.

“Pecause,” she answered simply, laying her head back and then letting out a soft gasp when my mouth found her nipple.

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It didn’t take me long to get rid of the fabric she wore that I hated so much, it always looked a lot better laying on the ground, anyways. I was never a fan of taking my clothes off with her here at the club, but only out of fear that we would get caught. It makes more sense for her to be completely naked than me be, but Bennu always convinced me that no one would bother us, insisting I at least take off my jacket and pants, so eventually I worked up the courage to do so.

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We got off of the bed to try and make less noise and to try and hide the potentially loud evidence we’d give away to any passerby; if we stayed on the bed it would be to obvious that we were breaking the rules. One thing about Bennu that I especially loved during our private room sessions was that she was, indeed, a rather vocal lover, and I loved needing to cover her mouth or bury his face into a pillow to hide her moans and cries due to what I would do to her. I also loved that her walls in the room were lined with nothing but mirrors; no paintings, artifacts, or even a light switch, just mirrors so I could see from every angle what I was doing to her. One of my favorite things to do was to put my hand to the front of her neck, just under her jaw, forcing her to keep her chin up so I could look at her face.

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Being against the bed even began to cause noise and the strength of every thrust was causing me to make her begin to push it a little, so I quickly pulled her away from the bed and laid her on the ground, effortlessly continuing my pace and I had to cover her mouth again from her cries, feeling each strong breath escape her nose against the side of my hand made it more intense along with the muffled humming moans she let out. She eventually tried to tell me something, but I kept my hand over her mouth and didn’t let her speak, holding her in place as I soon felt her body quake beneath me and once I knew she was satisfied, I reached my breaking point as well.

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Bennu had no words, like usual, after we were done and I curled myself around her to lay with her on the ground, wrapping my arm around her waist and pressing the front of her against me. We sat there and caught our breath, not needing to say a word, but once Bennu felt well enough to move, she positioned herself in between my legs and pressed her lips to mine, kissing me for a few long seconds and I never wanted it to stop. 

“Jesus.. What time is it?” I ask after our long kiss.

“Umm.. Ve’ve only peen here for about an hour,” Bennu replies with a gentle giggle following it, “Longer zan uzual. You must’ve mizzed me,” she adds and I chuckled, our fingers then intertwining and my chest felt weak when she then kissed me once more, but less rough and more so savoring it. 

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I realized it was about that time when I should leave before causing any suspicion, so I quickly get dressed and button up my suit, examining my clothes and making sure I still didn’t get anything on them that would leave any evidence. Bennu stood behind me, watching me adjust my attire and I smirked slightly, turning around and reaching for her to pull her back into my arms. “Get dressed and I’ll meet you back out there soon,” I tell her and she nods gently, kissing me once more and I still don’t want to leave her room, but I really need to to avoid getting in trouble. 

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I leave Bennu’s room and shut the door quickly behind me to hide anyone’s eyes from her naked body, but just as I close the door, my eyes meet a set of a darker blue shade than mine and Bunny is standing outside of what I assume is her room next to Bennu’s. “Reeks like sex out in this hallway,” she begins and I looked passed her and behind me as well, hoping no one else heard her comment. 

“Welcome to the strip club business, youngin. What’s the matter? Haven’t even been asked for your first blow job yet, have you?” I slightly insulted back and she raised a brow in frustration.

“I don’t suppose you wanna be my first, do you, sug?” She questioned back and even though I had already had my fill from Bennu, I was intrigued none the less.

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I stepped up closer and I watched as her eyes went over me nervously, “I guess I could see what you have to offer,” I replied to her comment with a bored tone and I could tell I was only making her more angered, her expression said it all, and yet, just as I thought I would be forced to bail on her, she gently reached her hand forward and took mine, pulling me into her room and not speaking another word.

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I shut the door behind me and looked around her room, not nearly as impressed as I would be since I had been to Bennu’s, giving her another bored expression. “You can tell that you’re new, you have a shitty set up. It’s not nearly as established,” I critiqued and she took it with a grain of salt.

“Why’d you come in here with me then, sugar?” She asked in return and I scoffed at her.

“Just wanted to get to know the girl Dean’s dating, and obviously she’s a slut,” I insult once more and look down at my suit, adjusting it accordingly and being a slight prick about it.

“Sug, I’m a stripper.. You came here to get entertainment, and I’m here to serve. Yeah, Dean’s my guy, but he knows what comes with this job, and he seems to find a way to accept it. I’d think if he was okay with it, than his best friend should be, too,” she replied.

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“One key difference, Bunny, I’m not paying for shit. If you want to break the rules or give out freebies, get Dean,” I answered with a blunt tone. I watched as Bunny then slipped herself gently onto the bed and I chuckled lightly at the thought that she could get me into bed that easily; I had preferences and needs, but they’ve already been satisfied, I thought it was a pathetic attempt to get me to sleep with her. I watched as she then brought her fingers to the edge of her panties and began to pull them down playfully, yet I still had no interest. “You don’t get things from me that easily, I don’t come here like the rest of them to just throw money at any girl that pays attention to me,” I pointed out her attempt to seduce me, knowing I wouldn’t pay for anything she had to offer, yet I knew by her body language that she wanted exactly what Bennu had received; her room was next door, did she hear everything that was going on?

“You only give Cleopatra over there attention and no one else.. That don’t seem that fair,” she replied with a fake pouting face and I was still bored of her.

“I’ve been a loyal customer to her for years now, of course I’d favor her more of the rest of you,” I point out.

“I’d say so.. You’re the first customer I know of since I’ve been workin’ here that’s stupid enough to break the rules,” she softly threatens and I don’t say anything. I couldn’t tell if she was blackmailing me to get what she wanted, or was just having a weird conversation with me. Either way, I didn’t want to risk her telling her boss anything about Bennu and I, so I complied with her and did the only thing I could think of to get her to keep her mouth shut without having to go to the extent of she wanted me to. I didn’t want to do this to Dean, but I didn’t want her to get Bennu and I in trouble; she’d lose her job here, and even though that’s exactly what I want her to do so she’d finally be with me, I couldn’t do that to her, either.

“Stand up,” I demand  and her eyes get a glint of excitement in them as she quickly stands to her feet again and brushes her fingers through her hair a couple of times as if it would make her any more appealing.

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I could tell she was a little nervous as I walked over to her and I kept walking towards her until she had backed into the wall and I looked down at her, gliding my finger over her skin from hip to hip. I move my head closer and our lips are about to touch, but I don’t connect them, my fingertips then finding their way underneath the fabric of her panties, “You won’t tell on me, right?” I more so demand than ask her not to and just as she was about to answer me, I knew it wasn’t going to be a simple ‘yes’ like I wanted, causing me to then roughly insert two of my fingers and she gasped at my sudden actions. She went to put her hands through my hair but I grabbed them both with my free hand and positioned them over her head, refusing her the ability to touch me at all. I kept up the rough pace with my fingers and her eyes shut and she couldn’t focus too easily, “You’re not going to tell anyone, isn’t that right,” I confirm once more with a stern tone and I watch as her lips then struggle to speak, “Louder,” I demand and she finally says what I want to hear.

“Y-Yes.. Yes!” She says loud enough for me to confirm and my fingers don’t stop their pleasurable torture in her until I feel her release; I think that might’ve been a new record time for me in getting a girl to cum like that, too.

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I soon pulled myself away from her and walked to her nightstand that had a box of tissues and I took one for myself to wipe off my hand, sticking the dirty tissue then into my suit pocket to dispose of when I went to the bathroom after this. I walked towards the door and she spoke up, “W-Wait, that’s it? You don’t want nothin’?” She wondered and it was obvious in her tone that she wanted me to stay, she even seemed a little insulted that I didn’t want anything from her. 

“Nope,” I answer simply, looking over my shoulder at her and my expression was blank as I waited to see if there was anything else.

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I turned around when I noticed her eyes look to the ground and she seemed almost ashamed of what she had done, but then again her face read something else that I couldn’t quite pin point. I sighed softly, “I’m not going to tell him anything. He’d get mad at you, but I’d probably lose him completely. Just keep your mouth shut about what you heard, and I’ll do the same with what happened in here,” I answered simply and she looked up to me, then nodded and I could tell she was still dying to touch me, but I walked out of her room without another word.

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After using the restroom and washing my hands, I came back out and went to the area we were before, seeing the guys all there with Noelle and Avery. I’m glad they were all having a good time, I knew I was now that I had seen the only girl I came here for. Sabastian seemed drunk by the way he handled Noelle, Auturo seemed drunk as well, but he had an easier way of hiding it. I stood in the entrance of the area and looked over to the chairs, seeing Dean by himself but the smile on his face told me he was still having a good time despite sitting alone. You could barely have a conversation due to how loud the music always was, Dean looking over to me and he mouthed the words “Have you seen Bunny?” to me and I shook my head with a confused expression, mouthing the words, “No, I was with Bennu” back to him. Dean shrugged and accepted my answer, looking back to Avery on the stage and I did as well, happy that I could still keep a straight face. 

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I then felt a pair of delicate hands wrap around me from behind and a smile spreads across my lips, knowing it was Bennu. I quickly reached behind me and switched our positions, wrapping my arms around the front of her and she giggled playfully. I began kissing and teasing her ear while inhaling as deep as I could, still being able to smell the remnants of myself on her skin and it excited me all over again. She looked back at me and I could tell she was ready for me again, but we never did anything in her private room more than once in a night to avoid even more suspicion; we both got a huge rush out of being secret about what we did. 

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I can feel someone looking at me but I don’t look around, I’m too preoccupied with what I have in my grip and I also hate that I wanted to call it a night soon; we’d been here for almost 4 hours already and I was getting tired. Bunny walked passed Bennu and I and I noticed her look to us briefly, but continue on towards Dean and the first thing she did was lean over to pick up the empty beer bottles that were on the table. Dean stood to his feet and he was excited to see her and I looked at her ass that she was obviously wanting me to, wondering to myself what she was up to in trying to seduce me still when she had seemed bothered by what we did in her room no more than 10 minutes ago. As Bunny talked with Dean, I kept noticing out of the corner of my eye that she kept glancing over at us and all I did was have the urge to rub it in her face more that she couldn’t have what Bennu and I do. Bennu leaned her head back on my shoulder in a relaxing manner and I whispered sweet nothings into her ear all while tracing my index finger back and forth over the hills of her breasts, glancing over at Bunny only once and I liked that her face oozed with jealousy.

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The club is almost completely empty even though it doesn’t close for a few more hours, and it only makes me want to stay longer since I know I’ll have Bennu all to myself, but my need for sleep after this long and crazy day forces me to call it a night. The guys are getting pretty drunk, anyways, and I don’t want them to be stupid enough to drive home. I round up the guys and they say goodbye to their ladies and I come back over to Bennu and pull her against me, “Until next time, gorgeous,” I say to her and lift her chin, kissing her lips a few more times.

“Come back zoon, yeah?” She asked with a hint of hope and I nod in agreement, kissing her once more before pulling myself from her grip and the guys followed me out; laughing, staggering, and reeking of expensive perfume and booze.

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There wasn’t much to do now but take these guys home and go to sleep, I’ll drive Auturo back here tomorrow to pick up his car. I’m intoxicated, but not by alcohol. My red shirt under my jacket spills the scent Bennu and the breeze outside constantly wafts it up and unto my nose as we walk to my car. Sabastian was laughing and stumbling behind me as Auturo struggled to help him. “Jesus, how much did ya’ll drink tonight?” Dean asked, though he had no room to talk as he almost lost his balance but I caught his sleeve fluently and kept him from falling.

Sabastian continued his light laughter, “Noelle and A.. Avery kept making us do shots,” he struggled to say and Dean and I chuckled.

“Ya’ll should stick to beer. Liquor just makes ya a bunch of assholes,” Dean suggested.

“Shut it, Dean, at least none of us are dating a rodent,” Auturo retorted and all of us except Dean started laughing.

“My point exactly,” Dean said with a sour tone.

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We got home and the guys stayed up, having a few more beers while I went to my room to change and go to bed. I got out of my suit and hung it back up to get it cleaned tomorrow, searching the pockets to get my things out and I find the rest of my money, my ID and my phone. I looked through my phone since I hadn’t looked at it in hours and I see that Faline had texted me, telling me about the rest of her day with Julia, and another text hours later telling me how much she missed me already and bidding me goodnight. Everything then rushed back into my head, everything that I had carelessly forgotten at the club; Lucy, Faline, the baby, everything back at Bridgeport that I never wanted to lose. Jesus, what had gotten into me tonight? I knew it.. I knew I was going to go overboard. 

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I haven’t even been away from home for more than twelve hours and already I had proved to Faline that I haven’t changed at all. I sat on my bed and just thinking about what I had done to her caused me to feel terrible, the thought of her carrying my unborn child as well and even how great everything was with her caused my lip to quiver. The breaking point to the fall of my tears was when I had glanced at one of my mother’s paintings and I knew she would be so disappointed in me. I was so ashamed, I turn into a completely different person for any and every situation, only thinking for myself and I just didn’t give a fuck about the consequences. Here I thought I had changed, thought I would be good and graduate and things with Faline had made me a better person, but I was wrong. So very, very wrong. 

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Guest Starring: Noelle Saint James by LateKnightSimmer